These are my letters to Tyler. They are the conversations that we would have on a daily basis. We can't do that any more. In some small way, this is my tribute to my son and probably my way of healing. Every night we would talk about everything. I can still do that, and I know he's listening.
Thursday, December 31, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening... New Years Eve? Mom is hoping that you are spending it with family & friends somewhere warm & sunny. Here, it is so cold & pretty foggy tonight. Mark & Mom are not going anywhere tonight. Staying in & watching the ball drop on the tv....lol. Exciting huh? These days it is tough to go anywhere & enjoy the night life. So much is happening around the world & it is not worth taking chances on. I think we will be able to see the fireworks that will be lit off from the city. Hope so because the 4th of July fireworks were really pretty. Mom always thinks of you when I see them as it was always something we like doing together. I can't believe it is another year ending & a new one beginning. Time is flying by my sweet precious son. 2016 will be 3 years since I have seen your face, heard your voice, seen that smile, heard that laugh.... I miss it so much Tyler. I miss you like crazy. Nothing is the same anymore. Mom tries but you know just how hard it still is for me. I don't think it will ever get any easier. Mom will go into 2016 with a positive attitude though. I will look to getting my certification done, getting a job & doing new things. Maybe that will help me but I am not sure. I know you will be with me & by my side every step of the way though & for that I thank you!
Here are the daily prayers that Mom needs to catch up on. December 30~ For all the Gods of the nations are idols: but the Lord made the heavens. Lord, as I clean out closets & make lists for the New Year, show me any Gods I have placed before you. Help me to look honestly at how I spend my time & my money. Does one of these areas of investment reveal a strong allegiance to something other than you? If so, Lord, help me eradicate those distractions from my life once & for all. Amen.
December 31~ O Lord, bless our life stages, for they read like growth rings on a mighty tree: our beginnings & firsts with excitement, newness, & anxiety; our middles, full of diligence & commitment and yes, we confess, sometimes boredom, but also risk & derring-do; our " nexts " , the harvests & reapings; the slowing down & freedom. In your hands this time can be rich & full like an overflowing cup, not a last or a final or an empty or ending stage at all. You are Alpha & Omega God, the parentheses between which we live, move, & have our being. Bless our comings & goings. Amen.
All caught up again.... The evening sky is upon us & Mom is not sure that I will see anything shining in the sky tonight but I will look anyways. Mom will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. I love you to the moon & back 7 all the way around the world. Mom hopes that your evening is all that you need & want it to be. Relax if you can & get some sleep. Sweet dreams to you & come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. Please watch over our family & friends too. Thanks Tyler. It means so much to Mom.
Please always remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Happy New Year 2016. I miss you so xoxoxo. Love you!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening... New Years Eve? Mom is hoping that you are spending it with family & friends somewhere warm & sunny. Here, it is so cold & pretty foggy tonight. Mark & Mom are not going anywhere tonight. Staying in & watching the ball drop on the tv....lol. Exciting huh? These days it is tough to go anywhere & enjoy the night life. So much is happening around the world & it is not worth taking chances on. I think we will be able to see the fireworks that will be lit off from the city. Hope so because the 4th of July fireworks were really pretty. Mom always thinks of you when I see them as it was always something we like doing together. I can't believe it is another year ending & a new one beginning. Time is flying by my sweet precious son. 2016 will be 3 years since I have seen your face, heard your voice, seen that smile, heard that laugh.... I miss it so much Tyler. I miss you like crazy. Nothing is the same anymore. Mom tries but you know just how hard it still is for me. I don't think it will ever get any easier. Mom will go into 2016 with a positive attitude though. I will look to getting my certification done, getting a job & doing new things. Maybe that will help me but I am not sure. I know you will be with me & by my side every step of the way though & for that I thank you!
Here are the daily prayers that Mom needs to catch up on. December 30~ For all the Gods of the nations are idols: but the Lord made the heavens. Lord, as I clean out closets & make lists for the New Year, show me any Gods I have placed before you. Help me to look honestly at how I spend my time & my money. Does one of these areas of investment reveal a strong allegiance to something other than you? If so, Lord, help me eradicate those distractions from my life once & for all. Amen.
December 31~ O Lord, bless our life stages, for they read like growth rings on a mighty tree: our beginnings & firsts with excitement, newness, & anxiety; our middles, full of diligence & commitment and yes, we confess, sometimes boredom, but also risk & derring-do; our " nexts " , the harvests & reapings; the slowing down & freedom. In your hands this time can be rich & full like an overflowing cup, not a last or a final or an empty or ending stage at all. You are Alpha & Omega God, the parentheses between which we live, move, & have our being. Bless our comings & goings. Amen.
All caught up again.... The evening sky is upon us & Mom is not sure that I will see anything shining in the sky tonight but I will look anyways. Mom will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. I love you to the moon & back 7 all the way around the world. Mom hopes that your evening is all that you need & want it to be. Relax if you can & get some sleep. Sweet dreams to you & come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. Please watch over our family & friends too. Thanks Tyler. It means so much to Mom.
Please always remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Happy New Year 2016. I miss you so xoxoxo. Love you!
Tuesday, December 29, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday night? The weather here did exactly what it said that it was going to do.... it started at midnight & it was snow & then changed over to sleet & freezing rain & stayed that way through the entire night & into all today. We only got about 1/2" of snow & then the rest was ice. Looked like a skating rink out there. The temp was so cold & windy too. It was 26 degrees at 8 pm last night & didn't really get any warmer. Do you remember those winter days? I know that you hated them. You hated winter because it limited you even more. We both would get really sad during the months of December through March. Mark & Mom were blessed today because we did not have to go out in any of this weather. Mom prayed this morning that folks that needed to go to work & drive in this weather would be safe. There was already 6 or more accidents before 10 am hit this morning. Just awful.
