Friday, March 20, 2020

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? It is already 4:45 pm and Mom has been in her office since 8:30 am. It has been a very long day indeed for me. I am so sorry that I didn't write to you last night but I was working on things all day after I got home with Meme and after I ate dinner I came back upstairs and worked some more. I called it a night at 8 pm and went and relaxed for about 2 hours and then crashed. Things are super busy here. Mark is still working daily. Mom is in-between studying, working on her business and also now I have to do 15 CEUs for my certification by April 1st so I don't lose it. It is crazy! Looks like it will be a quick letter to you tonight as well because if not Mom will be feeding the pups and eating dinner late again just like I have the last 3 nights. 
 The weather here is super hot. It has been in the 90's all week long. This weekend will be the same way. Mom and Mark are not going anywhere at all. We are going to get up, eat breakfast, lounge by the pool and swim all weekend. The pool water is 76 degrees and it is super nice! Mom is looking forward to that very much. We will BBQ both days as well. We are basically self-quarantining ourselves. We have enough food and such for the next week or so so there is no need to go out and this week there are not any appointments at all. That is a good thing. It will give me all kinds of time to catch up on studies, do my CEUs and work on my business. 
 It is getting worse here with the Coronavirus. We now have 3 positive cases in the county we live in. That is scary for sure. All public stores and restaurants are all closed down until the 2nd week in April. The only places open are grocery stores and gas stations. We only go out when needed. Bob had an appointment here at the house today and we cancelled it. Meme was not happy with Mom but I didn't care. Safety first for us all. We are doing our part with washing our hands, etc... well everyone except Bob. Things with him are getting worse by the day as well. Meme has no break. She is stressed out to the max. Mark and Mom really are having a hard time with him and we distance ourselves as much as we can. I know that sounds bad but when we are around him he doesn't say anything and he just sits and stares. Mom can't handle it at all. He expects everyone to do everything for him and he is capable of doing it but he is lazy and I don't tolerate that well. You know this. He also doesn't know how to give Mark and I some privacy and that bugs the sh*t out of us. we don't get much time during the week to be with one another and the weekend we can but not with him around. Meme gets it but he doesn't. My patience is wearing very thin. I really am trying but with no effort from Bob it is nearly impossible not to feel the way that we do. 
 I just read earlier that NH could be on the verge of a lockdown. Mom is scared that Grandpa and Debbie will not be able to come at the end of the month if things are not any better in the next couple of weeks. They can't even get their money back. Mom is praying for them and everyone at this point. We all need to do our part to stay safe and healthy. Please continue to watch over us like I know you do my sweet precious son. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
 No updates for you as I don't and haven't spoken to anyone at all. No one calls Mom. That is okay. I am beyond used to it now. We have lived here for 5 months and 5 days and Christina, Marion, Charlie, Kristi, Chris, Gary, Gregg, Bean, Bonnie and a few others never call and Mom doesn't bother with them either. I gave up a long time ago. Does it hurt...yep it does but I can't change any of it so I am not going to. Maybe some day things will get better but I am not counting on it. In my eyes and heart,  I feel that I will never see any of them again. It is what I have come to live with. So much for forever friends though. I don't believe in that anymore. Mom is good with it though so don't worry. From time to time I get emotional about it but then I start remembering everything and my attitude changes quickly! 
 Mom will be lighting a candle for you in a little bit tonight and I will whisper to you before I fall asleep. Smile when you hear me and I will smile back to you. I will write to you again tomorrow afternoon and on Sunday as well. I hope that your night is filled with all the things you have to do and things you may want to do. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I have to get going for now though as it is way after 5 pm and the pups haven't been fed and they haven't had their walk yet. Dinner hasn't been started either. I miss you and love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤

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