Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. I have been up since 7 am this morning. I did lounged in bed for a bit today and then got up and started my day by packing up my office. I originally thought I could pack it all in a couple boxes but because they were small boxes it took 8 of them. I packed everything up except my lamp and a picture of you. I needed to have that and not pack all the pictures away. Your picture is sitting on my desk so that I can look at it all the time. That makes me smile but it also makes me sad. I miss you so much and more than ever these days. Time does not make it better at all I am afraid. When I look at your picture and touch it, it seems like I can reach out and touch you but I can't. My heart hurts all the time for losing you so soon in life. Every one thinks that I am so strong for all that I have gone through and to a point they are all correct but no one sees the other side. The side that is crushed, always sad, in pain and tears constantly flowing from my eyes onto my face. I don't let them see it. I do it privately and I am okay with that. I know you see it though and I am sorry that you have to witness that but Mom loved you so much and I still do. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. Never not know that or feel that deep in your soul my sweet precious son. Anyways... I got off track... it took me about 90 minutes to pack my office which was not bad at all. I was going to pack some more tomorrow when it is just me here but I can't because I have no more boxes. We need to get more this weekend. Guess that is a good indication that I need a break. Mark packed some of his office as well. Looks like we have the bedroom which is not much at all, the 2 bathrooms, again not much at all and then the 2 closets. A lot of that is bigger stuff that can be brought over. We are in really good shape and I think a couple hours on both Saturday and Sunday and we will be finished up! It gives us a good idea on things so that when the time comes we know what to expect when we pack to move to a house! The rest of the day was getting ready, walking the pups as it is nice, windy and sunny out and then back inside to study. Mom did quite a bit today. Lots of writing today as well. My little hands are sore...lol. Tonight will be all about relaxing, having dinner, cleaning up and then snuggling on the couch and watching some TV before bed. It will be an early night as Mark is on the road first thing in the morning to the office for a full day and then again on Thursday. Mom will continue to study all day those days as well and should get a lot accomplished. 
 Last night Mom spoke to Grandpa and Debbie. We haven't chatted in a bit so that was nice. He was saying that he has been working like crazy lately. He will be fully retiring in about 5 weeks. I am happy to hear that as I think he is pushing himself. It is time for him to really just sit back and enjoy things now. Debbie goes to the doctors on Wednesday to see if everything is good. If so she can return to work in 2 weeks but if not then it will be another 4 weeks. I think she will do just fine. She feels great so that is always a bonus! Mom will touch base with them tomorrow evening to see how things went. I will also call Aunt Beck and Meme too. I should have more updates for you as the week progresses. 
 It is already after 5 pm and the pups just got fed. Mom needs to get going and get dinner started for us. I think tonight is pizza night...one of your favorites. The candle has been lit for you since early this morning. I will whisper to you as I always do later this evening so smile for me and I will smile for you. I hope your evening is everything you need and want it to be. Come be with me while I sleep or visit me in my dreams. Thank you so much. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Please give everyone hugs and kisses from me. I miss everyone so much and also give extra kisses to our sweet furbabies~ Daisey, Baxter, Spencer, Ziggy, Max, Snickers and Snapples. Thank you. Always remember that you are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

I always thank my God for you because of his grace given you in Christ Jesus. For in him you have been enriched in every way – with all kinds of speech and with all knowledge. 1 Corinthians 1:4–5, NIV

Lord our God, we thank you that you are so near to us that we may feel and know we are your children, your children who are in your hands with all that belongs to our earthly life, all our needs and temptations, all our efforts and pain. We come together to thank you, and our thanksgiving wins a victory over everything that makes life difficult for us. In this thanksgiving the harshness, crookedness, and injustice on earth cannot harm us. Protect us with your light, which gives us wisdom for all situations and which lifts us above everything that is base and meaningless and must pass away. Amen.