Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing okay today. My tracker said I got some really good sleep but my eyes tell me differently...lol! I am kind of tired today but I am doing everything that I need to do. I was up early this morning but lounged around for a bit. I got up later on & did the same thing I always do...made breakfast, did the dishes, got ready & took the pups for a long walk. When we got back inside I came right into my office & started study. I got through the next 3 chapters of my textbook & I am almost done the 2nd exam. I did take some breaks in between because my friend, Gary called me and then Mom decided to call Auntie Donna because it has been so long since we have spoken. Mom feels really bad because there is so much that is going on with her. Emotionally, mentally, physically. It was so hard to listen to but I did. She feels all alone & abandoned by everyone. That is so heartbreaking. I told her that I would always be there for her & I will. We have known each other for so long & been through so much. I know what she is feeling though. I have been there a couple times now since you passed away. It is a horrible feeling. I was like that for a few months & then told myself I had to snap out of it & I did. One day I said I had enough & I meant it. She will get to that point as well. Right now she has to do what she wants & listen to nobody. Tyler.... please watch over her for Mom. I know that you see it & I am sure you are with her but I wanted to ask anyways. Mom will make it a point to go see her when I am there in a couple weeks if she is up for it. I miss her. We were so close at one time & then things happened & life took us in different directions. Thank you my sweet precious son.
 Tonight is the Relay For Life in Claremont. I remember always having you go with Mom & doing the Survivor lap with me. It was always an honor. I miss going to that event as it is something that is still so close to my heart. I know I can't be there physically but I am there in spirit. I even have my Relay For Life tank top on today! My candle this evening will be light in honor & in memory of all that have passed from cancer & all who have survived!
 Mom spoke to Grandpa last night for a bit. He is doing well. He was wanting me to check on something for him, Mark & Bob. We talked for about 40 minutes. Everything is good with him & Debbie. He is working today so I told him that I would call him either tonight or over the weekend. Bob seemed to be doing a little better as well. I spoke to him after I wrote to you yesterday. I really hope that things are going back to the way they were & in that right direction. Maybe he just had a couple of off days. I will call them over the weekend as well to just check in. We have a skype call on Sunday scheduled too. Aunt Beck & John fly home from Italy on Sunday morning I believe. Their 3 week vacation has come to a close. She was telling me that they are already planning a second trip there at there at the beginning of 2019. I think instead of her going to South America she will be going to Europe...mostly Italy though. One of these days, Mom will get there too! Paris definitely but I would like to go to Ireland, Scotland, and Italy as well. Every one else seems to be doing well too. I will get updates over the weekend & let you know on either Sunday or Monday's letter to you. 
 It is already after 5 pm here & Mom needs to be feeding the pups & getting dinner going for Mark & I in a few. Seems like the these days I am running late but in my defense I am studying later too. I guess that is a good thing. Oh yeah, Mom got her results back from her 1st exam in my new class.... I got a 100%! I was so happy to see that! Hopefully I will do just as well on the next exam too! I am really enjoying this class. It is the 1st one in a long time that I have enjoyed. Tonight Mark & Mom plan on watching TV & catching up on all our shows that we DVR'd during the week. Early to bed as we will be getting up in the morning & Mark's friend, Rick will be here by 10 am. We are headed to the movies to go see the new Avengers movie. Its what Mark wanted to do. I won't know anything about what is going on but I am sure to have fun! Sunday will be a day of running errands & doing some shopping. The rest of the weekend will be filled with relaxing. The weather is suppose to be rainy & cold again so it will be a good time to get house cleaning done as well. Mom will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you. For now I have to get going to do the night routine. Mom is hoping you have a fun night while I get some sleep. May you get the chance to come sit with me or visit me in my dreams tonight. I will whisper to you & light a candle for you as well. Know that it is burning bright in your memory. Smile when you here Mom. I will smile back to you. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are missed beyond any words can express. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. remember you are my bright shining star! Until tomorrow....good night & sweet dreams pumpkin!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer:
 And he said, “My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.” Exodus 33:14, RSV

Dear Father in heaven, we thank you for guiding us on all our ways with power from on high. We thank you that again and again you have led us through the darkness on a path of light. Looking back, we cannot be thankful enough. May our hearts turn to you and be filled with quiet certainty in all we are still awaiting. Remember us and remember the many who lie under heavy bondage. Let the time come when you will bring a great deliverance to those who are in darkness. Then we can find meaning for our lives in all that happens, knowing that you have been faithful in everything. You have done more than we asked, more than we can understand. Amen.