Wednesday, July 29, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on your very special day? Today is July 29th and it would be your Birthday if you were still here. You would be 30 years old and now you are forever 22. Mom is doing okay right now. I teared up a bit this morning and I am sure that I will throughout the entire day as well. Mom wanted to write to you now because Mark is still taking his certification test. He should be done in about 15 minutes and I am crossing my fingers that he passes! Mom is trying to be quiet for him but no one else seems to want to. Meme has been on the phone, the dogs have all been barking, Bob has been snoring and it is Wednesday so the lawn guys are here mowing and trimming. Poor Mark, I know all this has to be playing with his concentration. Mom is nervous for him. I know he wants this so bad too. Last time he took it and he failed he was so grumpy for days. I don't need that today....ugh!
Mom just notification that one of her boxes has been delivered to one of the gals that will be doing a review on her Youtube channel. Mom is excited and nervous. I want her to like it but not sure that she will. It is all the jitters of the unknown. Will she like some things? Will she give a good review? Will she hate it all? A lot of what she says will either help Mom or it will destroy her and her chances to make this a go. She is picking up the box today and will be doing her video either later tonight or tomorrow. I can't wait to see it but I am so scared. I don't want to look like a fool or fail at this. That will be completely embarrassing. Ugh... my nerves are getting the best of me as it is making me sick to my stomach....Mom will update you on this when I watch the video and hear what she has to say. Help me out pumpkin! Mom needs you! Thanks!
Mom has lit a candle for you already and I will have one burning for most of the day for you. Mom is going to celebrate you all day today. I am going to make tacos for dinner, have your favorite cake and ice cream for dessert as well. I want to do all the things we would have been doing if you were here today. I hope it makes you smile. Send me some signs to let me know you are near Mom today. I need them. Thank you my sweet precious son.
Mark just came in...He failed the certification test. He is bumming pretty bad right now. This is not good...ugh! Round 2 of him not being in a good mood for a few days again. He can retake the test but he has to wait 30 days to get his voucher. Wish Mom luck later as I am going to need it even more now!
Mom posted something to your facebook page this morning that I wanted to share with you on here. This is what it said:
Today is a very special day...it is July 29th and it was your Birthday here in the physical world. You would have turned 30 today. Happy Heavenly Birthday to you my sweet precious son! Mom is doing alright but there are times during the day so far that I have shed a few tears. It is just one of those days that jabs my heart harder. So hard to believe that you would have been 30.... I have to say that over and over because it just doesn't seem possible that 30 years ago I gave birth to you and you enter this world. Today is the day that you made me your Mom and I am so honored that you chose me so many years before we ever met. I remember the day vivid like it was yesterday. I was in labor with you for so long. I had 13 hours that I walked straight because my contractions were all in the back and it was so painful. I couldn't get comfortable sitting. Aunt Beck, Meme, Auntie Ann and your Dad were there with me. They tried helping but it was really between you and Mom. I went into the hospital around 7 pm on the 28th and was in hard labor for 17 hours (20 hours total). Mom's water never broke so around 11:45 am on the 29th the doctor broke my water and noted that I needed to have an emergency c-section as we were both in distress. I was wheeled down immediately and knocked out. You were born and entered this world at 12:12 pm. I didn't get to see you until about an hour after you were born because I was in recovery. Meme, Aunt Beck, Grandpa Ed and a few others told me that you were beautiful. I remember seeing your precious face the first time. I cried such happy tears. I held you and wondered what kind of a Mom was I going to be. Was I going to get and do everything right? Well that answer through the years was hell no but Mom always tried my best. You were my first priority always. Everything else and everyone else came second. Through the years after you got sick.... it was always you and Mom. We had each other. At times life knocked us down and we stumbled many of times along the way but we always drew strength from one another and we got back up. We both are fighters. Mom thinks back to the last party we had for you. What a fun celebration we had with our family and friends along with Jeremy, Ron and a few others. There were a lot of laughs and pictures taken. You had a great time. You and Mom discussed what we would get for tattoos. Never did I think that you would only be here for 11 more months and then I would have to say goodbye to you. Mom hates to think of that so I won't. Today is hard enough for me so I only want to try and think of memories that make me happy. When Mom got ready this morning... I said that I was going to wear your favorite color....Red. I chose my red sundress just for you. My letter today will be nothing like the usual because I want it to be all about you. I will fill you in on everything on tomorrows letter.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on your very special day? Today is July 29th and it would be your Birthday if you were still here. You would be 30 years old and now you are forever 22. Mom is doing okay right now. I teared up a bit this morning and I am sure that I will throughout the entire day as well. Mom wanted to write to you now because Mark is still taking his certification test. He should be done in about 15 minutes and I am crossing my fingers that he passes! Mom is trying to be quiet for him but no one else seems to want to. Meme has been on the phone, the dogs have all been barking, Bob has been snoring and it is Wednesday so the lawn guys are here mowing and trimming. Poor Mark, I know all this has to be playing with his concentration. Mom is nervous for him. I know he wants this so bad too. Last time he took it and he failed he was so grumpy for days. I don't need that today....ugh!
Mom just notification that one of her boxes has been delivered to one of the gals that will be doing a review on her Youtube channel. Mom is excited and nervous. I want her to like it but not sure that she will. It is all the jitters of the unknown. Will she like some things? Will she give a good review? Will she hate it all? A lot of what she says will either help Mom or it will destroy her and her chances to make this a go. She is picking up the box today and will be doing her video either later tonight or tomorrow. I can't wait to see it but I am so scared. I don't want to look like a fool or fail at this. That will be completely embarrassing. Ugh... my nerves are getting the best of me as it is making me sick to my stomach....Mom will update you on this when I watch the video and hear what she has to say. Help me out pumpkin! Mom needs you! Thanks!
