Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is writing to you early because I have so much left to do. The time is finally here & everyone will be coming down in 32 hours...not that Mom is counting down or anything...lol! I have a lot done already but I am still needing to do some more things to get everything all set so I will be busy for the rest of the night. You will see me running around like a chicken with my head cut off....I can see you laughing & saying " My poor Mom. " I know you will be smiling though. I can just close my eyes & see that & it makes me feel so close to you. Even after it being 3 years of your passing, Mom can still hear your voice & see your face in my mind. I hope that I never lose that my sweet precious son. Mom will be whispering to you as I always do tonight & all throughout my vacation. I know you will be right by my side during the flights & while we are down in Florida. I know you will do everything to change the weather for us all so for that I thank you so much. I love you so much. I know that you are doing so many wonderful things wherever you go & wherever you are. I know you are learning so much that you need for your next journeys. Even though I can't see you or see what you are doing I am so proud of you. I always have been & I always will. I was young when I gave birth to you, Mom was only 19 & didn't have a clue to what I was suppose to do. I " winged it " quite a bit of the time but I think I did ok for the most part. You gave me a purpose when I had you. You made me see what life was all about. You opened my eyes to what we call the " circle of life. " For many years I got to see what the world was like through a child's eyes. I cherished all the times with you... the good, the bad, the hardships, the ugly. I miss being a Mom more than anything. I know I will always be a Mom but you know what I mean. I missed out, you missed out on so much but if I could I would do it all over in a heart beat. I wouldn't even blink an eye. My love for you has always been unconditional. It always will. I know you know this & I know for a fact that you can feel it deep within your soul now. That makes Mom smile every day knowing this. 
 Mom really doesn't have any updates for you today. I will be calling Grandpa later tonight to get one of Grammy. I spoke to Debbie quickly this morning but she didn't know how everything was. Grandpa went up there today to visit with her. Meme called Mom & we chatted for a few on her lunch break. She will be calling me tonight as well. I also got to talk with my sweet friend again. It makes Mom so happy when I do. My friend that I talk about is such a wonderful person but doesn't realize it & is always putting themselves down. It makes me so sad. Sure there have been many hardships for this person but I always try to stay positive to let them know they have so much to offer. They are just so compassionate & sweet. I hope that if that certain person reads my letter to you they will know that they mean more to Mom than what they think they do.
 Mom is not sure if I will get a chance to write to you tomorrow or not but if I can't then I will make sure to write to you Friday night when we are all settled in the villa. I will have my laptop with me so I can do that.  Just wanted you & everyone who reads my blog to know this! I will do my best to keep up with it either during the morning or evening while I am away. That is my promise to you, Tyler. That is all the updates that I have for you. Here is the daily prayer for today though. September 14~ Return, O my soul, to your rest, for the Lord has dealt bountifully with you. Dear Lord, you know that my mind, at times, can be like a restless bird flitting about from one thing to the next, trying to manage everything on my agenda. My thoughts of you, however, are like a safe & secure perch on which I can rest, catch my breath, & remember that you are in control & I don't need to be. Remind me of all the times everything has worked out in the end & of how so much of my fluttering & flailing has been wasted energy. Help me not make the mistake of leaving this perch & missing out on all the peaceful ways you work things out for the best in me. Be devoted to prayer & to listening to God & he will show you efficiencies & provisions for accomplishing your tasks, ones you never dreamed existed. They will come " out of nowhere " at times & your amazement & relief will quickly turn into joy & gratitude. Amen. 
 Wow...as I have been writing to you, Tyler....the sun was shining & my office was so bright & all of a sudden it is really dark out & the sky is all filled with black clouds. Guess we will be getting a thunderstorm or something & soon too. Mom will be looking to the sky tonight to see the stars & the moon shining bright again. I will be whispering to you as I always do so be listening out for me. I hope that your night is filled with all the things you want & need it to be. May you have fun & a few adventures along the way wherever you may fly to. Come visit Mom tonight so that I know you are doing well. Thanks pumpkin. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I love you to infinity & beyond. 
 It is that time that I need to close & get going on all the things that I need to do. Good night & sweet dreams. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!