Tuesday, February 28, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday night? Mom & Mark got to NH safely. We left our house at 1 pm & arrived here in VT at 4 pm. We made really good time. We didn't hit any traffic so that was so helpful. Mom has had the chance to talk to Grandpa & Meme & I will be seeing them tomorrow night. I will be seeing Uncle Chris & Lacie in a little bit & Marion tomorrow afternoon for some girl time. Mark will be gone most of the day but that is ok as I will have school in the morning & visitors in the afternoon. This visit will be short but I will be seeing everyone again in a couple weeks & then again in May & June. The pups enjoyed the ride as well. It took a little bit for them to settle down but once they did they sleep the whole way. They have been having fun in the hotel room running around. It is cute!
Mom was so sick all day yesterday & I am sorry for the letter that I wrote to you last night. I am hoping it made sense. I went to bed at 9:30 pm & slept until 7:30 am. I feel a lot better today that is for sure. Thank you for watching over Mom. Please continue to watch over us like I know you do. Thanks again, pumpkin.
Mom does not have anymore updates for you tonight but I will when I see everyone tomorrow. here are the daily prayers I need to catch up on for you: February 26~ Why , O' Lord, do you stand far off? Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble? Are you there, Lord? Are you? At times it seems that you're distant & I am not sure why. Have I strayed away from you? I don't think so. Have I offended you in some way? If so, I don't know how. I just don't feel the closeness we used to have. Is it just me, or is there a problem here? Maybe you don't want me to take you for granted. But because you have promised to be here for me always, I'm going to trust you to be with me, even when you're silent. If I have sinned, Lord, please let me know. If not, then just keep guiding me, even if that guidance is subtle. And please don't stop watching over me. Like any muscle, faith gets stronger when it meets stronger resistance. Amen.
February 27~ The law of the Lord is perfect, reviving the soul; the decrees of the Lord are sure, making wise simple. Revive my soul, dear Lord, as I open your Word. Speak to me in clear, inspiring ways. Breathe new life into my old life. Show me how to live. Encourage me. Move me into new enterprises that will serve you. Lead me into adventures in my activities & relationships. Give me courage to try some things that have never been tried before. Overcome the barriers I put up & let your awesome power explode through me. Indeed, the word of God is living & active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing until it divides soul from spirit, joints from marrow; it is able to judge the thoughts & intentions of the heart. Amen.
February 28~ The Lord sits enthroned over the flood; the Lord sits enthroned as king forever. May the Lord give strength to his people! May the Lord bless his people with peace! You are my King, O Lord. Blessed be your name. I magnify you, telling of your greatness. You rule the earth with your loving power. You dwell in your people & whisper words of peace & guidance. You are immense & intimate at the same time, the Creator of all, yet friend to the needy. I will praise you as long as I live. God is infinite circle whose center is everywhere & whose circumference is nowhere. Amen.
Mom is once again caught up. I will look for some quotes for you for tomorrows letter as I really have none prepared for tonight. Mom is hoping that you have a wonderful night tonight doing all the things you need & want to do. Come visit Mom if you can. I would really enjoy that. Thank you. I will look to the sky later & whisper to you as I always do. I don't think I will see anything though as it is raining now but that is ok. I know you are shining bright somewhere! I miss you bunches & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Mom needs to get going for now as Uncle Chris will be here very soon. I will be back tomorrow to write you another letter. Until then..... good night & sweet dreams!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday night? Mom & Mark got to NH safely. We left our house at 1 pm & arrived here in VT at 4 pm. We made really good time. We didn't hit any traffic so that was so helpful. Mom has had the chance to talk to Grandpa & Meme & I will be seeing them tomorrow night. I will be seeing Uncle Chris & Lacie in a little bit & Marion tomorrow afternoon for some girl time. Mark will be gone most of the day but that is ok as I will have school in the morning & visitors in the afternoon. This visit will be short but I will be seeing everyone again in a couple weeks & then again in May & June. The pups enjoyed the ride as well. It took a little bit for them to settle down but once they did they sleep the whole way. They have been having fun in the hotel room running around. It is cute!
Mom was so sick all day yesterday & I am sorry for the letter that I wrote to you last night. I am hoping it made sense. I went to bed at 9:30 pm & slept until 7:30 am. I feel a lot better today that is for sure. Thank you for watching over Mom. Please continue to watch over us like I know you do. Thanks again, pumpkin.
Mom does not have anymore updates for you tonight but I will when I see everyone tomorrow. here are the daily prayers I need to catch up on for you: February 26~ Why , O' Lord, do you stand far off? Why do you hide yourself in times of trouble? Are you there, Lord? Are you? At times it seems that you're distant & I am not sure why. Have I strayed away from you? I don't think so. Have I offended you in some way? If so, I don't know how. I just don't feel the closeness we used to have. Is it just me, or is there a problem here? Maybe you don't want me to take you for granted. But because you have promised to be here for me always, I'm going to trust you to be with me, even when you're silent. If I have sinned, Lord, please let me know. If not, then just keep guiding me, even if that guidance is subtle. And please don't stop watching over me. Like any muscle, faith gets stronger when it meets stronger resistance. Amen.
February 27~ The law of the Lord is perfect, reviving the soul; the decrees of the Lord are sure, making wise simple. Revive my soul, dear Lord, as I open your Word. Speak to me in clear, inspiring ways. Breathe new life into my old life. Show me how to live. Encourage me. Move me into new enterprises that will serve you. Lead me into adventures in my activities & relationships. Give me courage to try some things that have never been tried before. Overcome the barriers I put up & let your awesome power explode through me. Indeed, the word of God is living & active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing until it divides soul from spirit, joints from marrow; it is able to judge the thoughts & intentions of the heart. Amen.
February 28~ The Lord sits enthroned over the flood; the Lord sits enthroned as king forever. May the Lord give strength to his people! May the Lord bless his people with peace! You are my King, O Lord. Blessed be your name. I magnify you, telling of your greatness. You rule the earth with your loving power. You dwell in your people & whisper words of peace & guidance. You are immense & intimate at the same time, the Creator of all, yet friend to the needy. I will praise you as long as I live. God is infinite circle whose center is everywhere & whose circumference is nowhere. Amen.
Mom is once again caught up. I will look for some quotes for you for tomorrows letter as I really have none prepared for tonight. Mom is hoping that you have a wonderful night tonight doing all the things you need & want to do. Come visit Mom if you can. I would really enjoy that. Thank you. I will look to the sky later & whisper to you as I always do. I don't think I will see anything though as it is raining now but that is ok. I know you are shining bright somewhere! I miss you bunches & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Mom needs to get going for now as Uncle Chris will be here very soon. I will be back tomorrow to write you another letter. Until then..... good night & sweet dreams!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, February 27, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? Mom wanted to stop by & tell you that I am so sorry that I didn't write to you last night but Mom was very tired & had a hard day. Today Mom has been sick in bed. I have only gotten up when I absolutely needed to. It is now 6:20 pm & I still feel like poop. I am going to just relax a little & watch TV for a bit before I try to go to sleep for the night. Please be with me, Tyler as Mom needs you. Thank you my sweet son. Mom will write the daily prayers to you tomorrow. I will be traveling to NH for a couple days but I will still write to you like I usually do. Mom will give you all the updates as well. I just wanted to stop by & say hello. I wanted to tell you that I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back& all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I hope you have a good night & you get to do all the things you need to & want to do. Have fun & fly high & free. Mom will whisper to you later tonight so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too.
I am going to lay back down now. Goodnight & sweet dreams, Tyler. Until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday night? Mom wanted to stop by & tell you that I am so sorry that I didn't write to you last night but Mom was very tired & had a hard day. Today Mom has been sick in bed. I have only gotten up when I absolutely needed to. It is now 6:20 pm & I still feel like poop. I am going to just relax a little & watch TV for a bit before I try to go to sleep for the night. Please be with me, Tyler as Mom needs you. Thank you my sweet son. Mom will write the daily prayers to you tomorrow. I will be traveling to NH for a couple days but I will still write to you like I usually do. Mom will give you all the updates as well. I just wanted to stop by & say hello. I wanted to tell you that I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back& all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I hope you have a good night & you get to do all the things you need to & want to do. Have fun & fly high & free. Mom will whisper to you later tonight so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too.
I am going to lay back down now. Goodnight & sweet dreams, Tyler. Until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah
Saturday, February 25, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday afternoon? Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you last night but the whole day was pretty crazy. Mom did some housework in the morning, took the pups for a long walk & then jumped right into doing my last lesson in my class. I finished that around 3:45 pm & my final exam was released. I was looking at it & saw it was only 35 questions so I decided to give it a try. I printed it out knowing I was only allowed to submit it once so whatever the grade was is what I got. I was rolling right along & before I knew it it was 6 pm & I submitted the exam. Mom received a 92 for a grade. I missed 2 questions. I am so proud of myself. 6 weeks of lessons, assignments, activities, quizzes & writers cramp was so well worth it. I have all my CEUs now to keep my certification! Thank you for being by my side daily through it all. Now on Monday I am back to my college classes & I am not looking forward to the computer application course.... I definitely will need you as you were so good with computers. Mom never fed the pups or got dinner going until 7 pm. I felt bad but after that I was just so tired. Mark & Mom sat outside while he had a cigar. It was nice to just unwind & enjoy the night view of the skyline. We came in about 8:30 pm & watched TV until 10:30 pm. Mom was pretty tired. We got woken up at 2:30 am with kids throwing off fireworks on the soccer field. Of course it scared Princess & Ozzy & they were shaking. Took a bit to calm them down but we did it & managed to fall back to sleep again for a couple hours.
