Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. I am honestly still pretty tired but i did get some solid sleep last night so that helped me a bit. Mom is writing to you now because our Internet is still acting up. Not sure what is going on with it still but some times I get a good signal & other times not so much. I decided to take the time out & write while I have a half way descent connection. Sorry about the extremely short letter to you last night but Mom was indeed so tired. I was in bed at 9:15 pm last. I woke up only one time & fell right back to sleep. I woke up at 7 am. It was a very quiet evening as I had let our family know I would touch base with them tonight so that when Mark got home he could unpack his bags, relax, have dinner & then go to bed. He did just that. Meme did call me this afternoon. She was just checking in to say hello & to see how things were. She will call Mom back later tonight because her break was over. She mentioned that Bob's doctors app't did not go well. I guess he is having some really bad days lately. He doesn't want to do anything. He doesn't want to go for the walks he is suppose to do per doctors orders. Guess he lays around all day long. Mom wishes that I could do something for him to help him out but the reality of it is that he needs to try & help himself 1st before anyone else can. It is just sad. Meme still has not got the results from her x-rays that she had Monday night. Those should be coming in within the next couple days. Mark is just so worn down. His job is working him like crazy. He is up all kinds of hours around the clock & he is traveling all around as well. He isn't sleeping well & he is not eating that much. I try yet again to nicely point it out that I am concerned but we always end up in a fight because he says I nag him. Mom has decided to just stop altogether & not say anything anymore. There is no use. Mom is doing the best she can. I am lonely that is for sure & the lonelier I get the more I see myself shutting down. I don't want to talk to anyone, be around anyone, go anywhere because I am so used to be alone. You know that is not Mom at all but this is what I am slowly becoming. I can see it. I can admit it & I am just not sure what to do. Mom hasn't even studied anything in almost 2 weeks. Just don't feel like it. I know that is not the attitude to have at all but I can't help it. Maybe tomorrow I will give it a try. I am staying hydrated & eating well so no worries there! Mom makes sure to get some exercise every day as well. I know you see everything that is going on around here & I know it probably makes you very sad. I am sorry for that, Tyler. I really am. I try my best all the time though. Mom promises that I will do better at it from now on. I will get out of this dang funk & get back to being me. Just give me some time to do this. Thanks pumpkin! Not much else is going on. I haven't heard from Bean in a couple weeks. Aunt Beck is still on vacation & none of my friends ever call me. If I want to talk to them I have to be the one to call 1st & quite frankly I am done with that too. Everything is a 2- way street & Mom is tired of it being just a 1-way. 
 The weather is warm again today. The skies were blue & very sunny when I took the pups out for a walk but looks like it is clouding up. I didn't think it was going to rain but I guess maybe it will. It is kind of dark out there right now. Mom has not seen the moon in several weeks which is very strange. I see the stars every once in awhile but not often & this summer there has not been really any gorgeous sunsets at all. Guess you will have to get those brushes out soon & paint Mom a stunning one with lots of pinks, purples, oranges & yellow. I have seen only a couple here & they were beautiful. Mom will be looking out for it so hopefully I see it soon. I will whisper to you later this evening as I always do. Be sure to smile for Mom when you hear my voice. I will smile as well. I miss you more than words can say & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I have a couple daily prayers for you so here they are: 
  May God's peace mark your day in every way. May the Lord show you places in your life where you've let your guard down, let your thoughts wander, and let your peace slip away. May Jesus help you shore up your life once again. May you listen more closely to His voice and turn a deaf ear to the enemy. May you refuse thoughts and indulgences that only weaken you. Engage in all of the things that are good for your soul. Jesus loves you and He wants what's best for you. Have a peace-saturated day today!
  May you be quick to identify and let go of any lies you pick up along the way today. May you shake off any offenses that you’re tempted to cling to. May you instead, wrap yourself up in the complete love and affection of Christ. May you forgive yourself and forgive others. May you believe that God's promises are more powerful than your blunders. Embrace God's redemptive plan for your life with hope and expectancy. You’re truly, deeply loved.
 Here are a couple inspirational messages for you too: 
 " This above all: to thine own self be true. "
" We must become the change we want to see. "
 " The best way to prepare for life is to begin to live. "
 Mom really likes that inspirational book I found. I know they are very short quotes but they are powerful ones & at times makes Mom stop & think about things & how that quote is affecting me at this very moment. I have a few more before the book ends so I will finish up with that one & then figure something else out to write to you. Mom always comes up with something!
 I also am going to restart posting different pictures on here to you nightly. Some will be of other furry friends, sunsets pictures that I think are beautiful or this teddy bear named Tatty that I found. He is adorable & has sweet messages. I think you will like them all.
 Mom hopes that you have a fun night doing all kinds of things that you want to do & may need to do. Come visit Mom in my dreams tonight if you can. I sure would love that. Thank you. Please continue to watch over us all. Fly high & free. Remember that you are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. You live forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then....Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I love you more than all the stars in the sky.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!