Wednesday, February 28, 2018
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Today is the last day of February. Mom is not having the best day at all as you have probably seen. I am so sorry that I did not get the chance to write to you yesterday at all. Mom was completely under the weather all day & all night. I spent my day sitting on the couch watching TV. I tried to do some studying but that didn't happen. I tried to do a lot of things but Mom really couldn't do any of them. I was just having a really tough day yesterday & I had no idea why....until this morning..... Mom received a call this morning & later a private message saying that my friends son, Eli had passed away at 2:26 am. Everything made sense to me with the way I was feeling all day yesterday. I knew something was off but I couldn't place it. Eli lost his 2 year battle with cancer at age 16 years old. Mom is truly broken hearted over this. My friend will now embark on the journey that Mom has been on for the last 4 ( almost 5 ) years now. I wish this journey on no one...EVER! No parent should ever have to bury their child, give them back at any age. It is not what we call the " Circle of Life. " Just hearing all this this morning brought Mom back to when I was with you when you passed away. All those emotions came flooding back to me. I cried. I cried really hard.... so hard my chest hurt. Today I am in a daze. Everything is really a blur to me. Mark held me so tight when I was crying. Just like he did when you went away from Mom. I do okay for a little while & then tears fall from my eyes. Mom will be okay so don't you worry. This one is a tough one though. Mom is hoping & would like to think that you were there to greet him this morning at 2:26 am when he left the physical world. Eli, may you R.I.P. now for eternal life. You are once again whole & without any limitations or pain. Spread your wings & fly high & freely now. You deserve it. Sherbear ( my nick name from him ) will miss you forever & always. I love you.
Not much else has been going on. Mark & Mom are headed to NH for the weekend. As you know, we were suppose to be going there for a surprise party for Charlie but I think that with everything that has happened we may be going there for a totally different reason now or extending our stay by a few days. Mom will keep you posted though. I have spoken to Meme & Grandpa & everything is good there. Yesterday was Bob's Birthday & today is Aunt Jacqui's Birthday. Hope you had the chance to go see them & visit them with a sign. Aunt Shirley messaged me earlier today 7 told me that the medicine that she has been on is not helping at all. She went for an x-ray the other day & the doctors said they would have the results in a few days for her. Yesterday they contacted her to tell her that they needed her to have an MRI because they saw something in the x-rays that were on her lungs. The doctors are quite concerned about it. She is going to keep me posted. Mom is worried. Not going to lie. Anything that you can do from wherever you are would be great, Tyler! Thank you so much my sweet precious son. That is all the updates that I have for you today but I will have more in the next day or so I am sure.
So as I said above, today is the last day of February. 2 months already gone for the year 2018. That is crazy to just think about it. March 1st would have been Nana's 99th Birthday. It is also Meme & Bob's Anniversary too. They will be married for 22 years. Do you remember that? They got married at our house in NH. You were only 6 years old. Wow! Just wow! Mom has been doing themes for the months on here along with your daily letters. I usually have everything all thought out by now but I don't have a clue to what I am going to do for pictures & the theme right now. Mom will also stop the colors & the meanings as well. That was something fun for this month. I am sure something will come to Mom later this evening or tomorrow right before I write to you. maybe Mom will do some " Spring " pictures as Spring starts in the month of March. Daylight Savings Time is again on March 11th. We will go forward an hour. The days will be longer & so will the nights. It will stay lighter out. Mom definitely needs this! Today the weather is breezy but the temps are so nice. I think it is close to 60 degrees & the sun is shining. maybe tonight Mom will see a moon & the stars shining bright. Been quite a few nights since that has happened. I will whisper to you like I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will be sure to smile to you as well. I will light a candle for you tonight along with Eli so know that when you see it burning bright, Mom is thinking of you both. I miss you so much, Tyler. I always have & I always will. My heart has a permanent void in it that will never be filled. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You forever are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. always close to my heart, mind, body & soul.
Here is the last color & the meaning for the month. It has always been one of Mom's favorite colors: Pink: Pink personalities have an easygoing, approachable energy. You come from a place of assuming the good outweighs the bad in everyone & every situation. Witty & smart, you sparkle socially particularly in small groups. Your caring & encouraging demeanor nurtures your longtime friendships. You genuinely revel in success & happiness of others, especially your friends & family. Compassionate, perhaps to a fault, you are the one those closest to you depend on when they need a shoulder to cry on or a boost of confidence. All is well with your pink perspective & the saying about seeing life through rose-colored glasses sums it up. Peace, harmony, & calmness are important to your daily routine but you appreciate letting loose on occasion & enjoy embracing all the fun life has to offer.
Here is the saying for the day: Yes, the blues can come & go...sometimes they can sneak right up on us...so remember when they appear, be kind to yourself, reach out to a friend, go for a walk...focus on something you love to do! Most of all...Take care of You...
Mom needs to get going for now as it is already 4:18 pm. Another day that I didn't even study but today with good reason. I will try to study tomorrow after my appointment. Maybe I can squeeze in a couple hours then. Mom hopes that your night is everything you need & want it to be filled with. Please come be with me tonight so I can get some rest. Thank you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Until then.... good night & sweet dreams my bright shining star. I love you with all my heart & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here are the prayers for the day: Maybe you’ve sensed the winds of change starting to blow. Does it stir up fear, the thought of letting go? May you take a deep breath, and remember what you already know about the heart of God: He is good, He is for you, and it’s impossible for Him to fail you. Now exhale your fears and lay hold of faith. That land up ahead is a pleasant land, filled with promise, fresh with purpose. Do not fear change; instead, trust God. He’s only answering your prayers. You can trust Him.
May you take a new grip with your tired hands and mark out a straight path for your feet. God has given you promises to hang onto and enough light for the road in front of you. Someone once said, ‘The devil drives but the Shepherd leads.’ Tell your soul that the devil will not drive you off your promise, off your property, or off your sense of purpose. In fact, the Lord Himself fights for you! So take your stand, hold your ground, and refuse to be bullied by your fears. Jesus won the war so you can win this battle. You are mighty in God, my friend!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Today is the last day of February. Mom is not having the best day at all as you have probably seen. I am so sorry that I did not get the chance to write to you yesterday at all. Mom was completely under the weather all day & all night. I spent my day sitting on the couch watching TV. I tried to do some studying but that didn't happen. I tried to do a lot of things but Mom really couldn't do any of them. I was just having a really tough day yesterday & I had no idea why....until this morning..... Mom received a call this morning & later a private message saying that my friends son, Eli had passed away at 2:26 am. Everything made sense to me with the way I was feeling all day yesterday. I knew something was off but I couldn't place it. Eli lost his 2 year battle with cancer at age 16 years old. Mom is truly broken hearted over this. My friend will now embark on the journey that Mom has been on for the last 4 ( almost 5 ) years now. I wish this journey on no one...EVER! No parent should ever have to bury their child, give them back at any age. It is not what we call the " Circle of Life. " Just hearing all this this morning brought Mom back to when I was with you when you passed away. All those emotions came flooding back to me. I cried. I cried really hard.... so hard my chest hurt. Today I am in a daze. Everything is really a blur to me. Mark held me so tight when I was crying. Just like he did when you went away from Mom. I do okay for a little while & then tears fall from my eyes. Mom will be okay so don't you worry. This one is a tough one though. Mom is hoping & would like to think that you were there to greet him this morning at 2:26 am when he left the physical world. Eli, may you R.I.P. now for eternal life. You are once again whole & without any limitations or pain. Spread your wings & fly high & freely now. You deserve it. Sherbear ( my nick name from him ) will miss you forever & always. I love you.
Not much else has been going on. Mark & Mom are headed to NH for the weekend. As you know, we were suppose to be going there for a surprise party for Charlie but I think that with everything that has happened we may be going there for a totally different reason now or extending our stay by a few days. Mom will keep you posted though. I have spoken to Meme & Grandpa & everything is good there. Yesterday was Bob's Birthday & today is Aunt Jacqui's Birthday. Hope you had the chance to go see them & visit them with a sign. Aunt Shirley messaged me earlier today 7 told me that the medicine that she has been on is not helping at all. She went for an x-ray the other day & the doctors said they would have the results in a few days for her. Yesterday they contacted her to tell her that they needed her to have an MRI because they saw something in the x-rays that were on her lungs. The doctors are quite concerned about it. She is going to keep me posted. Mom is worried. Not going to lie. Anything that you can do from wherever you are would be great, Tyler! Thank you so much my sweet precious son. That is all the updates that I have for you today but I will have more in the next day or so I am sure.
So as I said above, today is the last day of February. 2 months already gone for the year 2018. That is crazy to just think about it. March 1st would have been Nana's 99th Birthday. It is also Meme & Bob's Anniversary too. They will be married for 22 years. Do you remember that? They got married at our house in NH. You were only 6 years old. Wow! Just wow! Mom has been doing themes for the months on here along with your daily letters. I usually have everything all thought out by now but I don't have a clue to what I am going to do for pictures & the theme right now. Mom will also stop the colors & the meanings as well. That was something fun for this month. I am sure something will come to Mom later this evening or tomorrow right before I write to you. maybe Mom will do some " Spring " pictures as Spring starts in the month of March. Daylight Savings Time is again on March 11th. We will go forward an hour. The days will be longer & so will the nights. It will stay lighter out. Mom definitely needs this! Today the weather is breezy but the temps are so nice. I think it is close to 60 degrees & the sun is shining. maybe tonight Mom will see a moon & the stars shining bright. Been quite a few nights since that has happened. I will whisper to you like I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will be sure to smile to you as well. I will light a candle for you tonight along with Eli so know that when you see it burning bright, Mom is thinking of you both. I miss you so much, Tyler. I always have & I always will. My heart has a permanent void in it that will never be filled. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You forever are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. always close to my heart, mind, body & soul.
Here is the last color & the meaning for the month. It has always been one of Mom's favorite colors: Pink: Pink personalities have an easygoing, approachable energy. You come from a place of assuming the good outweighs the bad in everyone & every situation. Witty & smart, you sparkle socially particularly in small groups. Your caring & encouraging demeanor nurtures your longtime friendships. You genuinely revel in success & happiness of others, especially your friends & family. Compassionate, perhaps to a fault, you are the one those closest to you depend on when they need a shoulder to cry on or a boost of confidence. All is well with your pink perspective & the saying about seeing life through rose-colored glasses sums it up. Peace, harmony, & calmness are important to your daily routine but you appreciate letting loose on occasion & enjoy embracing all the fun life has to offer.