The weather yesterday was 70 degrees & sunny & today the weather is 65 & partly sunny. Mom is enjoying this weather so much. The balcony door is open & fresh air is coming in. All the snow is melting & it sure is muddy but I will take it still! Mom didn't see the stars & moon shining bright last night which surprised me a little & I know I won't see them tonight as later in the day it is going to get cloudier & rain will be hitting us. Mom will make sure to whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice & smile. I will too!
Meme called me last night to let me know that Aunt Beck made it home safely Thursday night. I was happy to hear that. I have tried to get in touch with her Friday & today but no luck. I am sure I will chat with her soon. I am sure she is busy catching up on things. Meme also called me this morning to let me know that she was in a car accident. Everyone involved are ok & no one got hurt, thank God! Unfortunately Meme's car is totaled in the front & the other vehicle is too. She is pretty shaken up about the whole thing. I am sure you were with her during that time so thank you my sweet precious son. Mom does not have anymore updates for you at this time but I am sure to have some in the next few days.
Here are the daily prayers I need to catch up on: February 24~ I lie down & sleep; I wake again, for the Lord sustains me. At last! What a day it has been! I thought I 'd never get to this moment, dear Lord. Thank you for the ways you were there for me today. I really sensed your presence throughout the day. Please work things out for me tomorrow, too & please give me a good night's sleep. Let's talk again in the morning. Amen. Sleep.....knits up the raveled sleeve of care.....sore labor's bath, balm of hurt minds.....chief nourisher in life's feast. Amen.
February 25~ Young men & women alike, old & young together! Let them praise the name of the Lord, for his name alone is exalted; his glory is above earth & heaven. Dear Lord, you know I have my ways of worshipping you. There are certain songs I like & certain actions I'm accustomed to. There's a certain style I've learned that really makes me feel close to you. But I know you're a big God & you have a lot of worshippers. Different ages & genders & also different cultures----everyone can bring their own styles to worship. It's not always easy for me to worship you in someone else's style, but I can try. That's what it means to be a congregation, I guess----to be a family, to be the people of God. I will pour out my spirit on all flesh; your sons & your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams & your young men shall see visions. Amen.
Mom is caught up! It is that time of night again where I need to get going to get food for the pups & get things set for Mark & I. I hope that you will have a peaceful night doing everything you need to do & want to do. Come visit Mom tonight if you can. Be by my side so I can get some sleep. Thanks pumpkin! I miss you bunches & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I will be back tomorrow to write you another letter but until then.....good night & sweet dreams!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. I did get to chat with Aunt Beck today! It was so good hearing her voice. She is doing well. Just relaxing & getting readjusted to everything here again in the states.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday afternoon? Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you last night but the whole day was pretty crazy. Mom did some housework in the morning, took the pups for a long walk & then jumped right into doing my last lesson in my class. I finished that around 3:45 pm & my final exam was released. I was looking at it & saw it was only 35 questions so I decided to give it a try. I printed it out knowing I was only allowed to submit it once so whatever the grade was is what I got. I was rolling right along & before I knew it it was 6 pm & I submitted the exam. Mom received a 92 for a grade. I missed 2 questions. I am so proud of myself. 6 weeks of lessons, assignments, activities, quizzes & writers cramp was so well worth it. I have all my CEUs now to keep my certification! Thank you for being by my side daily through it all. Now on Monday I am back to my college classes & I am not looking forward to the computer application course.... I definitely will need you as you were so good with computers. Mom never fed the pups or got dinner going until 7 pm. I felt bad but after that I was just so tired. Mark & Mom sat outside while he had a cigar. It was nice to just unwind & enjoy the night view of the skyline. We came in about 8:30 pm & watched TV until 10:30 pm. Mom was pretty tired. We got woken up at 2:30 am with kids throwing off fireworks on the soccer field. Of course it scared Princess & Ozzy & they were shaking. Took a bit to calm them down but we did it & managed to fall back to sleep again for a couple hours.
The weather yesterday was 70 degrees & sunny & today the weather is 65 & partly sunny. Mom is enjoying this weather so much. The balcony door is open & fresh air is coming in. All the snow is melting & it sure is muddy but I will take it still! Mom didn't see the stars & moon shining bright last night which surprised me a little & I know I won't see them tonight as later in the day it is going to get cloudier & rain will be hitting us. Mom will make sure to whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for my voice & smile. I will too!
Meme called me last night to let me know that Aunt Beck made it home safely Thursday night. I was happy to hear that. I have tried to get in touch with her Friday & today but no luck. I am sure I will chat with her soon. I am sure she is busy catching up on things. Meme also called me this morning to let me know that she was in a car accident. Everyone involved are ok & no one got hurt, thank God! Unfortunately Meme's car is totaled in the front & the other vehicle is too. She is pretty shaken up about the whole thing. I am sure you were with her during that time so thank you my sweet precious son. Mom does not have anymore updates for you at this time but I am sure to have some in the next few days.
Here are the daily prayers I need to catch up on: February 24~ I lie down & sleep; I wake again, for the Lord sustains me. At last! What a day it has been! I thought I 'd never get to this moment, dear Lord. Thank you for the ways you were there for me today. I really sensed your presence throughout the day. Please work things out for me tomorrow, too & please give me a good night's sleep. Let's talk again in the morning. Amen. Sleep.....knits up the raveled sleeve of care.....sore labor's bath, balm of hurt minds.....chief nourisher in life's feast. Amen.
February 25~ Young men & women alike, old & young together! Let them praise the name of the Lord, for his name alone is exalted; his glory is above earth & heaven. Dear Lord, you know I have my ways of worshipping you. There are certain songs I like & certain actions I'm accustomed to. There's a certain style I've learned that really makes me feel close to you. But I know you're a big God & you have a lot of worshippers. Different ages & genders & also different cultures----everyone can bring their own styles to worship. It's not always easy for me to worship you in someone else's style, but I can try. That's what it means to be a congregation, I guess----to be a family, to be the people of God. I will pour out my spirit on all flesh; your sons & your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams & your young men shall see visions. Amen.
Mom is caught up! It is that time of night again where I need to get going to get food for the pups & get things set for Mark & I. I hope that you will have a peaceful night doing everything you need to do & want to do. Come visit Mom tonight if you can. Be by my side so I can get some sleep. Thanks pumpkin! I miss you bunches & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I will be back tomorrow to write you another letter but until then.....good night & sweet dreams!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. I did get to chat with Aunt Beck today! It was so good hearing her voice. She is doing well. Just relaxing & getting readjusted to everything here again in the states.
Thursday, February 23, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom has had a pretty relaxed day today really doing nothing. I spoke to Auntie Kristina on the phone for about 2 hours. It was nice to catch up with her as we haven't had the chance to in a couple weeks. She was telling me that she called on you a couple times this week & you were there for her. Hearing that story made me smile & tear up all at the same time. I just kept saying...." that's my boy.....he is amazing! " Mom means it too. You were always amazing. You just didn't see it or know it but I hope you feel it now.
Mom is sorry but I do not have any updates for you as I didn't speak to anyone other than Auntie Kristina. I know that Aunt Beck is traveling tomorrow from South America to her home. I know you will be with her as she is traveling & we all thank you for that. I will touch base with everyone over the weekend & I will be seeing them in a few days. Mark had 2 long days working & taking a class at his office while Mom was home with the pups as I studied. The weather today was so beautiful. The sun was shining & the temp was 67 degrees. I really wanted to enjoy going outside & taking the pups for a long walk but I couldn't as they were so many people outside & all they were doing was barking so I decided that we will go for a walk when Mark gets home. We all need to enjoy the nice sun & everything outside is calmer. We shall see how it goes....lol.
Here are the daily prayers for you today: February 22 ~ I bless the Lord who gives me counsel; in the night also my heart instructs me. I keep the Lord always before me; because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved. My Lord, I think of the various " counselors " I've had in my life. It's a mixed bag. Parents, friends, ministers, teachers, coaches, camp counselors & guidance counselors in school. Some of them brought true wisdom & I believe you used them to guide me in your path. Others had different motives. Some were fully invested, caring deeply about me. Others were more interested in hearing themselves talk & they didn't hang around long enough to see the results. But you, Lord, are a counselor who cares, stays close to me & know me deeply. Keep counseling me day & night & I'll keep listening for your voice. His Holy Spirit speaks to us deep in our hearts & tells us that we are God's children. Amen.
February 23~ I lift my eyes to the hills---from where will my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven & earth. All my life, Lord, I've been lifting up my eyes in various directions, hoping to find the help I need. And I'm not the only one. A career path, a financial plan, popularity, home & family. I know they're not bad things but we tend to put them up on a pedestal & expect them to save us. How many were counting on saving accounts & retirement plans when the economy went South? That's a hard lesson to learn. And when those idols crumble, many of us turn to various escapes----alcohol, drugs & so on. You know the escapes I've tried but I keep coming back to you. Where does my help come from? From the loving Lord who made me. I put my trust in you. In the psalmist's time, " the hills " were where idol-worshippers had their sacred groves. Help comes, not from the hills but from the One who made the hills. Amen.
Mom is all caught up once again. The sun is setting as I am typing this to you. The skies are still bright & blue so I am hoping that I will get the chance to see the stars & moon shining bright. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile right back. I hope that your evening is all that you want & need it to be. May you have fun tonight while I sleep. Please come visit Mom in my dreams tonight & be with me. I need you, I always need you by my side. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Never stop knowing & feeling that, please!
Mom has to get going for now as it is that time again where I need to feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. He actually just walked through the door so that is Mom's cue to get things going. I will be back tomorrow to write to you again. Until then....Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. Big hugs & catch all the kisses I blow to you. Love you so much.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom has had a pretty relaxed day today really doing nothing. I spoke to Auntie Kristina on the phone for about 2 hours. It was nice to catch up with her as we haven't had the chance to in a couple weeks. She was telling me that she called on you a couple times this week & you were there for her. Hearing that story made me smile & tear up all at the same time. I just kept saying...." that's my boy.....he is amazing! " Mom means it too. You were always amazing. You just didn't see it or know it but I hope you feel it now.
