Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening... New Years Eve? Mom is hoping that you are spending it with family & friends somewhere warm & sunny. Here, it is so cold & pretty foggy tonight. Mark & Mom are not going anywhere tonight. Staying in & watching the ball drop on the tv....lol. Exciting huh? These days it is tough to go anywhere & enjoy the night life. So much is happening around the world & it is not worth taking chances on. I think we will be able to see the fireworks that will be lit off from the city. Hope so because the 4th of July fireworks were really pretty. Mom always thinks of you when I see them as it was always something we like doing together. I can't believe it is another year ending & a new one beginning. Time is flying by my sweet precious son. 2016 will be 3 years since I have seen your face, heard your voice, seen that smile, heard that laugh.... I miss it so much Tyler. I miss you like crazy. Nothing is the same anymore. Mom tries but you know just how hard it still is for me. I don't think it will ever get any easier. Mom will go into 2016 with a positive attitude though. I will look to getting my certification done, getting a job & doing new things. Maybe that will help me but I am not sure. I know you will be with me & by my side every step of the way though & for that I thank you!
 Here are the daily prayers that Mom needs to catch up on. December 30~ For all the Gods of the nations are idols: but the Lord made the heavens. Lord, as I clean out closets & make lists for the New Year, show me any Gods I have placed before you. Help me to look honestly at how I spend my time & my money. Does one of these areas of investment reveal a strong allegiance to something other than you? If so, Lord, help me eradicate those distractions from my life once & for all. Amen.
 December 31~ O Lord, bless our life stages, for they read like growth rings on a mighty tree: our beginnings & firsts with excitement, newness, & anxiety; our middles, full of diligence & commitment and yes, we confess, sometimes boredom, but also risk & derring-do; our " nexts " , the harvests & reapings; the slowing down & freedom. In your hands this time can be rich & full like an overflowing cup, not a last or a final or an empty or ending stage at all. You are Alpha & Omega God, the parentheses between which we live, move, & have our being. Bless our comings & goings. Amen.
  All caught up again.... The evening sky is upon us & Mom is not sure that I will see anything shining in the sky tonight but I will look anyways. Mom will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice. I love you to the moon & back 7 all the way around the world. Mom hopes that your evening is all that you need & want it to be. Relax if you can & get some sleep. Sweet dreams to you & come visit Mom in my dreams tonight. Please watch over our family & friends too. Thanks Tyler. It means so much to Mom.
 Please always remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Happy New Year 2016. I miss you so xoxoxo. Love you!