Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is writing to you right now because we are getting another snow storm & boy is it ever coming down. Mark & Mom just got home & I white-knuckled it the whole way up our hill. It was so terrible & wasn't plow at all so we " fish tailed " it the whole way up. Mark did a good job as he knew Mom was freaking out. I guess we could see another foot of snow or more between now & tomorrow & then another storm is hitting us the middle of the week again. I just got off the phone with Meme. She was saying that they were getting hit hard too with the snow. She has been out a couple times shoveling & will have to go back out again soon. These last 2 storms are dumping 2 -4" of snow per hour. These are the type of storms I remember as a little girl. Great memories but I am all set with seeing it all...lol. I guess Meme is pretty upset with Bob right now. Not sure why though as she couldn't discuss it but she is not happy at all. Hope everything works out. Poor Bob though as you know just as well as I do that is not a good thing....lol. I know you are watching over them & all of us. Thank you so much for that.
 Mom is feeling better than yesterday but still not up to my " normal " just yet. I think in another couple days I will be though. Keep being with Momma if you can & keep helping me out. I sure still need it & you. I always will, Ty! If Aunt Beck is reading this...please keep helping me as well or if you are just seeing this for the 1st time... I could really use some healing work. Thank you. Aunt Beck is still is South America for another couple weeks. I bet she will be glad that she missed all the snow storms that she did but will not be smiling to be coming home to it all. I can't wait to talk to her as it has been over 2 weeks. I miss her. I miss our chats! Not much else is new. I hope that Grandpa will be careful when it is time for him to go home tonight as he is working. I know I usually chat with him on Sunday nights but I am sure that once he is home he will be shoveling & snow blowing so I doubt that I will chat with him. Maybe tomorrow I will catch up with him & Debbie. That's all the updates I have for you at this time. Maybe more during the week. I do have your daily prayer for the day. Here it is: February 12~ He has pity on the weak & the needy & saves the lives of the needy. Mighty Lord & Savior, I love you for your compassion. Many times in my life I have cried out to you in great need of one kind or another & you have responded. I don't know why you would care about my needs, but you do. Now I ask that you would open my heart to reach out to others around me. Make me sensitive to their needs. Help me find creative ways to meet their needs. Give me courage to cross boundaries if necessary. Most of all, give me your heart to extend your love to others. The problem with climbing the ladder of success is that we keep looking up, envying those above us, when we should be reaching down to help those below. Amen.
 Mom has another couple song lyrics that are near & dear to me. I think of you on both of them..... If I had only known, I 'd never hear your voice again: I'd memorize each thing you ever said. And on those lonely nights, I could think of them once more, keep your words alive inside my head. If I had only known, I 'd never hear your voice again. Oh Tyler this is so true... June 19, 2013 will forever be inside my head. Our last conversation, what you said & what it was all about. The very last thing you said to me was " I love you, Mom. " I wouldn't have it any other way for that. God knows & so do you just how much I miss you. I miss you like crazy. The pain never stops. I try my hardest but it never goes away. 
 Here is the other lyric that comes to Mom ..... Looking back on the memory of, the dance we shared beneath the stars above. For a moment all the world was right, how could I have known you'd ever say goodbye. And now I'm glad I didn't know, the way it all would end, the way it all would go. Our lives are better left to chance, I could have missed the pain, but I'd of had to miss the dance. Again....so true for Mom. I wish that you didn't have to go through all that you did when you were here in the physical world, Ty but the life that you had & the one we shared... if I could I would do it all over again. You were my world, my everything. I love you so much. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live within my heart, mind, body & soul. 
 Mom is hoping that you will have a wonderful night. I know you will be having fun while I sleep tonight. Come visit Mom & be with me. Thanks pumpkin. Hope that you get to do all the things you need & want to do. I will whisper to you later this evening so be listening for my voice. I will smile & I hope you do too. 
 I have to get going now so I can prep dinner for the night & get things ready for the pups. I will write to you again tomorrow. Until then....sweet dreams & good night my sweet precious son. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!