Mom is sorry but I do not have any updates for you as I didn't speak to anyone other than Auntie Kristina. I know that Aunt Beck is traveling tomorrow from South America to her home. I know you will be with her as she is traveling & we all thank you for that. I will touch base with everyone over the weekend & I will be seeing them in a few days. Mark had 2 long days working & taking a class at his office while Mom was home with the pups as I studied. The weather today was so beautiful. The sun was shining & the temp was 67 degrees. I really wanted to enjoy going outside & taking the pups for a long walk but I couldn't as they were so many people outside & all they were doing was barking so I decided that we will go for a walk when Mark gets home. We all need to enjoy the nice sun & everything outside is calmer. We shall see how it goes....lol.
Here are the daily prayers for you today: February 22 ~ I bless the Lord who gives me counsel; in the night also my heart instructs me. I keep the Lord always before me; because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved. My Lord, I think of the various " counselors " I've had in my life. It's a mixed bag. Parents, friends, ministers, teachers, coaches, camp counselors & guidance counselors in school. Some of them brought true wisdom & I believe you used them to guide me in your path. Others had different motives. Some were fully invested, caring deeply about me. Others were more interested in hearing themselves talk & they didn't hang around long enough to see the results. But you, Lord, are a counselor who cares, stays close to me & know me deeply. Keep counseling me day & night & I'll keep listening for your voice. His Holy Spirit speaks to us deep in our hearts & tells us that we are God's children. Amen.
February 23~ I lift my eyes to the hills---from where will my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven & earth. All my life, Lord, I've been lifting up my eyes in various directions, hoping to find the help I need. And I'm not the only one. A career path, a financial plan, popularity, home & family. I know they're not bad things but we tend to put them up on a pedestal & expect them to save us. How many were counting on saving accounts & retirement plans when the economy went South? That's a hard lesson to learn. And when those idols crumble, many of us turn to various escapes----alcohol, drugs & so on. You know the escapes I've tried but I keep coming back to you. Where does my help come from? From the loving Lord who made me. I put my trust in you. In the psalmist's time, " the hills " were where idol-worshippers had their sacred groves. Help comes, not from the hills but from the One who made the hills. Amen.
Mom is all caught up once again. The sun is setting as I am typing this to you. The skies are still bright & blue so I am hoping that I will get the chance to see the stars & moon shining bright. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile right back. I hope that your evening is all that you want & need it to be. May you have fun tonight while I sleep. Please come visit Mom in my dreams tonight & be with me. I need you, I always need you by my side. Thank you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Never stop knowing & feeling that, please!
Mom has to get going for now as it is that time again where I need to feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. He actually just walked through the door so that is Mom's cue to get things going. I will be back tomorrow to write to you again. Until then....Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. Big hugs & catch all the kisses I blow to you. Love you so much.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, February 22, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday night? Mom has been so busy all day long that I am just now getting to writing to you for the night. I apologize in advance as this letter will not be a long one at all because I still need to feed the pups & make dinner. Mom studied all day long & it took me a long time because instead of being in my office I have been on the couch watching Princess. She has not had a very good day. She has been shaking & panting almost all day. Mom actually held her for 45 minutes straight in hopes that I was helping her. Not sure what is going on but I am watching her closely. Mom did her whole lesson today & I have only one more left & that is Friday. I also did housework, laundry & took the pups for a walk. Like I said... I have been crazy busy!
The weather today was beautiful. It started out cloudy but the sun came through & the temps were in the 60's. Tomorrow it is going to be close to 65 degrees. That is totally unheard of for weather in February. Mom is so happy that the snow is melting like crazy! Pretty soon Spring will be here & winter will be behind us! Mom looks forward to those days for sure.
Honestly, Mom does not have any new updates for you at all. Grandpa called last night but I didn't chat with him. I was kinda feeling weird so I decided to just go lay in bed & watch tv. I will get in touch with him tonight for sure. I did speak to Meme real quick to let her know that I would be there in NH for 2 days next week. I am looking forward to seeing everyone. It has been 2 months since seeing her & Bob. I miss our family & friends. I miss you too my sweet precious son. I miss you like crazy. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You will always be in my heart, mind, body & soul.
Mom will write you the daily prayer for today on tomorrows letter to you. I will definitely have more time that is for sure. I will write a couple quotes on there as well. I am so sorry but Mom is just crunched for time. I am hoping that your evening will be peaceful & restful. May it be all that you need & want to do. Have fun while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me if you can. I always need you by my side. Thank you so much. Please continue to watch over us all like i know you do. Fly high & free. Good night & sweet dreams to you. Until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Mom will whisper to you as I always do later tonight. Smile & I will too. Remember you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings xoxoxo. I love you unconditional!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday night? Mom has been so busy all day long that I am just now getting to writing to you for the night. I apologize in advance as this letter will not be a long one at all because I still need to feed the pups & make dinner. Mom studied all day long & it took me a long time because instead of being in my office I have been on the couch watching Princess. She has not had a very good day. She has been shaking & panting almost all day. Mom actually held her for 45 minutes straight in hopes that I was helping her. Not sure what is going on but I am watching her closely. Mom did her whole lesson today & I have only one more left & that is Friday. I also did housework, laundry & took the pups for a walk. Like I said... I have been crazy busy!
The weather today was beautiful. It started out cloudy but the sun came through & the temps were in the 60's. Tomorrow it is going to be close to 65 degrees. That is totally unheard of for weather in February. Mom is so happy that the snow is melting like crazy! Pretty soon Spring will be here & winter will be behind us! Mom looks forward to those days for sure.
Honestly, Mom does not have any new updates for you at all. Grandpa called last night but I didn't chat with him. I was kinda feeling weird so I decided to just go lay in bed & watch tv. I will get in touch with him tonight for sure. I did speak to Meme real quick to let her know that I would be there in NH for 2 days next week. I am looking forward to seeing everyone. It has been 2 months since seeing her & Bob. I miss our family & friends. I miss you too my sweet precious son. I miss you like crazy. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You will always be in my heart, mind, body & soul.
Mom will write you the daily prayer for today on tomorrows letter to you. I will definitely have more time that is for sure. I will write a couple quotes on there as well. I am so sorry but Mom is just crunched for time. I am hoping that your evening will be peaceful & restful. May it be all that you need & want to do. Have fun while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me if you can. I always need you by my side. Thank you so much. Please continue to watch over us all like i know you do. Fly high & free. Good night & sweet dreams to you. Until tomorrow......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Mom will whisper to you as I always do later tonight. Smile & I will too. Remember you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings xoxoxo. I love you unconditional!
Tuesday, February 21, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is writing to you now so that I can go do the things I need to in a bit. The weather today is in the 40's & it is sunny. More snow is melting & I am loving it. I am seeing grass once again & that sure does make Mom happy! The weather tomorrow is going to be in the 60's. I plan on getting up early & getting ready & taking the pups for a nice long walk. They will sure enjoy it & so won't I. Then I will come in & start working on my class work. The last 2 lessons of this class & then my final exam is released on Friday! I am excited that it is almost over with. I can't really wait to jump back into my collage classes again so that I can get them finished up & be ready to go look for some type of work! Thank you for always being by Mom's side. It means everything to me because without all those years of caring for you I would not be doing as well as I am. Mom will always need you by my side. That will never change.
Last night I saw the stars shining in the sky but have not seen the moon for several nights now. I am hoping to see them again tonight when the sun sets. Mom whispered to you so I hope that you heard me. I will whisper to you again tonight so be listening out for my voice. I did speak to Grandpa briefly last night. I was able to touch base with him around 8:45 pm. We chatted for about 10 minutes & then hung up as Mom was getting tired. He told me that him, Debbie & Great Grammy are all doing well. Great Grammy was in a chipper mood yesterday so that is always nice to hear! I let him know that Mark & I will be making a visit up there next week for 2 days as he has a client in VT. It will be nice to see everyone as I miss them very much. I told everyone that they needed to come to the hotel as I will have no transportation to go anywhere but that is ok. I will have to take some time & work on my final exam as well so while Mark is gone all day Wednesday I will have enough to keep me busy! I will call & let Meme know tonight that I will be there! I plan on coming to visit you as well. I will do that hopefully both Tuesday & Wednesday as we will be heading back home on Thursday morning. Maybe you can send me a sign while I am there to let me know you are around. That would be so nice. I miss you so much. No words can explain just how much but you & I both feel it & that is all that matters. I love you my sweet precious son. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero, my everything, my wind beneath my wings. That is all the updates I have for today. Here is your daily prayer for the day: February 21~ Sing praises to the lord with the lyre, with the lyre & the sound of melody. With trumpets & the sound of the horn make a joyful noise before the King, the Lord. What instrument do I have to praise you with, dear Lord? The whoosh of the photocopier as I do my office work? The gurgle of the coffeemaker in the kitchen? Perhaps even the annoying sound in the car engine could join in the symphony of praise. I want to gather elements of my entire life & offer them to you. I don't stop being your child when I work, or when I drive, or when I sip steaming cups of coffee. The music comes from every aspect of my world & I offer it all to you as my paean of praise. Then the prophet Miriam, Aaron's sister, took a tambourine in her hand; and all the women went after her with tambourines & with dancing. And Miriam sang to them: " Sing to the Lord, for he has triumphed gloriously. Amen.
Mom found a quote for today as well...." Life is eternal & love is immortal; and death is only a horizon, and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight. "
Here is one more: " Missing someone is your heart's way of reminding you that you love them. " I certainly do love you with all my heart...unconditional. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul.
