Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom wanted to take the time right now to write to you before I went on to my studies. I am very sorry that I did not write you a letter on Sunday. I guess Mom really over did it on Saturday when I was out for the day. Yesterday, Mom really didn't do a dang thing as I was really sore & not feeling all that great but today I am doing much better. I went to bed early last night & I got some much needed sleep so I woke up around 7:30 am & was feeling way better.
 Saturday was a busy day for Mom & Mark. I wrote to you in the morning & I was so glad that I did as we left at 11 am & never got back until 5 pm. When we got home Saturday evening, Mom put all the groceries away & then still had to make dinner. We ate at 6:30 pm & our company left at 8 pm. After that Mom pretty much was done & so tired that I crawled into bed at 9:30 pm & fell right to sleep. Sunday, we got up at 8 am. Mom made a nice breakfast, did the clean up, laundry, folded clothes, dusted & vacuumed. I also rearranged a couple things in the living room because on Saturday we got this cool art sculpture thing that went with out decor & I had to find room for it. Mom never got ready until after 3 pm. I relaxed for a couple hours, had dinner, cleaned up & watched TV for a couple hours before we had our skype call. Turns out I guess we had the wrong week again because we never had the call again. It was a bummer but we just hope that everything is okay with Tubal & Karen. Mark & Mom went to bed again at 9:30 pm. Like I mentioned above... another good night sleep. 2 nights right in a row that I have got 6.5 hours of restful sleep with 2 hours of light sleep. That is amazing! Hope it continues! Today is Monday again & it is a typical Monday for sure. Mark is busy at work & Mom has done a couple things around the house, made breakfast, cleaned a bit, got ready, took the pups for a walk & now I am writing to you. Tonight will be a night of eating dinner, cleaning up & then relaxing. Bed will early again tonight. Hoping to get into a routine again where we are in bed by 10 pm & up at 7 am. That is good times for us both. Mom is doing well still on meeting her goal. I went well over it Saturday & Sunday I came in just a little under. I manage to walk at least 2 miles a day which equals out to 6,000 steps. It is 1:17 pm & I am over half way there to my goal today. I ordered myself a new tracker so that Meme could have the one I have now. She was interested in it so I thought I would let her try it out. My new one will be white & have some bling on it. Go figure, right? You know Mom! Gotta have my bling! Mom will keep you posted when Meme gets this one in a couple weeks!
 Not much for updates for you I am afraid. Mom spoke to Meme on Sunday for a few minutes but never spoke to anyone else at all in the 2 days. Aunt Beck & John arrived home safely yesterday. Their flight touched down a little before 3 pm. Guess they drove home & got stuck in some traffic. The estimated time of arrival home was not until 9 pm last night. I did call her a little bit ago to say welcome back. I am sure they are still so exhausted from traveling all day long. I am sure to chat with her at some point this week but I am sure she is busy with lots to do. I am just glad they made it home safely. Mom will try to touch base with everyone in the next couple days to see how they are. I will update you when I have some new news.
 Mom knows you are around me all the time. Just because I don't see you doesn't mean you are not there. I know you are in your own way. I know you have seen some differences in my attitude. Some I am proud of & some that I am not. I have lost my patience when I shouldn't & scowl when I should be thankful & happy. Mom needs to change these ways that I have been in. Mom needs to do a lot for herself. I am sure you agree. I need to think differently about some things too. I could really use your help, Ty! Mom, I guess is changing & tolerating less & less these days. I find myself not wanting to be in situations where "friends" only want to talk to me when they need to vent, when they have nothing else to do or no one else to talk to, so they call me or message me, they need something or it is a "me me me" situation. It hurts Mom when this happens & it happens quite often. I just can't do it. I don't want to be use. I need to distant myself from them all. It is harder than it seems because some of these people are who I considered to be my last remaining friends. It is like I feel that if I walk away then I will have absolutely no friends at all but when I look at it now... I have no friends really anyways. All my "friends" are in NH & Mom has been gone for 6 years now that everything has changed. I am more of an acquaintance to them then a friend now or at least that is how I feel about it. It is difficult for Mom to admit that too because I have always been the type to have a huge circle of friends, a constant social butterfly but not in these past 6 years. I am more of a loner now & not by choice. It is lonely a lot of the time but I say nothing to no one & just keep it to myself. Mark is the only one who knows how I feel. Like I said, Mom has a lot to think about, a lot to change & a lot to do. I need you my sweet precious son. Be with Mom as these changes take place. Thank you. 
 I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss our conversations, your advice to Mom. I miss you laugh, your smile, your voice. I just miss it all. Time does not make it easier. That phase & saying is a lie. I don't think it ever will. I just try my best every day. Mom needs to get to her studying as time is ticking here. I would like to get a couple hours in before it is time to make dinner. I hope that your night will be everything that you need & want it to be. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight or sit by me while I sleep. Thank you. Continue to watch over us all. Fly high & fly pumpkin. I will whisper to you later tonight & I will light either the scent diffuser or a candle for you. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile back to you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.....good night & sweet dreams my bright shining star.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here are the prays for the day:
 May you choose to be grateful when you'd rather be grumpy. May you choose to rejoice in God's goodness when you're tempted to rehearse man's badness. May you sing into your empty well trusting that God will soon fill it. And may you live with the expectancy that any day now, the Lord will bring the breakthrough. Rest this weekend with the knowledge that more rests on God's shoulders than on yours. He's got you. 
 There's an appointed time for every God-given breakthrough. Jesus knows when your accumulative prayers will make the most difference. He knows when your long-awaited breakthrough will bear the most fruit; He knows when your blessing will not be a burden. May you trust Him in the meantime. You've things to do in this season: Rest. Wait. Trust. Obey. Give thanks. Enjoy joy. And walk forward in faith. Breakthrough is on the horizon.