Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is okay. I have just a few minutes to write to you as I let time slip away from me today and I have a lot of prep work for myself with dinner tonight. I wanted to at least write something to you instead of nothing. 
 Last night was relaxing. Every one ate dinner at seperate times and then Bob went back to playing his video game and Meme went into her room. Mark and Mom stayed downstairs for a bit and then turned in for the night. Mark played on his computer while Mom watched a few tv shows of hers. I turned in around 10 pm. I got a bit of sleep last night which was good. Hoping for the same tonight as well. 
 Today is Day 6 of lockdown here. Mom hasn't gone anywhere in actually 10+ days. It isn't so bad but if you don't do a lot of different things it can get very boring. Mom tries to switch things up so that doesn't happen. I was reading an article today that said that the Govenor of Virginia and Maryland have ordered that everyone stays in until June 10th. It they do not abide by the rules then they will get fined between $2500.00-$5000.00 and could also face a year in jail. They are really starting to crack down on things everywhere. I don't blame them at all though. It is necessary for this to be that way if we want this virus to go away for good. we need it to slow down that is for sure. Mom has taken this very serious since day 1 and I wish others would as well. 
 Mom just went downstairs to prep our dinner so now it is in the oven. I have 25 minutes to finish this letter to you, feed the pups and take them for a walk before our dinner is done. Meme was talking to me as I was preparing it and she is all angry with me now. She said something and I told her my feelings on things and she didn't like it. She will get over it then. I am not dwelling on something that she should know better than I as she is older than me and she doesn't want to follow the rules that are in place. I told her she is one of the ones that is making it hard on everyone else because she won't just stay home. She wants and feels she needs to be on the road even with this virus. That is not cool nor okay with Mom. I have an issue with it and I told her. I am not doing what I am told for nothing. I will not have her take the chance to get infected by the virus and bring it in this house. she either doesn't get it or she does get it and she doesn't care. Either way it is wrong. As I said, she can get mad at me all she wants and stay mad at me for however long. I don't care and my reasoning will still be the same. She doesn't like it then she will have to find a place to stay for the time being outside of this house. I know that sounds mean but I am not willing to take any chances at all. Every hour of every day the numbers are climbing and the death toll is higher. Yesterday was some very graphic footage on the TV from NYC. It was horrible. Mom is still praying daily for us all. I know you are with us and doing all you can too. Thank you so much for that my sweet precious son. It means everything to Mom. 
 after dinner, I will light your candle for you. It will be for you, for our family, our friends, pets and all those that have lost their lives to this virus plus all the families that are left to grieve. Mom will whisper to you later this evening before I go to bed. Have fun if you can while I am sleeping. I know you are busy doing all that you are needing to do. Come visit Mom in my dreams if you can. Thank you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Always feel it in your soul that you are missed beyond any words that I can express to you, you are loved to the moon and back and all the way around the world and even more than that. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings and you will forever live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later, Tyler. Continue to shine bright in the sky to help Mom with the path that I need to be on. Thank you, pumpkin. I love you ❤
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💞

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday late afternoon? Mom is doing alright today but I have to say that I am scared at what is happening. I was scared before but now I am even more. Watching the news last night to reading articles and things is really starting to freak Mom out. I either need to stop listening to the news, reading the articles or I am going to go nuts pretty soon. This morning Meme made me quite upset. She called the Sheriff's department and asked about what she could do after that alert went off on Saturday. They said the alert was correct but they can't stop her from going out if she wants to. That is all she needed to know. She is happy that she can go when she wants to but Mom is pissed. She doesn't care that by going out she risks all of us in this house and just not herself. I called Aunt Beck to get advice but I also vented to her too. I felt bad as I never do this kind of thing. People usually call me but I had too. I am at a loss for words now. Bob doesn't do anything to take precautions at all and doesn't care and neither does Meme. As long as she can go get her unnecessary items at the store she is happy. I don't know what is wrong with either her or Bob. Mark and Mom are doing everything in our power to stay home, stay safe for everyone. Ugh..... Aunt Beck said that she didn't know what to do or what to say. She was at a loss as well. We didn't speak for long as she had work to do but I will call later in the week to apologize to her and chat. 
