Thursday, November 30, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Good morning my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday? Mom has been up for the last 3 hours. Early morning but so far I have accomplished a few things so I am happy with that! I decided to write to you now because I am going to take all my day time today & study & work on my exam. I am hoping that I get a lot done with it. wish me luck! Mom has already gotten ready, ate breakfast & took the pups for their morning walk. It is only 11:11 am. I think I am doing pretty good with that. Mark is working, pups are sleeping so now is the time that I get this letter written & start my day.
Last night was quiet for the most part. Mom did get the chance to chat with Grandpa & Debbie for a little bit & I also spoke to Meme. she was telling me that Bob is back to really shaking again where he can't hold a fork, plate, etc.... folks are thinking he may have an early onset to Parkinson's. When Mom heard that I became so sad real fast. I really hope not for his sake. I am hoping that doctors may be able to control it with a different type of medicine. Please help him if you can, Tyler. Thank you! everyone else is doing pretty good. Grandpa can go back to work today & Debbie is sounding & feeling a lot better then she did so that is good news. Mom had the chance to chat with a couple friends as well yesterday... Christina & Bonnie. That was really nice. I talk to Christina about every other week & I haven't chatted with Bonnie in a while. She is still in Oklahoma for the time being. In a few months she will have another great grandson. That will be an exciting time for all there. Other than that not much is going on. We have all determined that we will be having Christmas at Meme's again this year but this time we will be doing a breakfast instead of dinner because Debbie has to work in the afternoon. That is fine with me. It will break the day up & it won't be so rushed or extremely busy for everyone. Now Meme & Mom just has to come up with a menu for food & we are all set! Mark & Mom will be in NH for 4 days so that will be nice. Mom is hoping the weather is good so we don't run into any problems. That will be the only visit there for a few months or at least until winter is over. It will be a long 3 months not seeing anyone but Mark & Mom are really going to try & save money this year. We would like to start saving for a house but also we would like to go visit his family in Kentucky, Ohio & at the end of next year, around this time we are looking to finally go to Paris. Mom's dream come true! Mom is going to go get her passport & start taking a french class! I remember a little bit of what I learned in school but Mark is also going to be taking it. It will be exciting for us! Many things to look forward to in 2018! Mom will keep you updated on how things are going. That is all I got for today but here are a couple sayings:You are the painter of your own mood. Your days are only as grey as you allow them to be.
Your mind will always believe everything you tell it. Feed it hope. Feed it truth. Feed it with love.
It's that heart of gold & stardust soul that makes you beautiful!
Mom will post the prayers for the day at the bottom of this letter to you. I hope that tonight your evening will be filled with everything that you need & want it to be. May you get the time to be with Mom during the night & also get to visit me in my dreams. Keep those signs coming my sweet precious son! Mom will whisper to you as I always do every night so smile when you hear me & I will smile to you as well. I miss 7 love you more than words can say. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter so until then..... Good night & sweet dreams. Mom has to get going so that I can study. You are my bright shining star!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. here are the prayers:
When the enemy tries to bait you into discouragement, may you instead take your courageous stand in Christ Jesus. When the devil tries to seduce you into despair, may you instead walk through the door of hope God has provided for you. When you're tempted to walk down jealousy's path, may you instead embrace your own beautiful purpose and take the high road God has set before you. There's a best place for your feet today. Choose life today!
May Jesus Himself lift you up and make you strong. May He heal those hidden areas that surface time and time again. May He bring wholeness and health to your mind, body, and spirit. May He strengthen you and fill you with faith so you'll dare to take the risks He puts before you. May you take time in His presence so you'll remember how strong and mighty He is. And may your days be filled with sacred moments that remind you just how precious you are to Him! You are so dear to His heart. Have a blessed night tonight!