Mom has lit a candle for you already and I will have one burning for most of the day for you. Mom is going to celebrate you all day today. I am going to make tacos for dinner, have your favorite cake and ice cream for dessert as well. I want to do all the things we would have been doing if you were here today. I hope it makes you smile. Send me some signs to let me know you are near Mom today. I need them. Thank you my sweet precious son.
Mark just came in...He failed the certification test. He is bumming pretty bad right now. This is not good...ugh! Round 2 of him not being in a good mood for a few days again. He can retake the test but he has to wait 30 days to get his voucher. Wish Mom luck later as I am going to need it even more now!
Mom posted something to your facebook page this morning that I wanted to share with you on here. This is what it said:
Today is a very special day...it is July 29th and it was your Birthday here in the physical world. You would have turned 30 today. Happy Heavenly Birthday to you my sweet precious son! Mom is doing alright but there are times during the day so far that I have shed a few tears. It is just one of those days that jabs my heart harder. So hard to believe that you would have been 30.... I have to say that over and over because it just doesn't seem possible that 30 years ago I gave birth to you and you enter this world. Today is the day that you made me your Mom and I am so honored that you chose me so many years before we ever met. I remember the day vivid like it was yesterday. I was in labor with you for so long. I had 13 hours that I walked straight because my contractions were all in the back and it was so painful. I couldn't get comfortable sitting. Aunt Beck, Meme, Auntie Ann and your Dad were there with me. They tried helping but it was really between you and Mom. I went into the hospital around 7 pm on the 28th and was in hard labor for 17 hours (20 hours total). Mom's water never broke so around 11:45 am on the 29th the doctor broke my water and noted that I needed to have an emergency c-section as we were both in distress. I was wheeled down immediately and knocked out. You were born and entered this world at 12:12 pm. I didn't get to see you until about an hour after you were born because I was in recovery. Meme, Aunt Beck, Grandpa Ed and a few others told me that you were beautiful. I remember seeing your precious face the first time. I cried such happy tears. I held you and wondered what kind of a Mom was I going to be. Was I going to get and do everything right? Well that answer through the years was hell no but Mom always tried my best. You were my first priority always. Everything else and everyone else came second. Through the years after you got sick.... it was always you and Mom. We had each other. At times life knocked us down and we stumbled many of times along the way but we always drew strength from one another and we got back up. We both are fighters. Mom thinks back to the last party we had for you. What a fun celebration we had with our family and friends along with Jeremy, Ron and a few others. There were a lot of laughs and pictures taken. You had a great time. You and Mom discussed what we would get for tattoos. Never did I think that you would only be here for 11 more months and then I would have to say goodbye to you. Mom hates to think of that so I won't. Today is hard enough for me so I only want to try and think of memories that make me happy. When Mom got ready this morning... I said that I was going to wear your favorite color....Red. I chose my red sundress just for you. My letter today will be nothing like the usual because I want it to be all about you. I will fill you in on everything on tomorrows letter.
Lots of memories came up on my feed today. Lots of releasing of balloons to you in heaven from past years. Mom stopped doing that because, well, for one it is now illegal to do and second I didn't want to take the chance of hurting innocent animals. You were such an animal lover so I know you will understand what I am saying. On one of the pictures I will post on here today will be of white balloons. Just picture Mom sending those to you. There were a lot of family and friends wishing you a Happy Heavenly Birthday as well. You are so loved and I hope you feel that just not today but every day. We all miss you so much but no one misses you more than Mom does. Maybe Dad, but still not as much as me. I carried you in my body for 10 months because you we so comfortable and didn't want to come out...lol. We always had that special bond. The bond between a mother and her son. I still have that bond but it is in a different way now. I know you are always around me even when I don't see the signs clearly. I know you watch over me and everyone else you love. I thank you for that. Mom knows that you are truly at peace and you are happy and free now. You would never trade that for anything. I know you. Mom doesn't blame you one bit either. I know there will be a day that you will be waiting for me with open arms when my time on this earth is done. I promise you that you will get one long hug because it will have been many many years since our last. I know for Mom, I have many years left here in the physical world, I need to do all that I came here to do and I won't leave until everything is done and I learned all that I needed to but I want you to know that I look forward to that day of reuniting with you and all our family, pets and friends. That will be the day that we will never have to part again. It will be for eternal life.
