Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday evening? Mom is doing better than I was yesterday. As you could see Mom took my very 1st Proctor exam & to say the least I did not do well on it at all. I was so angry at myself. I have been doing so well & to not do good on this exam was a punch in the gut. I didn't know what to expect at all & the exam was pretty darn tough. At least I have a clue of what to expect for the next ones I have to take. I think my ego was hurt more than anything. I had a headache & I was sick the rest of the evening so that is why I didn't write to you. I know I don't have to explain to you as you see & know everything now but I still like to. Today has been a better day as far as my studying goes. I started a new book & it seems to be going well. As far as everything else...Mom received so devastating news about a sweet friend of mine & also her son. She was admitted into DHMC for chemo treatments because her body is rejecting a pancreas transplant that she had about 8 years ago. This is the 2nd time in 4 months. Also, her oldest son was just diagnosed this morning with osteosacoma ( meaning Bone Cancer ) in his leg. He is only 14 years old. My heart sank when I got a call this morning. You know both of these people but for their privacy I will not mention their names. It is not my place to say them as of now. Please, Tyler, watch over them both as neither of them deserve this. I hope that they will make a full recovery. A friend of mine went up there to the hospital today & was so sweet to get a teddy bear for her son & said it was from Sherbear...that was the nickname he gave me so many years ago. I was so touched by that gesture... yep... I cried. Couldn't help it. Thank you for all that you can do for them both. It means so much to Mom.
 Let's see what else do I have for updates for you... I spoke to Meme & Grandpa a couple days ago. We were all awaiting our stuff from Florida to be shipped to us. Mom received hers yesterday so I am imagining that everyone else got theirs then to. It was nice to see the things that we purchased from our vacation. Opening the boxes brought me right back to the day that I bought the items. Mom's memory is just like that. Heck I remember things from when I was 5 years old. I guess I don't forget anything. Everyone is doing well. Pretty much everyone is getting back to their daily routine again. I will try to get in touch with Aunt Beck at the beginning of next week to see what is going on with them. I will be seeing my friend again before he makes his journey back home..down South. He will be here for a couple days next week & then Marion, Charlie & the kids will be here next weekend for a couple days. Things will be crazy & busy but that is just fine with Mom. I will be going to go see my friends brother ( the one who was in the accident ) with him as well. I know it will help him. I think it will be hard for Mom in some ways but I know you will be with me to help me through it all. I think that is all that I have for now.....
 Here are the daily prayers that I have to get caught up on for you. September 29~ He fulfills the desire of all who fear him; he also hears their cry & saves them. My Lord, I desire that your the hearts of those who seek you & that your will be carried out here on earth in the way it is carried out in heaven. I desire enough provision for today's needs. I desire to abide in your strength that I might not give way to temptation. I desire to have a heart of forgiveness like your own that I may extend to others the kind of forgiveness I so desperately need from you. I desire to honor & glorify you all the days of my life & into eternity. Please save me from anything that would thwart & hinder these desires from being fulfilled by you. In your name, I pray. Amen. The closer we get to God, the more our desires resemble his own. Those who fear God, who revere & honor him, are not focused on gratifying themselves. That is why God can fulfill their desires without compromising his own character. Amen.
 September 30~ The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me. Father in heaven, in my younger days I wanted you to fulfill my purposes. I wanted you to adopt my plans as your own for my life, as if I could order you around & have you serve my selfish purposes. Now those thoughts & attitudes embarrass me. But over time, you have gently & graciously revealed that flaw of foolishness in my understanding & have helped me see that you created me a certain way to fulfill the tailor-made purpose you have for my life. It is a purpose that will fulfill & bless me as well as be a blessing to others. And best of all, it brings honor to your name when people see that you're the one who has brought about such good things in my life. " For surely I know the plans I have for you, " says the Lord, " plans for you welfare & not for harm, to give you a future with hope. " Amen.
 Mom is all caught up once again. It is that time of night where Mom is running late with making dinner & doing the night routine. I have a hard time with the fact that it is getting dark so early...like 5:30 - 6 pm now instead of 9 pm. I get so confused with the time of day it is. I know I will not be seeing anything shining in the sky as it has been cloudy & raining for the last 2 days. I can't wait to see the sun again. That will be nice. I know that you will be shining somewhere in this world for someone who needs it. That makes Mom smile. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. Mom hopes that your night is all that you would like it to be & also the way you need it to be. May you have some adventures along the way as well. Come visit me in my dreams tonight. I would love that so much! Mom misses you more than I can ever express..more than words can say. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Continue to fly high & free like I know you are doing. Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!