Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Mom is doing ok. It has been quite busy. I did a lot of things around the apartment today & took the pups for a nice walk. The sun was shining & the skies were blue today. The snow is melting finally & that is always nice to see. The temps this week are going to be nice. Wednesday & Thursday it will be in the 60's. Rare for this time of year but I will take it! Mom saw the stars shining in the sky again last night. I whispered to you when I saw them. Hope you heard my voice! I gave you a smile as well so hope you saw that too. I will do it again tonight when I look to the sky. Hope I see them shining brightly for the 3rd night in a row. The sun is just setting now. It is pretty. Lots of blues with orange & peach in it. Sunsets & sunrises when I see those just remind me of you. They still make me think that is your sign to me while painting it in the sky. That very thought makes me smile so big. We are still seeing the same things even though we are not physically near each other. Be listening out for my voice later on & smile again for me. I will close my eyes & visualize it. I will smile for you again as well. I miss you so much.... more than words can say. I love you with all my heart & soul. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Always fell it & know that you are forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. You will always be my everything, my hero & the wind beneath my wings. 
 Mom didn't speak to Grandpa last night so maybe he will call tonight. If not I will get in touch with him tomorrow. I am sure he is working a lot & is pretty busy not to mention tired. Meme is good. Aunt Beck will be home in 4 days. I guess everyone else is doing well. Please continue to watch over us all like I know you do. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom will have some updates for you soon, I hope. Here is your daily prayer for the day: February 20~ You forgave the iniquity of your people; you pardoned all their sin. I humbly bow before your throne, ashamed of things that I have done. How could you ever look at me again? My promises have come to naught. I haven't lived the way I ought. That's not a fitting way to treat a friend. I will not dare to seek your face. I plead for mercy, love & grace. Perhaps you could restore some tiny part? You lift me up & take my hand, with your words I'll never understand. And let forgiveness flower from your heart. We don't earn forgiveness. We can't. Excuses don't make us more forgivable, but less. The only way to find forgiveness is to admit we've done wrong. Amen. 
 Here is the quote that Mom found for today: " A best friend is like a 4 leaf clover: hard to find & lucky to have. " That is so true. Friends come & go but the right ones will stay with you through the years, through the good & the bad & not walk away. Mom has always had friends & have been very fortunate in that but through the years I have realized that I have more acquaintances then friends. That is ok.... it hurt at 1st but I learn that people change & we all grown apart. I do cherish the ones I still have. I love them like family. 
 Mom hopes that your evening will be filled with all the things you need to do & would like to do. Have fun while Mom is sleeping & come be with me if you can. I would love that pumpkin. Thank you. Mom needs to get going to finish cooking dinner. It was prepped about an hour ago & still needs to finish up. I did feed the pups but Princess didn't want to eat so I need to go see if I can get her to. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then..... good night & sweet dreams. I love you unconditionally. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!