Here is the saying for the day: Yes, the blues can come & go...sometimes they can sneak right up on us...so remember when they appear, be kind to yourself, reach out to a friend, go for a walk...focus on something you love to do! Most of all...Take care of You...
Mom needs to get going for now as it is already 4:18 pm. Another day that I didn't even study but today with good reason. I will try to study tomorrow after my appointment. Maybe I can squeeze in a couple hours then. Mom hopes that your night is everything you need & want it to be filled with. Please come be with me tonight so I can get some rest. Thank you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Until then.... good night & sweet dreams my bright shining star. I love you with all my heart & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here are the prayers for the day: Maybe you’ve sensed the winds of change starting to blow. Does it stir up fear, the thought of letting go? May you take a deep breath, and remember what you already know about the heart of God: He is good, He is for you, and it’s impossible for Him to fail you. Now exhale your fears and lay hold of faith. That land up ahead is a pleasant land, filled with promise, fresh with purpose. Do not fear change; instead, trust God. He’s only answering your prayers. You can trust Him.
May you take a new grip with your tired hands and mark out a straight path for your feet. God has given you promises to hang onto and enough light for the road in front of you. Someone once said, ‘The devil drives but the Shepherd leads.’ Tell your soul that the devil will not drive you off your promise, off your property, or off your sense of purpose. In fact, the Lord Himself fights for you! So take your stand, hold your ground, and refuse to be bullied by your fears. Jesus won the war so you can win this battle. You are mighty in God, my friend!
Monday, February 26, 2018
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? It is definitely a Monday for sure. Mark has been up since the early morning doing another cutover for his client in Mexico. He is still at it. This is 6 hours & they are not close to being done at all. Looks like a very long day & evening for him. This is his 3rd cutover in a month & he has another one on Saturday afternoon. I wish he could see that this is too much for him but he doesn't & Mom just stays quiet now & says nothing. No reason to as it doesn't solve anything. Mom can't seem to get out of her way today for some reason. I just feel blah today. I know I sleep okay..not the greatest but not the worst either. We were up early again this morning because Ozzy was sick. Mom was up at 8 am & laid around for a bit, then I got up, got ready & took the pups for a nice walk. It was on the cool side today but the sun is shining now. I think Mom will take it easy tonight. Maybe a warm bath & then I will go to bed early. I have a nail appointment in the morning & Mark is at a client all day long so I really need to get some sleep.
Last night was a quiet evening. Mark & Mom watched a movie & then a couple TV shows & called it a night. I did chat with Meme & Grandpa for a little bit as well. We did not skype with Tubal & Karen. That got rescheduled to this coming Sunday. Everything seems to be going smooth up in NH with everyone. Grandpa said that Great Grammy is getting a little bit better so that is going in the right direction for sure. She is such a tough nugget! She will be 98 years young in August. This week will be busy for Mom. I have studying to do all week, pack for the weekend as well & we head out on Friday afternoon. This week is going to go by quite fast I believe. Friday, Mom will write to you before we leave & Saturday I will write to you in the morning before I head out for the day & evening & then I will write to you Sunday afternoon when we get home. They probably won't be long letters but at least I won't miss a day. Mark's brother, Gary made it to the UK Sunday morning. He is safe & actually started his new assignment this morning. I am sure Mark will hear from him in the next few days. My friend, Danielle ( Eli's Mom ) put a note out there this morning that after today she was going off social media for a bit because when you are on it & post things, it comes back year after year in your memories & she does not want to have those memories keep popping up. Mom understands that. It is difficult. I get memories from you popping up from time to time & I actually take pictures of them so I have them to cherish. One came up this morning. I indeed took a picture & will post it on here like I did last time. I think it is for the best for her to do what she is doing because she needs to cherish all the time she has with Eli. No matter what, you can't get that time back...EVER! I hope she will stay in touch with Mom but I will again understand that she will need the time to gather herself & start the grieving process with her family when the time comes. She knows I am here for her & that is what matters the most. I think that is all the updates that I have for you today. It is only Monday so I am sure that I will have more as the week goes on. For now.... here is the color & it's meaning: Red: Red is not just your favorite color, you have a passion for red. People who choose res as their favorite color are in-the-know, present & always aware of what is going on around them. You exude a powerful energy & upon entering a room, your arrival is immediately known. You are outgoing & usually enjoy being the life of the party or center of attention. When you love, you love big. If someone disappoints or steps on your toes, you do not hesitate to let him or her know exactly how you feel & why. Not one to hide your feelings, you nip disagreements in the bud. You do not hold grudges & like to move on quickly because for you it is all about what is next; the next adventure or project. You are a natural born leader & easily gain respect from others. You lead with optimism & an animated can-do attitude that is contagious.
Here are a couple sayings for the day: " Be grateful for all that you have & all that you are. "
" Have confidence, follow your passion & never give up. "
" Yes, it's going to be O.K. It will all work out.... You will make it through this.... "
Mom can't believe that it is already 3 pm. This day has gone on quite quickly. I didn't even study at all as I didn't have it in me but tomorrow afternoon when I get home I will be studying for a couple of hours. I need to get moving on this. Mom will be back tomorrow with your letter. I will whisper to you later tonight & will light the candles for you. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile to you my sweet precious son. I miss you more than words can say & I love you more than all the stars in the sky. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You indeed will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. Hope your evening is everything you need & want it to be. Have fun while I get sleep tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you. Watch over us from above. Fly high & free my bright shining star. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day: May you begin to live more by faith than you do by sight. May you trust with your whole heart that God has already gone ahead of you, cleared the way, established grace, and answered prayers before you even fully understood just what you'd needed. Jesus is profoundly invested in your journey. He merely spoke, and the heavens came to be. He speaks now on your behalf because He loves you and is invested in you. Don't look around for signs. Look up and rejoice because He's got you. Live by faith today, because one day, your faith will become sight and you'll be glad you trusted Him. Have a sturdy-hearted day. You're mighty in God!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? It is definitely a Monday for sure. Mark has been up since the early morning doing another cutover for his client in Mexico. He is still at it. This is 6 hours & they are not close to being done at all. Looks like a very long day & evening for him. This is his 3rd cutover in a month & he has another one on Saturday afternoon. I wish he could see that this is too much for him but he doesn't & Mom just stays quiet now & says nothing. No reason to as it doesn't solve anything. Mom can't seem to get out of her way today for some reason. I just feel blah today. I know I sleep okay..not the greatest but not the worst either. We were up early again this morning because Ozzy was sick. Mom was up at 8 am & laid around for a bit, then I got up, got ready & took the pups for a nice walk. It was on the cool side today but the sun is shining now. I think Mom will take it easy tonight. Maybe a warm bath & then I will go to bed early. I have a nail appointment in the morning & Mark is at a client all day long so I really need to get some sleep.
Last night was a quiet evening. Mark & Mom watched a movie & then a couple TV shows & called it a night. I did chat with Meme & Grandpa for a little bit as well. We did not skype with Tubal & Karen. That got rescheduled to this coming Sunday. Everything seems to be going smooth up in NH with everyone. Grandpa said that Great Grammy is getting a little bit better so that is going in the right direction for sure. She is such a tough nugget! She will be 98 years young in August. This week will be busy for Mom. I have studying to do all week, pack for the weekend as well & we head out on Friday afternoon. This week is going to go by quite fast I believe. Friday, Mom will write to you before we leave & Saturday I will write to you in the morning before I head out for the day & evening & then I will write to you Sunday afternoon when we get home. They probably won't be long letters but at least I won't miss a day. Mark's brother, Gary made it to the UK Sunday morning. He is safe & actually started his new assignment this morning. I am sure Mark will hear from him in the next few days. My friend, Danielle ( Eli's Mom ) put a note out there this morning that after today she was going off social media for a bit because when you are on it & post things, it comes back year after year in your memories & she does not want to have those memories keep popping up. Mom understands that. It is difficult. I get memories from you popping up from time to time & I actually take pictures of them so I have them to cherish. One came up this morning. I indeed took a picture & will post it on here like I did last time. I think it is for the best for her to do what she is doing because she needs to cherish all the time she has with Eli. No matter what, you can't get that time back...EVER! I hope she will stay in touch with Mom but I will again understand that she will need the time to gather herself & start the grieving process with her family when the time comes. She knows I am here for her & that is what matters the most. I think that is all the updates that I have for you today. It is only Monday so I am sure that I will have more as the week goes on. For now.... here is the color & it's meaning: Red: Red is not just your favorite color, you have a passion for red. People who choose res as their favorite color are in-the-know, present & always aware of what is going on around them. You exude a powerful energy & upon entering a room, your arrival is immediately known. You are outgoing & usually enjoy being the life of the party or center of attention. When you love, you love big. If someone disappoints or steps on your toes, you do not hesitate to let him or her know exactly how you feel & why. Not one to hide your feelings, you nip disagreements in the bud. You do not hold grudges & like to move on quickly because for you it is all about what is next; the next adventure or project. You are a natural born leader & easily gain respect from others. You lead with optimism & an animated can-do attitude that is contagious.
Here are a couple sayings for the day: " Be grateful for all that you have & all that you are. "
" Have confidence, follow your passion & never give up. "
" Yes, it's going to be O.K. It will all work out.... You will make it through this.... "
Mom can't believe that it is already 3 pm. This day has gone on quite quickly. I didn't even study at all as I didn't have it in me but tomorrow afternoon when I get home I will be studying for a couple of hours. I need to get moving on this. Mom will be back tomorrow with your letter. I will whisper to you later tonight & will light the candles for you. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile to you my sweet precious son. I miss you more than words can say & I love you more than all the stars in the sky. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You indeed will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. Hope your evening is everything you need & want it to be. Have fun while I get sleep tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you. Watch over us from above. Fly high & free my bright shining star. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day: May you begin to live more by faith than you do by sight. May you trust with your whole heart that God has already gone ahead of you, cleared the way, established grace, and answered prayers before you even fully understood just what you'd needed. Jesus is profoundly invested in your journey. He merely spoke, and the heavens came to be. He speaks now on your behalf because He loves you and is invested in you. Don't look around for signs. Look up and rejoice because He's got you. Live by faith today, because one day, your faith will become sight and you'll be glad you trusted Him. Have a sturdy-hearted day. You're mighty in God!