 Mom was up early this morning. I fed the pups, made coffee and then lounged downstairs for about an hour by myself. It was nice and quiet. I was happy! I went upstairs to make the bed and take a shower. Mark has worked all day long, Bob has played his video game all day and Meme decided to use Mom's bananas without asking to make herself a banana bread. That tweaked me the wrong way as well. She didn't even ask. I think that is super rude. The rest of the day she has been doing nothing but watching tv. Mom has kept busy by chatting with Aunt Shirley for a couple hours and then to my friend Matt for an hour. The rest of the time I have sifted through emails and done very little. I slept last night but I don't feel like I have. I am quite tired and feel off today. I have made sure that I am eating and drinking. I will relax later tonight and then go to bed early. Aunt Shirley, Richard and their pup are all sick. Guess they all have colds and Aunt Shirley had a very bad headache as well. They are not going anywhere. They are staying home as much as possible. Mom just wanted to check in with them. I told her that I would call her more often. Once a week to say hi. My friend, Matt is doing good. He hasn't gone anywhere for 2 weeks. I told him I would call him on Wednesday to chat longer. I also spoke to Grandpa. I got another email on their flights. The times changed again for like the 5th time. I told them that we are a month out and that in 2 weeks we need to relook at this situation. They agreed. It is not safe right now for anyone to be flying at all. Especially with their ages. Mom wants everyone to be healthy and not sick so if we have to postpone their visit for a couple months longer than we will. The 2 weeks are at Easter time. In 2 days it will be April 1st. Today is day 5 of lockdown for us. Mom hasn't gone anywhere other than out by the pool and out front to walk the pups. No one is around here. It is empty. It will be this way for about a month or maybe more. We will enjoy the down time and the quietness because when things get better and they will, this place will be a mad house for a long time. 
 The news was saying that if we listen and do what is asked then the deaths will be 100,00-200,000 but if we don't start to take this seriously then they could be 1.6 million -2.2 million just in the US alone. Those are scary, very scary numbers. Mom is having a hard time with wrapping my head around all this. Please be with Mom. I need you by my side so much right now, Tyler. Please continue to watch over us. Thank you my sweet precious son. 
 Mom has no other updates for today. we didn't skype with Tubal and Karen last night but we did talk to them on the phone. We will call them weekly as well to check in. we promised that. We need to. It is important right now. Mom will light a candle for you later this evening and I will whisper to you later tonight. Smile for me and I will smile to you. It is going on 4:45 pm and Mom needs to get going so that I can feed the pups, take them for their walk and then make dinner for Mark and I. Have fun tonight while I get some much needed sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later. Always remember that I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you, Tyler. More than words can say my bright shining star.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤

Dear Tyler, 

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is doing alright tonight. This letter is going to be short as we are getting ready to skype with Tubal and Karen. We haven't done that in over 5 months. I wanted to at least write to you instead of missing a night. After the skype call, Mom will be calling Grandpa to see how they are doing. I think that they are doing okay but I still want to check in. We are doing ok. Meme is getting really depressed. She is snapping left and right. She is angry that she can't leave the house to go to the bank, the post office, the stores. I tried talking to her about it but she snapped at me so I told her to not take it out on me and I stopped talking to her altogether.  Mom is trying to get them to do stuff. Go for walks, swim, play cards, games, etc... but she keeps saying no. Bob just wants to play his video game all day long and only breaks to eat lunch and dinner and then to sleep. He yells and screams at the game like a child. Mom shuts the door so I don't have to hear it. Mark and Mom stay busy through the day. I don't know how to help Meme at all. If you can guide me in the right direction I could use your help my sweet precious son. I am just at a loss right now. I don't want this to spiral out of control. Thank you pumpkin. 
