Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. I have been up since the a** crack of dawn & going solid all day. Mark's fever broke sometime last night or early morning which is a very good thing so hopefully it stays away & this is the beginning of him feeling better. So far he hasn't spiked a fever all day. Mom's fingers are crossed. Anyways... Mom got up with Mark at 6 am & got the pups fed & I couldn't go back to sleep so I laid there for about 30 minutes & then got up, got ready, made the bed, made breakfast, did the dishes, did the laundry, paid 4 bills online & have conversations with a couple friends on line, spoke to Meme. Grandpa & Debbie & now I am writing to you! Mom is hoping to get a couple hours of study time in after I write to you as well before I have to do all the night routine stuff for the evening. Not sure if I will get to that or not but if not there is tomorrow! Tuesday & Wednesday will be study days, all day for Mom. I need to finish this up & fast. I need to get this class over with! I have to finish up this exam & then 1 more before my final! Hopefully by the end of the month I will be finished. That is the goal. I have 9 days to finish this class up! Mom knows you will be right by my side through it all. Thank you!
 Last night was a hard night for Mom. I got a message on Facebook that my friend's son, the one I talk about to you & went to see last weekend was sent home a couple days ago on " comfort measures. " We all know that when we hear those words it is not good & time is not what he has anymore. Mom has a bad feeling that it will be within the week. My heart is breaking for his Mom, his Dad & his brother. The journey that Mom has been on for the last 4.5 years since I lost you is just going to begin for them all. I wish that on no one. I cried to Meme last night because it brought everything back from what I went through losing you. It is hard to lose someone you love but to have a Mom lose their child is a whole different category. No parent should ever have to bury their child at any age. That is not the " circle of life. " I can only be there for my friend when that time comes & listen to her, cry with her & comfort her. It will be tough but I will do it. Tyler, could you do Mom a favor? I believe in my heart that his time is coming to an end & very quickly, so could you please help to make sure he doesn't suffer anymore than he already has? I would like to hope that you would be greeting him on the other side when he departs from this world. He always called Mom... " Sherbear. " His name is Eli & he is 16 years old. He is a wonderful young man...just like you were. He will be whole again just like you are. No sickness, no illness, no pain, no limitations, no cancer, etc.... It will be sad to see him go but I know he will be happy just like you are my sweet precious son. Eli has suffered hard for the last 2 years. You suffered for 20 years. No one deserves that...no one. You are both Heros! You will always be Mom's hero & the wind beneath my wings. mom knows you will help in anyway that you can to make his transition easier for him & everyone here will help his family out the best we can. Thank you Tyler. I love you with all my heart. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. you will always be in my heart, mind, body & soul. 
 Meme called & things are good on their end. No changes in Bob but for now that is a good thing. No sickness for them... it is all gone! Meme had today off as it is President's Day. Debbie had a doctors appointment with the ENT because her sinuses are all plugged up again so hopefully she will get some answers to what is going on. Grandpa sounded good. Great Grammy on the other hand is not doing all that well. She has had the flu & has been really sick. She is just starting to drink & has been on IV fluids. Eating is still a struggle for her. I guess the nurses said the other night was pretty scary as they almost lost her. That made me very sad. Too much is happening all at once. Please watch over her like you do for all of us. Thank you. Everything else seems to be going smoothly. Mom will be sure to have more updates as the week progresses. For now that is all I got...lol!
 The weather is starting to cloud up & boy it is getting dark outside. It is suppose to rain from here on in until tomorrow morning. Earlier it was blue skies & sunny but windy when I took the pups for a walk. Lots of the snow is already melting that we got on Saturday/Sunday so that is good. Tomorrow & Wednesday... sunny & in the upper 60's! Mom is hoping to see a beautiful sunrise & sunset the next couple of days. I will be looking for my painting in the sky. It is going on 4 pm & Mom needs to get going so I can do the night stuff plus I need to get Mark his medicine. Mom will whisper to you tonight so smile for me when you hear me & I will smile back. I will light a candle tonight as well for you. Hope that your evening will be filled with all peaceful things. Come visit Mom if you can. Thank you. Before I sign off of this letter, here is the color & the meaning for the day: Silver: The color silver means victory, stability, meditation, developing, psychic ability, removal of negative power, repelling destruction, cancellation, neutrality & stalemate. 
 Here is the saying for the day: Always find a reason to laugh. It may not add years to your life but will surely add life to your years!
 Here is the prayer for the day:  Courage means you get back up again after you’ve been knocked down. Courage means you face your fears and move past them. Courage means you stand up and remain confident in the face of your bullies. Jesus was the King of Courage and He lives inside of you! Refuse to let your enemy kick dirt in your eyes or spew lies in your ears. YOU are a child of the Most High God. YOU are someone heaven knows. YOU are profoundly important to the greater Kingdom story. So rise up, wrap yourself up in courage, and face your day. God is with you!
Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then... fly high & free. Watch over us all. I love you my bright shining star. Good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!