Good morning my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday? Mom has been up for the last 3 hours. Early morning but so far I have accomplished a few things so I am happy with that! I decided to write to you now because I am going to take all my day time today & study & work on my exam. I am hoping that I get a lot done with it. wish me luck! Mom has already gotten ready, ate breakfast & took the pups for their morning walk. It is only 11:11 am. I think I am doing pretty good with that. Mark is working, pups are sleeping so now is the time that I get this letter written & start my day.
Last night was quiet for the most part. Mom did get the chance to chat with Grandpa & Debbie for a little bit & I also spoke to Meme. she was telling me that Bob is back to really shaking again where he can't hold a fork, plate, etc.... folks are thinking he may have an early onset to Parkinson's. When Mom heard that I became so sad real fast. I really hope not for his sake. I am hoping that doctors may be able to control it with a different type of medicine. Please help him if you can, Tyler. Thank you! everyone else is doing pretty good. Grandpa can go back to work today & Debbie is sounding & feeling a lot better then she did so that is good news. Mom had the chance to chat with a couple friends as well yesterday... Christina & Bonnie. That was really nice. I talk to Christina about every other week & I haven't chatted with Bonnie in a while. She is still in Oklahoma for the time being. In a few months she will have another great grandson. That will be an exciting time for all there. Other than that not much is going on. We have all determined that we will be having Christmas at Meme's again this year but this time we will be doing a breakfast instead of dinner because Debbie has to work in the afternoon. That is fine with me. It will break the day up & it won't be so rushed or extremely busy for everyone. Now Meme & Mom just has to come up with a menu for food & we are all set! Mark & Mom will be in NH for 4 days so that will be nice. Mom is hoping the weather is good so we don't run into any problems. That will be the only visit there for a few months or at least until winter is over. It will be a long 3 months not seeing anyone but Mark & Mom are really going to try & save money this year. We would like to start saving for a house but also we would like to go visit his family in Kentucky, Ohio & at the end of next year, around this time we are looking to finally go to Paris. Mom's dream come true! Mom is going to go get her passport & start taking a french class! I remember a little bit of what I learned in school but Mark is also going to be taking it. It will be exciting for us! Many things to look forward to in 2018! Mom will keep you updated on how things are going. That is all I got for today but here are a couple sayings:You are the painter of your own mood. Your days are only as grey as you allow them to be.
Your mind will always believe everything you tell it. Feed it hope. Feed it truth. Feed it with love.
It's that heart of gold & stardust soul that makes you beautiful!
Mom will post the prayers for the day at the bottom of this letter to you. I hope that tonight your evening will be filled with everything that you need & want it to be. May you get the time to be with Mom during the night & also get to visit me in my dreams. Keep those signs coming my sweet precious son! Mom will whisper to you as I always do every night so smile when you hear me & I will smile to you as well. I miss 7 love you more than words can say. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter so until then..... Good night & sweet dreams. Mom has to get going so that I can study. You are my bright shining star!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. here are the prayers:
When the enemy tries to bait you into discouragement, may you instead take your courageous stand in Christ Jesus. When the devil tries to seduce you into despair, may you instead walk through the door of hope God has provided for you. When you're tempted to walk down jealousy's path, may you instead embrace your own beautiful purpose and take the high road God has set before you. There's a best place for your feet today. Choose life today!
May Jesus Himself lift you up and make you strong. May He heal those hidden areas that surface time and time again. May He bring wholeness and health to your mind, body, and spirit. May He strengthen you and fill you with faith so you'll dare to take the risks He puts before you. May you take time in His presence so you'll remember how strong and mighty He is. And may your days be filled with sacred moments that remind you just how precious you are to Him! You are so dear to His heart. Have a blessed night tonight!
Dear friend, I hope all is well with you and that you are as healthy in body as you are strong in spirit (3 John 1:2 NIV).
P.S.S. Today is the last day for the Fall pictures. Hope you have enjoyed them as much as Mom has posting them for you. Today I thought it would be appropriate to post a Fall pic of the Eiffel Tower seeings how I was talking to you about it! Tomorrow is December 1st & the Holiday pics start!
