Dear Tyler,

Hello my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? The weather here is so dang hot and humid. It is making your Momma sick. I have such a huge headache. It sucks. You go outside and you suck in your breath to get familiar with the weather. These next 3 months are going to be pure hell with the humidity. I will get through it though. Won't be doing much either, but that is fine.
 Bonnie is here visiting again for a few days. She will be watching the dogs for us as we travel back to NH this week. We leave on Wednesday morning. Please be with us as we travel home. I know you will be right with me or flying with the plane! Thank you so much for that. You know me and flying....lol  :)
 These last several days have been so busy for me with packing and getting things set. I have been up to my ears with everything so it will be nice to just chill and relax the day we are flying. I have been thinking about you so much more than what I usually do. I know this is because it is coming close to your 1 year Anniversary. I just can't believe that it will be 1 year without you. It makes me so sad and breaks my heart. I hate it. I never thought I would have to live my life without you in it. My life has changed so much since you have left. Most of the time I don't know what I am doing or what I want to do with my life now. I know I need to do something.. I guess I am just still so lost. Nothing matters to me anymore. I just go with the day and I get through it. I know this is not what you want to hear or see, but I just can't help it. I miss you so much! I love you Tyler. I just hope that you are happy now. I know that you are happy as far as not having anymore limitations to have to live with. I am sure that you are learning so much more and that all the questions that you never got answered here you got answered when you passed. That honestly makes me happy for you pumpkin. I know all those years you wondered why? What was your purpose, etc...? Know it is my curiosity to wonder why.
 I am hoping that the sky is clear this evening so that I can see the stars shining brightly. If not I know you will still be shining up there in the Heavens. I will whisper to you as I always do. I hope you will be able to hear me. Please know I think of you every second of every minute of every day. You are forever in my mind, heart, thoughts and soul.
 I will write to you more later...until then...fly high and fly free my precious son. I love you. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!