Mom hopes that later tonight your evening will be everything you want & need it to be. Come be with Mom if you can. Thanks! Hope you have fun while I sleep. Continue to fly high & free like I know you are. Until tomorrow night..... Sweet dreams & good night, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is writing to you now so that I can go do the things I need to in a bit. The weather today is in the 40's & it is sunny. More snow is melting & I am loving it. I am seeing grass once again & that sure does make Mom happy! The weather tomorrow is going to be in the 60's. I plan on getting up early & getting ready & taking the pups for a nice long walk. They will sure enjoy it & so won't I. Then I will come in & start working on my class work. The last 2 lessons of this class & then my final exam is released on Friday! I am excited that it is almost over with. I can't really wait to jump back into my collage classes again so that I can get them finished up & be ready to go look for some type of work! Thank you for always being by Mom's side. It means everything to me because without all those years of caring for you I would not be doing as well as I am. Mom will always need you by my side. That will never change.
Last night I saw the stars shining in the sky but have not seen the moon for several nights now. I am hoping to see them again tonight when the sun sets. Mom whispered to you so I hope that you heard me. I will whisper to you again tonight so be listening out for my voice. I did speak to Grandpa briefly last night. I was able to touch base with him around 8:45 pm. We chatted for about 10 minutes & then hung up as Mom was getting tired. He told me that him, Debbie & Great Grammy are all doing well. Great Grammy was in a chipper mood yesterday so that is always nice to hear! I let him know that Mark & I will be making a visit up there next week for 2 days as he has a client in VT. It will be nice to see everyone as I miss them very much. I told everyone that they needed to come to the hotel as I will have no transportation to go anywhere but that is ok. I will have to take some time & work on my final exam as well so while Mark is gone all day Wednesday I will have enough to keep me busy! I will call & let Meme know tonight that I will be there! I plan on coming to visit you as well. I will do that hopefully both Tuesday & Wednesday as we will be heading back home on Thursday morning. Maybe you can send me a sign while I am there to let me know you are around. That would be so nice. I miss you so much. No words can explain just how much but you & I both feel it & that is all that matters. I love you my sweet precious son. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero, my everything, my wind beneath my wings. That is all the updates I have for today. Here is your daily prayer for the day: February 21~ Sing praises to the lord with the lyre, with the lyre & the sound of melody. With trumpets & the sound of the horn make a joyful noise before the King, the Lord. What instrument do I have to praise you with, dear Lord? The whoosh of the photocopier as I do my office work? The gurgle of the coffeemaker in the kitchen? Perhaps even the annoying sound in the car engine could join in the symphony of praise. I want to gather elements of my entire life & offer them to you. I don't stop being your child when I work, or when I drive, or when I sip steaming cups of coffee. The music comes from every aspect of my world & I offer it all to you as my paean of praise. Then the prophet Miriam, Aaron's sister, took a tambourine in her hand; and all the women went after her with tambourines & with dancing. And Miriam sang to them: " Sing to the Lord, for he has triumphed gloriously. Amen.
Mom found a quote for today as well...." Life is eternal & love is immortal; and death is only a horizon, and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight. "
Here is one more: " Missing someone is your heart's way of reminding you that you love them. " I certainly do love you with all my heart...unconditional. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul.
Mom hopes that later tonight your evening will be everything you want & need it to be. Come be with Mom if you can. Thanks! Hope you have fun while I sleep. Continue to fly high & free like I know you are. Until tomorrow night..... Sweet dreams & good night, Tyler.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, February 20, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Mom is doing ok. It has been quite busy. I did a lot of things around the apartment today & took the pups for a nice walk. The sun was shining & the skies were blue today. The snow is melting finally & that is always nice to see. The temps this week are going to be nice. Wednesday & Thursday it will be in the 60's. Rare for this time of year but I will take it! Mom saw the stars shining in the sky again last night. I whispered to you when I saw them. Hope you heard my voice! I gave you a smile as well so hope you saw that too. I will do it again tonight when I look to the sky. Hope I see them shining brightly for the 3rd night in a row. The sun is just setting now. It is pretty. Lots of blues with orange & peach in it. Sunsets & sunrises when I see those just remind me of you. They still make me think that is your sign to me while painting it in the sky. That very thought makes me smile so big. We are still seeing the same things even though we are not physically near each other. Be listening out for my voice later on & smile again for me. I will close my eyes & visualize it. I will smile for you again as well. I miss you so much.... more than words can say. I love you with all my heart & soul. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Always fell it & know that you are forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You will always be my everything, my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Mom didn't speak to Grandpa last night so maybe he will call tonight. If not I will get in touch with him tomorrow. I am sure he is working a lot & is pretty busy not to mention tired. Meme is good. Aunt Beck will be home in 4 days. I guess everyone else is doing well. Please continue to watch over us all like I know you do. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom will have some updates for you soon, I hope. Here is your daily prayer for the day: February 20~ You forgave the iniquity of your people; you pardoned all their sin. I humbly bow before your throne, ashamed of things that I have done. How could you ever look at me again? My promises have come to naught. I haven't lived the way I ought. That's not a fitting way to treat a friend. I will not dare to seek your face. I plead for mercy, love & grace. Perhaps you could restore some tiny part? You lift me up & take my hand, with your words I'll never understand. And let forgiveness flower from your heart. We don't earn forgiveness. We can't. Excuses don't make us more forgivable, but less. The only way to find forgiveness is to admit we've done wrong. Amen.
Here is the quote that Mom found for today: " A best friend is like a 4 leaf clover: hard to find & lucky to have. " That is so true. Friends come & go but the right ones will stay with you through the years, through the good & the bad & not walk away. Mom has always had friends & have been very fortunate in that but through the years I have realized that I have more acquaintances then friends. That is ok.... it hurt at 1st but I learn that people change & we all grown apart. I do cherish the ones I still have. I love them like family.
Mom hopes that your evening will be filled with all the things you need to do & would like to do. Have fun while Mom is sleeping & come be with me if you can. I would love that pumpkin. Thank you. Mom needs to get going to finish cooking dinner. It was prepped about an hour ago & still needs to finish up. I did feed the pups but Princess didn't want to eat so I need to go see if I can get her to. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then..... good night & sweet dreams. I love you unconditionally.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Mom is doing ok. It has been quite busy. I did a lot of things around the apartment today & took the pups for a nice walk. The sun was shining & the skies were blue today. The snow is melting finally & that is always nice to see. The temps this week are going to be nice. Wednesday & Thursday it will be in the 60's. Rare for this time of year but I will take it! Mom saw the stars shining in the sky again last night. I whispered to you when I saw them. Hope you heard my voice! I gave you a smile as well so hope you saw that too. I will do it again tonight when I look to the sky. Hope I see them shining brightly for the 3rd night in a row. The sun is just setting now. It is pretty. Lots of blues with orange & peach in it. Sunsets & sunrises when I see those just remind me of you. They still make me think that is your sign to me while painting it in the sky. That very thought makes me smile so big. We are still seeing the same things even though we are not physically near each other. Be listening out for my voice later on & smile again for me. I will close my eyes & visualize it. I will smile for you again as well. I miss you so much.... more than words can say. I love you with all my heart & soul. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Always fell it & know that you are forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You will always be my everything, my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Mom didn't speak to Grandpa last night so maybe he will call tonight. If not I will get in touch with him tomorrow. I am sure he is working a lot & is pretty busy not to mention tired. Meme is good. Aunt Beck will be home in 4 days. I guess everyone else is doing well. Please continue to watch over us all like I know you do. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom will have some updates for you soon, I hope. Here is your daily prayer for the day: February 20~ You forgave the iniquity of your people; you pardoned all their sin. I humbly bow before your throne, ashamed of things that I have done. How could you ever look at me again? My promises have come to naught. I haven't lived the way I ought. That's not a fitting way to treat a friend. I will not dare to seek your face. I plead for mercy, love & grace. Perhaps you could restore some tiny part? You lift me up & take my hand, with your words I'll never understand. And let forgiveness flower from your heart. We don't earn forgiveness. We can't. Excuses don't make us more forgivable, but less. The only way to find forgiveness is to admit we've done wrong. Amen.
Here is the quote that Mom found for today: " A best friend is like a 4 leaf clover: hard to find & lucky to have. " That is so true. Friends come & go but the right ones will stay with you through the years, through the good & the bad & not walk away. Mom has always had friends & have been very fortunate in that but through the years I have realized that I have more acquaintances then friends. That is ok.... it hurt at 1st but I learn that people change & we all grown apart. I do cherish the ones I still have. I love them like family.
Mom hopes that your evening will be filled with all the things you need to do & would like to do. Have fun while Mom is sleeping & come be with me if you can. I would love that pumpkin. Thank you. Mom needs to get going to finish cooking dinner. It was prepped about an hour ago & still needs to finish up. I did feed the pups but Princess didn't want to eat so I need to go see if I can get her to. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then..... good night & sweet dreams. I love you unconditionally.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, February 19, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is so sorry that I did not write to you last night but yesterday was kind of crazy. Mom got up early & Mark & I ran our errands. I was doing really good all day. We got home around 3:30 pm & we had dinner & out of no where Mom started to have pain again so I watched TV for a bit. Mark's friend came over & got here around 9 pm. I had every intention of coming in my office & writing to you but even after taking medicine for the pain it just got worse. I was up until 11:30 pm & then decided to just go to bed. I heard Mark & Rick chatting & laughing & I just couldn't get comfortable. I think I finally fell asleep around 2 am just to be woken up at 8 am. To say the least today I have not done a thing. I am just so tired & it will be a very early night to bed. Mark is not feeling well either again. This sickness has to go away & leave the 2 of us alone. He hasn't done anything either all day. Please if you can help us out with all this pumpkin, Mom would really like that so much. Thank you.
