Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Today is July 1st. Hard to believe that we are in the 7th month of this year already. It is crazy but we are! Mom is not really having the best of days. I am tired for some reason. I thought that I got some pretty good sleep last night but I guess I was wrong or perhaps it could be because I just feel depressed and defeated with everything that is going on. Just a couple weeks ago Mark and Mom were on cloud nine with how things were going. We were getting so much accomplished and now we are just back to square one and trying to make this relocation all work. We talk to our realtor almost daily if not multiple times a day. She is so nice and sweet. She is such a huge help to us. I think that Mom may be tired because I am constantly stressing myself out when it comes to this house hunting thing. I am doing it pretty much 6-8 hours a day...searching and looking and I am beside myself at this point. I know that for whatever reasons the other ones did not work and they were not the right ones for us but Mom is hoping and praying that we will find the right one and soon. Please whatever you may be able to do from where you are to help Mom out would be so appreciated. Direct me in the direction that I need to be going in. Thank you my sweet precious son.
Mom has spoken to everyone over the weekend and everyone seems to be doing alright. I will touch base in a couple days seeings how everyone has a long weekend due to the holiday on Thursday. I will update as I know of things.
Mom found an interesting read this morning that a friend posted and I wanted to share it with you on here because it is all true and it it the way Mom feels most of the time. Here is the article:
To The One Watching Me From Heaven, I Miss You More Than You’ll Ever Realize:
Without you in my arms, I feel an emptiness in my soul. I find myself searching the crowds for your face—I know it’s an impossibility, but I cannot help myself. -Nicholas Sparks
Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you. You’re often on my mind and I can’t help but wonder how different life would be if you were still with walking, breathing, living on this earthwith us. I miss you so much.
I think about all the things we could be doing together, the special moments we could be sharing and the new memories we could be creating. I wonder about the different path our lives would be on if you were still around and it breaks me inside to realize it’s all wishful thinking.
My heart is still foreign to the idea of not having you around.
I catch myself trying to call you, an involuntary reaction to my desperate need of not wanting to accept that you’re gone. It hurts, it burns my soul and I try to keep it together, but the truth is, I carry a heavy heart and I don’t know if I’ll ever recover.
I know that life should go on and that with time the pain will subside. I know you wouldn’t want me to live my life in grief and pain but I can’t help to shed tears when our memories still feel so recent and so real. I’m just not ready to go on with my life while I still carry you so close to my heart.
Maybe I’m afraid to forget every single second we spent together, the sound of your voice, your laugh and even the deepness of your eyes.
Even if I don’t think that could ever be possible, I fear that if I ever come to terms with your departure, the memory of you will fade away.
So, I’m sorry I can’t move on, I’m sorry I cry at night and hope for the impossible. I can’t turn back time and bring you back, but at least I can try to retain every single memory of you fresh in my mind for longer.
I have to believe that you’re watching me from heaven. I’d like to think that you’re an angel protecting and guarding us all.
I promise to continue living my life honoring yours. Whatever I do and wherever I go, I’ll always feel your sparkle in my heart. I hope to make you proud and that wherever you are, you’re able to feel how much I remember you and love you.
So true my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and beyond all the stars. All the way around the world. I miss you more than words can say. I will whisper to you later tonight so smile for me and I will smile for you. I will light your candle as well. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you but for now I must get going so that I can get dinner for Mark and I. Have fun tonight while I get some sleep and come visit me in my dreams if you can. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
TODAY'S DAILY PRAYER
People will come from east and west and north and south, and will take their places at the feast in the kingdom of God. Indeed there are those who are last who will be first, and first who will be last. Luke 13:29–30, NIV
Dear Father in heaven, Almighty God, grant that the nations come under your rule, under your judgment from morning to evening, from east to west, from north to south. For your will must be done, and your name must be honored among all nations. Yours alone is the kingdom; all kingdoms belong to you. Your heavenly kingdom must come so that at last we learn to be at peace and become your children, who submit to you. For your Christ shall carry out your loving, merciful, and perfect will throughout the world. We thank you for all the good you want to provide for us. May your angels watch over us this night. Be with us in all we do or leave undone. Help us with your strong hands, that we may rejoice at heart in all the good you give us. Amen.
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