Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? It is 5:30 pm and the pups have been fed already and part of dinner is already cooking. We are having a favorite of yours for dinner... breakfast...french toast, maple flavored bacon, sausage and scrambled eggs. The bacon is cooking now so Mom had the extra time to write to you. Today has been a weird day for Mom. The weather was really nice. Sunny finally and it was 83 degrees. Mom is not going to get overly excited though because tomorrow and Friday we are back to cloudy, overcast, gloomy and rain again. We took the pups for a nice walk today. They enjoyed it and we were looking to see where we could walk them when we move to our new apartment. Looks like a longer walk for them but they will enjoy that just as much as I will. Mom was up early this morning. I lounged in bed for a bit and then got right up and started to go through some other stuff. I was able to clean another 3 garbage bags out. That makes a total of 28~ 33 gallon bags that we have gotten rid of. Crazy right? I think so and we still have so much stuff...lol! Anyways after that 2 hours of sorting, Mark and Mom had lunch and then I got ready. The rest of the afternoon has been studying and working on my exam. There are not many questions at all to them but I have a lot of charts to create on the computer and that takes so much time. I am hoping to be finished this exam by Friday and to start on the next chapters and exam next week. Earlier, when Mom was looking and sorting through things I came across cards and letters that you gave me. I remember those days like yesterday and they brought me back in time. They made me smile and then sad. I miss our times together. I miss that life I once had. I found other things as well that made me emotional but I won't get into that. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart and soul. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will always be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body and soul.
 I don't know why after all these years that Mom still gets emotional around this time of year. I know why for one reason but not the other one though. In 5 days, on the 15th it will be 23 years for Mom being a cancer survivor. Mom went through so much and went through pure hell but you helped me. You gave Mom strength to get through it all just like I gave you strength to get through a lot of the times you needed it the most. The 15th also was another important day to Mom many years ago as well. That is the part where I don't understand why I get emotional but perhaps it is because of the way things ended and there was no closure for me. I heard things not to long ago that was told to me that everything was my fault. That hurt because as I am no saint, not all was because of Mom. It hurt to know that I was being blamed for it all and that there would never be any chance to talk to that person again, ever. I would but the other one wants no part of it. I think you know what I am talking about. I don't need to go into details or say anything else on here. It's just been a weird day for Mom. Lots of memories came up but please know that I will be okay. 
 Mom called Deb last night to wish her a happy birthday. We chatted for about an hour. That was nice. She had a great day. Her and Grandpa went to the White Mtns for the day and had a nice dinner out. They said that the foliage was really nice there. I am sure it was. Here not so much though. The rain has made the leaves dry and not pretty at all. I am glad they had a nice day though. Mark worked until 9:30 pm so Mom snuggled on the couch with the pups and watched TV for a bit. When Mark was home he relaxed, had dinner and then went to bed as he was so tired. Mom stayed up until after 11 pm because I was not. Tonight will be dinner, dishes and then relaxing and bed early! Tomorrow Mark has to go to the office and Mom will be studying and then hopefully packing in the afternoon. I sure hope you have a fun night. Come visit if you can or sit by me so I can get some rest. Mom would love that. Thank you. I have the candle going and it has been since this morning. Mom will whisper to you as I always do tonight so smile when you hear me and I will smile back to you. Mom will write another letter tomorrow so until then.... good night and sweet dreams. It is time for Mom to finish dinner now. Fly high and free pumpkin. I love you.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

...for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement, through the shedding of his blood – to be received by faith. Romans 3:23–25a, NIV

Lord our God, we praise your name because you have set up a mercy seat on earth, because you forgive our sins through the blood of Jesus Christ. May your mercy be seen at work in many hearts. Shed your light upon all people, and let your glory be known. Let your glory shine in all hearts, to the praise of your name and the deliverance of those who are still in misery. Keep us in your Word, which works miracles. Protect in us all that Jesus Christ has brought to the earth, and may we use his gifts in simplicity of heart. Grant that much may be accomplished to the glory of your name and that we may draw nearer to the day of Jesus Christ, for which we wait in hope and longing. Amen.