Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom has had an ups & down kind of day. Last night I was not feeling well for a couple hours, didn't get much sleep at all. Was pretty restless for most of the night. Ozzy did well...he did not get sick at all during the night or today so far. Hopefully he is getting out of whatever was bothering him. This morning Mom had a mini melt down. I was thinking of our upcoming trip, thoughts went to missing you & wishing you could come with us & then mom was missing Max & Snickers. I remembered that I had an old toy... the last one Snicks played with & I put it with his ashes.....Ozzy has been tearing through all his toys, ripping them, pulling the stuffing out & he didn't have anymore of the doggie toys he likes so I  went over to Snicks old one & started to tear up. I couldn't help it. I gave to it Ozzy to play with & he did pretty good for awhile but then he started to rip that 1 too so I took it away from him & placed it back on the cedar box that Snicker's ashes are in. I couldn't bear to let it get ruined. Bet that sounds silly huh? Mom knows that Snicks, Max & all our pups are with you & you are taken wonderful care of them but it is still quite hard for Mom to have lost you 3 in such a short time. You 1st, than 1 year later, Max & then 6 months later, Snickers. Too much too soon. Mom does smile at the thought of you running & playing with them the way you wished you could here but never had the chance. Now you can & I am sure they are loving it as well. None of you are in pain any longer & that also makes Mom happy. Anyways.... the rest of my day was doing housework & prepping for Grandpa & Debbie to be here in 5 days. We leave in 7. I have done some prepacking so that I won't have to do it all at once. I took my time & no rushing...just the way it should be. The week should be fairly mellow for us. I know that you will be with Mom during the whole time. I am looking forward to all the signs that you will give me. Hope there are several! 
 Spoke to Meme today. She is doing well. Bob called & he sounds fantastic! The best I have heard him in almost 3 years. Meme said the same thing as well. That makes us all happy. hopefully it will stay that way for a very long time & Bob can start to get back to his old self & Meme can start to relax a little. Thank you for watching over them & us all like you do. It is such a comfort to know. Jennifer also got in touch with her Dad so I think that is helping Bob out a lot too. Glad they are on speaking terms again. I know he is happy about it! That is it for the updates today. Maybe some more tomorrow.
 Here is your daily prayer for the day. September 25~ But we will give ourselves continually to prayer, & to the ministry of the world. I need to talk to you, Lord, but when & where? When life offers few prayable moments, lead me to a quiet spirit spot at work of home or in transit between the two. A brief moment is enough until we have more time. 
 The evening sky is almost upon us & it is not even 6:30 pm. Oh how depressing...lol! Anyways.. Mom saw the moon last night. It was shining bright. Hope I get to see it tonight as well as some stars. No matter what I will be whispering to you like I do nightly. Be listening out for Mom. Hope your night is all you want & need. Sweet dreams if you get to rest & hope you will be in my dreams tonight as well. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul my sweet precious son. Mom misses you like crazy & loves you beyond life.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!