I know that you were watching over Meme & Bob as they were traveling in this weather today. They got over 4" of snow. Thank you for looking after them. Means a lot to Mom. I have no updates for you right now as I am sure that everyone is busy because of the snow. Mom hopes to have some for you in the next couple of days. Only 2 more days in this year & then it will be 2016. Can you believe it? Mark & Mom are not going anywhere this year. Staying home & just relaxing. We will be able to see the fireworks in Boston from our balcony so that will be cool. We got to see them on the 4th of July as well. It was nice not to go anywhere. Mom will make sure that I whisper to you as I always do when they are going off. You loved fireworks just as much as I do.
Here is your daily prayer for today. December 29~ In this world where human love is unconditional & often temporary, it is a joy to know that God loves us unconditionally & eternally. Nothing we can say or do will cause him to stop loving us. Our minds cannot even imagine the immensity of his love for each person on this planet. He sent his son here to deliver that message of love personally. When he died for us, he was saying through his action, " I love you. " God remains always ready to lavish his love on his children. May I open my heart to receive all the love he has to offer. Amen.
The night sky is nothing but clouds. There will not be anything shining in the sky for us to see here but I know you are shining somewhere bright for someone to see. I will whisper to you as I always do so hopefully you will be listening for Mom's voice. Hope that you have a wonderful, restful & peaceful evening. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Get a chance to relax & get some sleep. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Come see me in my dreams tonight when I fall asleep tonight. I miss you so much. I miss you like crazy. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Please remember that, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
PS Mom will be posting a couple different pictures tonight that I think that you will like & will make you smile. Enjoy. Love you, pumpkin!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday night? The weather here did exactly what it said that it was going to do.... it started at midnight & it was snow & then changed over to sleet & freezing rain & stayed that way through the entire night & into all today. We only got about 1/2" of snow & then the rest was ice. Looked like a skating rink out there. The temp was so cold & windy too. It was 26 degrees at 8 pm last night & didn't really get any warmer. Do you remember those winter days? I know that you hated them. You hated winter because it limited you even more. We both would get really sad during the months of December through March. Mark & Mom were blessed today because we did not have to go out in any of this weather. Mom prayed this morning that folks that needed to go to work & drive in this weather would be safe. There was already 6 or more accidents before 10 am hit this morning. Just awful.
I know that you were watching over Meme & Bob as they were traveling in this weather today. They got over 4" of snow. Thank you for looking after them. Means a lot to Mom. I have no updates for you right now as I am sure that everyone is busy because of the snow. Mom hopes to have some for you in the next couple of days. Only 2 more days in this year & then it will be 2016. Can you believe it? Mark & Mom are not going anywhere this year. Staying home & just relaxing. We will be able to see the fireworks in Boston from our balcony so that will be cool. We got to see them on the 4th of July as well. It was nice not to go anywhere. Mom will make sure that I whisper to you as I always do when they are going off. You loved fireworks just as much as I do.
Here is your daily prayer for today. December 29~ In this world where human love is unconditional & often temporary, it is a joy to know that God loves us unconditionally & eternally. Nothing we can say or do will cause him to stop loving us. Our minds cannot even imagine the immensity of his love for each person on this planet. He sent his son here to deliver that message of love personally. When he died for us, he was saying through his action, " I love you. " God remains always ready to lavish his love on his children. May I open my heart to receive all the love he has to offer. Amen.
The night sky is nothing but clouds. There will not be anything shining in the sky for us to see here but I know you are shining somewhere bright for someone to see. I will whisper to you as I always do so hopefully you will be listening for Mom's voice. Hope that you have a wonderful, restful & peaceful evening. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Get a chance to relax & get some sleep. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Come see me in my dreams tonight when I fall asleep tonight. I miss you so much. I miss you like crazy. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Please remember that, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
PS Mom will be posting a couple different pictures tonight that I think that you will like & will make you smile. Enjoy. Love you, pumpkin!
Monday, December 28, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? I hope that you are somewhere warm & sunny & not anywhere near what we are feeling right now. It is so cold outside, the wind is whipping to the point that it stings your face when it hits you. Tonight, is the 1st night that we will be getting snow, sleet & freezing rain. I guess the weather said it was suppose to start at 5 am but it is now moved up to 12 midnight. Yikes.... this is not going to be good.
Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but we left NH at 9 am & we made good time. We arrived home at 11:45 am to absolutely no power. Guess it went out at 7 am. We got into our apartment, put everything away & then we went grocery shopping & then out to dinner for our Anniversary. Yep, Mark & Mom celebrated our 1st Anniversary. Can't believe that it has already been a year married & 4 years together. I am sure that you were looking down on us & smiling.
Mom has no new updates for you tonight as I have not talked to anyone. Maybe I will have some tomorrow but not sure due to the weather. I do however have a couple daily prayers for you so here they are. December 27~ And all they that heard it wondered at those things which were told them by the shepherds. But Mary kept all these things, & pondered them in her heart. Mary delighted in her son. What an honor it was to have such an intimate connection to Jesus. And what a wonderful, loving mother Mary was. As she listened to the amazing things the visiting shepherds had to say about her precious child, Mary quietly listened, pondering these things & filing them away in her heart. may all mothers look to Mary's example, Lord. May we parent generously & wisely, gently encouraging our children to look to your plans for their lives. Amen.
December 28~ There are three kinds of people in this world: Those who give off light, those who give off dark shadows, & those who give off nothing. Lord, help me to be a giver of light, a bearer of hope, a bringer of faith. For only light can dispel the darkness & only the light can brighten deadened places & brings them back to life. Jesus admonished us not to hide our light. We were not meant to cower fearfully amid the shadows or to huddle in dark corners undetected. We were meant to go forth into the world & shine. Amen.