 Mom did a few things today. I cleaned and rearranged the pantry, refrigerator and freezer plus the hall closet upstairs. Then I took a shower and headed out to the pool. I swam for about an hour, sat in the sun and dried off and then sat in the shade the rest of the time. Mark and I made dinner, fed the pups and then took them for their night walk. Now everyone is doing their own thing. Bob is playing his game still. Meme is in her room, knitting and watching a movie on tv, Mark is playing a video game and the pups are passed out on the bed. They were outside with us all afternoon. We even got them in the water. They were cute doing the doggie paddle. They got cooled off and then laid on their cushions. Mom needs to get going though as we need to Skype with the other set of parents. Please continue to watch over us all. The Coronavirus is not getting any better, it is getting worse. More positive cases and death tolls keep raising hourly. It is getting scarier here. The President said that the death tolls will peak in 2 weeks. My heart breaks for anyone who is diagnosed with the virus and also the ones who have lost their lives and their families who are grieving. Mom is praying all the time for us all. Our family, our country, the entire world. I have your candle lit right now. I hope you are able to see it burning bright for you. I will whisper to you later this evening so smile for me and I will smile back to you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you during the day. Have fun tonight while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart,mind,body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams, Tyler. I miss you more than words.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🥰

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet precious son. How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is relaxing right now in bed. We had a busy day here. Mom was up at 7 am. I fed the pups, made bacon with our breakfast and then I made a pasta salad for dinner tonight. After all that was done, I did the clean up and then headed upstairs to take care of a few things. I did laundry yesterday so I put the clothes away and then I headed into my office for a bit. I have been wanting to rearrange a few things and put things in my new cabinet that I got about 3 months ago. I finally did that. I cleaned everything and then cleaned my computer desk as well. I like the outcome and I am able to see everything and can get to them much easier. I did this until 1:15 pm. Mom finished that up and joined Mark out by the pool. We decided to have some cold drinks, some music and we went swimming. The water was 80 degrees. It was refreshing. We were in the pool for about 1 hour and then Mom got out. I dried off and then changed. Mark stayed in the pool longer. Mom stayed outside with him and we had a good time. Meme stayed inside and watched tv and knit while Bob stayed in too and he played his video game. Around 4 pm, we finished up by the pool, fed the pups, took them for their walk and then made our dinner. We grilled tonight and had the salads that were made this morning. We asked Meme if they were interested in playing poker tonight but before we finished our dinner, Bob got up from the table and went back upstairs to play his video game again. Meme grabbed a drink and went upstairs as well. So much for that idea. Mark and Mom stayed downstairs for a bit and then decided to come upstairs. He is playing his game while I write to you. The pups are so tired....they are sleeping so soundly. Mom will probably watch a movie in a bit and then call it a night as I am tired. The sun and swimming makes me dopey but I get a really good night sleep so it is well worth it. Tomorrow will be about the same thing. We will be in the pool and sitting outside most of the day. We will grill again as well. Not much to do as we are on day 3 of the stay at home rule. Meme is really having a tough time with this. Bob doesn't care and Mark and I are doing okay with the rules. We did it all the time in Massachusetts on our own when we could go out. The numbers are still going up hourly and seems to be doubling daily. Last week there were 3 cases in our county and not even a week later there are now 36 cases. There are even more deaths as well. Mom is still praying daily for the health, strength, and well-being if not only us, our family and pets but every one around the world. I pray for the doctors to find a vaccine to get rid of this. I pray for all the people that have to work outside the home. Please watch over us, pumpkin. Thank you. 