Your candle was lit early this morning and will stay lit until Mom goes to bed tonight. I wanted it to burn all day for your Birthday. I whispered to you as I lit the candle so I hope you heard Mom and smiled. I will whisper to you again later this evening. I sure hope that throughout your busy day you will have a chance to send me a sign to let me know you are around me today. Maybe a painting in the sky later? I will be looking. I miss you so much, Tyler. No words can ever express just how much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can while I sleep. Thanks pumpkin. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....good night and sweet dreams later tonight. Again, Happy Heavenly Birthday to you, Tyler. 30 years old but forever 22 
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah
Mom really misses you so much! I do love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Nothing will ever be the same for Mom ever again after I lost you but I am trying so hard to make you so proud of me. I know you don't want Mom to be sad all the time. You want me to live my life and smile and laugh. I try daily but days like these are so much harder for Mom. I know you understand that. It is 11:41 am and in just a bit shy of 35 minutes, you would be born into this world. Mom will wish you a Happy Heavenly Birthday at exactly 12:12 pm ...the time that you were born and made me a Mommy. I hope you hear Mom and you smile because I will be smiling to you. You still are my world. You always will be! Have fun celebrating wherever you may be today. Continue to fly high and free. Watch over us down here though. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Mom is going to go see how Mark is doing. I know he is bumming big time. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams later tonight. I will be looking for signs all day and hopefully we will see a painting in the sky.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖
Tuesday, July 28, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I have been very busy today and it is only 2:50 pm. I was up early as always. The pups were fed and walked and then instead of Mom sitting down, I decided I was going to make a homemade apple pie. I stayed downstairs while it was baking. I cleaned up my mess and then I made myself breakfast. The guy for the garbage came as well so it all worked out. After that was all done, Mom came upstairs to make the bed but saw that Mark did it and that was so nice and helpful. I had intentions of getting ready but instead I came into my office and I curated all the other 21 boxes for the month of August for my business. I stacked them all in my office closet for now. when someone subscribes, all I have to do is put the thank you card in the box and put the gems on the outside and get the labels on them and ship them out. It is a pretty time consuming job but I am having so much fun with it. I just wish that people would start buying them. It is pretty slow. I have put things out there on the social media sites so hopefully things will start to move along. I really want this to succeed for Mom. I want this to skyrocket and take off. Anything that you can do to help Mom would be wonderful and I would so appreciate it. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom just finished everything up about an hour ago and I had a few calls to make and then I a couple emails to send but I am done now. I wanted to write to you while I had the time because the sky is getting pretty dark out there again. I know we are in for a big storm yet again. The next few days show no rain so that will be a very nice change. We will actually be able to be in the pool for the first time over the weekend in a month. Mom misses swimming and sitting out and relaxing.
Well tomorrow will be a hard day for Mom. It will be your Birthday and it will be the 8th one without you. It makes me so sad, Tyler. I start to think about it and tear up so I have to think about other things so that I don't have a huge crying spell. I miss you so damn much. It hurts more today. Time heals nothing. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are and always will be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Mom will light a candle for you tonight. I will whisper to you just like I do every night before I go to bed. Smile for me if you hear my voice and I will smile to you so you can see Mom. Have fun while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I sure hope that tomorrow you will send me some extra signs telling me you are around. I definitely will need them. Thank you.
I called Grandpa last night to check in. He finally told me about the pain he is in after I told him I knew. He promised me that he would go have it looked at. He is thinking it is because of an old injury. I told him either way new or old, if it is effecting his walking he needs to have it checked out. He agreed and Mom will be checking in to see how he is doing tomorrow night and I will keep on him about this. It is 59 days before they come here and I can't wait. I am seeing that their flights are starting to change up a bit so I am hoping that they will not be cancelled again. Mom will be so bummed out. I miss them both. It has been almost a year since we have seen them. Mom needs to see Grandpa. I am a "daddy's girl". Mom will keep you posted on that.
Tomorrow, Mark has to take his recertification test in the morning. I sure hope he passes it this time. He failed it a month ago by just 3 questions. This is the one he really wants and did that week long hard training class. I hope that you bring him lots of good luck. What a gift for him on your special day if he passed it. After the exam is done, I think we are going to go out for a bit to occupy my mind. We won't go far or stay out long as the numbers here for Covid19 are still climbing daily. Mom just found out that a friend of hers has it. She is an RN. I am praying for her. I am praying for the world right now.
Mom will write to you tomorrow but for now I have to make a call. A friend is in need and I said I would call him for a brief chat. Then I need to shower and make dinner plus feed the pups and walk them. Then it will be a night of relaxing I hope. Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son.... good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I have been very busy today and it is only 2:50 pm. I was up early as always. The pups were fed and walked and then instead of Mom sitting down, I decided I was going to make a homemade apple pie. I stayed downstairs while it was baking. I cleaned up my mess and then I made myself breakfast. The guy for the garbage came as well so it all worked out. After that was all done, Mom came upstairs to make the bed but saw that Mark did it and that was so nice and helpful. I had intentions of getting ready but instead I came into my office and I curated all the other 21 boxes for the month of August for my business. I stacked them all in my office closet for now. when someone subscribes, all I have to do is put the thank you card in the box and put the gems on the outside and get the labels on them and ship them out. It is a pretty time consuming job but I am having so much fun with it. I just wish that people would start buying them. It is pretty slow. I have put things out there on the social media sites so hopefully things will start to move along. I really want this to succeed for Mom. I want this to skyrocket and take off. Anything that you can do to help Mom would be wonderful and I would so appreciate it. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom just finished everything up about an hour ago and I had a few calls to make and then I a couple emails to send but I am done now. I wanted to write to you while I had the time because the sky is getting pretty dark out there again. I know we are in for a big storm yet again. The next few days show no rain so that will be a very nice change. We will actually be able to be in the pool for the first time over the weekend in a month. Mom misses swimming and sitting out and relaxing.
Well tomorrow will be a hard day for Mom. It will be your Birthday and it will be the 8th one without you. It makes me so sad, Tyler. I start to think about it and tear up so I have to think about other things so that I don't have a huge crying spell. I miss you so damn much. It hurts more today. Time heals nothing. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are and always will be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Mom will light a candle for you tonight. I will whisper to you just like I do every night before I go to bed. Smile for me if you hear my voice and I will smile to you so you can see Mom. Have fun while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I sure hope that tomorrow you will send me some extra signs telling me you are around. I definitely will need them. Thank you.