Sunday, February 25, 2018
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing much better than I was all last week. I have been able to sleep the last couple of nights & I have energy during the day so that is a good start to the days. Mom is sorry that I did not write you a letter yesterday but I have what I like to call a " detox " day where I was out enjoying the 60 degree weather all day & did not turn the computer on at all yesterday. Mark's friend Rick came over & we went out to a place we had never been too. It was just 10 miles from us & we found a great shopping center that reminded us of Texas. There was lots of shops to go into & look around & also a huge grocery store than none of us at heard of. Did our grocery shopping for the week there & then headed out to lunch at the Olive Garden. We got back here around 4 pm & relaxed for the evening. Rick decided to spend the night. We watched a movie & then we were all in bed at 9:30 pm as we were all exhausted. Mom got up at 7 am & cooked a big breakfast for the guys. Mom made sausage, bacon, toast, scrambled eggs, coffee & juice. We ate breakfast & Rick left at 10 am because he had a few things he needed to do as well. Mom has spent most of the day today doing housework. It is a good day to do it as it has been raining all day with sleet mixed in. I have cleaned both bathrooms, dusted, vacuumed, laundry, dishes, etc.... Now I have a few minutes to write to you & then I am off the computer for the rest of the day & evening. Mark & I are going to watch a couple of movies tonight & then it is to bed early again as tomorrow is Monday. Mark will be back to work & Mom will be studying to get these last 2 exams out of the way so I can move on! Hopefully, maybe by the end of the week I will be starting my final exam. I need to get this all done. I need to get back on a roll & get all these classes finished so I can graduate. I need to crack that whip! I will do it. My mind is back again & in that mode! Mom was able to chat with Debbie last night & also Meme in the morning. every one seems to be doing well. Great Grammy is still sick, Aunt Shirley & Richard are both ill. One has the flu & the other has an upper respiratory infection. Debbie has a CAT Scan scheduled for the 28th to find out what is going on with her sinuses. I know Bob has a couple appointments coming up as well. Mom & Mark will be going to NH this coming weekend. We have a couple things to do up there but then the rest of the time is just visiting with family. Mom is hoping the weather will be changing as Friday it is suppose to have mixed weather with sleet & snow & Saturday it is suppose to rain. Mom would love to have a day to go visit you & sit for awhile in some nice weather for once. Maybe just maybe it will be nice. Not much else has been happening. Mark's middle brother, Gary is off to the UK for 4 months for work. He left yesterday & has to be at his new job on Monday. He will be back in 7 weeks for a visit to his GF that lives in Vegas. She couldn't go because she does not have a passport so she has to be without him for 4 months. That is sad. Mom will touch base with everyone during the week. Tonight we have a skype call set with Tubal & Karen. It will be the 1st time we skype since she lost her Mom. Eli is still holding on. I get updates every couple days. He is on a fentanyl patch plus a morphine patch & I guess he still is in a lot of pain. He hasn't ate in a couple weeks & he is getting sick a lot. This is horrible. It breaks my heart. Mom will keep you updated as I know of things. I hope tonight will be everything that you need & want it to be. May you get to do all the things you would like to do & things that are needed of you as well. Come visit & be with Mom tonight if you can. Thank you. I will light the candle & whisper to you as I always do each night so when you hear Mom, smile & I will smile back to you. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Here is the color & meaning for the day: Purple: If you favor the color purple, one of your greatest assets is your intuition. Everyone has a little voice inside his or her head but yours is especially chatty & clear. experience has taught you to listen to that little voice because it has proven to be right more times than you can count. Bursting with charisma, you are like a people magnet. Often perceived as a visionary, others are drawn to your innovative spirit. Your creativity is contagious which makes it easy to build teams to help execute your grand plans. You come up with the ideas & delegate the details. marching to the beat of your own drum & being unique makes you happy. Fitting in has never been a priority. As a result, you understand & appreciate kindred spirits who choose to zig when everyone else zags.
Here is a saying for the day: What happened.... has happened.... It's over & it's in the past. Let it go. Don't hold on to it anymore.... Don't let it control you anymore. It is only holding you back from all of the beautiful things that are meant to be.
Here is the prayer for the day: Prayer for peace in my home: Dear loving Lord, My home needs your peace. My family needs you. Won't you come to us? Won't you set us free? Pour out your love, pour out your Spirit, wash us clean, cover us & protect us. By the blood of Christ, we are cleansed. From his wounds, Mercy & peace come forth, to heal the wounds between us. Let us respect & listen to one another. Let us love one another. Begin with me, dear lord. Let the change happen in me. Give me strength. Show me how to love more. Show me how to care more. Show me how to forgive. let your Spirit change me, While you care for the others. Let me trust in this. That they are in your hands, just like me. In the name of sweet Jesus, Amen.
Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now laundry is done & I have to finish up the housework so that I can relax in a little bit. Then it will be dinner, feed the pups & then dishes to do before I can relax for the entire evening. I love you my bright shining star....forever!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing much better than I was all last week. I have been able to sleep the last couple of nights & I have energy during the day so that is a good start to the days. Mom is sorry that I did not write you a letter yesterday but I have what I like to call a " detox " day where I was out enjoying the 60 degree weather all day & did not turn the computer on at all yesterday. Mark's friend Rick came over & we went out to a place we had never been too. It was just 10 miles from us & we found a great shopping center that reminded us of Texas. There was lots of shops to go into & look around & also a huge grocery store than none of us at heard of. Did our grocery shopping for the week there & then headed out to lunch at the Olive Garden. We got back here around 4 pm & relaxed for the evening. Rick decided to spend the night. We watched a movie & then we were all in bed at 9:30 pm as we were all exhausted. Mom got up at 7 am & cooked a big breakfast for the guys. Mom made sausage, bacon, toast, scrambled eggs, coffee & juice. We ate breakfast & Rick left at 10 am because he had a few things he needed to do as well. Mom has spent most of the day today doing housework. It is a good day to do it as it has been raining all day with sleet mixed in. I have cleaned both bathrooms, dusted, vacuumed, laundry, dishes, etc.... Now I have a few minutes to write to you & then I am off the computer for the rest of the day & evening. Mark & I are going to watch a couple of movies tonight & then it is to bed early again as tomorrow is Monday. Mark will be back to work & Mom will be studying to get these last 2 exams out of the way so I can move on! Hopefully, maybe by the end of the week I will be starting my final exam. I need to get this all done. I need to get back on a roll & get all these classes finished so I can graduate. I need to crack that whip! I will do it. My mind is back again & in that mode! Mom was able to chat with Debbie last night & also Meme in the morning. every one seems to be doing well. Great Grammy is still sick, Aunt Shirley & Richard are both ill. One has the flu & the other has an upper respiratory infection. Debbie has a CAT Scan scheduled for the 28th to find out what is going on with her sinuses. I know Bob has a couple appointments coming up as well. Mom & Mark will be going to NH this coming weekend. We have a couple things to do up there but then the rest of the time is just visiting with family. Mom is hoping the weather will be changing as Friday it is suppose to have mixed weather with sleet & snow & Saturday it is suppose to rain. Mom would love to have a day to go visit you & sit for awhile in some nice weather for once. Maybe just maybe it will be nice. Not much else has been happening. Mark's middle brother, Gary is off to the UK for 4 months for work. He left yesterday & has to be at his new job on Monday. He will be back in 7 weeks for a visit to his GF that lives in Vegas. She couldn't go because she does not have a passport so she has to be without him for 4 months. That is sad. Mom will touch base with everyone during the week. Tonight we have a skype call set with Tubal & Karen. It will be the 1st time we skype since she lost her Mom. Eli is still holding on. I get updates every couple days. He is on a fentanyl patch plus a morphine patch & I guess he still is in a lot of pain. He hasn't ate in a couple weeks & he is getting sick a lot. This is horrible. It breaks my heart. Mom will keep you updated as I know of things. I hope tonight will be everything that you need & want it to be. May you get to do all the things you would like to do & things that are needed of you as well. Come visit & be with Mom tonight if you can. Thank you. I will light the candle & whisper to you as I always do each night so when you hear Mom, smile & I will smile back to you. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Here is the color & meaning for the day: Purple: If you favor the color purple, one of your greatest assets is your intuition. Everyone has a little voice inside his or her head but yours is especially chatty & clear. experience has taught you to listen to that little voice because it has proven to be right more times than you can count. Bursting with charisma, you are like a people magnet. Often perceived as a visionary, others are drawn to your innovative spirit. Your creativity is contagious which makes it easy to build teams to help execute your grand plans. You come up with the ideas & delegate the details. marching to the beat of your own drum & being unique makes you happy. Fitting in has never been a priority. As a result, you understand & appreciate kindred spirits who choose to zig when everyone else zags.
Here is a saying for the day: What happened.... has happened.... It's over & it's in the past. Let it go. Don't hold on to it anymore.... Don't let it control you anymore. It is only holding you back from all of the beautiful things that are meant to be.
Here is the prayer for the day: Prayer for peace in my home: Dear loving Lord, My home needs your peace. My family needs you. Won't you come to us? Won't you set us free? Pour out your love, pour out your Spirit, wash us clean, cover us & protect us. By the blood of Christ, we are cleansed. From his wounds, Mercy & peace come forth, to heal the wounds between us. Let us respect & listen to one another. Let us love one another. Begin with me, dear lord. Let the change happen in me. Give me strength. Show me how to love more. Show me how to care more. Show me how to forgive. let your Spirit change me, While you care for the others. Let me trust in this. That they are in your hands, just like me. In the name of sweet Jesus, Amen.
Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now laundry is done & I have to finish up the housework so that I can relax in a little bit. Then it will be dinner, feed the pups & then dishes to do before I can relax for the entire evening. I love you my bright shining star....forever!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, February 23, 2018
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing the best I can. Being up early this morning I was able to see the sunrise & it was beautiful. Mom took pictures of the transformation of it at 6 am to 6:48 am. I will share a couple on here with you today. I was so exhausted after taking the pictures & feeding the pups that I actually laid back down & fell asleep for about an hour. Guess I needed the little extra sleep. Mom & Mark did not get to bed until after midnight because last night around 5 pm Mark was told he had to do a cut over for work. He worked yesterday from 7 am to 5 pm & then 7 pm until 12 midnight. Mom stayed quiet last night & bindged watch a couple of my TV shows that I have had taped for like 2 weeks now. I cuddled on the couch with the pups & had a glass of wine. Mom was hoping it would relax me enough to sleep but it didn't. Mom is just having a really hard time this week with sleep. I have so much going on in my head that I guess I am having trouble with. Mom chatted last night with her friend ( the one who has the son, Eli ) I was asking how she was doing & she said she was hanging in there. I asked how Eli was doing & she said that he is worse & worse every day now. It won't be long. Mom has one of he " gut " feelings & it isn't good. I told her that I was here for her whenever she needed to take, yell, cry, scream, etc.... seeing & hearing her go through this is bringing back so much from when I lost you. Even though it has been almost 5 years, it still feels like yesterday to me. So many emotions are going through my head at this time. Mom is really having a difficult time with this. I try to be a positive person for the most part but I am just sad & angry for myself & for my friend. It is just not fair, Tyler. Why does things like this happen? Why do Mom's have to give back their precious children? I miss you so much. It hurts my heart every day. No words can be expressed to anyone the way Mom has felt for the last 56 months. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Please watch over Mom & the rest of our family & friends. Thank you so much my sweet precious son. Mom needs you. Last night Mom also spoke to Meme. She was tired & I guess just got home from work. Nothing new on her end so I guess that is good. Mom also spoke to Bonnie in Oklahoma. I sure miss her. We are talking more often these days & that makes Mom happy. She is doing the best she can as well. She got a sh*tty deck handed to her as well. I sure hope there is a light at the end of the tunnel for her & she can be happy. Mom prays for her & for many family & friends daily. I know my prayers are heard & I hope they are helping. About 5 pm last night, Mark got the call he had been waiting for. Unfortunately, it wasn't the news he was hoping for. He didn't get it. Even though Mom had mixed feelings yesterday about it, Mom was sad for him. I know he really wanted it & he would have been dang good at it but like I told him... things happen for reasons. There was a reason why he didn't get it. Doesn't help his sadness but Mom truly believes that with all her heart. Something better will be coming along for Mark. Mom didn't talk to Grandpa last night but I will touch base with him over the weekend. Aunt Beck called. We talked for about a half hour. Things are good there. John went to the doctors & he has a viral infection in his throat & it has nothing to do with his thyroid... Thank God for that! He will be better in a few days. Guess Bean is still not 100% better yet from being sick with the flu for the 3rd time. I hope she gets better soon. Poor Bean. Well, Tyler, that is all the updates that I have for you right now. I will be sure to have more over the weekend. It is going on 1 pm here & Mom wanted to write to you before I started to study for a few hours. Mom is hoping that your evening tonight will be peaceful & restful. If you have the time to come visit Mom or be with me tonight while I sleep that would be wonderful. I hope that you get to have fun doing things that you need to do & want to do as well. Mom will whisper to you just like I always do when I go to bed. Smile for me & I will smile right back. I will light my candle for you as well. Before I go I wanted to write the color & its meaning for the day so here it is: White: An affinity for white is indicative of someone who appreciates order & simple elegance. With a refined level of taste, you enjoy things that are well crafted & beautiful. It does not have to be expensive it just has to be aesthetically pleasing. You have an eye & a special knack for finding treasures in the most unexpected places. You are particular & have high expectations for yourself as well as others. Gracefully dealing with disappointment when things do not go as planned is not what you do best, but no one would know because of your ability to portray a sense of control no matter what. People may misread you as aloof because of your self-confidence & naturally reserved nature. Once they get to know you, they soon appreciate your mindfulness & wisdom & often describe you as an old soul.
Here are a couple sayings for the day: Today's struggle is part of tomorrow's success.
At the end of a long day..... take time to relax & unwind.
Remember, it's up to you & only you to design the life you want.....
Here are the prayers for the day:
As the day wraps up and you crawl into bed tonight, may your body, mind, and soul be at rest and know the deep, abiding peace that comes from deeply knowing God. May He speak to you while you sleep and may He download fresh insight and perspective regarding your current circumstances. And as you rise up in the morning, may faith rise up in you and compel you to obey when you'd rather self-protect, give when you'd rather hoard, and trust when you're tempted to worry. You're not made for this place. You're only passing through. Live as one who is spoken for.
May you have the presence of mind to cherish every second with the ones you love. May you make time for fun, for rest, and for reflection. May you plan time in your schedule not to have plans, and see what happens. May you come to know--on a whole new level--that much more rests on God's shoulders than on yours. And may you learn to enjoy the journey because His yoke is easy and His burden is light. And He's crazy in love with you. Have a blessed, restful weekend.
Mom will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you so until then...good night & sweet dreams my bright shining star. Mom loves you unconditionally!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing the best I can. Being up early this morning I was able to see the sunrise & it was beautiful. Mom took pictures of the transformation of it at 6 am to 6:48 am. I will share a couple on here with you today. I was so exhausted after taking the pictures & feeding the pups that I actually laid back down & fell asleep for about an hour. Guess I needed the little extra sleep. Mom & Mark did not get to bed until after midnight because last night around 5 pm Mark was told he had to do a cut over for work. He worked yesterday from 7 am to 5 pm & then 7 pm until 12 midnight. Mom stayed quiet last night & bindged watch a couple of my TV shows that I have had taped for like 2 weeks now. I cuddled on the couch with the pups & had a glass of wine. Mom was hoping it would relax me enough to sleep but it didn't. Mom is just having a really hard time this week with sleep. I have so much going on in my head that I guess I am having trouble with. Mom chatted last night with her friend ( the one who has the son, Eli ) I was asking how she was doing & she said she was hanging in there. I asked how Eli was doing & she said that he is worse & worse every day now. It won't be long. Mom has one of he " gut " feelings & it isn't good. I told her that I was here for her whenever she needed to take, yell, cry, scream, etc.... seeing & hearing her go through this is bringing back so much from when I lost you. Even though it has been almost 5 years, it still feels like yesterday to me. So many emotions are going through my head at this time. Mom is really having a difficult time with this. I try to be a positive person for the most part but I am just sad & angry for myself & for my friend. It is just not fair, Tyler. Why does things like this happen? Why do Mom's have to give back their precious children? I miss you so much. It hurts my heart every day. No words can be expressed to anyone the way Mom has felt for the last 56 months. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Please watch over Mom & the rest of our family & friends. Thank you so much my sweet precious son. Mom needs you. Last night Mom also spoke to Meme. She was tired & I guess just got home from work. Nothing new on her end so I guess that is good. Mom also spoke to Bonnie in Oklahoma. I sure miss her. We are talking more often these days & that makes Mom happy. She is doing the best she can as well. She got a sh*tty deck handed to her as well. I sure hope there is a light at the end of the tunnel for her & she can be happy. Mom prays for her & for many family & friends daily. I know my prayers are heard & I hope they are helping. About 5 pm last night, Mark got the call he had been waiting for. Unfortunately, it wasn't the news he was hoping for. He didn't get it. Even though Mom had mixed feelings yesterday about it, Mom was sad for him. I know he really wanted it & he would have been dang good at it but like I told him... things happen for reasons. There was a reason why he didn't get it. Doesn't help his sadness but Mom truly believes that with all her heart. Something better will be coming along for Mark. Mom didn't talk to Grandpa last night but I will touch base with him over the weekend. Aunt Beck called. We talked for about a half hour. Things are good there. John went to the doctors & he has a viral infection in his throat & it has nothing to do with his thyroid... Thank God for that! He will be better in a few days. Guess Bean is still not 100% better yet from being sick with the flu for the 3rd time. I hope she gets better soon. Poor Bean. Well, Tyler, that is all the updates that I have for you right now. I will be sure to have more over the weekend. It is going on 1 pm here & Mom wanted to write to you before I started to study for a few hours. Mom is hoping that your evening tonight will be peaceful & restful. If you have the time to come visit Mom or be with me tonight while I sleep that would be wonderful. I hope that you get to have fun doing things that you need to do & want to do as well. Mom will whisper to you just like I always do when I go to bed. Smile for me & I will smile right back. I will light my candle for you as well. Before I go I wanted to write the color & its meaning for the day so here it is: White: An affinity for white is indicative of someone who appreciates order & simple elegance. With a refined level of taste, you enjoy things that are well crafted & beautiful. It does not have to be expensive it just has to be aesthetically pleasing. You have an eye & a special knack for finding treasures in the most unexpected places. You are particular & have high expectations for yourself as well as others. Gracefully dealing with disappointment when things do not go as planned is not what you do best, but no one would know because of your ability to portray a sense of control no matter what. People may misread you as aloof because of your self-confidence & naturally reserved nature. Once they get to know you, they soon appreciate your mindfulness & wisdom & often describe you as an old soul.
Here are a couple sayings for the day: Today's struggle is part of tomorrow's success.
At the end of a long day..... take time to relax & unwind.
Remember, it's up to you & only you to design the life you want.....
Here are the prayers for the day:
As the day wraps up and you crawl into bed tonight, may your body, mind, and soul be at rest and know the deep, abiding peace that comes from deeply knowing God. May He speak to you while you sleep and may He download fresh insight and perspective regarding your current circumstances. And as you rise up in the morning, may faith rise up in you and compel you to obey when you'd rather self-protect, give when you'd rather hoard, and trust when you're tempted to worry. You're not made for this place. You're only passing through. Live as one who is spoken for.
May you have the presence of mind to cherish every second with the ones you love. May you make time for fun, for rest, and for reflection. May you plan time in your schedule not to have plans, and see what happens. May you come to know--on a whole new level--that much more rests on God's shoulders than on yours. And may you learn to enjoy the journey because His yoke is easy and His burden is light. And He's crazy in love with you. Have a blessed, restful weekend.
Mom will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you so until then...good night & sweet dreams my bright shining star. Mom loves you unconditionally!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, February 22, 2018
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is having an off day today again. Not sure what is going on but I have a case of insomnia right now. I never turned the TV off until almost 1 am & was up at 8 am. I am tired but I just can't sleep. I have a lot going on in my mind right now & I know that is not helping matters out. Mark was asleep & snoring ( lol ) by like 10 pm. Mom was so tired but yet I could not fall asleep at all. I am really hoping that tonight stops this because Mom is so dang tired & I really need some solid sleep. If there is anything you can do to help Mom out that would be very much appreciated, Tyler. Thank you my sweet precious son.
