Thursday, September 8, 2016

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? The weather has been crazy again for the last 6 days. It was raining pretty heavy this morning & now the clouds are parting & the sun is trying to come out. Boy it is also so muggy & humid. The next few days are going to be in the high 80's to lower 90's so so much for the Fall like weather...lol. Mom is doing ok today. I have been busy doing things around the apartment & getting it ready for everyone to be coming down next week. I have lists after lists of things that we need to do & get done. You know Mom...have to have that list & be organized or I will definitely forget something...lol! I also took the day to do all the packing for myself, Mark & the dogs. I am finished with it. Suitcases, carry ons & all the things the pups will need. I have all the paperwork together & all that is left now is to go run errands, do banking & have them get here so we can start our trip! meme called me last night & today. Tyler, she is really freaking out now about the medication for Skittles. The vets gave all of us the same meds & actually Meme has a higher dose then what we have & the medicine worked great for Princess & Ozzy. I don't know what to do or say to make her feel better other than she just needs to call the vets & let them know her concerns. I am so afraid that if things don't get right in the next day or so she is going to back out again & I will be crushed. If there is anything that you can do for her & us please help us out. I think that everything will be just fine & she is just anxious about it all. I know she is scared of flying too... I told her not to be as you will be right there next to us. When Mom flies.... I always look out the window of the plane & look at the clouds & wonder where you are...how high can you go? It makes the time go by but also makes me smile to think that you could really be right next to Mom by the window & I just can't see you. I know it must sound crazy to everyone reading this but it is true. You can do so much now & you are completely free of everything that was holding you down & holding you back here in the physical world. I know you probably don't sit still at all seeings how you did just that for 20 years. I don't blame you one bit either! Just wish I could see it. I really miss all the times we shared together. I miss everything about you. I miss your voice, your smile, your face, your laugh. I miss you being angry & cussing at me. I miss it all. I love you so much. Unconditionally & that will never ever change. You were my everything the minute I saw you for the first time when you were born & you will remain my everything even though you are no longer here for the rest of my life & eternity. You really are my hero. You are Mom's wind beneath my wings. Please never forget any of this. None of this will ever ever change.
 Mom doesn't have any updates for you today. I didn't speak to anyone other than Meme & I already told you about that. I am sure that Grandpa will call me later tonight just to check in on things. Debbie is getting excited & Grandpa says he isn't as of yet but I don't believe that 100%...lol! I know he needs this vacation so that he can just relax & unwind. We all need that. I guess everyone else is doing well. I will be calling Aunt Beck this week just to touch base with her as it has been a couple weeks now since we have spoken. I am sure her & John are fine...they are just busy. I will keep you updated with everything as I know of stuff. Here is your daily prayer for today though. 
 September 8~ The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom; all those who practice it have a good understanding. Great & glorious God, I live in a culture where mocking & disrespect are the norm, even considered a form of humor. How can I begin to understand what it means to fear you & to have reverence & awe for you? O lord, teach me what this kind of fear is & what it means in attitude & action. I want to learn your wisdom. The wisdom of the world is shallow & can easily collapse, but your wisdom is timeless, irrefutable, a safeguard & a blessing. Please open my heart & mind more & more to your thoughts & ways. It is only when men begin to worship that they begin to grow. Amen. 
 A couple of the photos in today's letter will be of 2 special little dogs that Mom has just completely fallen in love with. I have posted pics of them in the past but I wanted to again. The smallest one is Tiny Tina. She is wearing casts on her front feets because her previous owners wanted to abuse & hurt her & they broke her feets in half. It makes me so sick to think that there are folks out there that can do just a thing...ugh! Tiny Tina was rescued by a wonderful woman that takes such good care of her. She is just a sweet little peanut. She is all dressed up in one of her pretty outfits. I can hear you now say that you would want her. I would too, Tyler. The 2nd sweet girl is Violet. She is just a precious thing & was in a bad environment with previous owners as well. She is in a loving home with a Mommy & a Daddy & 6 brothers & sisters & is doing well. Even though I have never met them in person...these little girls have my heart. I just wanted to share them with you & everyone who reads my letters. I think they will fall in love with them too. Mom has helped both " Mommy's out " & sent them blankies, jackets, toys, puppy pads, gift cards to help them all out. I enjoy doing this as you know. It makes me feel good to be so helpful to others. I will be looking for something special for them while I am on vacation. They make me smile & I know they will make you smile too!
 The night skies are coming quicker & quicker each night. Pretty soon we will be setting the clocks back & it will be getting dark by 4 pm. This is the part I don't care for but nothing I can do about it at all. Mom is hoping that I will get to see the stars & moon shining bright tonight along with a beautiful sunset painting from you. It has been awhile so I guess you have been pretty busy! I will whisper to you regardless tonight as I do each night. I will make sure to smile & hope you will too. Mom hopes that your night is eventful with adventures along the way. May you do all that you need & want to do. Come visit me tonight when I fall asleep. Thanks pumpkin! 
 Well, it is that time of day when I need to get going & get dinner prepped & pups fed. Good night my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

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