Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday night? Mom has had a pretty busy day today. Mark & mom braved the traffic & the stores to finish up the last minute things that needed to get done. Stores really were not that bad & there was no waiting in any lines so that made us both happy! Everything is done & finished so that is great as well. Just need to pack & I am all set to travel up North on Christmas Eve. Wish I was seeing you too or I wish you were coming here for the holidays. Every time I think about it, it makes me so sad & the tears fall from my eyes. I know you don't like to see it & I am trying so hard pumpkin. I really do. Be patience with Mom, please & thank you.
 No updates for you tonight again as I have not spoken to anyone yet. So sorry sweetie. Maybe I will have some for you tomorrow night. Here is a funny thing though.... Mark is trying to wrap Christmas presents in the other room & he comes out every once in a while & he looks all grumpy.... you should go check it out. You will laugh so hard & so loud. Smile that smile I miss so much.
 Ok... here is your daily prayer for today. December 19~ Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer; Distributing to the necessity of saints; given hospitality. Tangled in tape, lists, & holiday wrapping, we are all thumbs of excitement! Bless the surprises we've selected, wrapped & hidden. restore us to the joy of anticipation. We want to be surprised, too. Our wish lists include the gift of peace possibilities, of ears to hear a summons & eyes to spot another's need or triumph, of being able to make a difference. As we cut & tape, God of surprises, remind us to keep in touch with the gift's recipient after the wrapping papers are long gone & the ornaments packed. Amen.
 The evening sky is upon us once again. The sky was very clear tonight so I am hoping that the stars & moon are shining bright. Either way Mom will be whispering to you as I do every night. Be listening out for my voice. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Hope that your night is a restful one for you. May it be all that you need & want it to be. If you sleep, please have sweet dreams & come visit me in my dreams tonight as well. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!