I called Grandpa last night to check in. He finally told me about the pain he is in after I told him I knew. He promised me that he would go have it looked at. He is thinking it is because of an old injury. I told him either way new or old, if it is effecting his walking he needs to have it checked out. He agreed and Mom will be checking in to see how he is doing tomorrow night and I will keep on him about this. It is 59 days before they come here and I can't wait. I am seeing that their flights are starting to change up a bit so I am hoping that they will not be cancelled again. Mom will be so bummed out. I miss them both. It has been almost a year since we have seen them. Mom needs to see Grandpa. I am a "daddy's girl". Mom will keep you posted on that.
Tomorrow, Mark has to take his recertification test in the morning. I sure hope he passes it this time. He failed it a month ago by just 3 questions. This is the one he really wants and did that week long hard training class. I hope that you bring him lots of good luck. What a gift for him on your special day if he passed it. After the exam is done, I think we are going to go out for a bit to occupy my mind. We won't go far or stay out long as the numbers here for Covid19 are still climbing daily. Mom just found out that a friend of hers has it. She is an RN. I am praying for her. I am praying for the world right now.
Mom will write to you tomorrow but for now I have to make a call. A friend is in need and I said I would call him for a brief chat. Then I need to shower and make dinner plus feed the pups and walk them. Then it will be a night of relaxing I hope. Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son.... good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖
Monday, July 27, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. i wanted to write to you now because I know the heavy rain and storms will be hitting us in about 30 minutes. the skies are blue right now but the clouds are rolling in quickly. I guess we are suppose to be getting the backend of the hurricanes that are hitting Hawaii and Texas right now. Both those states are getting it really bad and Mom is sending prayers out for everyone that they are all finding shelter and are staying safe...both humans and their pets. we, here, are suppose to be getting high winds and heavy rain from 3 pm -10 pm tonight and then tomorrow it will be about the same. Wednesday I think is the first day that we won't see much rain at all and that is a very special day to Mom so I am hoping that we don't see much. Wednesday would have been your 30th Birthday. Mom and Mark are going to go out to enjoy the day and just be away from social media. It will be a hard day for me...it always is. Please send me extra signs to let me know you are near. Thank you.
It seems like forever since I wrote to you. 2 days and it feels like eternity. Mom enjoys the weekends off but honestly, Tyler, I need to at least write to you 1 day on the weekend. I think what I will do is that I will write you a small letter on Saturdays and take Sundays off and then be back on Monday to write to you during the week. That way I still write to you 6 days a week. Anyways.... the weekend flew by. Friday, Mom wrote to you while she was getting her hair done. It came out nice. I left there and was home by 3 pm. Mark was at the RMV the entire day just to be told that they lost his title to his vehicle and he would have to get another copy to them and then go back once more. He got a 20 day plate though. He was not happy at all. Friday night we didn't do a thing. It was quiet. Saturday we were up early and Mom and Mark went shopping. We were gone for 4 hours. We hit the grocery store too. Got home, put everything away and then made dinner. I don't think we did much Saturday night either. I think we watched tv. Sunday, Mom and Meme went out. We were gone for a couple hours. Got home, put things away, had lunch and the rest of the time, Mom was in her office. I was busy! I had to curate 6 boxes and get them all set. I even was able to figure out all the printing of the shipping labels too. I took a break to feed the pups, walk them, have dinner and back upstairs I went to finish things up. when that was all done, Mom folded the laundry that she did and put it all away. I was able to relax at 8:45 pm. I called Grandpa. I am not sure to what is going on with him but something is up. Debbie had briefly told me and she mentioned it on the phone last night but Grandpa told her to be quiet. something is going on with his back of the legs to where the pain is in his back and he can hardly walk. They haven't been going anywhere at all because of this. Grandpa isn't even going to church and you know that is not like him at all. Debbie has tried to get him to go see the doctors but he is refusing. I don't know what is going on. When I ask him, he tells Mom that everything is ok and I know it is not. Tyler, please be with Grandpa. Let him be ok. I can't make him go to the doctors but I sure would like him to. I am going to recall later to see how things are and hopefully I will be able to talk to him. Mom will keep you posted on things! Please watch over us all. Keep us all safe and healthy. The Covid19 is still really bad here. Over the weekend in 24 hrs where we are in Florida, there was over 15,000 new cases. This is not a good thing. The second wave is really bad. Definitely worse than the first. It was effecting the elderly before and know it is effecting the young. People are not doing what is needed now. It is like they don't care. Around here where we live, the renters just don't care. They are partying still and having friends over. The whole thing is scary. Mom doesn't go out unless I see that no one is out there. How sad is that.... Mom continues to pray for us all. For everyone all over the world. I know there is not an end in sight for us with this virus but I sure hope that 1 day we will. For now, we all know this is our new normal.