Ok.... once again Mom is all caught up. Night is completely upon us now & it just keeps getting colder. Not sure Mom is ready for this weather but whether I like it or not it is coming. I can't believe that this Friday is New Years Day 2016. Wow... hard to believe that in 6 months it will be 3 years since you left this world. Makes me so sad. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart & soul. To the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Hope that your night is all that you need & want it to be. May you get some rest tonight & Mom wishes you sweet dreams. Come see me in my dreams. Please continue to watch over us as I know you always do. Thank you my sweet boy. I know that I will not see anything shining in the sky tonight as it is already cloudy but that is ok as I will whisper to you as I always do every night.
You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? I hope that you are somewhere warm & sunny & not anywhere near what we are feeling right now. It is so cold outside, the wind is whipping to the point that it stings your face when it hits you. Tonight, is the 1st night that we will be getting snow, sleet & freezing rain. I guess the weather said it was suppose to start at 5 am but it is now moved up to 12 midnight. Yikes.... this is not going to be good.
Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but we left NH at 9 am & we made good time. We arrived home at 11:45 am to absolutely no power. Guess it went out at 7 am. We got into our apartment, put everything away & then we went grocery shopping & then out to dinner for our Anniversary. Yep, Mark & Mom celebrated our 1st Anniversary. Can't believe that it has already been a year married & 4 years together. I am sure that you were looking down on us & smiling.
Mom has no new updates for you tonight as I have not talked to anyone. Maybe I will have some tomorrow but not sure due to the weather. I do however have a couple daily prayers for you so here they are. December 27~ And all they that heard it wondered at those things which were told them by the shepherds. But Mary kept all these things, & pondered them in her heart. Mary delighted in her son. What an honor it was to have such an intimate connection to Jesus. And what a wonderful, loving mother Mary was. As she listened to the amazing things the visiting shepherds had to say about her precious child, Mary quietly listened, pondering these things & filing them away in her heart. may all mothers look to Mary's example, Lord. May we parent generously & wisely, gently encouraging our children to look to your plans for their lives. Amen.
December 28~ There are three kinds of people in this world: Those who give off light, those who give off dark shadows, & those who give off nothing. Lord, help me to be a giver of light, a bearer of hope, a bringer of faith. For only light can dispel the darkness & only the light can brighten deadened places & brings them back to life. Jesus admonished us not to hide our light. We were not meant to cower fearfully amid the shadows or to huddle in dark corners undetected. We were meant to go forth into the world & shine. Amen.
Ok.... once again Mom is all caught up. Night is completely upon us now & it just keeps getting colder. Not sure Mom is ready for this weather but whether I like it or not it is coming. I can't believe that this Friday is New Years Day 2016. Wow... hard to believe that in 6 months it will be 3 years since you left this world. Makes me so sad. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart & soul. To the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Hope that your night is all that you need & want it to be. May you get some rest tonight & Mom wishes you sweet dreams. Come see me in my dreams. Please continue to watch over us as I know you always do. Thank you my sweet boy. I know that I will not see anything shining in the sky tonight as it is already cloudy but that is ok as I will whisper to you as I always do every night.
You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, December 26, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Saturday morning? It is the day after Christmas & Mom is still feeling really yucky. I had all intentions on writing to you last night but by the time we got back to the hotel at 7 pm, we were here for about 20 minutes & the Marion & Charlie stopped by with their new puppy & then another friend showed up with her 2 boys. The last of our guest left at 10:15 pm & then Mom did some organizing for a few minutes & then went to bed as I had such a headache. I know I did write Merry Christmas to you on her but I did on your facebook page for all to see. Did you see it? It was a picture of Jack & Zero. Hope you did & it made you happy & smile. Mom just didn't want you to think that I went the day without saying it or make you think that I was not thinking about you because I was all day long & I know somehow deep in my heart that you know that is the truth.
So the last 3 days we have been in NH. Mom has gotten to visit with Aunt Shirley, Grammy, Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Marion, Charlie & another friend of Mom's Christina. Got to speak to Aunt Beck & Brandy on the phone too. Wish I could have seen them both but hopefully soon. So hard to see everyone in a few short days but even harder when you are sick & don't want to see many people so that that don't get sick. It is tough. Today, Mom will come see you & visit for awhile & then we will spend a few more hours with Meme, Bob, Dad & Grandpa plus I will be seeing Auntie Kristina today for a few minutes. Not too long as I am still sick & I don't want them to get this nasty nasty cold. The rest of the day will be mellow as we leave early tomorrow morning to head back home. All in all Christmas was a good day, missed you so much & honestly I am glad that it is over with.
Things seem to be good with all our family & friends. Bob is on a new medicine that is making him dizzy though but he will be calling the doctor this coming week & being taken off that medicine. He looks good though, so awesome to see this after the last few years of hell for him. Meme is good. Always so good to spend time with her. Laughing & joking around. I miss her. Grandpa & Debbie are well. They are doing good. Always laughs & a good time with them as well. Pups are doing ok. They have been kinda naughty this trip. Lots of barking going on. Not sure what their deal is but it has been quite annoying...hahaha. Mark & Mom are well. Hoping this cold goes away & soon. It really is kicking my butt. Tomorrow is our 1 year Anniversary & Bean's Birthday. Can't believe that it has been a year that Mom & Mark have been married. Make sure you go see Bean tomorrow & tell her Happy Birthday. Just be gentle & don't scare your cousin....lol.
Mom has a couple daily prayers to write out to you so here they are. December 24~ The voice of him that crieth in the wilderness. Prepare ye the way of the Lord, make straight in the desert a highway for our God. The Christmas tree, O God is groaning beneath gift wrapped anticipation. The table is spread before us is resplendent with shared foods prepared by loving hands, for which we give thanks. And now, as this waiting season ticks to a bell-ringing, midnight-marvelous close, we around this table are scooting over to make room for the anticipated Guest. Come, blessings us with the gift of your presence as we say, " Welcome. " Amen.
