Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon?  Mom is doing ok....I am sorry that I was not able to write to you yesterday but Mom was just not in a good head space at all and it would have not been a very nice email so I actually chose not to write to you or talk to anyone at all for that matter. I basically closed my door all day and stayed by myself and then last night I sat in bed until 10 pm and watched tv alone as well. Mark did whatever in his office which I was just fine with. I was in no mood to talk to anyone. Mom is angry, upset and very hurt. Let Mom explain about why....

I has expressed to you on the last letter the other day what was going on where Mom was going to get a vehicle and then Meme threw a hissy fit and said she wanted one. She didn't talk to me for a couple days...well fast forward to yesterday and today....Meme said that she was not going to get that vehicle because it was too much money. I looked yesterday morning and realized that she lied to Mom as she was in the process of purchasing it. About an hour later I found out that the vehicle that I was going to be getting was still at a stand still and not going anywhere. I was told to start looking for something different. I was crushed. Not only was Mom not getting the car of her dreams for her Birthday but Meme was now getting one and I get to be reminded of that every single day. Hers arrives on Monday. She went from all pissy to a little girl laughing and giggling. Mom didn't want to deal with it. How she went about this was all wrong. The whole thing. Now she is rubbing it in my face giving me a play by play to what is going on. I don't want to hear about it. I just don't. She had the nerve to say that I couldn't be happy for her....ya know what... she is right...not because I am jealous but because Mom is so angry at what she did and how she was to me. She couldn't be happy for me last weekend. She has been needing all kinds of help with this vehicle and Mom told her to have Bob help her as I am not going to. With everything that she has said and done and acted...she just has so much nerve to expect Mom to help her out. I won't and I don't have too. That may sound childish but I don't intend it to be that way. Mom is just tired of being lied to and hurt by people that I love....especially your own mother. That is not right....not at all. It is bad enough that I have to see it every day sitting in the driveway as a reminder what Mark was going to do for Mom and now that is not happening. It stings just like losing the sale of the house did 2 weeks ago.  I guess Mom was not suppose to get this car. I don't know. It just hurts like hell. I just want to be alone and listen to music and do my own thing. I don't want to have small talk or pretend to be in a good mood. I just want to be alone and try and process everything in my own way. Yesterday was so much worse than today so that is why Mom didn't write to you. I didn't want the letter to be nasty and I know it would have been. I am sure you have seen that Mom has been keeping her door shut and staying to herself yesterday and today. For the most part, everyone is leaving me alone. Mark comes in from time to time to check on me and that is about it. I don't feel sorry that Meme can't do the things she needs for this vehicle on her own. She wanted it...she needs to do it...period! She always wants everyone to do everything for her now. NOT! Doesn't work that way at all! The other thing that makes Mom see red is that she can just magically come up with a very large...2 figures amount of money to get this vehicle and for 18 months she can't help us or pay us to live here....There are so many variables to this whole thing.....UGH! Anyways...enough of this! 

Not much else is going on. No updates on anything. I spoke to Auntie Kristina for a bit but that is it. Nothing from our family. Maybe over the weekend. I hope to give you some kind of updates soon. Tonight, Mom will be going to bed early. The last couple nights I have not slept well. I have tossed and turned and just been miserable. I hope to get a very good nights rest. I will whisper to you before I go to bed though. Smile for Mom and I will smile to you. Have fun while I get some much needed rest. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Mom will be back over the weekend with another letter to you. I have some things going on Saturday so Mom is not sure if I will be on the computer tomorrow or if it will be Sunday. I think it is suppose to rain again Sunday so that will most likely be the day. If I get the chance though I will write a short letter to you tomorrow as well. 

Please watch over Mom and all of us. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. I wish I could hear your voice again. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You forever live in my heart, my mind, my body and my soul. 

It's that time of day to get things ready for the night routine. It is after 4:15 pm. I must close for right now. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💚