Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Today the weather was so cold & windy. We are suppose to get rain from tonight until Thursday night. No sun will be shining at all. Hope you are somewhere warm & sunny for the both of us. This weekend was so crazy & busy for us here. Saturday was finishing Christmas shopping & grocery shopping & then Sunday was more shopping of all the other things we forgot & needed for our trip back to NH, we also sneaked in a movie, which was the 1st time in 4 years. Got home & made dinner & had a skype call with Tubal & Karen & then spoke to Meme & Grandpa on the phone. By the time that was all over with, Mom was so tired. I relaxed on the couch & then went to bed. I am so sorry that I didn't write to you last night. It hurts Mom when I don't & makes me feel very guilty. I know it shouldn't & you would be mad at me but if does. Anyways....
 We are 4 days out before Christmas & I can tell you that it does not seem like it at all. No snow which I am so happy about but it just is not the same anymore. Hasn't been the same since you left Mom. I miss you so much & nothing is or ever will be the same again. I think that you know that though. I know that you can feel it. Lets see...updates for you.... Meme & Bob are doing well. No new news there. Grandpa is getting really angry at his job as they are not listening to him at all when it comes to a schedule. He has made a decision that if they don't listen by next week then he is going to quit that job & look somewhere else. Please be with him, Ty. He needs your guidance & help. Thank you. Debbie is fine...just working a lot of hours too. The pups are doing good. Getting better every day. Mom is doing ok...best I can be & Mark is Mark... always pushing to hard, working too much & it is taking a toll on him. It scares me. I have voiced my opinion so many times but it doesn't help or matter so there is nothing I can do but sit & watch it happen. Please be with Mom & Mark as well. We both need you. I need you all the time my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 I have a couple daily prayers for you, so here they are. December 20~ Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, & he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord. God, I am scurrying around like a chicken with its head cut off, making a huge mess everywhere I go. Why, God, when I know I do better & work more efficiently when I wait quietly & listen for your guidance, do I rush about----driven by time rather than by you? Help me, God, to slow down, to be silent, so I can hear you & do your will, not mine. Amen.
 December 21~ In my Father's house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you, I go to prepare a place for you. Lord, I'm looking forward to sharing a home with you. Thank you for becoming poor so that I could become rich. Amen.
 All caught up again. Mom is going to try & keep up with all that I have to do this week. I will write to you but some of the letters will probably be short because of our traveling. I know you understand. Mom is hoping that you have a restful & peaceful night tonight. May you do all that you need to do & want to do. Hope that you slow down & get sleep if you need to. May you have the sweetest dreams & may Mom see you in her dreams tonight as well. 
 I don't think I will see the stars or moon shining but I will be looking. I will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening out for Mom. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!