December 25~ And the Angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord. Compassionate & holy God, we celebrate your coming into this world. We celebrate with hope, we celebrate with peace, we celebrate with joy. Through your giving our lives are secure. Through your love we, too, can give love. You are secure of our being. Joy to the world. Amen.
December 26~ For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The prince of Peace. Lord, how grateful we are that our spirits don't have to sag once the excitement of Christmas is over! We don't want to be like ungrateful children tearing through a pile of presents just to say, " Is that all? " For the gift you gave us at Chrsitmas, your beloved son among us, is a gift that is ours all the days of our lives & throughout eternity! Thank you for the greatest gift of all, Lord. Amen.
Well, Mom is all caught up again. It is just turning 9 am & my head is pounding, my throat is on fire & my nose is so stuffy. Going to be a wonderful day though... trying to think positive. Mom is hoping that you have a day that you need & want. May you travel to many places & see many things. I know that you are learning so much. I hope that when night falls tonight that you will have a chance to relax & get some sleep. May you close your eyes & have sweet dreams. Come see me in my dreams tonight as well. Hope that the moon & stars will be shining bright for me to see. Nevertheless, Mom will whisper to you as I always do so hope you will hear my voice. I miss you so much, Tyler. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Saturday morning? It is the day after Christmas & Mom is still feeling really yucky. I had all intentions on writing to you last night but by the time we got back to the hotel at 7 pm, we were here for about 20 minutes & the Marion & Charlie stopped by with their new puppy & then another friend showed up with her 2 boys. The last of our guest left at 10:15 pm & then Mom did some organizing for a few minutes & then went to bed as I had such a headache. I know I did write Merry Christmas to you on her but I did on your facebook page for all to see. Did you see it? It was a picture of Jack & Zero. Hope you did & it made you happy & smile. Mom just didn't want you to think that I went the day without saying it or make you think that I was not thinking about you because I was all day long & I know somehow deep in my heart that you know that is the truth.
So the last 3 days we have been in NH. Mom has gotten to visit with Aunt Shirley, Grammy, Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Marion, Charlie & another friend of Mom's Christina. Got to speak to Aunt Beck & Brandy on the phone too. Wish I could have seen them both but hopefully soon. So hard to see everyone in a few short days but even harder when you are sick & don't want to see many people so that that don't get sick. It is tough. Today, Mom will come see you & visit for awhile & then we will spend a few more hours with Meme, Bob, Dad & Grandpa plus I will be seeing Auntie Kristina today for a few minutes. Not too long as I am still sick & I don't want them to get this nasty nasty cold. The rest of the day will be mellow as we leave early tomorrow morning to head back home. All in all Christmas was a good day, missed you so much & honestly I am glad that it is over with.
Things seem to be good with all our family & friends. Bob is on a new medicine that is making him dizzy though but he will be calling the doctor this coming week & being taken off that medicine. He looks good though, so awesome to see this after the last few years of hell for him. Meme is good. Always so good to spend time with her. Laughing & joking around. I miss her. Grandpa & Debbie are well. They are doing good. Always laughs & a good time with them as well. Pups are doing ok. They have been kinda naughty this trip. Lots of barking going on. Not sure what their deal is but it has been quite annoying...hahaha. Mark & Mom are well. Hoping this cold goes away & soon. It really is kicking my butt. Tomorrow is our 1 year Anniversary & Bean's Birthday. Can't believe that it has been a year that Mom & Mark have been married. Make sure you go see Bean tomorrow & tell her Happy Birthday. Just be gentle & don't scare your cousin....lol.
Mom has a couple daily prayers to write out to you so here they are. December 24~ The voice of him that crieth in the wilderness. Prepare ye the way of the Lord, make straight in the desert a highway for our God. The Christmas tree, O God is groaning beneath gift wrapped anticipation. The table is spread before us is resplendent with shared foods prepared by loving hands, for which we give thanks. And now, as this waiting season ticks to a bell-ringing, midnight-marvelous close, we around this table are scooting over to make room for the anticipated Guest. Come, blessings us with the gift of your presence as we say, " Welcome. " Amen.
December 25~ And the Angel said unto them, Fear not: for, behold, I bring good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord. Compassionate & holy God, we celebrate your coming into this world. We celebrate with hope, we celebrate with peace, we celebrate with joy. Through your giving our lives are secure. Through your love we, too, can give love. You are secure of our being. Joy to the world. Amen.
December 26~ For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The prince of Peace. Lord, how grateful we are that our spirits don't have to sag once the excitement of Christmas is over! We don't want to be like ungrateful children tearing through a pile of presents just to say, " Is that all? " For the gift you gave us at Chrsitmas, your beloved son among us, is a gift that is ours all the days of our lives & throughout eternity! Thank you for the greatest gift of all, Lord. Amen.
Well, Mom is all caught up again. It is just turning 9 am & my head is pounding, my throat is on fire & my nose is so stuffy. Going to be a wonderful day though... trying to think positive. Mom is hoping that you have a day that you need & want. May you travel to many places & see many things. I know that you are learning so much. I hope that when night falls tonight that you will have a chance to relax & get some sleep. May you close your eyes & have sweet dreams. Come see me in my dreams tonight as well. Hope that the moon & stars will be shining bright for me to see. Nevertheless, Mom will whisper to you as I always do so hope you will hear my voice. I miss you so much, Tyler. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, December 23, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today on the night before Christmas Eve? Mom is feeling like poop still. I just wanted to write to you really quickly before I go lay down. Whatever is going on is kicking Mom's butt. I need to fell better so we can travel tomorrow. Please watch over & be with Mom & Mark. Thank you pumpkin.
Here are the prayers that Mom needs to catch up on. December 22~ While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen : for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal. In the lights & glimmer of modern Christmas decorations we see tiny specks of brilliance that is reality angels see, share, & return to when their task on earth is complete. It's a brilliance we can one day see for ourselves when our task is done as well. Amen.
