Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom has not had the best night and day so far. I wish I could tell you I have but that would be a lie and why bother doing that, ya know? Lying gets you now where. Things started crappy yesterday for us here but got better as they day went on...well until about 7 pm last night. Mom was looking for things to do today with Mark as Sunday is our only day to do anything together and he decided to tell me that he was told he had to teach today at the college. It was scheduled for 9am to 12 noon and then the story changed from 9am -2:30 pm which meant that he was not going to get back home until after 4 pm. I was so upset. It is Sunday and the only day we get to spend together and also Valentines Day. What made me even more mad was the fact that he didn't even care. It was no big deal and I was just suppose to understand. I don't understand though. He is working 2 full time jobs right now, busting his *ss and he is tired all the time. He is not taking care of himself again and he is losing all kinds of weight. Mom sees the signs. He is working all week for the 2 jobs and on Tuesday and Thursday nights he is teaching at the college and not getting home until 11 pm and then not going to bed until 1 am. Now they add Sunday all day to the mix....Mom and Mark will never spend anytime together. If the house sells and the packing needs to get done then it will be like last time...all on me. Mom responded in the only way I knew how. I was upset and I was hurt. I was angry. After he told me, I didn't want to be around him. I didn't want to see or be near him. I also told him I wouldn't sit and watch this or deal with it anymore. I gave him an ultimatum. It was either the college teaching job or me and our marriage. He got up and he walked out of the room. He went to his office and he stayed there all night. Mom watched tv until about 10 pm and then I went to bed. I woke up at midnight to see that all the lights were out and that he was sleeping in his office. Princess stayed right with him. Guess I got my answer without him telling me. Quite sad that someone takes a teaching job that pays crap money and he doesn't see any of that money because of gas, wear and tear of the vehicle and also all the toll roads he has to pay. He does it because it looks good on his resume. He decided that that job is more important and takes that over his marriage. Words hurt but actions do even more. They speak louder than words. Mom has nothing left to say and no more to give in this marriage. I can't any more. I can't try if I am the only one all the time. I can't be the only one who cares. It doesn't work that way. Anyways... the story gets even worse.... So this morning I was up at the usual time after maybe only getting 3 hours of sleep. I tried to get Princess to come but no budging her away from mark. I took Ozzy downstairs and fed him and then took him for a walk. Mark came down about 1 hour later. Princess wouldn't eat and didn't go outside. No words were spoken at all. Mark was getting ready to leave and he asked me if I was still "huffy"? I simply told him that if he thought I was joking about what I said he was sadly mistaken and I wasn't. He said nothing after and left. I was minding my own business and not paying attention when he walked through the door. He was angry and just walked upstairs. I heard him say that he had no brakes in his vehicle. Now... he has known for several weeks that his brakes were going. This was no surprise at all. That is why he has been driving mine all the time. Honestly, I was not going to let him take mine today. Why would I when he is choosing this over us???? Anyways... I was the bigger person and asked if he wanted to use mine to go teach. He said nothing and said why bother. I guess he emailed someone to tell them he was not coming in... who knows as he said nothing to me. A few minutes later... he actually said this....he accused Mom of sabotaging his vehicle. Seriously??? I was so stunned he would say this to me...someone who doesn't even know how to check her oil in her own vehicle. I couldn't even deal with it and I just walked away. So it is now 2:05 pm on this Sunday, Valentines Day and it is super quiet. Mom gave the pups baths, did laundry and then got ready. I made breakfast for one and did the dishes. I spoke to Auntie Kristina for a bit on the phone and then did some emails. Meme is downstairs. Bob is sleeping probably and Mark is in his office. The pups are sleeping as well. After I finish this letter to you, I guess Mom is going to start packing things up. either way I am moving...where is the question. Tonight will be dinner for one again and then I will quietly go to the bedroom and just watch tv. I will turn in early as I am super tired. Tomorrow is Monday once again and the start of a new week. Mom will keep you posted on things. I will give updates when I can. 

I really miss you, Tyler. every Valentines Day I would ask you to be my valentine and you always said yes. I can't do that anymore. It breaks my heart into pieces. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I have a candle burning for you right now and I will light the candle warmer later. I will whisper to you later this evening. Smile for mom and I will smile back to you. Have fun today and tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Please continue to watch over us all and keep us safe and healthy. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter. Until then, good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son.

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