Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is very angry right at this moment in time. I am beside myself at this point and I am not happy. I will explain in a bit down below. Today's weather is sunny and a bit on the warm side. Everything that my mood is not right now. It looks so bright and cheerful outdoors. It is after 4 pm and Mom just got done doing a few things. I needed to come in my office and write to you to try and calm down as I am in such a rage right now it is not funny. I am so beyond angry that I am having a hard time typing because I am shaking so bad. I am on the verge of angry tears too. 

Yesterday on Easter, we all busted our butts to finish up all that we needed to do for the moves that are coming on Wednesday morning. we didn't celebrate the holiday as we all knew that we needed to get these things done. We hadn't heard anything as of 1:30 pm so Mom decided to message our realtor. She said nothing was told her her at that point either. I flat out asked what we should be expecting at this point. She said that the buyer was supposedly all set on his end now and we were now waiting on the appraiser to get the paperwork in. He had until April 4th...yesterday to finish it up to submit it. She left me know that she is concerned at this point because she doesn't think the closing will be on Thursday now. I told her that we have appliances being delivered on Friday morning and installs happening Thursday afternoon and Friday. We have the movers coming to take our stuff in less than 48 hrs, etc.... we have things being disconnected at this house as well again and being connected there at the new home. Mom is ready to say #@&%#&@ to this whole thing and call it all off. I have worked so hard to do everything just to have this happen for the 2nd time. I blame the buyer for waiting so long and I blame the appraiser for not doing his job on time either. I am so angry right now that I don't want to talk to anyone, see anyone or deal with anyone. I am basically done with all the BS....

I am so sorry. Mom should not be writing to you with this frame of mind. I really shouldn't be talking or showing these emotions like this on here but this is real life. This stuff happens and these emotions are real and raw. I wish I could tell you that I am doing better or I am ok but I can't, Tyler. I know you are seeing this all and I am sorry. If I could change it I would but I can't right now. I have to let myself go through these emotions so that I can release it all. I am sure that you understand all of it. 

I guess tonight will be nothing about relaxing and gathering a list of calls I need to make starting early in the morning. Mom's day will be on the phone and canceling things again.... this is the 2nd time I have had to do this crap. Now because of it...things are going to be on our terms and no one else at all. People are not going to like me but I don't care. Mom was hoping for a good night sleep tonight as I didn't get one last night but now I am not so sure about things. I will try. I can't light the candle warmer and I can't light a candle as I have none available but i will be thinking of you. I will whisper to you before I try and fall asleep. Smile for Mom and I will smile back to you. Have fun and I hope you do all the things you need to do and want to do. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. 

This letter is nothing of what I wanted it to be and again Mom apologizes about this but I can't help it. I am human and I feel what I feel and when I feel it. I will promise to do my best to calm down. I think I am going to take a long hot shower to clear my head. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you and I promise to be in a better frame of mind. I miss you more than words. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Please be with Mom right now. I need you. Please keep us healthy and safe. Thank you my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams later.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💛