 Mom doesn't have any updates for you at all tonight. I will call Grandpa tomorrow night to say hi and check in. I will let you know how things are on Monday's letter. I have your candle lit so I hope you are seeing it. I will whisper to you later on tonight before I go to bed. I know you are busy doing so many things during this crisis here in the physical world but if you get a chance come visit me in my dreams. Thanks pumpkin. Mom misses you so much and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart,mind,body and soul. Mom is going to now relax and watch a movie. It's 7:40pm now. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🥰

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am so sorry that I didn't get the chance to write to you yesterday at all but boy it was a sh*t show right from the get go here. We got up at the usual time, fed the pups and they went for their walk. We relaxed downstairs for a bit before coming upstairs to start the day. Mom came right in and started on her CEUs. I had several webinars to listen to. I needed to get them all finished for today so I started them at 8 am. Mom took a break midday so that I could take a shower and get ready. I stayed in my office until 6 pm last night. I got it all done and then went down and fed the pups, made dinner and took them for a walk. After all that was done we sat outside by the pool for a bit to get some fresh air. we came upstairs around 8:30 pm and we sat and talked to Meme for a bit and called it a night at 9 pm. We watched tv for an hour and then Mom was tired. I played a game for 30 minutes before saying I was laying down to go to bed. I have no excuse for not writing. I was just tired and it was crazy busy. We are day 2 on lockdown here. No one can go out, drive without papers and nothing is open. We can go for walks, sit by the pool but that is about it. We are in this for then next 2 weeks...until April 9th. The news had stated that we are now the top country with the positive cases of the Coronavirus. We are 7th country with the most deaths from the virus as well. People are not staying home. NH's Governor did a breaking news yesterday that there was a Stay at Home Order in effect starting tonight for them and it goes until May 4th. All schools are done for the remainder of the year and there will be no Proms, Graduations of any kind now. Mom will be missing out on her graduation from college. Many Seniors miss out on theirs as well. It is a milestone that they have worked so hard for but to keep others safe this all has to be done. I just want this how whole thing to start going in the positive direction. They said this would be the worst week and boy they were right. The numbers would climb, more cases coming out, more deaths. Mark and Mom are being strong for Meme. She is now getting scared at it all when a couple days ago she didn't care. It is more real to her. She made a call yesterday and the lady told her that if she is driving on the roads and the police pull her over she is just to tell them why and they will let her go. If others are on the road for no reason they will get a ticket and could face jail time. This sh*t is real. No one is screwing around with it anymore. This is a scary time here in the physical world. As much as Mom would want you here, Tyler and you know how much that is because I say it all the time, Mom is glad you do not have to deal with this. Mom would be so scared, more than I am right now. I would be worried sick about anyone being around you, touching you, etc... I would be a crazy person! Mom had to sit down and tell Meme that she couldn't go out at all to the stores or drive, etc... she is having the hardest time with that for some reason. She just doesn't understand it completely. Mark and Mom are cool with it because we have done this so many times on our own so it is no big deal to us. we can stay home for weeks and not care! Bob is really making me so angry. He doesn't care about anything. He burps, farts, coughs, sneezes and doesn't cover his mouth, wash his hands, etc... Mom spoke up and said something today when he did it. He didn't even give two sh*ts about anything. I told Meme...he keeps it up and he will be confined to one room and that is it. He doesn't want to do what we all have to do then he can stay in company with himself. Neither Mark or I want to be around him at all. I don't know what his issue is lately but he is getting really bad. My patience are gone with him. when I spoke to Meme about it earlier she said..." Sheri, he is just like a child" I responded with a child knows to cover their mouth and if not you tell them to and they do it. You tell Bob to do it and he ignores you and still doesn't do it. I know that made her angry but it is the truth. we can't have 3 people in this house do what we need to do and then one person who doesn't care at all. Not happening. Please help me Tyler with my patience with this situation. I need it. I admit it. I don't know what to do anymore. Thank you.
