Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday morning? Mom is doing much better but not a lot of sleep last night but hopefully tonight I will get some solid sleep that I need so much. Mom is so sorry about the letter last night but I really didn't feel all that great. I did little things around the apartment during the day but for the most part I was laying on the couch with the pups. Mom never even put her computer on at all yesterday. I did the letter from my cell phone & that is pretty touch to do as the screen is so small but like Mom said, I wanted to at least write something to you instead of nothing at all. I know you understand. Today is a whole different day & Mom has been up since 7 am & I have been so productive already! I have gotten ready, made breakfast, did the dishes, dusted, vacuumed, did laundry, hung wet clothes, dried the rest, took the pups for a walk, gathered the trash up, put some things away that I purchased from Walmart & now I am writing to you & it is only 11:42 am. I would say that is pretty darn good. I will fold the clothes later when dinner is cooking. after Mom is done on here, I plan on working on my final exam & hopefully finishing it up! I am pretty excited about the whole thing! I just want this class done & over with! I know you will be with Mom every step of the way just like you have been so again, thank you so much my sweet precious son. I love you so much. If it wasn't for you, Mom would never have been able to do all that I have. You still are my everything. Mom whispered to you a little bit ago. Did you hear me? I was rearranging a couple small things in my office & I took my little stuffed seal & placed it next to your picture. I told you that was more appropriate seeings how you always said you were " my baby seal. " It made Mom smile but also sad. I miss you like crazy. It is hard to believe that it will be 5 years in almost 2 months ( 58 months ) since you left this world. It never gets easier. It gets different & no day is the same anymore. I miss your face, your smile, your voice, your laugh. I miss our talks, our walks, our video playing together. I miss our watching TV shows & movies & yes... I even miss our stubbornness & our fights. I JUST MISS YOU! Mom will whisper to you later this evening & light a candle for you as well. Be listening for me & smile that smile I love & miss. Mom will smile back to you as well. 
 The weather today is chilly but the sun is out & shining bright. No sunrises the last few mornings at all & it has been weeks since I have seen the moon in the night sky. I know some folks are still getting snow as snow storms are still across the United States. We got 6" of snow in 2 days last week. The snow has melted but still! We are in the middle of April. Last year the temp was 81 degrees today & well..... today it is only in the 40's. What a big difference in a year. I think Friday is suppose to be 70 degrees & then we go back down to the 40's & rain all weekend long. Doesn't look like we will be getting much of Spring weather this year. Maybe we will get lucky & have a couple weeks of it before the summer hits us with warm weather but you will hear no complaints from Mom at all. 
 Not much for updates for you at all in the last couple days. Things have been pretty quiet here as Mark has been going to the office all week long. Leaves early & gets home later in the the evening. Pups have been so good for Mom. They nap all day & rarely bark. Mom has spoken to Meme & Grandpa. They are all good. Working a lot & dealing with every day things just like the rest of us. Mom will touch base with Aunt Beck either later today or tomorrow & that will be the last time we chat until after she gets back from Italy! She is 3 days out from leaving. How exciting for them! Mom will update you as I know of things though but for now that is all I have. 
 I hope later this evening you will have a wonderful night doing all the things you need to & may want to do in the heavens above. May you get the time & chance to come be with Mom as I sleep tonight. Thank you. Have fun doing whatever you do. Fly high & free pumpkin. Mom will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams tonight! Remember you are the wind beneath my wings & my hero. You forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is a saying for the day: 
 " You have to stop thinking you'll be stuck in your situation forever. We feel like our heart will never heal or we'll never get out of this impossible struggle. Don't confuse a season for a lifetime. Even your trials have an expiration date. You will grow, life will change, things will work out. "  

Here are the prayers for the day:
  May Jesus give you a new appreciation for how far you’ve come: the insight you now possess, the strength you’ve gained, and the maturity you’ve gleaned, all because of your battles. You are still standing! May you be strengthened and encouraged with each step you take today. May you take a fresh and firm grip on God’s promises to you. May you refuse discouragement and the bait of offense—they’ll only drain you. Guard your steps in this “not-yet” season, renew your mind, and keep marching. Jesus will bring the victory at just the right time.
  May you speak life over your life, starting tonight. Speak to your mountains and tell them to move in Jesus’ Name! Speak to your fears and tell them that Jesus’ love is perfect is greater still. Speak to your soul and remind yourself that God is always good. Speak to any obstacle that blocks your view of the Son and His radiance, and tell it to be tossed into the sea! May your faith combined with God’s goodness move you to a place of grace and peace. And every which way you turn, may you see evidence that God is at work an involved in your life. Sleep well tonight!