Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I wanted to write to you now as I know that later on I will be busy. I am enjoying the day right now with no one here! I can think and just have peace and quiet. Mark is at the college teaching all day and Meme and Bob are getting their taxes done. I am in my office and the pups are with me and peacefully sleeping! I am sorry that I didn't write to you yesterday but just as I thought it was totally crazy. Let me explain what happened...

We woke up at 7 am and got the pups fed and walked. Mark got ready while Mom was straightening out the house. The buyer for our home was suppose to come and relook at the house on Friday at 2 pm but 45 minutes before the appointment he canceled and rescheduled for Saturday at 10:30 am. We thought it would just be the buyer and his wife and it ended up being the buyer, his wife, his mom and dad, the realtor for him and his 2 daughters. Mom was definitely not expecting 7 people. Anyways, they showed up late and then took an hour inside doing whatever. I was not allowed in the house during that time. We all had to stay outside for 1 hour in 90 degree heat. None of us were happy and the pups were so tired. They left at 11:30 am. We had enough time to get the pups settled and hydrated and then we were off. We had a scheduled time to meet our realtor in the afternoon. We had to travel over an hour to get there. The first house was cute with all upgrades but it was just way too small. The driveway was for only 2 cars as well. Not for us. The second house we went to was in a wonderful neighborhood but there was an offer that went in 15 minutes before we got there. We looked at the house just the same and it was really nice. The third house we were to look at was quite shocked we were there and I don't think they were expecting us at all. They told us to come back in about 20 minutes but we never did. It was above our price range. The fourth house we looked at was very nice. It was brand new and just finished being built. We took our time in there. Chatting about everything that we could do, how to make it work. We knew it wouldn't last long on the market as nothing is right now so we did it...we made and offer. It was accepted within 2 hours and the contract was signed today! We are officially under contract for this new home. It is about an hour away from where we are now and it is in the country like. It will take about 15 minutes to get to the stores but that is ok. The neighborhood is so quiet and lovely. We will have to downsize a lot as this house is very small but we are all ok with it except Meme. She is being b*tchy about it. She doesn't want to get rid of anything and she wants and thinks she is going to keep it all....that is so not true. I have to get rid of a lot of stuff and she is going to as well. Her stuff is so old anyways. She needs the change. I just wish she would see that she doesn't need all that stuff and can live without it. I know this is going to be a challenge once again but this time, Mark is putting his foot down. She aien't going to like that at all but she will deal with it or not move with us. It is simply her choice though. 

Anyways.... with all that being said... Mom has less than 22 days to pack everything up, call the companies to change the address, book a moving company and then buy all new furniture and appliances. This will be a challenge as well and I will be busy for the next several weeks. Mom will write to you daily but I have a feeling they will be very short letters and I know you will understand everything. You will be seeing it all. Please be with Mom so that I can do this and I don't get too stressed out again. I need the help. Everyone will be good about things but like I said, Meme is going to be difficult as always. 

Today while Mark has been gone, Mom has paid all the bills online, made lunch and then I have been looking at websites for furniture and appliances. It is going to be hard to do. I have a few phone calls to make as well tomorrow and more looking! I will get it done plus I will be starting to pack things downstairs. I will start early in the morning and take a break, make calls, write to you and then back to packing again. These will be my days for the next couple weeks or until I finish packing. Shouldn't take long as I am keeping a lot here!!! Tonight will be relaxing as I am sure Mark is and will be exhausted. We will have dinner, walk the pups and then watch tv and go to bed. Monday is always a busy day for Mark so he will need the rest....so will I! I will light the candle warmer for you this evening. I will whisper to you before I fall asleep as well. Smile when you hear my voice and I will be sure to smile back to you my sweet precious son. I hope you have fun while I sleep tonight. Continue to do all the wonderful things I know you are doing. Mom is proud of you. Always have been and always will be! 

