Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is still feeling like poop. I am actually laying low today as I don't have class & I am relaxing in bed. I did get up to take a shower but came right back to bed. I decided to write to you now so that just in case I nap later my letter to you will be all done. Ozzy is laying next to Mom. It is so sweet. He is just all curled up in a ball like Snickers used to do. The weather is terrible today. It started out just overcast & cloudy but within minutes it was sleeting & snowing sideways. It appears to not be doing anything right now but it will start again later. I guess we are suppose to get some freezing rain overnight & rain tomorrow when then it will switch over to snow on Thursday. Guess we are suppose to get around a foot & then more over the weekend. The joys of the winter months in New England....you remember those times, don't you? It was always tough for you in the winter because of the cold but you never complained about any of it. You just went with it all. I admired you for that. I admired you for so many things. I know I told you all the time that I did but I don't think Mom said it enough. You always gave Mom strength when I didn't think I had it in me & I know I gave you the strength as well. We made a great team...you & I. I miss our team. I miss you so much. I miss everything...our talks, our laughing, our playing games & mini golf, your advice to me, Mom taking care of you, you helping Mom with cooking or baking or whatever, I miss it so much. Mom's heart hurts all the time. I am trying really hard to move forward so you don't see & feel that sadness. Baby steps still but I know some day I will get there...just not anytime soon I am afraid. 
 Mom chatted with Meme & Debbie on line today. Grandpa & Debbie are fine. Meme told me that Bob lost his balance & fell this morning. He bumped into something & hit his head on one of the bureaus. That is terrible. I hope he is doing ok & this is not all starting up again for him. Meme said he is forgetting things again as well. Please be with him, Tyler. They could use the help. Thank you my sweet precious son. Please be with Mom too. I need your help as well to help me get better & get back to being " me. " Thank you. Not much else to tell you about updates though as there aren't any. Maybe later in the week though.
 Here are the daily prayers that I need to catch up on for you. February 6~ Make a joyful noise to God, all the earth; sing the glory of his name; give to him glorious praise. A careening car, a passing train, a whining child. A clap of thunder, the 1st splats of rain on the roof, the flap of windshield wipers. A cat's purr, a faucet's drip, a refrigerator's hum. My cell phone ringing, the microwave beeping, the alarm clock waking me. Lord, you have created a world full of noise & our machines have made it even noisier. These sounds can alert me & annoy me, scare me & soothe me. But what if all these noises are part of a music I don't understand yet? Could they all be parts of a symphony of praise for the Creator? You made electrons & sound waves & eardrums & voice boxes & now they all celebrate your creativity. Let my voice join the chorus, Lord! If you can sing, sing. If you can't carry a tune, let Spirit carry it for you. We don't need to make symphony to the Lord, just a joyful noise. Amen.
 February 7~ I will exult & rejoice in your steadfast love, because you have seen my affliction; you have taken heed of my adversities. My Lord, sometimes I feel all alone, as if no one really knows what I'm going through or no one cares. Yes, there are people in my life & some of them treat me nicely but there are times when even their kindness aren't enough. I feel isolated, abandoned, up against overwhelming obstacles with little or no support. But a psalm like this one gets me grounded again. You have seen my affliction, you understand my adversity. In your divine knowledge, you know exactly what's going on & you promise me your steadfast love. Even before anything changes, it's a comfort to know that you know. It's a blessing to sense your presence beside me. And now I ask for your strength to overcome any obstacle. Of all the great things God does for us, one of the greatest is that he sees us in our need. Amen.
 Well Mom is all caught up once again. I don't have quotes for you & I know I have so many to make up for. Mom just wanted to make sure you had a letter today. I hope that your night will be all that you need & want it to be. Make sure to come be with Mom tonight & visit me in my dreams. Have fun as well. I will look to the sky tonight & whisper to you as I always do. I know I won't see anything shining bright in the sky but I know you will be there shining for someone who needs it more than Mom. Remember.... you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live within my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you like crazy & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Good night & sweet dreams later tonight. Until tomorrow.... 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!