Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday late afternoon? Mom is not going to lie at all.... I am so tired I can't even see straight. I did what I said I was going to do last night and I took a long bubble bath and then climbed into bed and actually wrote in my journal and then watched some TV. I turned the TV off around 10 pm because I was so sleepy. I slept until 2 am and then I was up until 4:30 am and then fell back to sleep until 7 am. Mom is just not sleeping all that well and I am not eating that much either. I really haven't been taking care of myself the last 4 or 5 days. I need to start because it is taking a toll on me and my body. 
 Mom wanted to write to you now because I plan on jumping off my computer for the night and going to make dinner and then relax for the entire evening. I will be going to bed very early this evening. I need a solid night sleep that is for sure. 
 The weather today was cloudy and overcast. No blue skies or sun today. I didn't even know that we were in for 3-5" of snow this evening and then ice tomorrow morning. All of a sudden we are starting to get all the snow and it is accumulating so late in the season. Usually by this time we get a couple inches of snow here and there but no major storms. This winter has been crazy. I sure hope we only get the 3" and it melts fast. I want to see grass again and soon. In a couple weeks we will be turning the clocks ahead again and that means longer days and it stays lighter out at night. I can't wait for that. I am anxious to be able to leave the balcony door open for the warm breeze. That kind of weather will be here shortly.
 So, I wanted to share the latest of what is going on here. Like I said last night I stayed to myself. Mark was either on his phone or playing a video game with his brother on the computer. I don't even know what time he went to bed on the couch because I was already asleep and when I woke up he was sleeping. we tried to talk for a bit, not long but I think both of us were just done at that point from everything that happened through out the day. We said that we would revisit it again this morning but we have not had a chance to talk because something came up with his work and that took all day to do. Mom studied anyways and finished her latest exam. I will look it over tomorrow before submitting it. I guess the plan is to do some talking tonight and see what happens from there. I know that things have been pretty heated and nasty here the last few days and nights but that happens in a marriage. Maybe not to these extremes but they do happen. I don't know if either of us really want to stop fighting or trying for this marriage to work. I know that a lot has been said and done on both our parts and if that is what we choose to do then it is going to take a lot of time and work to try and make this succeed. I guess Mom will have more answers tomorrow after our conversation later this evening. 
 It is already going on 4:30 pm and the sky is really showing that it is about to start snowing at any time. Mom needs to get dinner going and also I need to feed the pups early as they got fed early this morning. Mom hopes that your night is everything that you want and need it to be. Have fun while I sleep and I sure hope you have time to come be with me or visit me in my dreams. I will light the candle for you this evening and I will whisper to you later tonight. I miss you so much my sweet precious son and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will always be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you are living in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you and hope to be able to tell you that I passed my exam as well. My fingers are crossed. Until tomorrow.... good night and sweet dreams my bright shining star. Never stop helping Mom by leading the way for me. Thank you pumpkin!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in. Proverbs 3:11-12, NIV

Lord our God, we thank you that in spite of all the evil, we may look toward the good and toward a change for the better. For your love, your Spirit of love, can be with us. In spite of all that has gone wrong, we can change. Through genuine faith we can become worthy in your sight. Everything can turn to the good. The nations can become glad, rejoicing in life because you are working among them to help them change. Amen.