I need to get going now...it is just turning 4 pm and I have things that I need to start doing before tomorrow morning. The night routine will be coming upon Mom quickly as well. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Come visit me in my dreams if you can tonight. Thanks pumpkin! Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams. I miss you more than words....

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💛

 

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom has been super busy the last 2 days and that is why I didn't get to write to you yesterday. I am sorry for that. It is almost 4:45 pm so this letter will be short today but I didn't want to go another day without a letter to you. Here is what has been going on:

Thursday~ Typical day that started out....fed the pups and walked them and then Mom started packing up the kitchen and straightening things out. I got done around 1 ppm. I took a shower and got ready and the rest of the day I was looking at houses. Mark had to teach at the college so it was an early dinner and then by 6:30 pm I was in the bedroom with the pups. Ozzy had a rough day. He was not feeling well. In between everything, Mom had to clean the carpets several times from him being sick. He slept most of the evening while Mark was gone and Princess did her usual stuff... Mom sat up in bed and listened to tv and looked on line for more houses. Mark got home at 10:30 pm and then I went to bed.

Friday...today~ Same as always... pups fed and walked. Mom cleaned the downstairs and then ventured upstairs to get ready. I made something to eat and then to the office I went to look at more houses. My eyes are so sore from looking. My heart should be happy and I am but I can't show it right now. I am anxious and scared if I am being honest. Mark is almost done work for today so we will go downstairs to feed the pups dinner and walk them and then it will be dinner for ourselves and a night of looking at more houses.

Tomorrow we were supposed to go look at 6 houses but that is not happening. 4 out of the 6 are pending and 2 didn't want any showings so that leaves up with nothing at all. I did send a few over to our realtor but not sure if we will see them tomorrow or Monday. Here is what is happening that is making Mom anxious....we have a pending sale and we are officially under contract for the sale of this house!!!! We have 45 days to pack and leave...not a lot of time but manageable. The problem that we are having is that the real estate is so crazy and properties are going and selling in the blink of an eye...every house we liked is now sold and we have very slim pickings to choose from. We won't be able to get a home we really like...we will have to settle on something and fast or we will be out the door and homeless in 42 days. Mom is saying prayers to have God, the Angels and you help guide us to the correct home. Please help in any way that you can my sweet precious son. We have 3 days to find one, make and offer and hopes we are under contract as well. 

Mom will try to write to you tomorrow but things may be crazy so I will definitely write to you on Sunday. Tomorrow is also Bob's Birthday. We will be doing something for him as well. I will light the candle warmer this evening for you and I will whisper to you before I go to bed. Smile to Mom and I will smile to you. I miss you more than words can say. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Have fun tonight while Mom gets some sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I have to close this letter to you now as it is 5 pm. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💜

 

 Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is completely drained and so tired it is not funny today! Last night I didn't sleep very much at all....too much on my mind with the house and all. Mark didn't get home until around 10:30 pm either. Let's just say that tonight will be a very early night for me...lol!

Around 5:30 pm last night, our realtor called to tell us that the guy who said he would make an offer on the house indeed made an offer but it was such a low number that we could not accept it. We had to decline the offer unfortunately. When Mark got home last night we chatted about it and had a phone call scheduled with our realtor this morning at 7:30 am. We decided to counter his offer. We heard back about 3 hours later and he countered back with a bit better number but still not what we need it to be at so this afternoon we countered again. It has been 3 hours now and we have heard nothing at all. We don't want to push him away in the least but we have to cover our own butts! I really thought we might hear back before this but I guess we will later this evening or tomorrow maybe??? I just hope after all this, the guy still wants to purchase the house. Mom will be so upset if what Mark and the realtor are doing screws us over in the long run. Please help any way that you can with this, Tyler. We need the help and the prayers. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom will keep you updated as I know of things!