Yesterday I received a message from Aunt Beck saying that she was out of the jungle & she was headed to points up North & she would be home at the end of the week. I was so happy to hear from her. I am glad she is good & I can't wait to chat with her. I also got to speak to Meme yesterday. Things are well there & I am sure I will be chatting with Grandpa either tonight or tomorrow. Mom did have to call Meme this morning to let her know that one of her friends passed away this morning. She was very sad. He lost his courageous battle with cancer. May David R.I.P. now with no more pain & suffering & may he get his wings & fly high & free like you do now. This week Mom has her final 2 classes & then I have to take the final exam! Can't believe that 6 weeks have gone by that fast but they have. I will be ready to finish this up & get back to college stuff so I can graduate! Thanks for always being there by my side my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. I think that is all the updates that I have for you tonight. I will have more during the week. Here are the daily prayers for you: February 18 ~ For God alone my soul waits in silence; from his comes my salvation. He alone is my rock & my salvation, my fortress; I shall never be shaken. Sometimes, Lord, I just need to get away from it all------to be quiet & rest. Thank you for providing a place of rest. Life spins so quickly that I can't always keep up. I start to worry about what might happen. Those worries then add to stress in my life, affecting the way I work & the way I relate to others. Friendships get frayed, mistakes get made & I have even more to worry about. So right now I'm quieting down & I'm turning to you for help. I trust to provide the deliverance I need. Do not worry about anything, but in everything by prayer & supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts & your minds in Christ Jesus. Amen.
February 19~ At an acceptable time, O God, in the abundance of your steadfast love, answer me. With your faithful help rescue me from sinking in the mire. Dear Lord, I usually track quite well with the psalmist. The details are different, but the essential situations still exist----trouble, enemies & a need for deliverance in tough times. This particular psalm is the story of my life, too. So I have to laugh a little when the psalmist cries out for help " at an acceptable time. " As I picture it, the psalmist is sinking in quicksand, about to be swallowed up & the prayer is: " When you have a minute, Lord, if it's not too much trouble, would you think about saving me? " I laugh, but then realize that time is often the issue, I pray for all sorts of things that I want now & I complain when you don't immediately respond. Maybe, in your wisdom, you're just waiting for " an acceptable time. " God has all the time in the world & then some. Amen.
Mom is caught up yet again. Honestly, I have no quote for you tonight but I will make sure to give you a couple on tomorrows letter to you. It is getting late & Mom needs to get dinner going & feed the pups. I hope that your night is all that you want & need it to be. May you have fun while I sleep tonight. Come visit me if you can. I would love it. Thanks, Ty! I will look to the sky later & whisper to you as I always do. Smile when you hear my voice & I will smile back to you. Hope you get the kisses I blow to you each & every night as well. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. Never stop feeling that deep in your soul, please! Until tomorrow.... good night & sweet dreams. My love is unconditional.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? Mom is so sorry that I did not write to you last night but yesterday was kind of crazy. Mom got up early & Mark & I ran our errands. I was doing really good all day. We got home around 3:30 pm & we had dinner & out of no where Mom started to have pain again so I watched TV for a bit. Mark's friend came over & got here around 9 pm. I had every intention of coming in my office & writing to you but even after taking medicine for the pain it just got worse. I was up until 11:30 pm & then decided to just go to bed. I heard Mark & Rick chatting & laughing & I just couldn't get comfortable. I think I finally fell asleep around 2 am just to be woken up at 8 am. To say the least today I have not done a thing. I am just so tired & it will be a very early night to bed. Mark is not feeling well either again. This sickness has to go away & leave the 2 of us alone. He hasn't done anything either all day. Please if you can help us out with all this pumpkin, Mom would really like that so much. Thank you.
Yesterday I received a message from Aunt Beck saying that she was out of the jungle & she was headed to points up North & she would be home at the end of the week. I was so happy to hear from her. I am glad she is good & I can't wait to chat with her. I also got to speak to Meme yesterday. Things are well there & I am sure I will be chatting with Grandpa either tonight or tomorrow. Mom did have to call Meme this morning to let her know that one of her friends passed away this morning. She was very sad. He lost his courageous battle with cancer. May David R.I.P. now with no more pain & suffering & may he get his wings & fly high & free like you do now. This week Mom has her final 2 classes & then I have to take the final exam! Can't believe that 6 weeks have gone by that fast but they have. I will be ready to finish this up & get back to college stuff so I can graduate! Thanks for always being there by my side my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. I think that is all the updates that I have for you tonight. I will have more during the week. Here are the daily prayers for you: February 18 ~ For God alone my soul waits in silence; from his comes my salvation. He alone is my rock & my salvation, my fortress; I shall never be shaken. Sometimes, Lord, I just need to get away from it all------to be quiet & rest. Thank you for providing a place of rest. Life spins so quickly that I can't always keep up. I start to worry about what might happen. Those worries then add to stress in my life, affecting the way I work & the way I relate to others. Friendships get frayed, mistakes get made & I have even more to worry about. So right now I'm quieting down & I'm turning to you for help. I trust to provide the deliverance I need. Do not worry about anything, but in everything by prayer & supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts & your minds in Christ Jesus. Amen.
February 19~ At an acceptable time, O God, in the abundance of your steadfast love, answer me. With your faithful help rescue me from sinking in the mire. Dear Lord, I usually track quite well with the psalmist. The details are different, but the essential situations still exist----trouble, enemies & a need for deliverance in tough times. This particular psalm is the story of my life, too. So I have to laugh a little when the psalmist cries out for help " at an acceptable time. " As I picture it, the psalmist is sinking in quicksand, about to be swallowed up & the prayer is: " When you have a minute, Lord, if it's not too much trouble, would you think about saving me? " I laugh, but then realize that time is often the issue, I pray for all sorts of things that I want now & I complain when you don't immediately respond. Maybe, in your wisdom, you're just waiting for " an acceptable time. " God has all the time in the world & then some. Amen.
Mom is caught up yet again. Honestly, I have no quote for you tonight but I will make sure to give you a couple on tomorrows letter to you. It is getting late & Mom needs to get dinner going & feed the pups. I hope that your night is all that you want & need it to be. May you have fun while I sleep tonight. Come visit me if you can. I would love it. Thanks, Ty! I will look to the sky later & whisper to you as I always do. Smile when you hear my voice & I will smile back to you. Hope you get the kisses I blow to you each & every night as well. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. Never stop feeling that deep in your soul, please! Until tomorrow.... good night & sweet dreams. My love is unconditional.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, February 17, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? The weather today is windy & cold but the sun is shining & Mom will take it! Mom just got done her lesson for the week. I studied all day long. I am almost finished with the class. Next Wednesday & Friday will be my last lessons & then I will have to take my final exam. Those 6 weeks went by pretty fast. thought at 1st they would drag but they did not. I am excited to be finished with this & restart my college classes again. Mom is hoping to move right along with those so that I can graduate in July or August with my degree. Hopefully by Fall I will be able to go look for a job! Thank you for being by me every step of the way with all the studying, classes, certifications that I have taken. It is because of you that Mom is doing as well as I am. You are always right in my mind while I am doing these classes my sweet precious son. Today my lesson really touched on so many things that you went through in the physical world. When I was reading it all my heart sank & I got sad. You went through so much, so much pain & suffering & now even though I can't see you I know that you are freed from everything that you struggled with & that in itself makes Mom happy. I know you are happy so I smile at that very thought!
Mom is doing better & better each day. Yesterday was a very good day...the best in the last couple of weeks. Today I am doing pretty good...a little pain but I can handle it. I sure could still use Aunt Beck's healing though....so if by any chance you are seeing this Beck... please help your sister out. I could really use it. Thank you! Mom could also use the help of you, Tyler. I always do & always will need you by my side. Thank you!
Mom finally called & spoke to Grandpa last night. It wasn't a long conversation but at least I got to see how everyone was doing. He was telling me that he has been very busy with snow blowing, shoveling & making sure all of the snow has been cleaned up. I think he said 1 day he went out at 8 am & didn't go inside until 4 pm. That is way too much for him to be doing. I wish that he would slow down & take it easy. Mom is such a worry wart with all our family & friends. Debbie is doing fine, just working a lot & Great Grammy is good too. I spoke to Meme yesterday afternoon & she was telling me that Bean wants her & I to go with her the next time she gets a tattoo. Meme is game for it.... guess she wants an owl & Mom is good with it too. I decided that I will be getting your name ( in your hand writing ) & a 4 leaf clover next to it. It will be my memorial tattoo for you. I am not sure where I will get it or when but it will be in the next few months! 1 more week & Aunt Beck is home. I can't wait to chat with her, hear all about her trip & just hear her voice. I really miss her. That is all that I got for you today on updates. More to follow over the weekend!
Here is your daily prayer for the day: February 17~ With a freewill offering, I will sacrifice to you; I will give thanks to your name, O Lord, for it is good. Dear Lord, I want to give you something, a token of my thanks & love. In days of old, they brought sacrifices to the Temple, gifts of grain or livestock. I suppose I can give you money, donating to my church or a charity, but that quickly becomes a mathematical transaction, just another bill to pay. I want to give you something meaningful, something sacrificial. My time? Maybe. My creative effort? Would I dare to take a chance on some artistic offering, not being confident about the outcome? Or could I show an extravagant kindness to one of " the least of these, " the poor & needy? What kind of gift do you want from me, Lord? Please show me. Every gift we give God is our heart, just wrapped up in something different each time. Our money, our service, even our praises---- these are just containers for the loving gratitude of our hearts. Amen.