Boy, the weather just changed very quickly. It was sunny and now it is thundering, lightning, and the wind is whipping. It got pretty dark too. Guess the weather is going to hit us sooner rather than later. Ozzy is doing ok but Princess is a nervous wreck as always. Poor thing. Guess Mom's day is done so that I can comfort them so they are not scared. Meme's little guy, Rocky doesn't even care. Nothing phases him at all...he needs to teach these 2 that trick...lol. Guess the fun will start now and go through the evening. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I will light a candle tonight. I have had one going all day today. I miss you and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Smile for me later when you hear my voice and I will smile right back to you. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖
P.S. Mom wanted you to know that I did it.... I sent out my 1st 6 boxes this morning from my new business! I am proud of myself. Now it is to wait and see what happens. The 2 gals will be doing unboxing videos this week. Mom is hoping for good reviews and nothing negative! Wish me luck. I hope everyone loves what I picked out and sent them. my fingers are crossed as I really want this business to soar!!! Help me out, pumpkin! Thanks. I love you 💖
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. i wanted to write to you now because I know the heavy rain and storms will be hitting us in about 30 minutes. the skies are blue right now but the clouds are rolling in quickly. I guess we are suppose to be getting the backend of the hurricanes that are hitting Hawaii and Texas right now. Both those states are getting it really bad and Mom is sending prayers out for everyone that they are all finding shelter and are staying safe...both humans and their pets. we, here, are suppose to be getting high winds and heavy rain from 3 pm -10 pm tonight and then tomorrow it will be about the same. Wednesday I think is the first day that we won't see much rain at all and that is a very special day to Mom so I am hoping that we don't see much. Wednesday would have been your 30th Birthday. Mom and Mark are going to go out to enjoy the day and just be away from social media. It will be a hard day for me...it always is. Please send me extra signs to let me know you are near. Thank you.
It seems like forever since I wrote to you. 2 days and it feels like eternity. Mom enjoys the weekends off but honestly, Tyler, I need to at least write to you 1 day on the weekend. I think what I will do is that I will write you a small letter on Saturdays and take Sundays off and then be back on Monday to write to you during the week. That way I still write to you 6 days a week. Anyways.... the weekend flew by. Friday, Mom wrote to you while she was getting her hair done. It came out nice. I left there and was home by 3 pm. Mark was at the RMV the entire day just to be told that they lost his title to his vehicle and he would have to get another copy to them and then go back once more. He got a 20 day plate though. He was not happy at all. Friday night we didn't do a thing. It was quiet. Saturday we were up early and Mom and Mark went shopping. We were gone for 4 hours. We hit the grocery store too. Got home, put everything away and then made dinner. I don't think we did much Saturday night either. I think we watched tv. Sunday, Mom and Meme went out. We were gone for a couple hours. Got home, put things away, had lunch and the rest of the time, Mom was in her office. I was busy! I had to curate 6 boxes and get them all set. I even was able to figure out all the printing of the shipping labels too. I took a break to feed the pups, walk them, have dinner and back upstairs I went to finish things up. when that was all done, Mom folded the laundry that she did and put it all away. I was able to relax at 8:45 pm. I called Grandpa. I am not sure to what is going on with him but something is up. Debbie had briefly told me and she mentioned it on the phone last night but Grandpa told her to be quiet. something is going on with his back of the legs to where the pain is in his back and he can hardly walk. They haven't been going anywhere at all because of this. Grandpa isn't even going to church and you know that is not like him at all. Debbie has tried to get him to go see the doctors but he is refusing. I don't know what is going on. When I ask him, he tells Mom that everything is ok and I know it is not. Tyler, please be with Grandpa. Let him be ok. I can't make him go to the doctors but I sure would like him to. I am going to recall later to see how things are and hopefully I will be able to talk to him. Mom will keep you posted on things! Please watch over us all. Keep us all safe and healthy. The Covid19 is still really bad here. Over the weekend in 24 hrs where we are in Florida, there was over 15,000 new cases. This is not a good thing. The second wave is really bad. Definitely worse than the first. It was effecting the elderly before and know it is effecting the young. People are not doing what is needed now. It is like they don't care. Around here where we live, the renters just don't care. They are partying still and having friends over. The whole thing is scary. Mom doesn't go out unless I see that no one is out there. How sad is that.... Mom continues to pray for us all. For everyone all over the world. I know there is not an end in sight for us with this virus but I sure hope that 1 day we will. For now, we all know this is our new normal.
Boy, the weather just changed very quickly. It was sunny and now it is thundering, lightning, and the wind is whipping. It got pretty dark too. Guess the weather is going to hit us sooner rather than later. Ozzy is doing ok but Princess is a nervous wreck as always. Poor thing. Guess Mom's day is done so that I can comfort them so they are not scared. Meme's little guy, Rocky doesn't even care. Nothing phases him at all...he needs to teach these 2 that trick...lol. Guess the fun will start now and go through the evening. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I will light a candle tonight. I have had one going all day today. I miss you and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Smile for me later when you hear my voice and I will smile right back to you. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖
P.S. Mom wanted you to know that I did it.... I sent out my 1st 6 boxes this morning from my new business! I am proud of myself. Now it is to wait and see what happens. The 2 gals will be doing unboxing videos this week. Mom is hoping for good reviews and nothing negative! Wish me luck. I hope everyone loves what I picked out and sent them. my fingers are crossed as I really want this business to soar!!! Help me out, pumpkin! Thanks. I love you 💖
Friday, July 24, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am at the hairdressers right now under the dryer. Getting my highlights done. I wanted to write to you now as I know I won't when I get back home as I will be crazy busy and then it will be time for the night routine to start.
Last night was pretty quiet. We ate dinner and watched tv downstairs. Our TV didn't work in our room because the power went out earlier. We went to bed early so it worked out in the end. Mom got some good sleep I think. Up. Couple times but nothing major. I think tonight will be quiet and all about relaxing. The weekend will be quiet too. Going to rain a lot so Mom will utilize the time by doing my boxes for my customers. In less than 48 hrs. Mom has 5 subscribers. The company I am using said that is great as usually people don't see anything in the first couple weeks. I will take it ☺ I hope I can succeed at this. I really do. I enjoy it and it will also let me help with the financial piece at home and just not be Mark being the sole provider. I know you will be with me every step of the way. Thank you!