Another reason that Mom didn't sleep well last night was because right before I went to bed, I saw that a friend of mine lost her Mom a couple days ago. I went to the funeral site to see her obituary and I was stunned and shocked to see that there were multiple people that I knew that passed in the last month. I was heartbroken. I had no idea and I was angry that some people in NH could have told me so that I knew but decided that it wasn't necessary. One of those people were Nancy Blanchard from Windy Acres. I know you remember her. Another one was a girl I knew growing up in high school and one was someone that Mom did Relay with for many years. I just want to take a minute to acknowledge them all...Nancy, Barbara, Cammie, Dina, Barbara, Jean, Phillip, and Dave. May you all R.I.P. now for eternal life and fly high and free with the Angels above. 

It is already 3:40 pm. Mom has been in her office since 9 am this morning. I have made phone calls, sent emails and have basically looked for houses all day long. My eyes hurt from doing so and I just needed to take a break from it all. I know the right house is out there for us...we just have to wait and see. Mom will be crossing her fingers for sure and hopefully by the weekend we will have an offer in on a new home!!!!

It is now 4:45 pm and Mom needs to get going. I have to feed the pups and get things started for the night routine. I have a feeling that the hours after it will be looking at things on the computer again for at least a couple hours and then more tomorrow. I will light the warmer for you later this evening. Mom will whisper to you before I fall asleep so smile to me and I will smile to you. Have fun while I rest tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....good night and sweet dreams. Please continue to watch over us all and keep us safe and healthy. Fly high and free! I miss you more than words can say.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖

PS Mom is eating over favorites to try and stay awake...They are marshmallow peeps!!!!

 

Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? It is 3:40 pm and Mom is just getting to writing your letter. I have been up since 7 am though. Pups were all fed and walked and then Mom had to to get ready and get the house set for another 2 showings this morning. One was at 11 am and the other at 12 noon. I will tell you about them in a bit. I got all that done and I have to run to the store. Got back about 20 minutes before the first showing and the day has been busy since.

Last night was interesting to say the least. We ordered dinner out because of the last showing being later. Dinner came at 5:30 pm and we ate and did clean up. We went upstairs to relax the rest of the time. Mark took a bath and soaked in the tub while Mom relaxed and watched tv. I received a call around 9 pm though. It was from my friend that was kind enough to do some Reiki on the house. He called to tell me about it. He said that this house was very sensitive to emotions of all of us in it. It feeds off all of us. He said that there was black in the corners of the house which represents negative energy. It was from floor to ceiling. It is due to all the negative things in here....emotions, attitudes, etc... He told me a lot more but I won't go into it. He told me to do a few things and I said I would. I did one this morning and I will do the other this evening. The most interesting piece to it all is that where the house is sensitive, it doesn't understand why we want to leave, why it is not good enough for us anymore and for those reasons it is blocking out anyone who wants to buy it. I know that may sound pretty weird to people but I do believe in it all. I know there is negative energy in here. I have had 3 people do Reiki on the house at 3 different times and they have all said the same things to me. All of them have said that the negative energy is with Meme and Bob and the resentment that they have for one another. It all makes sense. I spoke to Meme this morning about this. She did not deny it at all. She said it was true and she had no desire to change. Not cool.... I spoke to my friend today on the phone and we will speak later this evening as well. Not really sure what will go on but I will keep you posted on this. Wish Mom luck!

Our showings for today were good! The one for 11 am was here early which was a total surprise. Usually everyone is late! It was a man and his Dad. Very nice and they were from Boston so that was so neat to talk with them. They went in and looked around, asked questions and then looked around some more. We spoke outside for a bit as well. He loved the house, wants it and he said that he would be putting an offer in later today. His realtor has already spoken to ours and we should hear something either tonight or tomorrow. This is great news but we are hoping for asking price but it doesn't sound like it will happen. Please help us anyway you can, pumpkin. Mom is not getting her hopes up just yet but it is promising and exciting! I will let you know on tomorrows letter what happens. As far as the 12 noon showing...well they were a no show. I guess the HOA fees were too steep for them. The rest of the day so far has been Mom being on her computer looking at houses and Mark went back to work. He has been on the phone all day long. Meme has been downstairs and Bob... I don't know. Mark is now getting ready to leave for his teaching at the college tonight. It will be a long night! Mom will continue to look at houses on line and relax in the bedroom with the pups. Princess will give me a hard time as always.... I will be so glad when this job is finished in 2 weeks! It is so tough on us all...it is not funny.