Here is a quote for you that Mom really likes....." Come with me & you'll be in a world of pure imagination. " Do you remember what movie that is from? Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory. I really like that song.... it is one of my favorites! We watched it a few times together. I miss watching movies or TV with you, I miss just talking to you & hearing your voice. I miss your sweet face. I miss it all, Tyler. No words can express the hurt I feel daily from not having you here with me. I miss being a Mom to you. I miss missing out on all the other things that my Mom friends can still do. I try so hard & I will keep trying daily but I know you feel my pain. I am so sorry for that but I can't lie or be dishonest with you or anyone...especially myself. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever living in my heart, mind, body & soul. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Mom saw stars shining bright last night & I smiled & whispered to you. I hope you heard my voice. I will do it again tonight as well. Hope I see more in the sky. Mom is hoping that your evening will be all that you need & want it to be. Come visit me in my dreams. Have fun while I sleep tonight. I have to get going now as it is that time of night where I need to go feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you.... until then.....good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Mom saw today when I logged into here that there are over 32,000 visits from people in the United States, France, Germany, Portugal, India, United Kingdom, Netherlands & Kenya. I have wonderful people who follow me & read my letters to you. That makes my heart sing. Thank you to each & every one of you who continue to support me, my letters to my son & my continued journey of grieving & getting by daily without him. Big hugs!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? The weather today is windy & cold but the sun is shining & Mom will take it! Mom just got done her lesson for the week. I studied all day long. I am almost finished with the class. Next Wednesday & Friday will be my last lessons & then I will have to take my final exam. Those 6 weeks went by pretty fast. thought at 1st they would drag but they did not. I am excited to be finished with this & restart my college classes again. Mom is hoping to move right along with those so that I can graduate in July or August with my degree. Hopefully by Fall I will be able to go look for a job! Thank you for being by me every step of the way with all the studying, classes, certifications that I have taken. It is because of you that Mom is doing as well as I am. You are always right in my mind while I am doing these classes my sweet precious son. Today my lesson really touched on so many things that you went through in the physical world. When I was reading it all my heart sank & I got sad. You went through so much, so much pain & suffering & now even though I can't see you I know that you are freed from everything that you struggled with & that in itself makes Mom happy. I know you are happy so I smile at that very thought!
Mom is doing better & better each day. Yesterday was a very good day...the best in the last couple of weeks. Today I am doing pretty good...a little pain but I can handle it. I sure could still use Aunt Beck's healing though....so if by any chance you are seeing this Beck... please help your sister out. I could really use it. Thank you! Mom could also use the help of you, Tyler. I always do & always will need you by my side. Thank you!
Mom finally called & spoke to Grandpa last night. It wasn't a long conversation but at least I got to see how everyone was doing. He was telling me that he has been very busy with snow blowing, shoveling & making sure all of the snow has been cleaned up. I think he said 1 day he went out at 8 am & didn't go inside until 4 pm. That is way too much for him to be doing. I wish that he would slow down & take it easy. Mom is such a worry wart with all our family & friends. Debbie is doing fine, just working a lot & Great Grammy is good too. I spoke to Meme yesterday afternoon & she was telling me that Bean wants her & I to go with her the next time she gets a tattoo. Meme is game for it.... guess she wants an owl & Mom is good with it too. I decided that I will be getting your name ( in your hand writing ) & a 4 leaf clover next to it. It will be my memorial tattoo for you. I am not sure where I will get it or when but it will be in the next few months! 1 more week & Aunt Beck is home. I can't wait to chat with her, hear all about her trip & just hear her voice. I really miss her. That is all that I got for you today on updates. More to follow over the weekend!
Here is your daily prayer for the day: February 17~ With a freewill offering, I will sacrifice to you; I will give thanks to your name, O Lord, for it is good. Dear Lord, I want to give you something, a token of my thanks & love. In days of old, they brought sacrifices to the Temple, gifts of grain or livestock. I suppose I can give you money, donating to my church or a charity, but that quickly becomes a mathematical transaction, just another bill to pay. I want to give you something meaningful, something sacrificial. My time? Maybe. My creative effort? Would I dare to take a chance on some artistic offering, not being confident about the outcome? Or could I show an extravagant kindness to one of " the least of these, " the poor & needy? What kind of gift do you want from me, Lord? Please show me. Every gift we give God is our heart, just wrapped up in something different each time. Our money, our service, even our praises---- these are just containers for the loving gratitude of our hearts. Amen.
Here is a quote for you that Mom really likes....." Come with me & you'll be in a world of pure imagination. " Do you remember what movie that is from? Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory. I really like that song.... it is one of my favorites! We watched it a few times together. I miss watching movies or TV with you, I miss just talking to you & hearing your voice. I miss your sweet face. I miss it all, Tyler. No words can express the hurt I feel daily from not having you here with me. I miss being a Mom to you. I miss missing out on all the other things that my Mom friends can still do. I try so hard & I will keep trying daily but I know you feel my pain. I am so sorry for that but I can't lie or be dishonest with you or anyone...especially myself. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever living in my heart, mind, body & soul. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Mom saw stars shining bright last night & I smiled & whispered to you. I hope you heard my voice. I will do it again tonight as well. Hope I see more in the sky. Mom is hoping that your evening will be all that you need & want it to be. Come visit me in my dreams. Have fun while I sleep tonight. I have to get going now as it is that time of night where I need to go feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you.... until then.....good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Mom saw today when I logged into here that there are over 32,000 visits from people in the United States, France, Germany, Portugal, India, United Kingdom, Netherlands & Kenya. I have wonderful people who follow me & read my letters to you. That makes my heart sing. Thank you to each & every one of you who continue to support me, my letters to my son & my continued journey of grieving & getting by daily without him. Big hugs!
Thursday, February 16, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is so sorry that she didn't write to you last night but again I was studying all day & the later that night I was in pain & couldn't even concentrate on anything. I actually just laid in bed & stared at whatever Mark was watching on TV for the night. I think I finally fell asleep around midnight or 1 am. I slept until 9 am this morning. I haven't done that in months. Guess my body was really needing it. Mom took today to do all kinds of things that needed to get done while Mark was on conference calls all day long. I am about to go make dinner but I wanted to write to you really quick.
Mom saw the prettiest sunset yesterday morning. It was so gorgeous. I took pictures of it because I was just so taken back by that. The 1st thing I thought of was that you gave me that so I could get through the day. I was up at 6 am yesterday as well because we had received a phone call from Mark's brother. So on top of everything else I was going through I was so tired. I have to say that being up that early was so worth seeing that. It was dark pink, light pink, dark orange & peach....just breath taking. Thank you for that my sweet precious son. I sure did smile when I saw that. Not sure if I will see the stars or moon tonight as last night we got more snow & the weather today was so cloudy. I will look anyways as I always do & I will whisper to you so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too.
Mark spoiled Mom like crazy on Valentines Day for sure. I was so surprised at all the things that were given to me. I was literally shocked because usually we just go out to dinner but this year he got Mom 24 long stem roses, a dozen balloons, 2 stuffed animals of Thumper & Ms. Bunny ( my favorite Disney character! ) a beautiful gold necklace & ring & a Swarovski enchanted rose from Beauty & the Beast ( my favorite Disney movie! ) He did amazing huh? Mom had a rough day on Valentines so I couldn't even really enjoy anything but I managed to smile & give hugs to him for all that. He knew I was feeling really tough for sure! Mom did whisper & talk to you throughout the day so I hope you heard me. I even asked you to be my Valentine as I always did. Hope that made you smile because that was Mom's intent. I will always ask you to be my Valentine...every year!
Mom has no updates for you at all as the last 10 days I have not wanted to talk on the phone or do anything since I was under the weather. would just let the phone ring. I do know that Grandpa & Debbie are well because Mark spoke to him the other night for me. They are just really busy with working & shoveling all this crappy snow we keep getting. They got another 6" of it last night too. February has been slamming us hard again with snow. The storm last night was called Pluto.... the 4th one in a row in 3 weeks with a name. It is crazy! Meme & Bob are doing well too. She called today for a brief minute while she was on lunch break. I miss them all so much. I haven't seen them now since Christmas.... that was almost 2 months ago. It is saddening on how time is just flying by. Aunt Beck will be home next week from her trip.... that month sure did fly by! That is all I got for you today but I do have the daily prayer for you. Here they are: February 15~ Those who love me, I will deliver; I will protect those who know my name. Jesus, the very thought of thee with sweetness fills my breast, but sweeter far thy face to see & in thy presence rest. O hope of every contrite heart, O joy of all the meek, To those who fall, how kind thou art! How good to those who seek!..... Jesus, our only joy be thou, as thou our prize wilt be. Jesus, be thou our glory now & through eternity. Love has hands to help others. It has feet to hasten to the poor & needy. It has eyes to see misery & want. It has ears to hear the signs & sorrow of men. This is what love looks like. Amen.
February 16~ O grant us help against the foe, for human help is worthless. People has consistently let me down. Lord & I'm tired of it. I feel hurt right now & I need your help. I'm not saying I'm perfectly dependable myself; I'm only human, but my problems require a higher level of assistance. Will you bring your divine power & wisdom into my situation? Give me strength against laziness & complacency. Help me fight the temptations that pull me down. Quiet the naysayers. Calm the backbiters. Grant me the determination & confidence I need to do your work in this world. All the people are grass, their constancy is like the flower of the field..... The grass withers, the flower fades; but the word of our God will stand forever. Amen.