No new updates for you at all. Maybe over the weekend I will have some for you. Meme came with me today. She is sitting in the car while I am in here because she can't come in but she wanted it that way! We went shopping earlier. That was fun but I am tired. It is very hot today! Mom will be glad to get home! I shoul be there in about 30 minutes.
Mom will make sure to write to you over the weekend. I will light your candle tonight and whisper to you later this evening before I go to bed. Have fun while I sleep tonight. Please continue to watch over us and keep us healthy and safe. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul.
It is time for Mom to get out from under the dryer. Smile to me when you hear my voice and I will smile back to you my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow comes.... good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🤍
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am at the hairdressers right now under the dryer. Getting my highlights done. I wanted to write to you now as I know I won't when I get back home as I will be crazy busy and then it will be time for the night routine to start.
Last night was pretty quiet. We ate dinner and watched tv downstairs. Our TV didn't work in our room because the power went out earlier. We went to bed early so it worked out in the end. Mom got some good sleep I think. Up. Couple times but nothing major. I think tonight will be quiet and all about relaxing. The weekend will be quiet too. Going to rain a lot so Mom will utilize the time by doing my boxes for my customers. In less than 48 hrs. Mom has 5 subscribers. The company I am using said that is great as usually people don't see anything in the first couple weeks. I will take it ☺ I hope I can succeed at this. I really do. I enjoy it and it will also let me help with the financial piece at home and just not be Mark being the sole provider. I know you will be with me every step of the way. Thank you!
No new updates for you at all. Maybe over the weekend I will have some for you. Meme came with me today. She is sitting in the car while I am in here because she can't come in but she wanted it that way! We went shopping earlier. That was fun but I am tired. It is very hot today! Mom will be glad to get home! I shoul be there in about 30 minutes.
Mom will make sure to write to you over the weekend. I will light your candle tonight and whisper to you later this evening before I go to bed. Have fun while I sleep tonight. Please continue to watch over us and keep us healthy and safe. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul.
It is time for Mom to get out from under the dryer. Smile to me when you hear my voice and I will smile back to you my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow comes.... good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🤍
Thursday, July 23, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing well but I have been crazy busy again all day long. I had a few minutes to write to you. I am not sure how long this letter will be but I figure it is better than not having one at all, right? I know you are seeing what I am doing and just how busy I am so I know you understand. Thank you for that!
Mom was up at 6 am. I slept alright but woke up several times during the night. We got up and fed the pups and walked them. Mom stayed downstairs this morning while everyone was upstairs. I just wanted some me time and quiet time. The pups were with me and then there was a noise outside. It startled the pups and Princess went running to the door barking and Ozzy was sitting with me in the chair. I tried holding him so he wouldn't jump but that didn't happen as he wiggled his way out of my grasp and he not just jumped on the ottoman to get down...he jumped over the back of the chair. That was a very high jump and he startled himself. He hurt himself by doing that. I couldn't believe it. we have been doing all that we can so that he does not jump or walk up and down the stairs for the last 3 months and he does this. Mom had an extra pain med for him so I gave it to him but it didn't work as we had several thunderstorms this morning and he was scared. Our power even went out for a bit. It came back on but the storms were still quite heavy and very loud. I think they finally stopped around 1:30 pm. The pups are finally quiet and sleeping. meme lucked out with Rocky. He doesn't care about the thunder or fireworks or the rain. Skittles didn't either. Wish our 2 were that way. Life would be a bit easier on us. Ozzy is a bit better than Princess but still no where near Rocky. He needs to teach them not to be so scared...lol
Today, Mom was able to get a few more things done for her boxes. I was able to finish the write up on the items and print them all off. I also was able to do a write up for a couple gals who will be doing a youtube unboxing videos for Mom. I had to write about the box and also how the name came about. Those are done and printed as well. The only thing left to do is curate the rest of the boxes and hand write all the thank you cards. This weekend it is going to rain a lot again so Mom will have plenty of time to make up the boxes and curate them and hand write the cards. That won't take me but maybe 4 hours tops. Then when I get customers I can just ship the boxes out. It is working smoother than I thought! I might even get a head start and put all the boxes together so that I don't have to do that too. That will save me some time as well! Good thing Mom is super organized! I should be in a really good spot after this weekend and I have already been working on Octobers box so that is such an early start for me. I can now kind of focus on my studies again so that I can finish this course up and not worry about it!
Tonight I am hoping to have a couple hours to relax and shut my brain off. I have no idea what to have for dinner tonight so I will be winging it, I guess. It is already after 4:30 pm and it is almost time to feed the pups and walk them. There is nothing on tv so Mom may come upstairs and utilize that time to curate some boxes for an hour or two. Not sure yet. After that I will watch a bit of tv just to have down time and try to get tired. Tomorrow Mom has to run errands and then I have a hair appointment. I will be back in the later afternoon so tomorrow is pretty much shot to do anything that I need. I have some shopping over the weekend as well to do but the rest of the time will be mostly spent home. the rain will pretty much cancel anything that we wanted to really do. Mom is very much missing the pool. We have gone in it 1 time in almost 3 weeks because of the weather. The weekend weather has been crappy too. Hopefully that will change soon so we can enjoy the outside again!
