Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Friday the 13th? It is one of your favorite days! Mom remembers that every Friday the 13th we would always watch a scary movie at night. You would love them & Mom would too, but I would have wicked nightmares that night...lol! I would tell you about them the next morning & you would just laugh at me. Gosh... I really miss those times. I miss all our times together. I miss you. I miss your smile, your face, your voice, your laugh. I miss your jokes, I miss you being angry at Mom.... I just miss EVERYTHING! This time of the year is just tough for Mom. The Holidays are around the corner. In 2 1/2 weeks it will be Halloween & then Thanksgiving, Christmas & a New Year. Mom has had a tough time with these months since I lost you. These will be the 5th set of Holidays without you & time doesn't make it easier for me. I try my best to stay busy, focused & know that you would want Mom to be happy, smile, laugh, etc... Honestly it just hurts so much.....still.....I know it always will.Mom will try to do better. Just bare with me, okay? Thanks Ty!
 The weather today is better than yesterday. It isn't as chilly outside but I am sure when the sun goes down it will be. The sky was blue & the sun was out. The evening sky should be clear enough to see the stars & moon shining bright. Mom was up early this morning & was able to get a couple pictures of the sunrise. It was pretty. The pictures do not do it justice though. Mom will download them on here tomorrow & I will post it to your letter for Saturday. The sun sets so early now that I rarely get the chance to see it setting as I am always doing something during that time. It is dark now around 6 pm & next week it will be dark by 5:30 pm. I love this time of year but hate this part. Wish it stayed light out until 9 pm year round...lol! Mom will try to sneak a peek tonight to see if there is a special painting in the sky from you! I lit a candle already & whispered to you...did you hear Mom? I will whisper to you again this evening so be prepared to smile & so will I. 
 Mom chatted with Debbie last night briefly as Grandpa was not in a good mood at all. He was upset as he had torn apart the pellet stove to clean it & he was having a hard time putting 3 little screws back. He got frustrated because he didn't have any help. That made Debbie upset as well because she was there but really couldn't do anything due to her foot. She did go to the doctors yesterday. 2 out of the 3 doctors said she fractured her right foot & the 3rd doctor said she sprained it. She is out of work until next week & goes back on Wednesday to be checked. Craziness! Mom tried to call Aunt Beck today but I got the answering machine. I left a message so when she is not busy she will call Mom back. I will call Meme over the weekend as well seeings how I haven't heard from her in a couple days. Mark & Mom are going to look at a couple apartments tomorrow morning. We are starting the search to be closer to Mark's office. After 4 years the drive is getting to him. On a good day it takes about 75 minutes to get there & on a heavy traffic night is takes about 3 hours. That is a lot of time for a commute for him. The places we are looking at are about 15-30 minutes from his office & he will be happier. Mom will update you over the weekend on what we thought of them! I think that is all I have for you as far as updates. Mom needs to be going as I just looked at the time & it is almost 5 pm & the pups need to be fed & I need to get going on prepping dinner for when Mark gets home. Before I close my letter to you for the night here are the prayers for the day:
  May God open the heavens and give you a glimpse of how far you’ve come in this battle. You’re still standing! In Christ, you’re stronger than you know. May you see with eyes of faith how much of the wall has already come down! May Jesus speak peace to your soul and strength to your heart. May you understand—on a whole new level—why God has allowed you to walk through this trial. He has something for you here…treasures in the darkness that will serve you well in the days ahead. Don’t lose hope. Don’t let go of His promises. Circumstances are changing because of your faith. You are part of the conquering army of saints in the world today!
  May Jesus help you guard your heart with all diligence. May you instantly discern the source of your thoughts and emotions so you’ll know what to uproot and what to nurture. May you rightly divide truth from lie, life from death, and love from selfishness. May you become a fierce warrior with your shield and sword and refuse to give the enemy even an inch of your land or even a minute of your day. It is FOR freedom that Christ has set you free! May you begin to see fresh life spring up from within your soul as you tend more diligently to the issues of your heart. May your wise, discerning heart find deep rest this weekend.
 Here is a couple inspirational says for you as well: " There are no ordinary moments. Every one of them is extraordinary. Make the most of them."
 " And if today, all you did was hold yourself together, I am proud of you. "
 Mom wants you to know that you are my shining star, my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever will be living inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I love you with all that I have my sweet precious son. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. Mom will be back tomorrow night so until then..... have fun tonight while I sleep. Come visit Mom if you can. Good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!