The weather today is once again crappy. The temps are back down to 40 degrees & it was hailing earlier. Guess we are suppose to get rain, then a mix of rain & snow & then it is suppose to change over to just snow. By nightfall or during the night hours we should be getting anyways from 1 -3" of snow. This winter sure has been crazy. The temps have been all over the place & the snow storms have been several but not as severe as we have had in the past. Mom just chalks it up to another New England winter!
Yesterday, was an important day for Mark. He called when he was driving home from the office last night. He felt that everything went well. Towards the end of the conversation though, Mom was not impressed at all. Mark was telling me that if he was chosen as the " new " guy then he would have to be gone all next week. I was not happy about that at all. Mom is so tried of always being alone. My feelings don't ever get taken into consideration at all. I don't feel that that is right & Mom also feels that it is very disrespectful. I was hurt & still am. Right now it is a waiting game. Mark will be told either today or tomorrow what the verdict is. Mom really wanted him to have this new chair but now I am not so sure. I guess I will deal with it when we find out. Please watch over Mom. I need you. Thank you.
Not much else is going on. I spoke to Grandpa & Meme last night. Everything is okay with all of them. Debbie is still having some sinus issues but she is okay. Aunt Shirley & Richard are still pretty sick & so is Great Grammy. Mom hopes that everything gets better for them & soon. I tried to call Aunt Beck to see how she was doing & how John was feeling but I got the machine. I left a message for her to call when she could. That is about all that I have for today. Not much else is happening. Mom is getting ready to study & Mark is working in his office. Mom will have more updates for you either tomorrow or over the weekend. I am hoping that your evening is filled with all the things that you need to get done & also with things that you would like to do. Have fun at least while I sleep tonight. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Mom will whisper to you like I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear me & I will be smiling as well. I miss you like crazy! No words can express it enough. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Never forget that, please!
Here is the color & it's meaning for the day: Magenta: If your favorite color is Magenta then you are a witty combination of passionate & compassionate. A non-conformist outlook on life frequently lands you on the leading edge of trends & social patterns. You like to have fun & you inspire friends & family with your sense of wanderlust & spontaneity. People who name magenta as their favorite color are networkers. You excel at bridging together information, people, & resources. Innovative & clever, you understand how to assemble a bigger, more powerful whole from smaller pieces; sometimes pieces that others might underestimate or discard altogether. magenta personalities are often entrepreneurs & inventors. The color magenta has grown in popularity as a branding color signifying high energy & unique business.
Here is the say for the day: Dear beautiful you, You may be struggling right now with all that's in front of you....but there are so many people in your life that believe in you, that support you & love you for who you are. May you find comfort & strength in knowing that. You will make it through this!
Here are the prayers for the day: : May God lift your chin, awaken your heart, and open your eyes to all you possess in Him. May you refuse to let your disappointments define you. May you instead, stand on that barren land and envision a harvest. May you experience a revival of faith in the very place of your heartbreak! Instead of rehashing your losses, determine to rehearse His promises because they're truer than your circumstances. Today's a good day to embrace faith, to give thanks, and to worship the One who keeps His promises. You've got everything you need in Him. Have a blessed day.
May you determine to be done with captivity! No more rehearsing your failures or rehashing your critics’ accusations. It’s time to remember God’s love, His faithfulness, and His heart of affection for you. It’s time to put all of your hope in the finished work of Jesus Christ. May you put a flag in the ground this day and declare, ‘My hope is built on nothing less but Jesus’ blood and righteousness!’ Rest in God’s grace. Rely on His love. And rehearse His promises because they’re true for you. Break free from the bondage of others’ opinions and walk free and full of faith this evening!
Mom needs to get going so that I can do some studying before it is time to get dinner going for the night. I will be back tomorrow with your letter so until then....good night & sweet dreams. I love you unconditionally, Tyler...my bright shining star.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is having an off day today again. Not sure what is going on but I have a case of insomnia right now. I never turned the TV off until almost 1 am & was up at 8 am. I am tired but I just can't sleep. I have a lot going on in my mind right now & I know that is not helping matters out. Mark was asleep & snoring ( lol ) by like 10 pm. Mom was so tired but yet I could not fall asleep at all. I am really hoping that tonight stops this because Mom is so dang tired & I really need some solid sleep. If there is anything you can do to help Mom out that would be very much appreciated, Tyler. Thank you my sweet precious son.
The weather today is once again crappy. The temps are back down to 40 degrees & it was hailing earlier. Guess we are suppose to get rain, then a mix of rain & snow & then it is suppose to change over to just snow. By nightfall or during the night hours we should be getting anyways from 1 -3" of snow. This winter sure has been crazy. The temps have been all over the place & the snow storms have been several but not as severe as we have had in the past. Mom just chalks it up to another New England winter!
Yesterday, was an important day for Mark. He called when he was driving home from the office last night. He felt that everything went well. Towards the end of the conversation though, Mom was not impressed at all. Mark was telling me that if he was chosen as the " new " guy then he would have to be gone all next week. I was not happy about that at all. Mom is so tried of always being alone. My feelings don't ever get taken into consideration at all. I don't feel that that is right & Mom also feels that it is very disrespectful. I was hurt & still am. Right now it is a waiting game. Mark will be told either today or tomorrow what the verdict is. Mom really wanted him to have this new chair but now I am not so sure. I guess I will deal with it when we find out. Please watch over Mom. I need you. Thank you.
Not much else is going on. I spoke to Grandpa & Meme last night. Everything is okay with all of them. Debbie is still having some sinus issues but she is okay. Aunt Shirley & Richard are still pretty sick & so is Great Grammy. Mom hopes that everything gets better for them & soon. I tried to call Aunt Beck to see how she was doing & how John was feeling but I got the machine. I left a message for her to call when she could. That is about all that I have for today. Not much else is happening. Mom is getting ready to study & Mark is working in his office. Mom will have more updates for you either tomorrow or over the weekend. I am hoping that your evening is filled with all the things that you need to get done & also with things that you would like to do. Have fun at least while I sleep tonight. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Mom will whisper to you like I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear me & I will be smiling as well. I miss you like crazy! No words can express it enough. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Never forget that, please!
Here is the color & it's meaning for the day: Magenta: If your favorite color is Magenta then you are a witty combination of passionate & compassionate. A non-conformist outlook on life frequently lands you on the leading edge of trends & social patterns. You like to have fun & you inspire friends & family with your sense of wanderlust & spontaneity. People who name magenta as their favorite color are networkers. You excel at bridging together information, people, & resources. Innovative & clever, you understand how to assemble a bigger, more powerful whole from smaller pieces; sometimes pieces that others might underestimate or discard altogether. magenta personalities are often entrepreneurs & inventors. The color magenta has grown in popularity as a branding color signifying high energy & unique business.
Here is the say for the day: Dear beautiful you, You may be struggling right now with all that's in front of you....but there are so many people in your life that believe in you, that support you & love you for who you are. May you find comfort & strength in knowing that. You will make it through this!
Here are the prayers for the day: : May God lift your chin, awaken your heart, and open your eyes to all you possess in Him. May you refuse to let your disappointments define you. May you instead, stand on that barren land and envision a harvest. May you experience a revival of faith in the very place of your heartbreak! Instead of rehashing your losses, determine to rehearse His promises because they're truer than your circumstances. Today's a good day to embrace faith, to give thanks, and to worship the One who keeps His promises. You've got everything you need in Him. Have a blessed day.
May you determine to be done with captivity! No more rehearsing your failures or rehashing your critics’ accusations. It’s time to remember God’s love, His faithfulness, and His heart of affection for you. It’s time to put all of your hope in the finished work of Jesus Christ. May you put a flag in the ground this day and declare, ‘My hope is built on nothing less but Jesus’ blood and righteousness!’ Rest in God’s grace. Rely on His love. And rehearse His promises because they’re true for you. Break free from the bondage of others’ opinions and walk free and full of faith this evening!
Mom needs to get going so that I can do some studying before it is time to get dinner going for the night. I will be back tomorrow with your letter so until then....good night & sweet dreams. I love you unconditionally, Tyler...my bright shining star.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, February 21, 2018
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! how are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright but I honestly am not in a good mood & that is sad. The temps are warm & the sun is shining bright but I am just tired & cranky. Mom doesn't like it when I am so this just plain stinks! Last night was another night that I really didn't sleep all that well & I got woken up at 6 am with Mark getting ready for work. The pups hear him & they think it is time to get up & eat so while Mark was getting ready, Mom was feeding the pups, making coffee & getting things ready for Mark to head out to the office. By the time I was done all that I was already awake & could not go back to be so that just added to me being cranky. Mark left around 8 am & Mom laid in bed for a little bit & then got up, made breakfast, did the dishes from that, got ready, cleaned the house & now I am writing to you. Oh yeah, Meme called somewhere in there while she was on her break. She didn't seem like she was in a good mood either so maybe it is in the air. Who knows.....
Yesterday, Mom had a conversation with someone that just rubbed me the wrong way. I know they were being honest & that part I am not mad at. What makes me mad is the way they said what they did. Mom has always been the person who tries her hardest to do so many things & stretch herself so thin to the point where I am ready to break but I just keep going. When I go to NH I try my best to see as many family & friends as I can in the short period of time that I am there. Usually, I am there for a holiday or birthday or some other occasion so that usually puts more of a strain on timing & seeing people. It always happens that when I come back from a visit, there are a few that always has something to say & lays a guilt trip on me. Mom is just so tired of it. These people think that when I am there I need to drop everything & see them & when I don't they get angry. Well....sadly these same people never really make there way to come see me. I guess Mom is just sick & tired of always trying to please everyone while I run myself ragged. As of yesterday all that is stopping. When I go up to NH for a visit, I will not be saying a word. I will just go up there & if I have spare time I will reach out to others & see if they are available. If they are great & if they are not that is fine as well. Mom can't keep stressing herself out like this. The road, the telephone, & everything else works both ways & it is about time that my " friends " start using them & not leaving it up to just me. I am tired of it. Honestly, it is not right or fair. Mom has always tried to be fair. I am a person who is honest. I respect everyone & I don't judge anyone under any circumstance. I guess I just wish I would get the same in return.