I have had candles burning all day and I will light the warmer later tonight. I will whisper to you later this evening as well. Smile when you hear my voice and I will smile back to you my sweet precious son. I hope your evening will be everything that you want it to be. Have fun while I sleep and come visit Mom if you can in my dreams. Please continue to watch over us and keep us healthy and safe. I miss you more than ever. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Mom has to close for now though. I have to get the pups fed and walked before Mark leaves or they won't do either for me while he is gone. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖

 

 

 Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing alright but I am feeling disappointed today. I will explain in a bit. Mom is so sorry that I have not written to you in 3 days but it has been crazy busy here. Even though there was no letter, you were still on my mind every day and I spoke about you throughout the days. I sure hope you heard my voice and when you did it made you smile. Here is what happened the last few days...

Friday~ Mom worked all day in her office trying to get my school projects finished. I worked on them all day long and into the evening as well. I think I stopped at 5:45 pm that night. I made dinner quickly and then crashed during the night early. 

Saturday~ Mom and Mark finally had the chance to go out and enjoy a day together. We left at 10:30 am and we went to Disney Springs. We had a really good time. We laughed and joked around. We went into a bunch of stores and ate candy and junk food. We left there around 3:30 pm and went and grabbed take put and brought it home. We had dinner and then we played poker with Meme and Bob until 7:30 pm. We finished that up and then put all the goodies that we purchased during the day away. Mom was so tired that I crashed at 9 pm that night. I slept so good! 

Sunday~ Mark had to go teach at the college. We were up at 7 am. He left at 8:15 am. Mom went through her closet and dresser and the closet in the office and I purged over 60 pieces of clothing that were too big for me and I also got rid of blankets, jackets, shoes, etc... there were 5 or 6~ 30 galloon trash bags filled with them. I finished that up and then came up to my office to start my school work. I worked on that until 5pm. We had dinner and then I came right back upstairs and finished going through the closet and then scanned and downloaded all the papers of my project. At exactly 7pm on Sunday 2/21...Mom was able to submit her final project and I am officially finished college and all my college classes. It has been a long 5 years! I am so happy. Now I await my grade for the project and my final grade to see if I graduate or not. I haven't heard anything yet. I am sure I will by the end of the week. Mom spoke to Grandpa last night for an hour and then I relaxed for about an hour and crashed. I have been pushing myself so hard this past week to get this done so I didn't have to pay for an extension in school. I had 2 days to spare! I am happy and proud of myself! I know you are proud of Mom too.

Monday~ That is today! We started this morning with getting up at 7am and feeding the pups and walking them. By 9 am my phone was blowing up with requests to see the house. We had 8 lined up. By 10:30 am....4 canceled on us and we have a couple showings later this evening. Mom thought today would be the day that we would have that many showings and maybe it was the day that we would get an offer but my mood is so discouraged right now. I literally could sit down and cry. I am going to try to stay as positive as I can. I am not going to get my hopes up anymore though. I just want someone to fall in love with this house and make an offer! I know in the right time it will happen. Mom is still praying like crazy to St. Joseph and to you and the Angels and God to help us. Mom will keep you posted. The rest of the day until 5:30 pm we have showings. Hopefully these all come. It will be a late dinner and then it will be relaxing the rest of the night for sure. I will write to you tomorrow. There are candles burning everywhere around the house. I will light the warmer later this evening for you though. I will whisper to you before I fall asleep as well. Smile for Mom and I will smile to you my sweet precious son. I have to go for now. The 1st showing is in 10 minutes. I miss you like crazy and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes... keep us healthy and safe and continue to watch over us. Fly high and free, pumpkin! 

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💚