December 23~ And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; & nothing shall be impossible unto you. Into the bleakest winters of our souls, Lord, you are tiptoeing on tiny infant feet to find us. May we drop whatever we're doing & accept this gesture of a baby so small it may get overlooked in our frantic search for something massive & overwhelming. Remind us that it is not you who demands lavish celebrations & strobe-lit displays of faith. Rather, you ask only that we have the faith of a mustard seed & willingness to let a small hand take ours. We are ready. Amen.
All caught up, Ty. Mom will write to you again tomorrow night when we are in NH. I know I won't see any stars shining bright tonight or the moon but I know you are the brightest one up there shining for someone who needs it. Mom hopes that you have a wonderful night with it being all that you need & want it to be. I miss you like crazy & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world plus more. Get some rest tonight & have the sweetest of dreams my sweet precious son. Come see me in my dreams tonight as well.
You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for Mom's voice.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today on the night before Christmas Eve? Mom is feeling like poop still. I just wanted to write to you really quickly before I go lay down. Whatever is going on is kicking Mom's butt. I need to fell better so we can travel tomorrow. Please watch over & be with Mom & Mark. Thank you pumpkin.
Here are the prayers that Mom needs to catch up on. December 22~ While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen : for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal. In the lights & glimmer of modern Christmas decorations we see tiny specks of brilliance that is reality angels see, share, & return to when their task on earth is complete. It's a brilliance we can one day see for ourselves when our task is done as well. Amen.
December 23~ And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; & nothing shall be impossible unto you. Into the bleakest winters of our souls, Lord, you are tiptoeing on tiny infant feet to find us. May we drop whatever we're doing & accept this gesture of a baby so small it may get overlooked in our frantic search for something massive & overwhelming. Remind us that it is not you who demands lavish celebrations & strobe-lit displays of faith. Rather, you ask only that we have the faith of a mustard seed & willingness to let a small hand take ours. We are ready. Amen.
All caught up, Ty. Mom will write to you again tomorrow night when we are in NH. I know I won't see any stars shining bright tonight or the moon but I know you are the brightest one up there shining for someone who needs it. Mom hopes that you have a wonderful night with it being all that you need & want it to be. I miss you like crazy & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world plus more. Get some rest tonight & have the sweetest of dreams my sweet precious son. Come see me in my dreams tonight as well.
You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for Mom's voice.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, December 22, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! Hope your day has been good to you so far. Mom has had a rough day. I don't feel well at all. Been sick since last night. I just wanted to drop in & tell you that I love you so much & I miss you like crazy. Mom will write a long letter tomorrow night, I promise. Hope you night is all that you need & want it to be. May you get some rest. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Hope to see you in my dreams tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do as well. The moon is out & it is beautiful. Mom smiled at that. Thank you. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Mauh!
Hi my sweet son! Hope your day has been good to you so far. Mom has had a rough day. I don't feel well at all. Been sick since last night. I just wanted to drop in & tell you that I love you so much & I miss you like crazy. Mom will write a long letter tomorrow night, I promise. Hope you night is all that you need & want it to be. May you get some rest. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Hope to see you in my dreams tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do as well. The moon is out & it is beautiful. Mom smiled at that. Thank you. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Mauh!
Monday, December 21, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Today the weather was so cold & windy. We are suppose to get rain from tonight until Thursday night. No sun will be shining at all. Hope you are somewhere warm & sunny for the both of us. This weekend was so crazy & busy for us here. Saturday was finishing Christmas shopping & grocery shopping & then Sunday was more shopping of all the other things we forgot & needed for our trip back to NH, we also sneaked in a movie, which was the 1st time in 4 years. Got home & made dinner & had a skype call with Tubal & Karen & then spoke to Meme & Grandpa on the phone. By the time that was all over with, Mom was so tired. I relaxed on the couch & then went to bed. I am so sorry that I didn't write to you last night. It hurts Mom when I don't & makes me feel very guilty. I know it shouldn't & you would be mad at me but if does. Anyways....
We are 4 days out before Christmas & I can tell you that it does not seem like it at all. No snow which I am so happy about but it just is not the same anymore. Hasn't been the same since you left Mom. I miss you so much & nothing is or ever will be the same again. I think that you know that though. I know that you can feel it. Lets see...updates for you.... Meme & Bob are doing well. No new news there. Grandpa is getting really angry at his job as they are not listening to him at all when it comes to a schedule. He has made a decision that if they don't listen by next week then he is going to quit that job & look somewhere else. Please be with him, Ty. He needs your guidance & help. Thank you. Debbie is fine...just working a lot of hours too. The pups are doing good. Getting better every day. Mom is doing ok...best I can be & Mark is Mark... always pushing to hard, working too much & it is taking a toll on him. It scares me. I have voiced my opinion so many times but it doesn't help or matter so there is nothing I can do but sit & watch it happen. Please be with Mom & Mark as well. We both need you. I need you all the time my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
I have a couple daily prayers for you, so here they are. December 20~ Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, & he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. God, I am scurrying around like a chicken with its head cut off, making a huge mess everywhere I go. Why, God, when I know I do better & work more efficiently when I wait quietly & listen for your guidance, do I rush about----driven by time rather than by you? Help me, God, to slow down, to be silent, so I can hear you & do your will, not mine. Amen.
December 21~ In my Father's house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you, I go to prepare a place for you. Lord, I'm looking forward to sharing a home with you. Thank you for becoming poor so that I could become rich. Amen.
All caught up again. Mom is going to try & keep up with all that I have to do this week. I will write to you but some of the letters will probably be short because of our traveling. I know you understand. Mom is hoping that you have a restful & peaceful night tonight. May you do all that you need to do & want to do. Hope that you slow down & get sleep if you need to. May you have the sweetest dreams & may Mom see you in her dreams tonight as well.
