Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday afternoon? Well today is December 23rd.... 2 days before Christmas. The weather has been terrible outside. Mark & Mom made the right choice not to leave today. The drive ways here where we live were pure ice. Mark had to run to our leasing office this morning & he broke the scrapper trying to get the ice off the windshield. He was saying that it was about 1/4" thick. Lots of people were falling because it was just like a skating rink. Guess the hill that we need to go down to get to the roads was very dangerous. There have been many cars that have been in accidents & that have turned over. It is scary. I sure hope that there were no serious injuries to anyone. Mom was praying for them all. The weather now is just straight ran but the winds are strong. Guess everything is suppose to clear up through the night & be nice & dry for our drive to NH tomorrow. Mom is planning on taking a nice long bath, having a glass of wine & then going to bed early tonight so I can be all set come morning. 
 Today has been a day that is emotional for Mom. I wanted to go out today but at the last minute changes my mind & decided to stay home. I have been watching Christmas movies all day while Mark has been on his computer doing whatever. Ozzy has been cuddling with me. The movies have made me cry, a lot. 2 movies have been about angels. It made me wonder if that is how things are for you now. I just miss you my sweet precious son. I guess everything is just hitting me all at once. I let myself have the cry & didn't deny myself from it at all. Everyone needs to do that once in a while as if we don't then our emotions just build up & that is not healthy. The only other thing that I have done today was I packed the car all up. It is completely full from front to back & no room to spare. It is crazy. I finally have my closet back though after almost 2 months of not having it. That is a good thing! The vehicle will be emptied out as of tomorrow so no worries there either! In a little bit I will make dinner, feed the pups & relax some more. Hopefully I get a good nights sleep as I am so tired today for some reason. I just have no energy at all. I have no desire to do anything. This is the first time I have turned on my computer & it will be turned off right when I am done as well. Mom wanted you to know that I will not be taking my computer with me tomorrow but I will have my cell phone so I can write to you on that. They won't be long letters as it is tough to write on one of them but at least I will not miss a day. That is the best Mom can do. I will be back to writing you longer ones come Tuesday again. I saw today that Jeremy, your brother, your pal from Crtoched Mtn. lost one of his best friends today to MS. They were friends for 25 years. Go be with Jeremy & help him through all this again. He will need you. My heart goes out to everyone during this difficult time. Another sad thing is that Karen, Mark's Step Mom & Mom's Mother in law is having a tough time as well. Her sweet Mom is now in Hospice. We haven't had the time to skype with them in a couple months & now we know why. My heart hurts for them as well. Mom tried to get in touch with Brandy again but no response from her. I don't know what happened so I guess I will have to either set something up after the New Year or just mail it to her. I was hoping to see more people than I will be able to now due to the weather. It is out of my control though. Be with Mom & Mark as we do our travels, if you can, please. Thank you. Send me a sigh while I am there if you can. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will whisper to you as I always do later tonight so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will smile to you. That is all the updates that I have for you tonight. I will have more later as the days go by. Hope you night is everything you need & want it to be. Fly high & free! 
 Here is a prayer for the day:
 Prayer of thanks to Jesus: Oh sweet Jesus, You did so much, for me. But you didn't have to. You could have said, " No , I won't. " You could have saved yourself but instead, you saved me. You could have went on being God's Son but instead you brought me into the presence of Your Father where I could be His child too. Nothing could have been harder to do than to receive the whip and hang upon that cross for my sins. So easy for me, so hard for you. The only explanation is love. Thank you, Jesus for letting this tired, weary & wretched soul, rise up clean & glorious with you. Only you. In Jesus name, Amen.
 Here is the saying for the day as well:
 "Make a careful exploration of who you are & the work you have been given & then sink yourself into that. Don't be impressed with yourself. Don't compare yourself with others. Each of you must take responsibility for doing the creative best you can with your own life. " Mom needs to get going so that I can feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. I will write to you tomorrow night when we are settled in the hotel for the evening. It will be late so the letter will be short but Mom will write to you just the same. I love you more than anything in this world. You are my bright shining star.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!