Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is freezing her butt off as it is so cold, wet & rainy today! I am already not liking this weather & it will get worse before it gets better. It seems like forever since I have had the chance to write to you. I am so sorry for all the things that have been going on lately since we have gotten back from vacation. It just seems like so much has been happening & no time to do everything else that needs to get done. Anyways... Mom is just so happy to be writing to you. In time the routine will come back & everything will be just fine! 
 Mom finally heard back from her college & I will be taking my proctor exam tomorrow. It is my final for Psychology. Please be with me while I am taking it. I really hope I will do ok seeings how I have not opened that book in over 3 weeks. Mom needs you my sweet precious son. Thank you! Mom is having a hard time getting back into the swing of things again. Mark was able to pick right up where he left off but not me. It is day 3 & I can't seem to shake it off. I have done things around the apartment... laundry, housework, etc... gone & got groceries but other than that I am just tired. I have no energy. I think it has a lot to do with the weather. We went from sunshine & warmth to just overcast, cloudy & rain...The temps are really cold too.....you know Mom does not do well in the cold anymore. I hope in the next few days I will be more alert & feeling better. I better be for my exam tomorrow...lol! Mom will let you know how it goes.
 My friend stopped on by yesterday morning to see me & meet Mark. We took him out to lunch & then we walked on the beach for a little bit. We then came back here & just chatted as Mark had a conference call. Later he decided to spend the night. We had dinner & then we watched wrestling. I haven't watched that since I watched it with you. It made me happy & sad all at the same time. Later on we played cribbage. We both won 1 game each. That was fun. This morning we got to chat a little more & then he had to leave as he was driving on to go visit a friend of his & then his daughter. It was so good to see him. It has been over 30 years. We went to school together. He hasn't changed a bit. Still the funniest & sweetest person that I remember. 
 Not many updates for you at all as Mom has not spoken to anyone really since we returned. I did speak to Auntie Kristina & Mom will be seeing Marion & Charlie in a couple weeks as well. I am sure that I will be hearing from Meme & Grandpa in the next couple days as well. I think everyone is trying to just get back to their normal routines again. I will keep you posted as I know things. I know you will be watching over us all. Thank you. I would like to start with writing the daily prayers to you again so here is the one for today. September 28~ The Lord upholds all who are falling & raises up all who are bowed down. O Lord! Thou knowest how busy I must be this day: if I forget thee, do not thou forget me. The prayer above was uttered by a soldier before a battle in the English Civil War. Some of our days on earth can be like a series of little wars on many fronts. How consumed we can become by them, by the energy & attention they require of us! If we forgot God in the heat of battle, however, he does not forget us. And when we become mindful again of our need for him, he is just as near as he was the last time we were fully aware of his presence. Amen.
 Mom can't believe that in a couple of days it will already be October. The foliage is almost in full bloom. The leaves are so pretty. This time of year always gets me emotional that's for sure.... for so many reasons. I miss you so much. My heart hurts all the time. I know you are in a much happier place but I can't seem to get passed it. I want to be happy but I just can't find my way. I am happy for you...so happy but Mom hurts. Sometimes the tears fall & I don't try to stop them. I don't want to as I know I need to let it out instead of keeping it all bottled up inside. Don't worry though as I will be ok. Time will never heal the pain of losing you at all but I will try to be happier for you. I will try to smile more too....i promise!
 Mom saw the sky last night. Oh it was so pretty. It was blue & pink....just beautiful. I smiled so much. I whispered to you...did you hear Mom? I also saw so many stars in the sky. I whispered to you again as well. Hope you heard me then to. I know I won't see anything in the sky tonight as it is so cloudy but that is alright. I know you are shining bright for someone who needs it. I will whisper to you still so I hope that you will hear my voice. Smile when you do so I can picture it in my mind. I will smile as well. Mom is hoping that you have a restful & peaceful evening. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Please remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my true hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!