Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Well today is your most favorite holiday of the year... Happy Halloween to you wherever you maybe. It is such a weird day for Mom and it has been since the day you went away. Oh how I would love this day with you as we made it so much fun! The decorating, the candy, the trick or treating, etc... Mom loved dressing you up every year. You had such cute costumes. Let's see if I can remember them all.... You were a pumpkin, a dalmatian, a dragon, red ninja turtle, blue ninja turtle, a red power ranger, a white power ranger, a red M&M, a pirate, jig saw from the Saw movies, Jack from Nightmare Before Christmas... I know there were a couple more but I can't think of them. You decided at such a young age to stop going to get candy because you wanted to give the candy out to the littler kids. I think you were 14 years old. You had such a great time doing it as well! You remind me so much of Grandpa because he too, is just like a little child. You both love horror movies...the scarier the better! I wonder on this night if you are watching all the kids dressed up or do you not celebrate it anymore? Where we live they never used to have us hand out candy but this year they are going to try it. We were going to participate in it up until about an hour ago when Mark said he did not want to. Mom didn't argue with him but I am really bummed and disappointed for sure. It would have been the first time in over 6 years that we could. Mom will watch from the balcony tonight to see if I see any little ones and let you know tomorrow. Mom is also keeping the tradition that we started so many years ago. We always had pizza on this night to make things easier and to this day Mom still does it and I think of you. Tonight will be pepperoni pizza and french fries!
 Mom wanted to say how sorry I was that I didn't write to you yesterday at all. I turned my computer on and had every intention of doing so but around 1 pm I started to not feel well so I shut everything down and I went and laid on the couch. I remember turning the TV on and watching a show and then the next thing I knew it was 3:30 pm. I fell asleep. When I woke up I felt a little better but I went to bed at 9:30 pm last night. Yesterday, Mom was pretty upset. It was suppose to be Mark's last day of vacation and I had a few things planned but I got the surprise when the alarm went off at 4 am and Mark got up and he left at 5:45 am to go do a cutover. He said he made the mistake and scheduled it forgetting that he was on vacation. I did not believe him for a minute. This is the same cutover that he had previously did 2 other times and failed. Yesterday's failed as well for the third time so now he has to do it all over again for the fourth time. Guess that will be next week sometime. I think that is why Mom didn't feel well because once Mark got up, the pups didn't let me go back to sleep. They didn't like that Mark left and cried and whined most of the time especially Princess. They are still getting used of the new place for sure but dang I was so annoyed on so many levels! Hopefully they start to feel at home soon!
 This morning Aunt Beck called. It was nice to catch up with her. She is crazy busy with work and workshops but she is doing well. She saw pics of our new place and said that she loved it. She also asked Mom is I was doing an altar for our ancestors and family that are with you. I said that I didn't know what to do but after she explained it to Mom I told her about my shelf that we have here and it is up year round with tributes to you and our family. I told her that I light the candle for everyone as well and I whisper to you every time I light it. She said that was perfect! Mom will light the candle around 4 pm when it starts getting dark and I will again whisper to you as I always do. Smile for me and I will smile back. I guess Bean is doing better. Her and her BF are starting to look for houses. That is good news for them! I have not heard from Bean in about 6 months. I really don't hear from anyone anymore. I basically have written all my so called friends. I only hear from them when they are bored and have no one else to talk to or have anywhere to go that day. I used to deal with it but no more. No more excuses about being busy either. They all make time for others and can't make time for me...not even 5 minutes then I don't need them in my life any longer. That was a hard pill to swallow but it had to be done. Some I just thought would never do that but I guess like everything else... life gives you surprises, ups and downs. It used to hurt Mom a lot and at times it still does but not like it used to. I will never wish ill on anyone ever, I wish them well in everything that life has to offer and move on and move forward.
 Today the weather was suppose to be sunny but guess what...it is not sunny at all. It is overcast and the once blue skies are turning gray. We are suppose to be getting rain again for the next 4 days...hmmm...imagine that! The weather was saying that the average rainfall that we get had tripled this year. I believe that! We have had almost all rain for the last 3 months with hardly any sunshine. Mom is thankful that it is still rain and not the nasty "s" word just yet but boy I am missing the dry, sunny days even if it is cold. We didn't have a Fall at all this year. The leaves have not really fallen all that much yet and the colors just seem to be turning a lot around here now. It is almost like we are a couple months behind in the weather. Tomorrow is November 1st. Crazy for sure. There are 4 weeks until Thanksgiving and 8 weeks until Christmas. Usually Mom has almost all the Christmas shopping done by now and I am working on wrapping but not this year. with the move and all I am so far behind. We all have decided that we are doing gift cards for everyone to make it easier. It works for me. Now all I have to do is make a list to see what I need to get...lol! I will do that over the weekend. Not much else for updates I am afraid. The phones are super quiet now and have been for about 3 weeks or more. I will touch base with everyone soon. Right now though, Mom needs to get going so that I can do a few things around the apartment and then get things set for the night routine later. I will be back tomorrow with a whole new set of pics for you for the month of November. Not sure what they will be but I will figure it out. I always do! I miss you like crazy and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will always be my super hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Have fun tonight while I sleep and come visit me in my dreams if you can. I would love that so much. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

Let those who fear the Lord say: "His love endures forever." When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord; he brought me into a spacious place. The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me? Psalm 118:4–6, NIV

Lord our God, dear Father in heaven, we thank you. How often you rescue us from all fear and distress! How often you hear and answer us! Grant that our hearts may always be eager and joyful because you answer us. There is nothing else for us in this world; you are our one hope, our only hope. You alone can help our times, help the nations, help each person. Nothing else matters to us. Lord our God, for the rest of our life on earth you alone are our help, our comfort, and our strength. Amen.