Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? As you could see, Mom had a pretty tough day today especially this morning. I don’t and won’t share the details because it is really not necessary but I know you know what happened. Mom would be lying if I said that I was doing okay because honestly last night and today has emotionally drained me. Right now I should not even be writing to you or doing anything but sitting back and doing nothing as my head is all over the place right now. My mind is going crazy but Mom wanted to write to you. I was hoping that with doing so maybe there would be a slim chance that I could forget a few things even if it was just for a few minutes. Writing to you always makes me feel closer to you. I find peace in it as well. Mom wants you to know that I am doing okay despite everything. I am like Great Grammy... I am a tough cookie 🍪. I wish that you were here though. Your voice and advice always helped me. You were wiser beyond your years my sweet precious son. Mom misses you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will always be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you are in my heart, mind, body and soul. 
 Not much for updates for you tonight. Last night was pretty quiet like I knew it would be. Mom ate dinner and pretty much watched tv for the night and said nothing at all. I went to bed around 9 pm because I was not feeling that well. Grandpa called last night but I didn’t answer it. I felt guilty not answering it but I didn’t feel like pretending that everything was going good when it wasn’t. I didn’t want to lie so I just let the machine pick it up. I will get in touch with him tomorrow night to say hello. I will call Meme too. I will update you on things as I know of them. 
 Right now I am writing to you on my iPad while sitting on the couch. I never turned my computer on at all today. Mom will relax for a bit and then head to bed. My head is pounding and I still don’t feel all that great. Hoping for a good night sleep and maybe by morning Mom will feel better. The weather was cold and rainy all day long. The wind is pretty nasty too. I think it will end later this evening and tomorrow will be dry and cloudy.  The wild card games for football started today. Right now it is the Houston Texans vs Colts. Mom thought that the Texans would take it and Inwas hoping but no chance. Colts are winning 21 to 0. Later the Cowboys play the Seahawks. You know Mom, I want the Cowboys to win but the odds are pretty slim. I think the Seahawks are going to take it. Patriots have a biweekly this week so they will play next week. Not much else to tell. Mom will write to you again tomorrow when I get back from running errands. I hope that your evening is everything you need and want it to be. Mom will whisper to you later tonight so be listening for my voice. Smile when you hear me and I will smile back to you. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Mom would love tha. Thank you pumpkin. Mom is going to get going for now because my head is killing me. Until tomorrow comes.... good night and sweet dreams. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🖤