I don't think I will see the stars or moon shining but I will be looking. I will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening out for Mom. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Today the weather was so cold & windy. We are suppose to get rain from tonight until Thursday night. No sun will be shining at all. Hope you are somewhere warm & sunny for the both of us. This weekend was so crazy & busy for us here. Saturday was finishing Christmas shopping & grocery shopping & then Sunday was more shopping of all the other things we forgot & needed for our trip back to NH, we also sneaked in a movie, which was the 1st time in 4 years. Got home & made dinner & had a skype call with Tubal & Karen & then spoke to Meme & Grandpa on the phone. By the time that was all over with, Mom was so tired. I relaxed on the couch & then went to bed. I am so sorry that I didn't write to you last night. It hurts Mom when I don't & makes me feel very guilty. I know it shouldn't & you would be mad at me but if does. Anyways....
We are 4 days out before Christmas & I can tell you that it does not seem like it at all. No snow which I am so happy about but it just is not the same anymore. Hasn't been the same since you left Mom. I miss you so much & nothing is or ever will be the same again. I think that you know that though. I know that you can feel it. Lets see...updates for you.... Meme & Bob are doing well. No new news there. Grandpa is getting really angry at his job as they are not listening to him at all when it comes to a schedule. He has made a decision that if they don't listen by next week then he is going to quit that job & look somewhere else. Please be with him, Ty. He needs your guidance & help. Thank you. Debbie is fine...just working a lot of hours too. The pups are doing good. Getting better every day. Mom is doing ok...best I can be & Mark is Mark... always pushing to hard, working too much & it is taking a toll on him. It scares me. I have voiced my opinion so many times but it doesn't help or matter so there is nothing I can do but sit & watch it happen. Please be with Mom & Mark as well. We both need you. I need you all the time my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
I have a couple daily prayers for you, so here they are. December 20~ Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, & he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. God, I am scurrying around like a chicken with its head cut off, making a huge mess everywhere I go. Why, God, when I know I do better & work more efficiently when I wait quietly & listen for your guidance, do I rush about----driven by time rather than by you? Help me, God, to slow down, to be silent, so I can hear you & do your will, not mine. Amen.
December 21~ In my Father's house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you, I go to prepare a place for you. Lord, I'm looking forward to sharing a home with you. Thank you for becoming poor so that I could become rich. Amen.
All caught up again. Mom is going to try & keep up with all that I have to do this week. I will write to you but some of the letters will probably be short because of our traveling. I know you understand. Mom is hoping that you have a restful & peaceful night tonight. May you do all that you need to do & want to do. Hope that you slow down & get sleep if you need to. May you have the sweetest dreams & may Mom see you in her dreams tonight as well.
I don't think I will see the stars or moon shining but I will be looking. I will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening out for Mom. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, December 19, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday night? Mom has had a pretty busy day today. Mark & mom braved the traffic & the stores to finish up the last minute things that needed to get done. Stores really were not that bad & there was no waiting in any lines so that made us both happy! Everything is done & finished so that is great as well. Just need to pack & I am all set to travel up North on Christmas Eve. Wish I was seeing you too or I wish you were coming here for the holidays. Every time I think about it, it makes me so sad & the tears fall from my eyes. I know you don't like to see it & I am trying so hard pumpkin. I really do. Be patience with Mom, please & thank you.
No updates for you tonight again as I have not spoken to anyone yet. So sorry sweetie. Maybe I will have some for you tomorrow night. Here is a funny thing though.... Mark is trying to wrap Christmas presents in the other room & he comes out every once in a while & he looks all grumpy.... you should go check it out. You will laugh so hard & so loud. Smile that smile I miss so much.
Ok... here is your daily prayer for today. December 19~ Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer; Distributing to the necessity of saints; given hospitality. Tangled in tape, lists, & holiday wrapping, we are all thumbs of excitement! Bless the surprises we've selected, wrapped & hidden. restore us to the joy of anticipation. We want to be surprised, too. Our wish lists include the gift of peace possibilities, of ears to hear a summons & eyes to spot another's need or triumph, of being able to make a difference. As we cut & tape, God of surprises, remind us to keep in touch with the gift's recipient after the wrapping papers are long gone & the ornaments packed. Amen.
The evening sky is upon us once again. The sky was very clear tonight so I am hoping that the stars & moon are shining bright. Either way Mom will be whispering to you as I do every night. Be listening out for my voice. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Hope that your night is a restful one for you. May it be all that you need & want it to be. If you sleep, please have sweet dreams & come visit me in my dreams tonight as well. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday night? Mom has had a pretty busy day today. Mark & mom braved the traffic & the stores to finish up the last minute things that needed to get done. Stores really were not that bad & there was no waiting in any lines so that made us both happy! Everything is done & finished so that is great as well. Just need to pack & I am all set to travel up North on Christmas Eve. Wish I was seeing you too or I wish you were coming here for the holidays. Every time I think about it, it makes me so sad & the tears fall from my eyes. I know you don't like to see it & I am trying so hard pumpkin. I really do. Be patience with Mom, please & thank you.
No updates for you tonight again as I have not spoken to anyone yet. So sorry sweetie. Maybe I will have some for you tomorrow night. Here is a funny thing though.... Mark is trying to wrap Christmas presents in the other room & he comes out every once in a while & he looks all grumpy.... you should go check it out. You will laugh so hard & so loud. Smile that smile I miss so much.
Ok... here is your daily prayer for today. December 19~ Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer; Distributing to the necessity of saints; given hospitality. Tangled in tape, lists, & holiday wrapping, we are all thumbs of excitement! Bless the surprises we've selected, wrapped & hidden. restore us to the joy of anticipation. We want to be surprised, too. Our wish lists include the gift of peace possibilities, of ears to hear a summons & eyes to spot another's need or triumph, of being able to make a difference. As we cut & tape, God of surprises, remind us to keep in touch with the gift's recipient after the wrapping papers are long gone & the ornaments packed. Amen.