Not much has been going on. The phone has been super quiet. Mom really hasn't spoken to anyone. I will touch base with Aunt Beck, Grandpa, etc.... within the next day or so. Mark is at the office today. He had a few important meetings today so I hope they went well. I haven't heard from him at all since he left this morning. I know you were with him because I asked you to be. Thank you & I hope that there will be good news soon because we sure could use it. Mom will update you on here when I know of things. So today that is all I have for you. Mom will make sure to write to you tomorrow afternoon. For now, I need to get going so I can put a couple hours of study time in before I have to do the night routine stuff. Mom hopes that your evening will be filled with everything you hope to do & need to do. Have a fun time while I am sleeping tonight. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks Ty! Mom will also whisper to you as I always do every night so be listening for my voice. Smile & I will too. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are missed so very much by so many family & friends but no one misses you more than I do. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. Until tomorrow.... Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I will look to the sky tonight in hopes of seeing the moon & stars. Maybe I will seeing a painting in the sky as well...hint hint????
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the color & the meaning for today: Gray: If you favor this color gray, your trademark might best be described as sophisticated diplomacy. Manners & etiquette are important to you because you feel polished social graces demonstrates respect for yourself as well as others. professionally, others trust you to set the bar for appropriate behavior & decorum. Minding your own business & keeping to yourself is your mantra. However, if asked, you are comfortable playing the role because people perceive you as balanced, stable & trustworthy. Others appreciate your gift for identifying alternate avenues & facilitating compromise. Naturally fair & objective, you have the ability to put personal opinion & feelings aside & see an issue from all angles.
Here is the saying for the day: Today, don't let other people's negativity cloud your views. Continue on your path & stay focused on the positive!
Here are the prayers for the day: May you experience a personal revival that forever marks the way you walk with God. May your loved ones encounter Him in ways that change how they pray, what they say, and how they live. May God move on your prayers in ways that compel you to pray more specifically, with greater fervency, and with increasing faith. Though the enemy is working overtime, he runs scared when God steps in. May God move mightily in our midst in the days ahead! Have a blessed and faith-filled day!
(Speak this one over yourself): I am deeply loved, divinely appointed, abundantly equipped, and profoundly cherished by God. No enemy plan, scheme, or obstacle can keep me from God's highest and best will for me. As I follow the voice of my Savior, I see the invisible, accomplish the impossible, and love the unlovable. I am a living-breathing miracle because Jesus Christ lives in me! Amen.
Hi pumpkin! how are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright but I honestly am not in a good mood & that is sad. The temps are warm & the sun is shining bright but I am just tired & cranky. Mom doesn't like it when I am so this just plain stinks! Last night was another night that I really didn't sleep all that well & I got woken up at 6 am with Mark getting ready for work. The pups hear him & they think it is time to get up & eat so while Mark was getting ready, Mom was feeding the pups, making coffee & getting things ready for Mark to head out to the office. By the time I was done all that I was already awake & could not go back to be so that just added to me being cranky. Mark left around 8 am & Mom laid in bed for a little bit & then got up, made breakfast, did the dishes from that, got ready, cleaned the house & now I am writing to you. Oh yeah, Meme called somewhere in there while she was on her break. She didn't seem like she was in a good mood either so maybe it is in the air. Who knows.....
Yesterday, Mom had a conversation with someone that just rubbed me the wrong way. I know they were being honest & that part I am not mad at. What makes me mad is the way they said what they did. Mom has always been the person who tries her hardest to do so many things & stretch herself so thin to the point where I am ready to break but I just keep going. When I go to NH I try my best to see as many family & friends as I can in the short period of time that I am there. Usually, I am there for a holiday or birthday or some other occasion so that usually puts more of a strain on timing & seeing people. It always happens that when I come back from a visit, there are a few that always has something to say & lays a guilt trip on me. Mom is just so tired of it. These people think that when I am there I need to drop everything & see them & when I don't they get angry. Well....sadly these same people never really make there way to come see me. I guess Mom is just sick & tired of always trying to please everyone while I run myself ragged. As of yesterday all that is stopping. When I go up to NH for a visit, I will not be saying a word. I will just go up there & if I have spare time I will reach out to others & see if they are available. If they are great & if they are not that is fine as well. Mom can't keep stressing herself out like this. The road, the telephone, & everything else works both ways & it is about time that my " friends " start using them & not leaving it up to just me. I am tired of it. Honestly, it is not right or fair. Mom has always tried to be fair. I am a person who is honest. I respect everyone & I don't judge anyone under any circumstance. I guess I just wish I would get the same in return.
Not much has been going on. The phone has been super quiet. Mom really hasn't spoken to anyone. I will touch base with Aunt Beck, Grandpa, etc.... within the next day or so. Mark is at the office today. He had a few important meetings today so I hope they went well. I haven't heard from him at all since he left this morning. I know you were with him because I asked you to be. Thank you & I hope that there will be good news soon because we sure could use it. Mom will update you on here when I know of things. So today that is all I have for you. Mom will make sure to write to you tomorrow afternoon. For now, I need to get going so I can put a couple hours of study time in before I have to do the night routine stuff. Mom hopes that your evening will be filled with everything you hope to do & need to do. Have a fun time while I am sleeping tonight. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks Ty! Mom will also whisper to you as I always do every night so be listening for my voice. Smile & I will too. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are missed so very much by so many family & friends but no one misses you more than I do. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. Until tomorrow.... Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I will look to the sky tonight in hopes of seeing the moon & stars. Maybe I will seeing a painting in the sky as well...hint hint????
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the color & the meaning for today: Gray: If you favor this color gray, your trademark might best be described as sophisticated diplomacy. Manners & etiquette are important to you because you feel polished social graces demonstrates respect for yourself as well as others. professionally, others trust you to set the bar for appropriate behavior & decorum. Minding your own business & keeping to yourself is your mantra. However, if asked, you are comfortable playing the role because people perceive you as balanced, stable & trustworthy. Others appreciate your gift for identifying alternate avenues & facilitating compromise. Naturally fair & objective, you have the ability to put personal opinion & feelings aside & see an issue from all angles.
Here is the saying for the day: Today, don't let other people's negativity cloud your views. Continue on your path & stay focused on the positive!
Here are the prayers for the day: May you experience a personal revival that forever marks the way you walk with God. May your loved ones encounter Him in ways that change how they pray, what they say, and how they live. May God move on your prayers in ways that compel you to pray more specifically, with greater fervency, and with increasing faith. Though the enemy is working overtime, he runs scared when God steps in. May God move mightily in our midst in the days ahead! Have a blessed and faith-filled day!
(Speak this one over yourself): I am deeply loved, divinely appointed, abundantly equipped, and profoundly cherished by God. No enemy plan, scheme, or obstacle can keep me from God's highest and best will for me. As I follow the voice of my Savior, I see the invisible, accomplish the impossible, and love the unlovable. I am a living-breathing miracle because Jesus Christ lives in me! Amen.
Tuesday, February 20, 2018
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. The weather is absolutely gorgeous outside. It is almost 70 degrees & tomorrow it will hit 70! Mom just got in from taking the pups for their afternoon walk. It was so nice. The sun was warm on my face. I loved it. the skies are blue with hardly any clouds so maybe just maybe Mom will have the chance of seeing the moon & stars shining bright tonight. Mom was up again at 6 am. I got the pups fed & thought i would try falling back to sleep but that did not happen. I have been awake since then. I am pretty tired tonight & that only means that this evening I will be going to bed fairly early! Mark has to be at the office at an early time tomorrow so he must get some sleep as well. Today is day 2 of no fever for him. That is excellent. He is still having the cold & cough but he is still taking the cough medicine. Mom is so happy that he is feeling better & getting back to his old self again! Mom has been chatting with Aunt Shirley & she was saying that she has had the flu for 2 weeks, now Richard has it & poor Great Grammy is not doing better at all. She said she is really worried about her. Grandpa said the same thing the other day. I hope that everyone starts to feel better & soon. Aunt Beck & I were chatting earlier as well. We were talking about Italy & such & then she told me that John has sometime going on with his Thyroid. Some kind of swelling is going on. I hope it is nothing & he will be alright. He was awaiting a call from the doctor. Aunt Beck also said that she was woken up to bells ringing in her ear. That is never a good sign at all. Tyler, could you please do what you can from where you are & watch over us all? Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom is just worried about everyone right now. Too many things are happening all at once & everything is all over the place. I am trying to stay positive though! Not much else is going on really. Mark does have a couple important meeting tomorrow at the office. Mom is hoping & praying that it goes in his favor. Please be with him if you can. This could be a big change for us & a good one. The time is right for this so I hope everything works out. Mom's fingers & toes are crossed. I am sure to have more updates in the next couple of days but for now that is all I have.
Here is the color & it's meaning for the day: Brown: if the color brown speaks to you, it is probably because you can relate to its simplicity. Genuine & transparent with your intentions, those who have hidden agendas & ulterior motives confuse you. You fail to see the value in twisting the facts when the truth is so much easier to manage. You are dependable & punctual & have high standards for excellence. Experience for success; slow & steady, do it right or not at all. No get rich quick schemes for you & you have little patience for the snake oil salesperson types. Family comes first & you enjoy the comfort of a stable home-life. Your well-appointed & ordered kitchen is the hub of the house where you enjoy cooking. You find gardening & growing food for your table very satisfying.
Here are a couple sayings for the day: Yes! You are simply fabulous from your head to your toes!
Today, try not to be so hard on yourself....Know that you are doing the best you can! You are so much to so many. Yes! You are doing a great job!
Mom is hoping that this evening will bring you all the comfort & joy that you need. Hope that you do all the things that are needed of you & things you may also want to do. Have fun while Mom sleeps. Come visit me if you can. Thank you. I will light the candle again this evening for you, our family, friends & pets that are with you. Know it is burning bright for every single one of you. Mom will whisper to you as I always do later so be listening for me. I will smile & hope you will be too. I miss you my sweet son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then... good night & sweet dreams. Mom is off to study for a few hours before I have to start dinner.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here are the prayers for the day:
May you determine to travel lighter starting now. May you—with your God-given authority in Christ—demand that the enemy shut his mouth and leave you alone. May you discern the baggage of man-made obligations and lay them down. May you decide to fling aside your own self-condemning thoughts and wrap yourself up in God’s beautiful grace and righteousness instead. And, may you march on from here, full of faith, empowered by grace, and awakened by God’s love, and walk as one who’s been spoken for by God above. May your latter days be far more blessed than your former days. Jesus is always up to something new. Bless you!
