Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing okay today. Trying to stay busy as it is one of those days that are hard for me. Rather than explaining it all over again, Mom posted something on social media about today. This is what I wrote:

 Sometimes I hate how my mind works and the way it remembers so many things. This day, June 10, 1994 is forever etched in my brain. This was the morning that changed so many lives forever. This is the morning that our living nightmare started. Tyler, you were so brave at the young age of 3 years old to fight all that you did for 22 years. Never did I think that on this day doctors would tell me that you would probably never walk again or breath on your own again. So many " nevers " awaited us.... The horror of it all never leaves my mind. This day every year continues to remind me of it all. From the moment that you got sick to 22 years and 10 days you went through more than multiple people could and lived to talk about it. You were & still are my true HERO. 
In 10 days, on June 20th it will be 5 years since you left us in the physical world. I know you are now at peace and happy that you have no limitations and can do all that you have wanted to for so many years. I truly am happy for you through the tears that fall from my eyes. You fought for so long and deserved the rest, the peace, and the comfort. I know every day was tough and some days were the worst, but I would do it all in a heart beat if I was able to. I loved being your Mom. You were my world. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will forever be in my heart, mind, and soul.
Continue on with your new journey. Continue to fly high and fly freely. One day we will be together again and this time no one can tear us apart. I know Mom has many more years here, but I do look forward to that day, the day we will reunite for eternity.
You forever will be ~ The Wind Beneath My Wings ☆☆☆
I love you xoxoxo. Muah!
 All the horror of today comes back to me every year and has been for the last 24 years. I have said nothing to Mark today because I just didn't feel like it but I know he overheard Mom when I was talking to Debbie this afternoon about it. I just really didn't feel like talking to anyone about it but I am glad that I did. I know that Debbie understands how it feels because of her losing her son. I am sure that day that everything happened haunts her as well. As I said above, Mom has been keeping busy today. I had made a nice breakfast for Mark and I, did the clean up on that and then decided that we would use the grill tonight so I made potato salad and did the clean up on that too. After that was all done, I dusted, did the trash and cleaned up my office. It wasn't dirty but I thought I would tidy it up because of my proctor exam this week. Whoever is on the other side of the skype will see me and my office but I will not see them. I just thought it would be nice to have it cleaned up a bit. Mom succeeded as I like it! That has taken me most of the day. Like I had said, I did talk to Debbie for about an hour. That was nice. Mom also spoke to Meme as well. We spoke for about 20 minutes and she said that she needed to go out and mow the lawn so she would call me later tonight. Grandpa was working so I am going to call back to say hello tonight as well. I didn't have the chance to chat with Aunt Beck but we have been texting back and forth. Her class that she taught on Saturday was a huge. They had a really good turnout and it seemed very successful. I was happy to hear that. It seems like everyone is doing really well. Debbie did tell Mom that Great Grammy was and has been pretty sick off and on now for sometime. I was surprise to hear that because Grandpa usually says that she is doing well. Debbie said it hurts him to talk about it. Mom gets that. Debbie is wondering if her cancer has come back again for the 5th time. She will be keeping Mom posted more often about everything as now she knows that I never hear about any of really what is going on. That is about all the updates that have for today for you. Not really very much but more than the last couple of days. Mom will be sure to have some during the week coming into the weekend. 
 Mom misses you so much. Today more than any other day makes me think back to all that you endured and went though. You were so little....3 years old and Mom and dad were so young. Mom was 22 and dad was 23. Mom is really trying not to dwell on all the bad memories that this day brought us all. I am trying to listen to upbeat music, stay busy, etc... it works for a little while and then something triggers a memory and then I get upset again. Mom really just has a very tough time the whole month of June. You getting sick, my last day ever talking to you and hearing your voice, you passing 2 days later, to your wake, funeral, burial. So much, too much all in one month. Plus there is the memory of the accident that Grandpa and Mom was in back in 1988. That happens to be the same day as your funeral was....June 26th. Mom will get through it like I do every year but it is so hard. Mom plans on shutting everything down after I write to you and having dinner, taking a nice bubble bath and having a glass of wine to relax me. Maybe I will sit out on the balcony and enjoy the warm evening before watching TV. Then it will be early to bed as tomorrow is Monday and Mom is back to school and Mark is back to work. He is on the road a lot this week including a few nights so it will be a very busy week plus Saturday morning everyone will be here for the weekend. 
 I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Tonight I will light the candle for you as I always do. The flames will be burning in memory of you my sweet precious son. Mom will whisper to you just like I do every night as well. Smile when you hear Mom and I will smile right back to you. I sure hope that this evening you will be flying high and free in the skies above. May your night be everything that you need and want it to be. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. That would be wonderful. Thank you. Always know that you are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you. Right now it is 4:17 pm and I need to get going to finish up things before it is dinner, feeding the pups and doing the clean up. Until tomorrow afternoon..... Good night and sweet dreams my bright shining star.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

May God be gracious to us and bless us and make his face shine on us – so that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations. Psalm 67:1–2, NIV

Lord, Almighty God, you are our Father and we are your children, who want to live for you through Jesus Christ our Lord. Strengthen and renew our hearts. When discouragement and fear try to mislead us, may your Holy Spirit help us again and again to hold fast, for no matter what difficulties arise, your will is being done and your will is good. Your name will be honored. Your kingdom will come for all nations. Your reign will come over all peoples, for they are all yours and must acknowledge that Jesus Christ is the Lord, to your honor, O Father. Amen.