Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is having an off day today again. Not sure what is going on but I have a case of insomnia right now. I never turned the TV off until almost 1 am & was up at 8 am. I am tired but I just can't sleep. I have a lot going on in my mind right now & I know that is not helping matters out. Mark was asleep & snoring ( lol ) by like 10 pm. Mom was so tired but yet I could not fall asleep at all. I am really hoping that tonight stops this because Mom is so dang tired & I really need some solid sleep. If there is anything you can do to help Mom out that would be very much appreciated, Tyler. Thank you my sweet precious son. 
 The weather today is once again crappy. The temps are back down to 40 degrees & it was hailing earlier. Guess we are suppose to get rain, then a mix of rain & snow & then it is suppose to change over to just snow. By nightfall or during the night hours we should be getting anyways from 1 -3" of snow. This winter sure has been crazy. The temps have been all over the place & the snow storms have been several but not as severe as we have had in the past. Mom just chalks it up to another New England winter!  
 Yesterday, was an important day for Mark. He called when he was driving home from the office last night. He felt that everything went well. Towards the end of the conversation though, Mom was not impressed at all. Mark was telling me that if he was chosen as the " new " guy then he would have to be gone all next week. I was not happy about that at all. Mom is so tried of always being alone. My feelings don't ever get taken into consideration at all. I don't feel that that is right & Mom also feels that it is very disrespectful. I was hurt & still am. Right now it is a waiting game. Mark will be told either today or tomorrow what the verdict is. Mom really wanted him to have this new chair but now I am not so sure. I guess I will deal with it when we find out. Please watch over Mom. I need you. Thank you. 
 Not much else is going on. I spoke to Grandpa & Meme last night. Everything is okay with all of them. Debbie is still having some sinus issues but she is okay. Aunt Shirley & Richard are still pretty sick & so is Great Grammy. Mom hopes that everything gets better for them & soon. I tried to call Aunt Beck to see how she was doing & how John was feeling but I got the machine. I left a message for her to call when she could. That is about all that I have for today. Not much else is happening. Mom is getting ready to study & Mark is working in his office. Mom will have more updates for you either tomorrow or over the weekend. I am hoping that your evening is filled with all the things that you need to get done & also with things that you would like to do. Have fun at least while I sleep tonight. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Mom will whisper to you like I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear me & I will be smiling as well. I miss you like crazy! No words can express it enough. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Never forget that, please! 
 Here is the color & it's meaning for the day: Magenta: If your favorite color is Magenta then you are a witty combination of passionate & compassionate. A non-conformist outlook on life frequently lands you on the leading edge of trends & social patterns. You like to have fun & you inspire friends & family with your sense of wanderlust & spontaneity. People who name magenta as their favorite color are networkers. You excel at bridging together information, people, & resources. Innovative & clever, you understand how to assemble a bigger, more powerful whole from smaller pieces; sometimes pieces that others might underestimate or discard altogether. magenta personalities are often entrepreneurs & inventors. The color magenta has grown in popularity as a branding color signifying high energy & unique business. 
 Here is the say for the day: Dear beautiful you, You may be struggling right now with all that's in front of you....but there are so many people in your life that believe in you, that support you & love you for who you are. May you find comfort & strength in knowing that. You will make it through this! 
 Here are the prayers for the day: : May God lift your chin, awaken your heart, and open your eyes to all you possess in Him. May you refuse to let your disappointments define you. May you instead, stand on that barren land and envision a harvest. May you experience a revival of faith in the very place of your heartbreak! Instead of rehashing your losses, determine to rehearse His promises because they're truer than your circumstances. Today's a good day to embrace faith, to give thanks, and to worship the One who keeps His promises. You've got everything you need in Him. Have a blessed day.
  May you determine to be done with captivity! No more rehearsing your failures or rehashing your critics’ accusations. It’s time to remember God’s love, His faithfulness, and His heart of affection for you. It’s time to put all of your hope in the finished work of Jesus Christ. May you put a flag in the ground this day and declare, ‘My hope is built on nothing less but Jesus’ blood and righteousness!’ Rest in God’s grace. Rely on His love. And rehearse His promises because they’re true for you. Break free from the bondage of others’ opinions and walk free and full of faith this evening!
 Mom needs to get going so that I can do some studying before it is time to get dinner going for the night. I will be back tomorrow with your letter so until then....good night & sweet dreams. I love you unconditionally, Tyler...my bright shining star.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!