You’ve been in the winter season for far too long. You wonder if it’ll ever end. You wonder if springtime will happen for everybody but you. But here’s what’s true: Even now, there are little sprouts underground, coming to life, ready to break through. Those are your seeds that you planted and that God watered. You can’t see them but they’re there. In due time, the sun will shine, the cold will pass, and life will break through the hardened soil of this season. I know you’re tired but don’t give up hope. May Jesus wrap you up in His goodness today. May you sense His kindness and be assured of His promises. Spring is definitely coming for you. Blessings on your night tonight!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. The weather is absolutely gorgeous outside. It is almost 70 degrees & tomorrow it will hit 70! Mom just got in from taking the pups for their afternoon walk. It was so nice. The sun was warm on my face. I loved it. the skies are blue with hardly any clouds so maybe just maybe Mom will have the chance of seeing the moon & stars shining bright tonight. Mom was up again at 6 am. I got the pups fed & thought i would try falling back to sleep but that did not happen. I have been awake since then. I am pretty tired tonight & that only means that this evening I will be going to bed fairly early! Mark has to be at the office at an early time tomorrow so he must get some sleep as well. Today is day 2 of no fever for him. That is excellent. He is still having the cold & cough but he is still taking the cough medicine. Mom is so happy that he is feeling better & getting back to his old self again! Mom has been chatting with Aunt Shirley & she was saying that she has had the flu for 2 weeks, now Richard has it & poor Great Grammy is not doing better at all. She said she is really worried about her. Grandpa said the same thing the other day. I hope that everyone starts to feel better & soon. Aunt Beck & I were chatting earlier as well. We were talking about Italy & such & then she told me that John has sometime going on with his Thyroid. Some kind of swelling is going on. I hope it is nothing & he will be alright. He was awaiting a call from the doctor. Aunt Beck also said that she was woken up to bells ringing in her ear. That is never a good sign at all. Tyler, could you please do what you can from where you are & watch over us all? Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom is just worried about everyone right now. Too many things are happening all at once & everything is all over the place. I am trying to stay positive though! Not much else is going on really. Mark does have a couple important meeting tomorrow at the office. Mom is hoping & praying that it goes in his favor. Please be with him if you can. This could be a big change for us & a good one. The time is right for this so I hope everything works out. Mom's fingers & toes are crossed. I am sure to have more updates in the next couple of days but for now that is all I have.
Here is the color & it's meaning for the day: Brown: if the color brown speaks to you, it is probably because you can relate to its simplicity. Genuine & transparent with your intentions, those who have hidden agendas & ulterior motives confuse you. You fail to see the value in twisting the facts when the truth is so much easier to manage. You are dependable & punctual & have high standards for excellence. Experience for success; slow & steady, do it right or not at all. No get rich quick schemes for you & you have little patience for the snake oil salesperson types. Family comes first & you enjoy the comfort of a stable home-life. Your well-appointed & ordered kitchen is the hub of the house where you enjoy cooking. You find gardening & growing food for your table very satisfying.
Here are a couple sayings for the day: Yes! You are simply fabulous from your head to your toes!
Today, try not to be so hard on yourself....Know that you are doing the best you can! You are so much to so many. Yes! You are doing a great job!
Mom is hoping that this evening will bring you all the comfort & joy that you need. Hope that you do all the things that are needed of you & things you may also want to do. Have fun while Mom sleeps. Come visit me if you can. Thank you. I will light the candle again this evening for you, our family, friends & pets that are with you. Know it is burning bright for every single one of you. Mom will whisper to you as I always do later so be listening for me. I will smile & hope you will be too. I miss you my sweet son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then... good night & sweet dreams. Mom is off to study for a few hours before I have to start dinner.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here are the prayers for the day:
May you determine to travel lighter starting now. May you—with your God-given authority in Christ—demand that the enemy shut his mouth and leave you alone. May you discern the baggage of man-made obligations and lay them down. May you decide to fling aside your own self-condemning thoughts and wrap yourself up in God’s beautiful grace and righteousness instead. And, may you march on from here, full of faith, empowered by grace, and awakened by God’s love, and walk as one who’s been spoken for by God above. May your latter days be far more blessed than your former days. Jesus is always up to something new. Bless you!
You’ve been in the winter season for far too long. You wonder if it’ll ever end. You wonder if springtime will happen for everybody but you. But here’s what’s true: Even now, there are little sprouts underground, coming to life, ready to break through. Those are your seeds that you planted and that God watered. You can’t see them but they’re there. In due time, the sun will shine, the cold will pass, and life will break through the hardened soil of this season. I know you’re tired but don’t give up hope. May Jesus wrap you up in His goodness today. May you sense His kindness and be assured of His promises. Spring is definitely coming for you. Blessings on your night tonight!
Monday, February 19, 2018
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. I have been up since the a** crack of dawn & going solid all day. Mark's fever broke sometime last night or early morning which is a very good thing so hopefully it stays away & this is the beginning of him feeling better. So far he hasn't spiked a fever all day. Mom's fingers are crossed. Anyways... Mom got up with Mark at 6 am & got the pups fed & I couldn't go back to sleep so I laid there for about 30 minutes & then got up, got ready, made the bed, made breakfast, did the dishes, did the laundry, paid 4 bills online & have conversations with a couple friends on line, spoke to Meme. Grandpa & Debbie & now I am writing to you! Mom is hoping to get a couple hours of study time in after I write to you as well before I have to do all the night routine stuff for the evening. Not sure if I will get to that or not but if not there is tomorrow! Tuesday & Wednesday will be study days, all day for Mom. I need to finish this up & fast. I need to get this class over with! I have to finish up this exam & then 1 more before my final! Hopefully by the end of the month I will be finished. That is the goal. I have 9 days to finish this class up! Mom knows you will be right by my side through it all. Thank you!
Last night was a hard night for Mom. I got a message on Facebook that my friend's son, the one I talk about to you & went to see last weekend was sent home a couple days ago on " comfort measures. " We all know that when we hear those words it is not good & time is not what he has anymore. Mom has a bad feeling that it will be within the week. My heart is breaking for his Mom, his Dad & his brother. The journey that Mom has been on for the last 4.5 years since I lost you is just going to begin for them all. I wish that on no one. I cried to Meme last night because it brought everything back from what I went through losing you. It is hard to lose someone you love but to have a Mom lose their child is a whole different category. No parent should ever have to bury their child at any age. That is not the " circle of life. " I can only be there for my friend when that time comes & listen to her, cry with her & comfort her. It will be tough but I will do it. Tyler, could you do Mom a favor? I believe in my heart that his time is coming to an end & very quickly, so could you please help to make sure he doesn't suffer anymore than he already has? I would like to hope that you would be greeting him on the other side when he departs from this world. He always called Mom... " Sherbear. " His name is Eli & he is 16 years old. He is a wonderful young man...just like you were. He will be whole again just like you are. No sickness, no illness, no pain, no limitations, no cancer, etc.... It will be sad to see him go but I know he will be happy just like you are my sweet precious son. Eli has suffered hard for the last 2 years. You suffered for 20 years. No one deserves that...no one. You are both Heros! You will always be Mom's hero & the wind beneath my wings. mom knows you will help in anyway that you can to make his transition easier for him & everyone here will help his family out the best we can. Thank you Tyler. I love you with all my heart. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. you will always be in my heart, mind, body & soul.
Meme called & things are good on their end. No changes in Bob but for now that is a good thing. No sickness for them... it is all gone! Meme had today off as it is President's Day. Debbie had a doctors appointment with the ENT because her sinuses are all plugged up again so hopefully she will get some answers to what is going on. Grandpa sounded good. Great Grammy on the other hand is not doing all that well. She has had the flu & has been really sick. She is just starting to drink & has been on IV fluids. Eating is still a struggle for her. I guess the nurses said the other night was pretty scary as they almost lost her. That made me very sad. Too much is happening all at once. Please watch over her like you do for all of us. Thank you. Everything else seems to be going smoothly. Mom will be sure to have more updates as the week progresses. For now that is all I got...lol!
The weather is starting to cloud up & boy it is getting dark outside. It is suppose to rain from here on in until tomorrow morning. Earlier it was blue skies & sunny but windy when I took the pups for a walk. Lots of the snow is already melting that we got on Saturday/Sunday so that is good. Tomorrow & Wednesday... sunny & in the upper 60's! Mom is hoping to see a beautiful sunrise & sunset the next couple of days. I will be looking for my painting in the sky. It is going on 4 pm & Mom needs to get going so I can do the night stuff plus I need to get Mark his medicine. Mom will whisper to you tonight so smile for me when you hear me & I will smile back. I will light a candle tonight as well for you. Hope that your evening will be filled with all peaceful things. Come visit Mom if you can. Thank you. Before I sign off of this letter, here is the color & the meaning for the day: Silver: The color silver means victory, stability, meditation, developing, psychic ability, removal of negative power, repelling destruction, cancellation, neutrality & stalemate.
Here is the saying for the day: Always find a reason to laugh. It may not add years to your life but will surely add life to your years!
Here is the prayer for the day: Courage means you get back up again after you’ve been knocked down. Courage means you face your fears and move past them. Courage means you stand up and remain confident in the face of your bullies. Jesus was the King of Courage and He lives inside of you! Refuse to let your enemy kick dirt in your eyes or spew lies in your ears. YOU are a child of the Most High God. YOU are someone heaven knows. YOU are profoundly important to the greater Kingdom story. So rise up, wrap yourself up in courage, and face your day. God is with you!
Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then... fly high & free. Watch over us all. I love you my bright shining star. Good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. I have been up since the a** crack of dawn & going solid all day. Mark's fever broke sometime last night or early morning which is a very good thing so hopefully it stays away & this is the beginning of him feeling better. So far he hasn't spiked a fever all day. Mom's fingers are crossed. Anyways... Mom got up with Mark at 6 am & got the pups fed & I couldn't go back to sleep so I laid there for about 30 minutes & then got up, got ready, made the bed, made breakfast, did the dishes, did the laundry, paid 4 bills online & have conversations with a couple friends on line, spoke to Meme. Grandpa & Debbie & now I am writing to you! Mom is hoping to get a couple hours of study time in after I write to you as well before I have to do all the night routine stuff for the evening. Not sure if I will get to that or not but if not there is tomorrow! Tuesday & Wednesday will be study days, all day for Mom. I need to finish this up & fast. I need to get this class over with! I have to finish up this exam & then 1 more before my final! Hopefully by the end of the month I will be finished. That is the goal. I have 9 days to finish this class up! Mom knows you will be right by my side through it all. Thank you!
Last night was a hard night for Mom. I got a message on Facebook that my friend's son, the one I talk about to you & went to see last weekend was sent home a couple days ago on " comfort measures. " We all know that when we hear those words it is not good & time is not what he has anymore. Mom has a bad feeling that it will be within the week. My heart is breaking for his Mom, his Dad & his brother. The journey that Mom has been on for the last 4.5 years since I lost you is just going to begin for them all. I wish that on no one. I cried to Meme last night because it brought everything back from what I went through losing you. It is hard to lose someone you love but to have a Mom lose their child is a whole different category. No parent should ever have to bury their child at any age. That is not the " circle of life. " I can only be there for my friend when that time comes & listen to her, cry with her & comfort her. It will be tough but I will do it. Tyler, could you do Mom a favor? I believe in my heart that his time is coming to an end & very quickly, so could you please help to make sure he doesn't suffer anymore than he already has? I would like to hope that you would be greeting him on the other side when he departs from this world. He always called Mom... " Sherbear. " His name is Eli & he is 16 years old. He is a wonderful young man...just like you were. He will be whole again just like you are. No sickness, no illness, no pain, no limitations, no cancer, etc.... It will be sad to see him go but I know he will be happy just like you are my sweet precious son. Eli has suffered hard for the last 2 years. You suffered for 20 years. No one deserves that...no one. You are both Heros! You will always be Mom's hero & the wind beneath my wings. mom knows you will help in anyway that you can to make his transition easier for him & everyone here will help his family out the best we can. Thank you Tyler. I love you with all my heart. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. you will always be in my heart, mind, body & soul.
Meme called & things are good on their end. No changes in Bob but for now that is a good thing. No sickness for them... it is all gone! Meme had today off as it is President's Day. Debbie had a doctors appointment with the ENT because her sinuses are all plugged up again so hopefully she will get some answers to what is going on. Grandpa sounded good. Great Grammy on the other hand is not doing all that well. She has had the flu & has been really sick. She is just starting to drink & has been on IV fluids. Eating is still a struggle for her. I guess the nurses said the other night was pretty scary as they almost lost her. That made me very sad. Too much is happening all at once. Please watch over her like you do for all of us. Thank you. Everything else seems to be going smoothly. Mom will be sure to have more updates as the week progresses. For now that is all I got...lol!
The weather is starting to cloud up & boy it is getting dark outside. It is suppose to rain from here on in until tomorrow morning. Earlier it was blue skies & sunny but windy when I took the pups for a walk. Lots of the snow is already melting that we got on Saturday/Sunday so that is good. Tomorrow & Wednesday... sunny & in the upper 60's! Mom is hoping to see a beautiful sunrise & sunset the next couple of days. I will be looking for my painting in the sky. It is going on 4 pm & Mom needs to get going so I can do the night stuff plus I need to get Mark his medicine. Mom will whisper to you tonight so smile for me when you hear me & I will smile back. I will light a candle tonight as well for you. Hope that your evening will be filled with all peaceful things. Come visit Mom if you can. Thank you. Before I sign off of this letter, here is the color & the meaning for the day: Silver: The color silver means victory, stability, meditation, developing, psychic ability, removal of negative power, repelling destruction, cancellation, neutrality & stalemate.
Here is the saying for the day: Always find a reason to laugh. It may not add years to your life but will surely add life to your years!
Here is the prayer for the day: Courage means you get back up again after you’ve been knocked down. Courage means you face your fears and move past them. Courage means you stand up and remain confident in the face of your bullies. Jesus was the King of Courage and He lives inside of you! Refuse to let your enemy kick dirt in your eyes or spew lies in your ears. YOU are a child of the Most High God. YOU are someone heaven knows. YOU are profoundly important to the greater Kingdom story. So rise up, wrap yourself up in courage, and face your day. God is with you!
Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then... fly high & free. Watch over us all. I love you my bright shining star. Good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, February 18, 2018
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is just plum tuckered out today! I didn't get that much sleep last night at all or for the last 3 nights. Mom was up early again this morning doing the usual things & Mark slept in until 10 am. He never does that so I knew something was very wrong. When he woke up, I took his temp & it was almost 102. I told him I was going to get ready & we were going to go to the doctors. About an hour later, Mom was driving him to Urgent Care. While he was waiting to be seem, Mom went grocery shopping & then back to get Mark. Got home & put everything away & spoke to Meme. Now Mark is resting on the couch right now while I type you a short letter. He was diagnosed with the Flu. He has cough medicine, nasal spray & has to take Tylenol every 6 hours for the fever. Rest & clear fluids are a must & lots of rest. Hope he gets to feeling better soon as today makes 5 days of it. Mom is not really able to do too much of what I want because I need to be taking care of Mark. Everything else is going ok. We did get snow last night.... 8" of it. The temps today are sunny & 50 degrees so some of the snow is melting but it is not melting fast enough for Mom...lol. This week it is suppose to be in the high 60's & 70 for Wednesday so hopefully the snow will be gone in a few short days. Not much has happened since I wrote yesterday. Mark & Mom relaxed last night after our company left. Neither of us felt like eating so I fed the pups & we watched TV all night. Mark fell asleep at 9 pm & Mom turned in around 10 pm. The phones have been quiet so I really have no updates for you today. Hopefully tomorrow I will have some for you! Mom can't take a lot of time to write today as I need to be getting things ready for dinner & feeding the pups & all the night stuff. I hope that your evening will be more relaxing than mine will be..lol! I hope you get to do all the things that are needed of you & things that you want to do as well. Please come be with Mom tonight so that I can get some good rest. Thank you my sweet precious son! I will whisper to you like I always do so be listening out for my voice. smile & Mom will too. I will light a candle as well for you, our family & friends, pets too that are with you on the other side. Just know when you see it burning it is for all of you. Mom sure misses you a lot. Every day is that void that will never be filled. I think about you all the time & remember our times together as a family. I miss that so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you & hopefully it will be longer. Sorry this one is kinda short. Until tomorrow, good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the color of the day & the meaning: Rose: Compassion for self & others, higher mystical powers, humour. Love, romance, opening the heart, forgiveness, compassion, healing, joy, creativity, endurance, strength, stability & security is what this color mean!
Here is the saying for the day: Remember that you are WATER. Cry, cleanse, flow, let go. Remember that you are FIRE. Burn, tame, adapt, ignite. Remember that you are AIR. Observe, breath, focus, decide. Remember that you are EARTH. Ground, give, build, heal. Remember that you are SPIRIT. Connect, listen, know. Be still.
Here is the prayer for the day: Dear God, I know that I am not perfect, I know sometimes I forget to pray. I know I have questioned my faith, I know sometimes I lose my temper, but thank you for loving me unconditionally & giving me another day to start over again. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is just plum tuckered out today! I didn't get that much sleep last night at all or for the last 3 nights. Mom was up early again this morning doing the usual things & Mark slept in until 10 am. He never does that so I knew something was very wrong. When he woke up, I took his temp & it was almost 102. I told him I was going to get ready & we were going to go to the doctors. About an hour later, Mom was driving him to Urgent Care. While he was waiting to be seem, Mom went grocery shopping & then back to get Mark. Got home & put everything away & spoke to Meme. Now Mark is resting on the couch right now while I type you a short letter. He was diagnosed with the Flu. He has cough medicine, nasal spray & has to take Tylenol every 6 hours for the fever. Rest & clear fluids are a must & lots of rest. Hope he gets to feeling better soon as today makes 5 days of it. Mom is not really able to do too much of what I want because I need to be taking care of Mark. Everything else is going ok. We did get snow last night.... 8" of it. The temps today are sunny & 50 degrees so some of the snow is melting but it is not melting fast enough for Mom...lol. This week it is suppose to be in the high 60's & 70 for Wednesday so hopefully the snow will be gone in a few short days. Not much has happened since I wrote yesterday. Mark & Mom relaxed last night after our company left. Neither of us felt like eating so I fed the pups & we watched TV all night. Mark fell asleep at 9 pm & Mom turned in around 10 pm. The phones have been quiet so I really have no updates for you today. Hopefully tomorrow I will have some for you! Mom can't take a lot of time to write today as I need to be getting things ready for dinner & feeding the pups & all the night stuff. I hope that your evening will be more relaxing than mine will be..lol! I hope you get to do all the things that are needed of you & things that you want to do as well. Please come be with Mom tonight so that I can get some good rest. Thank you my sweet precious son! I will whisper to you like I always do so be listening out for my voice. smile & Mom will too. I will light a candle as well for you, our family & friends, pets too that are with you on the other side. Just know when you see it burning it is for all of you. Mom sure misses you a lot. Every day is that void that will never be filled. I think about you all the time & remember our times together as a family. I miss that so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you & hopefully it will be longer. Sorry this one is kinda short. Until tomorrow, good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the color of the day & the meaning: Rose: Compassion for self & others, higher mystical powers, humour. Love, romance, opening the heart, forgiveness, compassion, healing, joy, creativity, endurance, strength, stability & security is what this color mean!
Here is the saying for the day: Remember that you are WATER. Cry, cleanse, flow, let go. Remember that you are FIRE. Burn, tame, adapt, ignite. Remember that you are AIR. Observe, breath, focus, decide. Remember that you are EARTH. Ground, give, build, heal. Remember that you are SPIRIT. Connect, listen, know. Be still.
Here is the prayer for the day: Dear God, I know that I am not perfect, I know sometimes I forget to pray. I know I have questioned my faith, I know sometimes I lose my temper, but thank you for loving me unconditionally & giving me another day to start over again. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
Saturday, February 17, 2018
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