I am caught up again. Here is Mom's quote for the day as well: " Laughter is timeless, imagination has no age & dreams are forever. " Well said by the famous Walt Disney. Well, Ty.... Mom needs to get going so I can feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. I hope that you have a peaceful night doing all the things you need & want to do. Come visit Mom if you can. I would love that so much. Please continue to watch over us all like I know you do. Thank you. I miss you so much & Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Until tomorrow..... good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is so sorry that she didn't write to you last night but again I was studying all day & the later that night I was in pain & couldn't even concentrate on anything. I actually just laid in bed & stared at whatever Mark was watching on TV for the night. I think I finally fell asleep around midnight or 1 am. I slept until 9 am this morning. I haven't done that in months. Guess my body was really needing it. Mom took today to do all kinds of things that needed to get done while Mark was on conference calls all day long. I am about to go make dinner but I wanted to write to you really quick.
Mom saw the prettiest sunset yesterday morning. It was so gorgeous. I took pictures of it because I was just so taken back by that. The 1st thing I thought of was that you gave me that so I could get through the day. I was up at 6 am yesterday as well because we had received a phone call from Mark's brother. So on top of everything else I was going through I was so tired. I have to say that being up that early was so worth seeing that. It was dark pink, light pink, dark orange & peach....just breath taking. Thank you for that my sweet precious son. I sure did smile when I saw that. Not sure if I will see the stars or moon tonight as last night we got more snow & the weather today was so cloudy. I will look anyways as I always do & I will whisper to you so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too.
Mark spoiled Mom like crazy on Valentines Day for sure. I was so surprised at all the things that were given to me. I was literally shocked because usually we just go out to dinner but this year he got Mom 24 long stem roses, a dozen balloons, 2 stuffed animals of Thumper & Ms. Bunny ( my favorite Disney character! ) a beautiful gold necklace & ring & a Swarovski enchanted rose from Beauty & the Beast ( my favorite Disney movie! ) He did amazing huh? Mom had a rough day on Valentines so I couldn't even really enjoy anything but I managed to smile & give hugs to him for all that. He knew I was feeling really tough for sure! Mom did whisper & talk to you throughout the day so I hope you heard me. I even asked you to be my Valentine as I always did. Hope that made you smile because that was Mom's intent. I will always ask you to be my Valentine...every year!
Mom has no updates for you at all as the last 10 days I have not wanted to talk on the phone or do anything since I was under the weather. would just let the phone ring. I do know that Grandpa & Debbie are well because Mark spoke to him the other night for me. They are just really busy with working & shoveling all this crappy snow we keep getting. They got another 6" of it last night too. February has been slamming us hard again with snow. The storm last night was called Pluto.... the 4th one in a row in 3 weeks with a name. It is crazy! Meme & Bob are doing well too. She called today for a brief minute while she was on lunch break. I miss them all so much. I haven't seen them now since Christmas.... that was almost 2 months ago. It is saddening on how time is just flying by. Aunt Beck will be home next week from her trip.... that month sure did fly by! That is all I got for you today but I do have the daily prayer for you. Here they are: February 15~ Those who love me, I will deliver; I will protect those who know my name. Jesus, the very thought of thee with sweetness fills my breast, but sweeter far thy face to see & in thy presence rest. O hope of every contrite heart, O joy of all the meek, To those who fall, how kind thou art! How good to those who seek!..... Jesus, our only joy be thou, as thou our prize wilt be. Jesus, be thou our glory now & through eternity. Love has hands to help others. It has feet to hasten to the poor & needy. It has eyes to see misery & want. It has ears to hear the signs & sorrow of men. This is what love looks like. Amen.
February 16~ O grant us help against the foe, for human help is worthless. People has consistently let me down. Lord & I'm tired of it. I feel hurt right now & I need your help. I'm not saying I'm perfectly dependable myself; I'm only human, but my problems require a higher level of assistance. Will you bring your divine power & wisdom into my situation? Give me strength against laziness & complacency. Help me fight the temptations that pull me down. Quiet the naysayers. Calm the backbiters. Grant me the determination & confidence I need to do your work in this world. All the people are grass, their constancy is like the flower of the field..... The grass withers, the flower fades; but the word of our God will stand forever. Amen.
I am caught up again. Here is Mom's quote for the day as well: " Laughter is timeless, imagination has no age & dreams are forever. " Well said by the famous Walt Disney. Well, Ty.... Mom needs to get going so I can feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. I hope that you have a peaceful night doing all the things you need & want to do. Come visit Mom if you can. I would love that so much. Please continue to watch over us all like I know you do. Thank you. I miss you so much & Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Until tomorrow..... good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, February 14, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday morning? Well today is Valentine's Day. I know it is suppose to be a " lovers holiday " for the most part but every year I would ask you to be my Valentine & you would say Yes! I sure have missed asking you that the last 4 years but every year I have always asked you just the same. I hope you hear Mom & you are smiling. I smile when I say it to you!
Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you last night but as you could see for a couple hours it was rough for me. I am getting better each day but still every once in awhile I have pain & when I do it is so intense. During those times I am whispering to you & asking for your help along with the Angels & God. I know you hear Mom. I thank you for all that you do to help me. I am hoping within the next few days everything will be better & I will be back to myself again & pain free. Will you help Mom with that? Thank you. I really don't have any updates for you at all. I spoke to Meme a couple days ago & Grandpa did try to call a couple times last night but I wasn't in any mood to talk so I didn't answer the phone. I felt guilty for that but I did see him on line & told him I was not feeling well & I would try to call him later today. I hope he wasn't too upset or hurt. I really felt bad. I haven't really spoken to anyone the last several days but I am assuming that everyone is well. Again, I hope to be back to myself in the next few days so I will touch base with them all & I will let you know just what is going on. Mark has been such a trooper through this all. He had it before me & I watched him be in pain. It was awful. It lasted for about 2- 2 1/2 weeks. Oh yeah, Aunt Beck has about 10 more days in South America & then she will be home. Mom hasn't heard from her since she arrived but I think she is still in the jungle & has no Internet. I know she is doing just fine as you are watching over her for us! Thanks pumpkin! That's all I got for today!
Mom has the 2 daily prayers that I need to catch up on for you so here they are: February 13~ For as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him. Could we with ink the ocean fill & were the skies of parchment made, were every stalk on the earth a quill & every man a scribe by trade, to write your love, O God above, would drain the ocean dry. Nor could the scroll contain the whole, through stretched from sky to sky. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor rulers, nor things present, not things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Amen.
February 14~ I love the Lord, because he has heard my voice & my supplications. Because he inclined his ear to me, therefore I will call on him as long as I live. My heart is filled with love for you dear, Lord. I can't begin to express the depth of my feelings. You have created me & re-created me. You have forgiven me & saved me. You give me joy each day & hope for the days ahead. When I call upon you in a time of need, you hear my prayer. You come close to me & whisper the assurance of your love. Thank you, Lord, for listening to me. I love you. God is love & those who abide in love abide in God & God abides in them. Amen.
Mom is all caught up yet again. I am not having a lot of luck finding quotes for you but I look daily. I think today of all days it is appropriate for Mom to write these lyrics to you. These are the words that mean the most to me & you know why..... It must have be cold there in my shadow, to never have sunlight on your face. You were content to let me shine, that's your way.....You always walked a step behind. So I was the one with all the glory, while you were the one with all the strength. A beautiful face without a name for so long. A beautiful smile to hide the pain......Did you ever know that you're my Hero & everything I would like to be? I could fly higher than an eagle, 'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.
Mom doesn't listen to that song all that often anymore but when I hear it, it brings me back to that day... June 20, 2013....the day I lost you. That day will forever be etched in my brain. All of it...every detail. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my everything & always will be. Never not feel this in your soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul.
Mom hopes that later tonight when the sun sets that I will get the chance to see the moon & stars shining bright. The sun is shining today & the sky is blue. Either way I will whisper to you & smile as big as I can to you. Smile back for Mom.... I will see it when I close my eyes. I hope that your night will be all that you need & want it to be my sweet precious son. Come be with me tonight & visit me in my dreams if you can. I would love that. Mom has to go & start the day now..... it is almost 11:30 am & I have so much to do. I will write again tomorrow night so until then.......Good night & sweet dreams. Happy Valentine's day, Tyler. I love you unconditional.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday morning? Well today is Valentine's Day. I know it is suppose to be a " lovers holiday " for the most part but every year I would ask you to be my Valentine & you would say Yes! I sure have missed asking you that the last 4 years but every year I have always asked you just the same. I hope you hear Mom & you are smiling. I smile when I say it to you!
Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you last night but as you could see for a couple hours it was rough for me. I am getting better each day but still every once in awhile I have pain & when I do it is so intense. During those times I am whispering to you & asking for your help along with the Angels & God. I know you hear Mom. I thank you for all that you do to help me. I am hoping within the next few days everything will be better & I will be back to myself again & pain free. Will you help Mom with that? Thank you. I really don't have any updates for you at all. I spoke to Meme a couple days ago & Grandpa did try to call a couple times last night but I wasn't in any mood to talk so I didn't answer the phone. I felt guilty for that but I did see him on line & told him I was not feeling well & I would try to call him later today. I hope he wasn't too upset or hurt. I really felt bad. I haven't really spoken to anyone the last several days but I am assuming that everyone is well. Again, I hope to be back to myself in the next few days so I will touch base with them all & I will let you know just what is going on. Mark has been such a trooper through this all. He had it before me & I watched him be in pain. It was awful. It lasted for about 2- 2 1/2 weeks. Oh yeah, Aunt Beck has about 10 more days in South America & then she will be home. Mom hasn't heard from her since she arrived but I think she is still in the jungle & has no Internet. I know she is doing just fine as you are watching over her for us! Thanks pumpkin! That's all I got for today!
Mom has the 2 daily prayers that I need to catch up on for you so here they are: February 13~ For as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him. Could we with ink the ocean fill & were the skies of parchment made, were every stalk on the earth a quill & every man a scribe by trade, to write your love, O God above, would drain the ocean dry. Nor could the scroll contain the whole, through stretched from sky to sky. For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor rulers, nor things present, not things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Amen.