 It is already going on 4 pm. Mom needs to get going so that I can prep things for dinner tonight. I have a bit to make so I have to start soon. I know you are really busy pumpkin doing everything that is needed of you but if you have time, come visit Mom in my dreams please. Thank you. Keep watching over us like I know you are. It means everything to Mom right now and always really. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. It is Saturday and there are no plans at all. It will be above 95 degrees so we will be out by the pool for a bit and then grilling for dinner both Saturday and Sunday. I will lit a candle later this evening and I will whisper to you tonight before I go to bed. I love you more than anything. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Continue to do great things wherever you are. Fly high and free, Tyler. I miss you beyond words. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is okay. It has been a crazy day today for me. I was up at 7 am after not sleeping well last night. I thought I would because of not sleeping the night before but I was up a lot of the night with really bad stomach cramps again. Some points it was so painful. I did my best to not wake Mark and the pups up. I just laid there still and quiet. I got up, fed the pups and chatted with Mark for a bit. We thought that Meme was upstairs and Bob was still sleeping. Well we were right about Bob but I guess Meme was out and about at 6:45 am. She went to the post office and then to go buy more groceries. I spoke to her yesterday saying that she needed to stay in and not go anywhere. She is not listening to Mom. Aunt Beck told her the same thing. I helped her bring in all her groceries and then washed the countertops down and then my hands like a billion times. I then got ready myself. I made the bed and took my shower. Mom had no choice but to go out for a bit and get a few things we needed. I didn't want to but I had to. Meme came with me again when I told her to stay home but nope....ugh...see this pattern??? Anyways.... I had to go to the post office as I had to sign for a package and then off to the local grocery store. I was there and back in less than 1.5 hours. I stayed away from everyone I could. It seems to be an every day thing now to see people with gloves and masks on. Mom wonders if this is going to be the new normal now or if things will go back to the way they were. I was reading an article this afternoon and it was from an Infectious Disease Doctor that works with the President and he was saying that the quarantine will be more than just a couple weeks. It could be for several more weeks and into July or August. He said that we could be looking at 18 months for this whole thing to be depleted. Mom was shocked at that. Mom is at the point where I don't know what to think anymore. I know to stay away from people as much as possible. Wash your hands, cover your mouth when you cough or sneeze. Those are the basic rules right now but that should have been nothing new at all for any of us. Those have been instilled in our brain since we were little. All we can do is just wait things out and listen to the radio and watch the news for updates. Mom is praying for the world right now. I pray for our family, pets and friends. I pray for strangers that I will never ever meet. I pray for the elderly, the poor, the disabled. I pray for everyone and I will continue to do so. Please continue to watch over us, Tyler. I know you do but I always like to ask. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom loves you so much. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will always live in my heart, mind, body and soul.
 Last night was just like Monday night for us. Mark had a 2nd unexpected cutover after he had worked all day. Poor guy. He started work at 8 am and finished work at 8 pm. We watched a bit of TV and then Mom called it a night at 9:30 pm. I think tonight will be a night where we have dinner, feed the pups, take them for a walk and then relax. I owe Grandpa a call tonight because I didn't call him last night. I have been chatting with Debbie today. They are both well. We are all wondering if they will be coming down or if the airlines are closing too. They may get here and not be able to return back home when they wanted to. We are taking this day to day.
 Mark had a call with his bosses this afternoon. They were saying they were still having enough work for a few weeks but after that they are not sure what will happen. Mom and Mark are both scared at this. We don't know what we will do if he goes unemployed. We will not be able to pay our bills and keep this house. This is all very scary to everyone. It is definitely added stress that we don't need with all that we have on a daily basis. Businesses are closing down left and right and not knowing when they can reopen or if they will be able to. Construction has stopped everywhere. Mom has never seen anything like this at all. Meme said she hasn't either. That is scary as she is 36 years older than me. Mom will keep you updated daily on all this. Some reason though, Mom knows you know all about this and you see it all even before we do. I have no doubt that you are so busy helping any way that you need to and any way that you can. 
 Mom will light a candle for you this evening and whisper to you before I go to bed tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you have time. Thank you. Smile for me and I will smile to you. I have to finish listening to my last webinar for the day. I have done 4 just this afternoon. In 2 days that makes 7. I am half way there! I think I can do 4 tomorrow and 4 on Friday and I will be finished! That will be one less thing on my plate for this week. I am home bound so I have all kinds of time. I will start in the morning though. I will write to you again during the day while I am listening to them. For now, it is going on 4:30 pm and you know what time that is...time to get the night routine started and fed the pups and make dinner for us. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams pumpkin. I miss you more than words 😢 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