Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? It is already 4 pm and Mom is just getting this letter written to you. I have been up since 7 am and been on the go ever since. I fed the pups and walked them and then I came upstairs and made the bed and got ready and out the door I went. I had to go grocery shopping. I got home 40 minutes later, put everything away, made a quick bit to eat and it was already after 12 noon by then. I have been in my office the rest of the day purchasing everything else I needed for this April box coming up. I did it and I finished it. All I have to get is candy and tissue paper. Boxes are on order now and Mom just sits and waits for everything to come in. I am planning on looking at some of my school work after dinner tonight. I will feed the pups early, walk them and then I will grab dinner and bring it upstairs to eat and look over some of the projects that I need to finish. I have 1 week to do it. I plan on working on it all day tomorrow and Sunday as Mark will be gone teaching and he will have my vehicle so I will not be able to go anywhere at all. I am hoping to get a start on it tonight for a couple hours and then get a lot accomplished all day tomorrow and maybe Sunday fine tune everything. That is the plan...wish me luck! Mom needs to get this done and now! 

Last night was another horrible evening. Mark and Mom tried to talk things over and of course everything was thrown at me saying it was my fault so I got defensive and said how I felt and we ended up arguing yet again. We haven't spoken hardly at all today. He has been working and on the phone all day and he is getting ready to leave in a few minutes for class tonight. He will be gone until about 11 pm tonight...so sick of this crap. I really am. The driver the other night costs $200.00 round trip....we can't afford that at all so guess what...he vehicle still has not been worked on at all and they will have it until next week so until then he gets to take mine. Mom loses yet again. The walls just keep climbing higher and higher. Pretty soon they will be up so high that no one will break them down again. All Mom wants is to be treated fairly, loved and to feel like I matter to someone. I didn't think that was difficult but I guess it is... I guess I am asking too much. Sad but that is exactly how I feel. Mom will be alright though. I have been through this so many times, Tyler. 5 times to be exact.

Nothing new on the house. Haven't heard anything and no offers have come in. I am really starting to have so many doubts now. I am beyond discouraged at this point. I have a feeling that we will never be able to sell this damn place. I am still saying the prayers every day though. Whatever you can do to help us down here will be absolutely appreciated. Thank you my sweet precious son. 

Mom will light the warmer this evening while I am working and also when I am in the bedroom watching tv. I will whisper to you later this evening as well. Smile when you hear my voice and I will smile back to you. Have fun while I get some rest tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I miss you more than ever. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Mom has to get stuff ready now so I have to close for now. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams later.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