February 14~ I love the Lord, because he has heard my voice & my supplications. Because he inclined his ear to me, therefore I will call on him as long as I live. My heart is filled with love for you dear, Lord. I can't begin to express the depth of my feelings. You have created me & re-created me. You have forgiven me & saved me. You give me joy each day & hope for the days ahead. When I call upon you in a time of need, you hear my prayer. You come close to me & whisper the assurance of your love. Thank you, Lord, for listening to me. I love you. God is love & those who abide in love abide in God & God abides in them. Amen.
Mom is all caught up yet again. I am not having a lot of luck finding quotes for you but I look daily. I think today of all days it is appropriate for Mom to write these lyrics to you. These are the words that mean the most to me & you know why..... It must have be cold there in my shadow, to never have sunlight on your face. You were content to let me shine, that's your way.....You always walked a step behind. So I was the one with all the glory, while you were the one with all the strength. A beautiful face without a name for so long. A beautiful smile to hide the pain......Did you ever know that you're my Hero & everything I would like to be? I could fly higher than an eagle, 'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.
Mom doesn't listen to that song all that often anymore but when I hear it, it brings me back to that day... June 20, 2013....the day I lost you. That day will forever be etched in my brain. All of it...every detail. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my everything & always will be. Never not feel this in your soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul.
Mom hopes that later tonight when the sun sets that I will get the chance to see the moon & stars shining bright. The sun is shining today & the sky is blue. Either way I will whisper to you & smile as big as I can to you. Smile back for Mom.... I will see it when I close my eyes. I hope that your night will be all that you need & want it to be my sweet precious son. Come be with me tonight & visit me in my dreams if you can. I would love that. Mom has to go & start the day now..... it is almost 11:30 am & I have so much to do. I will write again tomorrow night so until then.......Good night & sweet dreams. Happy Valentine's day, Tyler. I love you unconditional.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, February 12, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is writing to you right now because we are getting another snow storm & boy is it ever coming down. Mark & Mom just got home & I white-knuckled it the whole way up our hill. It was so terrible & wasn't plow at all so we " fish tailed " it the whole way up. Mark did a good job as he knew Mom was freaking out. I guess we could see another foot of snow or more between now & tomorrow & then another storm is hitting us the middle of the week again. I just got off the phone with Meme. She was saying that they were getting hit hard too with the snow. She has been out a couple times shoveling & will have to go back out again soon. These last 2 storms are dumping 2 -4" of snow per hour. These are the type of storms I remember as a little girl. Great memories but I am all set with seeing it all...lol. I guess Meme is pretty upset with Bob right now. Not sure why though as she couldn't discuss it but she is not happy at all. Hope everything works out. Poor Bob though as you know just as well as I do that is not a good thing....lol. I know you are watching over them & all of us. Thank you so much for that.
Mom is feeling better than yesterday but still not up to my " normal " just yet. I think in another couple days I will be though. Keep being with Momma if you can & keep helping me out. I sure still need it & you. I always will, Ty! If Aunt Beck is reading this...please keep helping me as well or if you are just seeing this for the 1st time... I could really use some healing work. Thank you. Aunt Beck is still is South America for another couple weeks. I bet she will be glad that she missed all the snow storms that she did but will not be smiling to be coming home to it all. I can't wait to talk to her as it has been over 2 weeks. I miss her. I miss our chats! Not much else is new. I hope that Grandpa will be careful when it is time for him to go home tonight as he is working. I know I usually chat with him on Sunday nights but I am sure that once he is home he will be shoveling & snow blowing so I doubt that I will chat with him. Maybe tomorrow I will catch up with him & Debbie. That's all the updates I have for you at this time. Maybe more during the week. I do have your daily prayer for the day. Here it is: February 12~ He has pity on the weak & the needy & saves the lives of the needy. Mighty Lord & Savior, I love you for your compassion. Many times in my life I have cried out to you in great need of one kind or another & you have responded. I don't know why you would care about my needs, but you do. Now I ask that you would open my heart to reach out to others around me. Make me sensitive to their needs. Help me find creative ways to meet their needs. Give me courage to cross boundaries if necessary. Most of all, give me your heart to extend your love to others. The problem with climbing the ladder of success is that we keep looking up, envying those above us, when we should be reaching down to help those below. Amen.
Mom has another couple song lyrics that are near & dear to me. I think of you on both of them..... If I had only known, I 'd never hear your voice again: I'd memorize each thing you ever said. And on those lonely nights, I could think of them once more, keep your words alive inside my head. If I had only known, I 'd never hear your voice again. Oh Tyler this is so true... June 19, 2013 will forever be inside my head. Our last conversation, what you said & what it was all about. The very last thing you said to me was " I love you, Mom. " I wouldn't have it any other way for that. God knows & so do you just how much I miss you. I miss you like crazy. The pain never stops. I try my hardest but it never goes away.
Here is the other lyric that comes to Mom ..... Looking back on the memory of, the dance we shared beneath the stars above. For a moment all the world was right, how could I have known you'd ever say goodbye. And now I'm glad I didn't know, the way it all would end, the way it all would go. Our lives are better left to chance, I could have missed the pain, but I'd of had to miss the dance. Again....so true for Mom. I wish that you didn't have to go through all that you did when you were here in the physical world, Ty but the life that you had & the one we shared... if I could I would do it all over again. You were my world, my everything. I love you so much. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live within my heart, mind, body & soul.
Mom is hoping that you will have a wonderful night. I know you will be having fun while I sleep tonight. Come visit Mom & be with me. Thanks pumpkin. Hope that you get to do all the things you need & want to do. I will whisper to you later this evening so be listening for my voice. I will smile & I hope you do too.
I have to get going now so I can prep dinner for the night & get things ready for the pups. I will write to you again tomorrow. Until then....sweet dreams & good night my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is writing to you right now because we are getting another snow storm & boy is it ever coming down. Mark & Mom just got home & I white-knuckled it the whole way up our hill. It was so terrible & wasn't plow at all so we " fish tailed " it the whole way up. Mark did a good job as he knew Mom was freaking out. I guess we could see another foot of snow or more between now & tomorrow & then another storm is hitting us the middle of the week again. I just got off the phone with Meme. She was saying that they were getting hit hard too with the snow. She has been out a couple times shoveling & will have to go back out again soon. These last 2 storms are dumping 2 -4" of snow per hour. These are the type of storms I remember as a little girl. Great memories but I am all set with seeing it all...lol. I guess Meme is pretty upset with Bob right now. Not sure why though as she couldn't discuss it but she is not happy at all. Hope everything works out. Poor Bob though as you know just as well as I do that is not a good thing....lol. I know you are watching over them & all of us. Thank you so much for that.
Mom is feeling better than yesterday but still not up to my " normal " just yet. I think in another couple days I will be though. Keep being with Momma if you can & keep helping me out. I sure still need it & you. I always will, Ty! If Aunt Beck is reading this...please keep helping me as well or if you are just seeing this for the 1st time... I could really use some healing work. Thank you. Aunt Beck is still is South America for another couple weeks. I bet she will be glad that she missed all the snow storms that she did but will not be smiling to be coming home to it all. I can't wait to talk to her as it has been over 2 weeks. I miss her. I miss our chats! Not much else is new. I hope that Grandpa will be careful when it is time for him to go home tonight as he is working. I know I usually chat with him on Sunday nights but I am sure that once he is home he will be shoveling & snow blowing so I doubt that I will chat with him. Maybe tomorrow I will catch up with him & Debbie. That's all the updates I have for you at this time. Maybe more during the week. I do have your daily prayer for the day. Here it is: February 12~ He has pity on the weak & the needy & saves the lives of the needy. Mighty Lord & Savior, I love you for your compassion. Many times in my life I have cried out to you in great need of one kind or another & you have responded. I don't know why you would care about my needs, but you do. Now I ask that you would open my heart to reach out to others around me. Make me sensitive to their needs. Help me find creative ways to meet their needs. Give me courage to cross boundaries if necessary. Most of all, give me your heart to extend your love to others. The problem with climbing the ladder of success is that we keep looking up, envying those above us, when we should be reaching down to help those below. Amen.
Mom has another couple song lyrics that are near & dear to me. I think of you on both of them..... If I had only known, I 'd never hear your voice again: I'd memorize each thing you ever said. And on those lonely nights, I could think of them once more, keep your words alive inside my head. If I had only known, I 'd never hear your voice again. Oh Tyler this is so true... June 19, 2013 will forever be inside my head. Our last conversation, what you said & what it was all about. The very last thing you said to me was " I love you, Mom. " I wouldn't have it any other way for that. God knows & so do you just how much I miss you. I miss you like crazy. The pain never stops. I try my hardest but it never goes away.
Here is the other lyric that comes to Mom ..... Looking back on the memory of, the dance we shared beneath the stars above. For a moment all the world was right, how could I have known you'd ever say goodbye. And now I'm glad I didn't know, the way it all would end, the way it all would go. Our lives are better left to chance, I could have missed the pain, but I'd of had to miss the dance. Again....so true for Mom. I wish that you didn't have to go through all that you did when you were here in the physical world, Ty but the life that you had & the one we shared... if I could I would do it all over again. You were my world, my everything. I love you so much. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live within my heart, mind, body & soul.
Mom is hoping that you will have a wonderful night. I know you will be having fun while I sleep tonight. Come visit Mom & be with me. Thanks pumpkin. Hope that you get to do all the things you need & want to do. I will whisper to you later this evening so be listening for my voice. I will smile & I hope you do too.
I have to get going now so I can prep dinner for the night & get things ready for the pups. I will write to you again tomorrow. Until then....sweet dreams & good night my sweet precious son.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, February 11, 2017
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