Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Today is February 14th and it is Valentine's Day. Mom has always called it the "Hallmark Holiday".....lol. I sure do miss you so much. Every Valentine's Day I would come in to see you and ask you to be my valentine. You would smile and say yes and would give me a kiss on the cheek. I know we can no longer see each other in the physical form but I still am going to ask you....Tyler, my sweet precious son, will you be Mom's Valentine? I sure hope that just made you laugh and smile because it made Mom smile. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You really are my true hero and the wind beneath my wings. You will forever be inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
 Last night was a challenging evening for Mom in a few ways. I thought that I was really ready to have some real solid food and boy I was so wrong with that. My stomach was hurting and I was up until 1 am this morning in the bathroom. This stomach bug is hell and it really likes to linger around. Every one else who has had it says the same thing. I think I was able to get to sleep around 1:30 am. I believe that is the last time I looked at the clock. Mom is feeling better today but I am just tired. I am on my computer in the office right now writing to you but after I will be going out to the couch and doing some studying there so that the pups can chill out with me. Mark decided to go to the office today for some reason. He has been acting pretty weird lately. He would usually call when he is on the road and he has not been doing that. It is pretty sad to be admitting and seeing but we are growing further apart then closer. Mom will not give up trying to make this work but I can't be the only one. It has been pretty tough the last week to try and talk to him because of one of his brothers being around and he will be here next week as well....even closer so Mom will just wait to try to talk to him at some point the week after next when his brother is back to traveling to his next job. I know you are seeing all of it first hand and I know you must be worried about Mom. I want you to know that I am doing okay. Yes it makes me sad and it hurts but I am okay. Hopefully things will get better but only time will tell on that. Anyways..... something else happened last night that made Mom very sad. I was off social media for a bit so that I could have dinner and just relax but at one point I jumped on real quick to see what was going on. I saw something that a friend had posted and it really confused me so I went and started looking around. I saw other comments as well. Mom was in shock to find out that a sweet friend of your Dad and I's unexpectedly passed away yesterday afternoon. I am not sure if you remember him or not because you were just a peanut but Mike would come around to our place and hang out on the weekends and jam with your Dad. When Uncle Keith passed away, Mike and your Dad were up for hours writing a song and music for him in our living room. We would go over to his parents house and you would play with a couple other kids. He was the one who just lost his Mom 3 months ago. My heart is broken for his wife and his immediate family as they have lost 2 important people in 3 months. Mom can't even imagine the pain that they are all feeling and are in. No one really knows as to what happened to Mike yesterday. His wife was worried as he had not come home from work. I guess she and a few people that work  at the school where he worked at found his body lifeless laying on the floor. An autopsy will be performed to see the cause though. I just hope whatever happened to him, whether it be a heart attack, stroke, or he did something to himself.... it was quick, painless and that he is at peace now. Mom is sure that it was a special reunion between a mother and he son again in heaven. The thought of that made me cry last night. I told Mike that if he saw you to give you a hug and kiss from me. I sure do hope you get it. To Mike: You were a wonderful man, a sweet friend and a pure soul. You had a heart of gold and I will never forget all the times we all hung out, all the laughs we shared and conversations we had. You were loved very much by so many family and friends. We all were bless to have you in our lives. You will be missed dearly. May you R. I. P. now for eternal life and spread those wings and fly high and free. I have no doubt that there will be some jamming going on with you and Keith as well. Rock on my friend and drift away xoxo.
 Nothing much else is really going on right now. Mark is crazy at work and has very little time between working and sleeping to do much of anything. Mom is back to studying a little each day. Not back to it for full days but I am trucking along the best I can right now. Our family is doing okay. There are some things going on with Aunt Shirley and Richard. I pray for everyone each night. I haven't spoken to Aunt Beck in almost a month but I hopefully will very soon. I will keep you updated as I know of things! 
 I hope that your evening will be filled with everything that you need and want it to be. I am sure you are busy but I hope you can come visit me in my dreams tonight. I would love to see you, my sweet valentine. Mom will light the candle for you later this afternoon and I will whisper to you later tonight. Smile for me and I will smile for you. I will be back again tomorrow with another letter to you. For now Mom needs to get to doing some studying and cracking the books. I can't believe that it is already 1 pm. Thanks for the bright sunny day and blue skies. Hopefully there will be an amazing sunset later. Guess that is a hint....lol. Until tomorrow comes, Tyler.....know that you are my bright shining star that is helping Mom pave her way in this world. Good night and sweet dreams. I love you with all my heart.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the pray for the day:

 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. Romans 5:1-5, NIV

Lord our God, keep us in the grace that is ours through Jesus Christ. Uphold others also in this grace. Reveal yourself everywhere to those who trust in you and who await your kingdom. May your blessing be on our household. We thank you for helping us, and with your help we want to be faithful to you. Then when hardships come, we can be certain of your presence. We know and trust you. We know and trust the Savior, and we know and trust the Holy Spirit, in whom we can have community and be strengthened to serve your glory. Amen.