Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! how are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright but I honestly am not in a good mood & that is sad. The temps are warm & the sun is shining bright but I am just tired & cranky. Mom doesn't like it when I am so this just plain stinks! Last night was another night that I really didn't sleep all that well & I got woken up at 6 am with Mark getting ready for work. The pups hear him & they think it is time to get up & eat so while Mark was getting ready, Mom was feeding the pups, making coffee & getting things ready for Mark to head out to the office. By the time I was done all that I was already awake & could not go back to be so that just added to me being cranky. Mark left around 8 am & Mom laid in bed for a little bit & then got up, made breakfast, did the dishes from that, got ready, cleaned the house & now I am writing to you. Oh yeah, Meme called somewhere in there while she was on her break. She didn't seem like she was in a good mood either so maybe it is in the air. Who knows.....
 Yesterday, Mom had a conversation with someone that just rubbed me the wrong way. I know they were being honest & that part I am not mad at. What makes me mad is the way they said what they did. Mom has always been the person who tries her hardest to do so many things & stretch herself so thin to the point where I am ready to break but I just keep going. When I go to NH I try my best to see as many family & friends as I can in the short period of time that I am there. Usually, I am there for a holiday or birthday or some other occasion so that usually puts more of a strain on timing & seeing people. It always happens that when I come back from a visit, there are a few that always has something to say & lays a guilt trip on me. Mom is just so tired of it. These people think that when I am there I need to drop everything & see them & when I don't they get angry. Well....sadly these same people never really make there way to come see me. I guess Mom is just sick & tired of always trying to please everyone while I run myself ragged. As of yesterday all that is stopping. When I go up to NH for a visit, I will not be saying a word. I will just go up there & if I have spare time I will reach out to others & see if they are available. If they are great & if they are not that is fine as well. Mom can't keep stressing herself out like this. The road, the telephone, & everything else works both ways & it is about time that my " friends " start using them & not leaving it up to just me. I am tired of it. Honestly, it is not right or fair. Mom has always tried to be fair. I am a person who is honest. I respect everyone & I don't judge anyone under any circumstance. I guess I just wish I would get the same in return. 
 Not much has been going on. The phone has been super quiet. Mom really hasn't spoken to anyone. I will touch base with Aunt Beck, Grandpa, etc.... within the next day or so. Mark is at the office today. He had a few important meetings today so I hope they went well. I haven't heard from him at all since he left this morning. I know you were with him because I asked you to be. Thank you & I hope that there will be good news soon because we sure could use it. Mom will update you on here when I know of things. So today that is all I have for you. Mom will make sure to write to you tomorrow afternoon. For now, I need to get going so I can put a couple hours of study time in before I have to do the night routine stuff. Mom hopes that your evening will be filled with everything you hope to do & need to do. Have a fun time while I am sleeping tonight. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks Ty! Mom will also whisper to you as I always do every night so be listening for my voice. Smile & I will too. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are missed so very much by so many family & friends but no one misses you more than I do. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. Until tomorrow.... Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I will look to the sky tonight in hopes of seeing the moon & stars. Maybe I will seeing a painting in the sky as well...hint hint???? 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

 Here is the color & the meaning for today: Gray: If you favor this color gray, your trademark might best be described as sophisticated diplomacy. Manners & etiquette are important to you because you feel polished social graces demonstrates respect for yourself as well as others. professionally, others trust you to set the bar for appropriate behavior & decorum. Minding your own business & keeping to yourself is your mantra. However, if asked, you are comfortable playing the role because people perceive you as balanced, stable & trustworthy. Others appreciate your gift for identifying alternate avenues & facilitating compromise. Naturally fair & objective, you have the ability to put personal opinion & feelings aside & see an issue from all angles. 
 Here is the saying for the day: Today, don't let other people's negativity cloud your views. Continue on your path & stay focused on the positive!
 Here are the prayers for the day:  May you experience a personal revival that forever marks the way you walk with God. May your loved ones encounter Him in ways that change how they pray, what they say, and how they live. May God move on your prayers in ways that compel you to pray more specifically, with greater fervency, and with increasing faith. Though the enemy is working overtime, he runs scared when God steps in. May God move mightily in our midst in the days ahead! Have a blessed and faith-filled day!
(Speak this one over yourself): I am deeply loved, divinely appointed, abundantly equipped, and profoundly cherished by God. No enemy plan, scheme, or obstacle can keep me from God's highest and best will for me. As I follow the voice of my Savior, I see the invisible, accomplish the impossible, and love the unlovable. I am a living-breathing miracle because Jesus Christ lives in me! Amen.