The evening sky is upon us once again. The sky was very clear tonight so I am hoping that the stars & moon are shining bright. Either way Mom will be whispering to you as I do every night. Be listening out for my voice. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Hope that your night is a restful one for you. May it be all that you need & want it to be. If you sleep, please have sweet dreams & come visit me in my dreams tonight as well. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, December 18, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing today on this Friday afternoon? Hope where you are you are soaking up the sun & it is warm. Where Mom is it is just the opposite.... it is dark, dreary, cold & raining again. Been this way for over 2 days but no complaints as I will take the rain & not the snow. Guess the temps are going to be pretty cold tomorrow & we may actually see some light snow but nothing else. It will be a green Christmas for us & I am so happy about that. I hope that the day we are traveling North it is good weather as it says it is suppose to rain... hoping not. Anyways... Mom really hasn't done anything today... just took the pups out & played around on the computer. This weather is tough on Mom. My body aches from the cold & rain. Tonight I think I will just snuggle up on the couch & watch a movie. Just relax for once & do nothing.
No updates for you today at all but I do have the 2 daily prayers that I need catching up on. So here they are. December 17~ And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart & with all thy soul & with all thy might. I know yours is a persistent devotion, Lord. Your devoted love for me is an example that helps me to love others as well. What would I prefer to your love? What could I love more than those I hold dear? Nothing in the universe! Who are the loves of my life? Let me count them all & delight in them today. Amen.
December 18~ He shall be great & shall be called the Son of the Highest & the Lord God shall give unto him the throne of his father David & he shall reign over the house of Jacob for ever; and of his kingdom there shall be no end. You are a welcome guest at this table, God, as we pause in the midst of this bell-ringing, carol-making season of too much to do. Send us your gift of silent nights so that we can hear & know you you will be bringing us this year; yet another gift of hope. Bless our gathering around this table; we will set a place each day for you. Join us in our daily feast, for which we now give thanks. May it nourish our busy bodies as the anticipation of your presence amoung us does our weary spirits. Amen.
All caught up my sweet precious son. May you have a wonderful & peaceful evening tonight. May it be all that you need & want it to be. I know that I will see nothing shining in the sky tonight as it is so cloudy here but that won't stop me from whispering to you as I do each & every night. Hope you will be able to hear my voice. Hope you will smile. I miss you so much! I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Sweet dreams my sweet son. Hope Mom gets to see you in my own dreams tonight when I fall asleep. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Mauh!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing today on this Friday afternoon? Hope where you are you are soaking up the sun & it is warm. Where Mom is it is just the opposite.... it is dark, dreary, cold & raining again. Been this way for over 2 days but no complaints as I will take the rain & not the snow. Guess the temps are going to be pretty cold tomorrow & we may actually see some light snow but nothing else. It will be a green Christmas for us & I am so happy about that. I hope that the day we are traveling North it is good weather as it says it is suppose to rain... hoping not. Anyways... Mom really hasn't done anything today... just took the pups out & played around on the computer. This weather is tough on Mom. My body aches from the cold & rain. Tonight I think I will just snuggle up on the couch & watch a movie. Just relax for once & do nothing.
No updates for you today at all but I do have the 2 daily prayers that I need catching up on. So here they are. December 17~ And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart & with all thy soul & with all thy might. I know yours is a persistent devotion, Lord. Your devoted love for me is an example that helps me to love others as well. What would I prefer to your love? What could I love more than those I hold dear? Nothing in the universe! Who are the loves of my life? Let me count them all & delight in them today. Amen.
December 18~ He shall be great & shall be called the Son of the Highest & the Lord God shall give unto him the throne of his father David & he shall reign over the house of Jacob for ever; and of his kingdom there shall be no end. You are a welcome guest at this table, God, as we pause in the midst of this bell-ringing, carol-making season of too much to do. Send us your gift of silent nights so that we can hear & know you you will be bringing us this year; yet another gift of hope. Bless our gathering around this table; we will set a place each day for you. Join us in our daily feast, for which we now give thanks. May it nourish our busy bodies as the anticipation of your presence amoung us does our weary spirits. Amen.
All caught up my sweet precious son. May you have a wonderful & peaceful evening tonight. May it be all that you need & want it to be. I know that I will see nothing shining in the sky tonight as it is so cloudy here but that won't stop me from whispering to you as I do each & every night. Hope you will be able to hear my voice. Hope you will smile. I miss you so much! I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Sweet dreams my sweet son. Hope Mom gets to see you in my own dreams tonight when I fall asleep. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Mauh!
Thursday, December 17, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Today was not such a great day for me as you could see. I have had a tough time as you know why & what is going on. It sucks but I don't want you to worry as Mom will get through it & I will be just fine. I promise you this. The weather today has been awful. It has been so dark & rainy all day. Mom had to put lights on at like 2 pm this afternoon as it was that dark already. Crazy weather the last few days. Guess we are suppose to be getting some pretty cold temps this weekend but as I see it... we will have a green Christmas which makes Mom so happy!
No updates for you today either as I have only spoken to Grandpa & Meme very briefly on the phone. I think we are all just stressed out & feeling the pressures of the holidays. Everyone is just being so angry & ugly including Mom. It is not very nice & I am not proud of it by no means. Please I ask of you to please watch over Mom & our entire family & friends. Mom always needs you by my side. Thank you so much my sweet precious son.