Mom will light the candle for you tonight and I will whisper to you before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. Have fun while I sleep and come visit me if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I might do it while I am at the hair salon and under the dryer. I have 30 minutes when I am under that thing so it should be enough time to write to you. Please continue to watch over us all and keep us safe and healthy. I miss you beyond any words that I could possibly say. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes, Tyler....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing well but I have been crazy busy again all day long. I had a few minutes to write to you. I am not sure how long this letter will be but I figure it is better than not having one at all, right? I know you are seeing what I am doing and just how busy I am so I know you understand. Thank you for that!
Mom was up at 6 am. I slept alright but woke up several times during the night. We got up and fed the pups and walked them. Mom stayed downstairs this morning while everyone was upstairs. I just wanted some me time and quiet time. The pups were with me and then there was a noise outside. It startled the pups and Princess went running to the door barking and Ozzy was sitting with me in the chair. I tried holding him so he wouldn't jump but that didn't happen as he wiggled his way out of my grasp and he not just jumped on the ottoman to get down...he jumped over the back of the chair. That was a very high jump and he startled himself. He hurt himself by doing that. I couldn't believe it. we have been doing all that we can so that he does not jump or walk up and down the stairs for the last 3 months and he does this. Mom had an extra pain med for him so I gave it to him but it didn't work as we had several thunderstorms this morning and he was scared. Our power even went out for a bit. It came back on but the storms were still quite heavy and very loud. I think they finally stopped around 1:30 pm. The pups are finally quiet and sleeping. meme lucked out with Rocky. He doesn't care about the thunder or fireworks or the rain. Skittles didn't either. Wish our 2 were that way. Life would be a bit easier on us. Ozzy is a bit better than Princess but still no where near Rocky. He needs to teach them not to be so scared...lol
Today, Mom was able to get a few more things done for her boxes. I was able to finish the write up on the items and print them all off. I also was able to do a write up for a couple gals who will be doing a youtube unboxing videos for Mom. I had to write about the box and also how the name came about. Those are done and printed as well. The only thing left to do is curate the rest of the boxes and hand write all the thank you cards. This weekend it is going to rain a lot again so Mom will have plenty of time to make up the boxes and curate them and hand write the cards. That won't take me but maybe 4 hours tops. Then when I get customers I can just ship the boxes out. It is working smoother than I thought! I might even get a head start and put all the boxes together so that I don't have to do that too. That will save me some time as well! Good thing Mom is super organized! I should be in a really good spot after this weekend and I have already been working on Octobers box so that is such an early start for me. I can now kind of focus on my studies again so that I can finish this course up and not worry about it!
Tonight I am hoping to have a couple hours to relax and shut my brain off. I have no idea what to have for dinner tonight so I will be winging it, I guess. It is already after 4:30 pm and it is almost time to feed the pups and walk them. There is nothing on tv so Mom may come upstairs and utilize that time to curate some boxes for an hour or two. Not sure yet. After that I will watch a bit of tv just to have down time and try to get tired. Tomorrow Mom has to run errands and then I have a hair appointment. I will be back in the later afternoon so tomorrow is pretty much shot to do anything that I need. I have some shopping over the weekend as well to do but the rest of the time will be mostly spent home. the rain will pretty much cancel anything that we wanted to really do. Mom is very much missing the pool. We have gone in it 1 time in almost 3 weeks because of the weather. The weekend weather has been crappy too. Hopefully that will change soon so we can enjoy the outside again!
Mom will light the candle for you tonight and I will whisper to you before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. Have fun while I sleep and come visit me if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I might do it while I am at the hair salon and under the dryer. I have 30 minutes when I am under that thing so it should be enough time to write to you. Please continue to watch over us all and keep us safe and healthy. I miss you beyond any words that I could possibly say. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes, Tyler....good night and sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖
Wednesday, July 22, 2020
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay but again the time has escaped me. I am so sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday. Mom was up early...like 5 am early and I did all kinds of things before it was time to feed the pups and walk them. Then I came right upstairs to start curating one of my boxes as I needed to take pictures of it for the website. i did that and then found myself stripping plastic off everything and stickers and tags and before I knew it, it was after 11 am. Mom needed to shower and get ready for my nail appointment. I had to run a couple errands before hand so I had to leave early. Glad I did because right when I started to drive we got hit with a really bad thunderstorm. The rain was so heavy that you could not see a dang thing in front of you or on either side. Mom was driving 20 mph and that was too fast in that rain. It was awful. Meme was with me and she was so scared. I stayed calm for us both. We made it there safely and on our return drive home it rained for a bit but that was it. I was super glad to get back though. I headed right back upstairs and I continued to work on what I was doing before. I was able to get all the pictures taken and then uploaded them to the website. I hit the button to approve it around 5:30 pm. It was indeed approved within 1 hour. Poor Mark. I don't think that he is used to Mom working all crazy hours. We have not had a decent meal in the last 2 weeks and not before 7 pm either. The pups are getting fed later as well. I don't think they are minding as much though....lol. Mom never got done eating and doing the dishes until after 8 pm. I was beat and watched tv for a short bit and then called it a night. I slept soundly until 5 am this morning and then I was wide awake. I stayed in bed this morning though until 7 am and then got up to feed the pups and walk them. I stayed downstairs for a bit before coming up to start the day. I have been in my office all morning, noon and now still. Everyone has been pretty quiet. I haven't heard anything from mark in over 3 hours. Meme and Bob are downstairs awaiting for us to go make dinner. we are grilling tonight. Hamburgers and hotdogs with fries. Simple and easy but we will be eating before 6 pm. That will be a nice change. Mom is exhausted again tonight but I wanted to write to you. I hate missing a letter to you during the week. I think of you all the time and talk to you and about you multiple times during the day and night. Next week would have been your 30th Birthday. mark asked if I wanted to do something to honor you. I thought that was so sweet. It brought a tear to my eye. I said I would think about it. I know we will have your favorite food. I can't send balloons to you anymore as they are illegal down here. I will send pictures of balloons to you on here though. Mom will honor you in some way though. I promise. I hope you smile and you send me a sign on that day to tell me that you are near me. I will be looking and watching for them.
