Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I was up again at 7 am and fed the pups, made Mark coffee and then lounged in bed for about an hour before having to get up and get ready to start the day. Mark had a PT appointment at 11 am so Mom needed to be ready for that. We left the apartment at 10:30 am and got back at 12:45 pm. Mom made some lunch for us while Mark went straight to work. I ate and then I have been chatting with a couple people on line. A friend that Mom has known for my entire life...literally. We are 3 months to the day apart and also I have been chatting with Megan. She was telling me that her and her fiancee are splitting up and she will be doing the single mom's club with her 2 and 4 year old children. That was sad to hear. I know that she will be okay though because she will have a wonderful support system to guide her through this tough time. She is beautiful and eventually she will find a man who will love her and children. I know you will watch over her as well. She knows this too. She wanted to put a Nightmare before Christmas figure at your resting place but Mom told her not to because I didn't want to see it get stolen. I suggested that she take a picture of you, place it in a frame and put the figure next to it. That way you will always see it and smile. She loved that idea. So when you see it know that you are more than loved by so many people. Mom can't wait to unpack everything so that I can see your pictures again and set up your memorial wall. It won't be long now though. We have 26 days until we are on a plane and flying South. I hope that you send me signs to let me know you are near me. i will be needing that so much. Thank you!
 Well today is Mark's Birthday! He is the Big 5-0. We went to the store after his PT appointment and he picked out what he wanted me to make him for dinner. Homemade lasagna it is and for dessert it will be cake and ice cream. Several family and friends have sent him birthday wishes which is so sweet. He just wants a quiet evening tonight and that is what he will get. Last night he worked until 9 pm. I felt so bad. Mom ate dinner alone and watched tv until about 8 pm and then I went into the bedroom and relaxed. I think I was ready to go to sleep by 11 pm. Again, another night of very little sleep. Hoping this pattern changes and soon! 
 Mark has been very busy all day since we got home. Poor guy needs a break. Maybe Mom will draw him a nice hot bath this evening so that he can just relax for a bit. I try to take the burden of things off him but I don't think I am doing a good job at it. He works so hard! Mom is going to try and make this day extra special after he is done work. It is after 3 pm so he has a couple hours left and that is it. Mom needs to get going so that I can start prepping the dinner and get it in the oven and cooked by 5:30 pm. I will be back tomorrow afternoon after I pay the bills, do the grocery shopping and then the phone calls that I need to make. I hope that you have fun tonight doing all the things that you need and want to do. Come visit Mom if you can in my dreams. I miss you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will light your candle tonight and whisper to you later so smile for me and I will smile to you. Please watch over us all and keep us safe, happy and healthy. Thank you, Tyler. Until tomorrow comes.....good night and sweet dreams later.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

 The twelve gates were twelve pearls, each gate made of a single pearl. The great street of the city was of gold, as pure as transparent glass. I did not see a temple in the city, because the Lord God Almighty and the Lamb are its temple. The city does not need the sun or the moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and the Lamb is its lamp. Revelation 21:21–23, NIV

Lord our God, we thank you that you have given us your glorious future as the basis for our lives. We thank you that on this foundation we can forget our present troubles and believe that the power of good can move us today to oppose sin, death, and everything evil. Free our hearts from all burdens, and grant that we may have courage to wait patiently for the great help which is to come. Grant that what is happening in the world today may somehow help toward the solution of all the problems. We praise your name, our Father in the heavens. We praise you for the good you do for us each day and for the light you will shed one day on everything on earth, to the glory of your name. Amen.