I know this is usually where I would write the daily prayer for you but if you don't mind I will write todays & tomorrows on your letter Friday evening. Mom is so far behind in everything this evening. I still need to make dinner & feed the pups. I am so sorry but I know you understand & hold nothing against me. I miss you so much & like crazy. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
I know Mom won't be seeing the moon & the stars tonight in the sky shining but I know you are shining bright somewhere for someone who needs it. Hope your night is peaceful & restful. Get some sleep & have sweet dreams. Come see Mom in my own dreams tonight. I would love that. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Today was not such a great day for me as you could see. I have had a tough time as you know why & what is going on. It sucks but I don't want you to worry as Mom will get through it & I will be just fine. I promise you this. The weather today has been awful. It has been so dark & rainy all day. Mom had to put lights on at like 2 pm this afternoon as it was that dark already. Crazy weather the last few days. Guess we are suppose to be getting some pretty cold temps this weekend but as I see it... we will have a green Christmas which makes Mom so happy!
No updates for you today either as I have only spoken to Grandpa & Meme very briefly on the phone. I think we are all just stressed out & feeling the pressures of the holidays. Everyone is just being so angry & ugly including Mom. It is not very nice & I am not proud of it by no means. Please I ask of you to please watch over Mom & our entire family & friends. Mom always needs you by my side. Thank you so much my sweet precious son.
I know this is usually where I would write the daily prayer for you but if you don't mind I will write todays & tomorrows on your letter Friday evening. Mom is so far behind in everything this evening. I still need to make dinner & feed the pups. I am so sorry but I know you understand & hold nothing against me. I miss you so much & like crazy. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
I know Mom won't be seeing the moon & the stars tonight in the sky shining but I know you are shining bright somewhere for someone who needs it. Hope your night is peaceful & restful. Get some sleep & have sweet dreams. Come see Mom in my own dreams tonight. I would love that. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, December 16, 2015
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing ok. Kind of tired though as I did nit sleep all that well last night. I know that we will be getting some cold weather & rain. The side of my face is hurting again but other than that I am doing just fine. Did a few things around the apartment today.... 2 loads of laundry & some housework too. Tomorrow I will have a little more to do & then I should be set for having a relaxing weekend. I can't believe that a week from today is Christmas Eve & we will be in NH once again. As much as this holiday hurts Mom I will be happy to see some of our family again. I will be sure to come down & spend some time with you on Christmas day. Really wish it was different & you were here with Mom in this world. I miss you so much. Mom is trying so hard to keep living life the way I should be & the way I know you want me too....it is just some days are so much harder than others. I sure do hope that I am making you proud with decisions that I am making. I hope you are smiling that beautiful smile that I love & miss like crazy. I love you my sweet precious son. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Never forget this.
Mom spoke to Aunt Beck last night for a bit & also with Grandpa. Things are good for them all. I really need to call Meme as I have not spoken to her in a few days. Pups are doing great & are completely back to their normal self. All healed up after 13 days! So glad that that is all over with. It was tough for the first few days that is for sure. They are sleeping & laying next to me as I am writing this letter to you. They may be a pain in the butt sometimes but they both are so dang sweet & cute..lol. Think that is all the updates for today. Maybe ore in a couple days.
Here is the daily prayer for today. December 16~ And I myself also am persuaded of you, my brethren, that ye also are full of goodness, filled with all knowledge, able also to admonish one another. Lord, teach me emulate your goodness. Amen.
I think that was the shortest daily prayer ever...lol. That's ok though. They all don't have to be long. Well, it is that time of the day again were the night sky will be upon us in the next hour. Mom needs to get going & get dinner prep started so that we can eat around 6 pm. Today was sunny & chilly with a blue sky all around. Hope that it stays that way so that I will be able to see the stars & moon shining bright in the sky. No matter what Mom will whisper to you as I do each & every night. Be listening out for my voice.
Hope that your night is restful & all that you want it to be & need it to be. Sweet dreams tonight & I hope to see you in my dreams as well when I fall asleep tonight. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing ok. Kind of tired though as I did nit sleep all that well last night. I know that we will be getting some cold weather & rain. The side of my face is hurting again but other than that I am doing just fine. Did a few things around the apartment today.... 2 loads of laundry & some housework too. Tomorrow I will have a little more to do & then I should be set for having a relaxing weekend. I can't believe that a week from today is Christmas Eve & we will be in NH once again. As much as this holiday hurts Mom I will be happy to see some of our family again. I will be sure to come down & spend some time with you on Christmas day. Really wish it was different & you were here with Mom in this world. I miss you so much. Mom is trying so hard to keep living life the way I should be & the way I know you want me too....it is just some days are so much harder than others. I sure do hope that I am making you proud with decisions that I am making. I hope you are smiling that beautiful smile that I love & miss like crazy. I love you my sweet precious son. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Never forget this.
Mom spoke to Aunt Beck last night for a bit & also with Grandpa. Things are good for them all. I really need to call Meme as I have not spoken to her in a few days. Pups are doing great & are completely back to their normal self. All healed up after 13 days! So glad that that is all over with. It was tough for the first few days that is for sure. They are sleeping & laying next to me as I am writing this letter to you. They may be a pain in the butt sometimes but they both are so dang sweet & cute..lol. Think that is all the updates for today. Maybe ore in a couple days.
Here is the daily prayer for today. December 16~ And I myself also am persuaded of you, my brethren, that ye also are full of goodness, filled with all knowledge, able also to admonish one another. Lord, teach me emulate your goodness. Amen.
I think that was the shortest daily prayer ever...lol. That's ok though. They all don't have to be long. Well, it is that time of the day again were the night sky will be upon us in the next hour. Mom needs to get going & get dinner prep started so that we can eat around 6 pm. Today was sunny & chilly with a blue sky all around. Hope that it stays that way so that I will be able to see the stars & moon shining bright in the sky. No matter what Mom will whisper to you as I do each & every night. Be listening out for my voice.
Hope that your night is restful & all that you want it to be & need it to be. Sweet dreams tonight & I hope to see you in my dreams as well when I fall asleep tonight. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, December 15, 2015
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