Tonight will be all about relaxing so that I can shut my mind off and get some sleep. My mind is going a mile a minute these days. I can't believe that I did it. I launched my box business! It is official today! Now I just need subscribers. Tomorrow Mom will be working on a social media page for the business. I also need to do a few extra things and then over the weekend I will be curating the rest of the boxes to get them ready to ship out to clients when they sign up. They won't have to wait! Mom is trying to get and stay ahead of the game. I have everything on paper that I want in the next box in October so all I have to do is purchase it all and then wait for it. I am proud of myself for sure. This is not easy to do but I will get the hang of it. I know you are with me to so that helps. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you more than words can say or express. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will light your candle this evening. I have had the aroma burner on all day as well. I will whisper to you before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile back. Have fun tonight while I sleep. Come visit me again if you can. I know you did last night. Thank you for that! Please continue to keep us safe and healthy. The Covid numbers are still increasing daily and the Governor will not shut us down...not sure why but I am sure it is a political thing not to mention it is all about money too. Pretty sad but that is the way the world works now....Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I need to go now so that I can be downstairs to cook dinner by 5 pm. I have 12 minutes to do this...lol! until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams pumpkin.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay but again the time has escaped me. I am so sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday. Mom was up early...like 5 am early and I did all kinds of things before it was time to feed the pups and walk them. Then I came right upstairs to start curating one of my boxes as I needed to take pictures of it for the website. i did that and then found myself stripping plastic off everything and stickers and tags and before I knew it, it was after 11 am. Mom needed to shower and get ready for my nail appointment. I had to run a couple errands before hand so I had to leave early. Glad I did because right when I started to drive we got hit with a really bad thunderstorm. The rain was so heavy that you could not see a dang thing in front of you or on either side. Mom was driving 20 mph and that was too fast in that rain. It was awful. Meme was with me and she was so scared. I stayed calm for us both. We made it there safely and on our return drive home it rained for a bit but that was it. I was super glad to get back though. I headed right back upstairs and I continued to work on what I was doing before. I was able to get all the pictures taken and then uploaded them to the website. I hit the button to approve it around 5:30 pm. It was indeed approved within 1 hour. Poor Mark. I don't think that he is used to Mom working all crazy hours. We have not had a decent meal in the last 2 weeks and not before 7 pm either. The pups are getting fed later as well. I don't think they are minding as much though....lol. Mom never got done eating and doing the dishes until after 8 pm. I was beat and watched tv for a short bit and then called it a night. I slept soundly until 5 am this morning and then I was wide awake. I stayed in bed this morning though until 7 am and then got up to feed the pups and walk them. I stayed downstairs for a bit before coming up to start the day. I have been in my office all morning, noon and now still. Everyone has been pretty quiet. I haven't heard anything from mark in over 3 hours. Meme and Bob are downstairs awaiting for us to go make dinner. we are grilling tonight. Hamburgers and hotdogs with fries. Simple and easy but we will be eating before 6 pm. That will be a nice change. Mom is exhausted again tonight but I wanted to write to you. I hate missing a letter to you during the week. I think of you all the time and talk to you and about you multiple times during the day and night. Next week would have been your 30th Birthday. mark asked if I wanted to do something to honor you. I thought that was so sweet. It brought a tear to my eye. I said I would think about it. I know we will have your favorite food. I can't send balloons to you anymore as they are illegal down here. I will send pictures of balloons to you on here though. Mom will honor you in some way though. I promise. I hope you smile and you send me a sign on that day to tell me that you are near me. I will be looking and watching for them.
Tonight will be all about relaxing so that I can shut my mind off and get some sleep. My mind is going a mile a minute these days. I can't believe that I did it. I launched my box business! It is official today! Now I just need subscribers. Tomorrow Mom will be working on a social media page for the business. I also need to do a few extra things and then over the weekend I will be curating the rest of the boxes to get them ready to ship out to clients when they sign up. They won't have to wait! Mom is trying to get and stay ahead of the game. I have everything on paper that I want in the next box in October so all I have to do is purchase it all and then wait for it. I am proud of myself for sure. This is not easy to do but I will get the hang of it. I know you are with me to so that helps. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you more than words can say or express. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will light your candle this evening. I have had the aroma burner on all day as well. I will whisper to you before I go to bed. Smile for me and I will smile back. Have fun tonight while I sleep. Come visit me again if you can. I know you did last night. Thank you for that! Please continue to keep us safe and healthy. The Covid numbers are still increasing daily and the Governor will not shut us down...not sure why but I am sure it is a political thing not to mention it is all about money too. Pretty sad but that is the way the world works now....Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. I need to go now so that I can be downstairs to cook dinner by 5 pm. I have 12 minutes to do this...lol! until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams pumpkin.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖
Monday, July 20, 2020
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