P.S.S. Today is the last day for the Fall pictures. Hope you have enjoyed them as much as Mom has posting them for you. Today I thought it would be appropriate to post a Fall pic of the Eiffel Tower seeings how I was talking to you about it! Tomorrow is December 1st & the Holiday pics start!
Wednesday, November 29, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday later afternoon? Mom is doing okay but honestly I am running way behind schedule. It is already 3:30 pm & Mom is just getting around to turning on her computer so that I could write your letter. My day has consisted of putting things together for an assistants drive that my complex is holding. For the next week the main office will be collecting things for the less fortunate & the homeless. It is a toiletry drive. That means they are collecting things such as soap, shampoo, conditioner, lotion, shaving cream, razors, etc... Mom went through our apartment & gathered up so much stuff that I had purchased & have never used & neither has Mark. Lots of travel size stuff which will be great. Of course with finding all that stuff Mom naturally had to clean. That took me about 3 hours to do that & put everything else back. After I was done all that I went to the main office & gave it to them. They were so thankful for all of it. I think Mom & Mark gave 10 bars of soap, 30 bottles of lotion, 9 bottles of conditioner, 10 bottles of shampoo & a few other things as well. we will be going this weekend to pick up some more things such as the shaving cream, razors, baby wipes, etc.... Mom enjoys doing things like this. It makes my heart smile knowing that we are helping others out in need. Not many people know this & I know that you didn't as well because you were so small & it was during the time when you first got sick, Mom & Dad stayed with you so much during the 1st 2 weeks & we were never home. We stayed at the hospital right with you. During that time, our landlord didn't really care. She just wanted her money for rent. She evicted us. Mom & Dad were homeless. Meme & Aunt Beck & Grandpa Ed packed everything up for us & put it in storage. We had no where to call home. We were thankful for David's House. They took us in. We lived there for 7 months. Those sure were some tough times for us but we never showed it. After some help, Mom contacted her insurance company about my settlement from the car accident that I was in. After reading what we went through, they deemed it a hardship & released my money. I was so thankful. That is when Mom bought the house in Charlestown. That is the only place that you would really remember & call home! I think that is why Mom does the things that she does. I love to help others when I can. I know first hand what it is like to have nothing, what tough times are really like. Mom is now blessed in ways that I never could imagine for myself & Mark. I thank God every day for the gifts that I have. I know you are proud of me for doing all that I do. I don't ever hesitate either. I just do it. It makes me feel good inside. This is something Mom will never stop doing.
The rest of my day was pretty much going to get the mail, getting the packages from the office & then having to clean up all that mess. I ended up vacuuming the apartment & doing the trash. Phones have been quiet all day long. Mark is working tonight so my evening will consist of having dinner & then watching a movie or 2 before going to bed. I need to get up early so that I can get to my studies as I did not do anything today. Mom will whisper to you as I always do tonight so smile when you hear my voice & I will smile back to you as well. Mom is hoping that your evening will be everything you need & want it to be. Have some fun while I sleep tonight & if you can come visit Mom in my dreams. I love that when you do. Always know you are loved & missed so much my sweet precious son. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are in my heart, mind, body & soul forever. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Mom is hoping to see the moon again this evening. I have seen it the last two nights & I have whispered to you. I hope you heard Mom. I will do it again tonight if I see it!
Not much for updates. Mom didn't talk to anyone at all last night but today I was able to chat with Meme for a couple minutes on her break. I will try to call Grandpa tonight to check in & do some more calls tomorrow as well. Here are a couple sayings for you for the day:
Remember the three wise monkeys? See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil. That means: See no negativity, hear no negativity, speak no negativity. Those three monkeys were definitely wise!
Gratitude is vitamin for the soul.
Before Mom closes your letter for the night I will write the daily prayers to you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter so until then... good night & sweet dreams my bright shining star! I love you. Here are your prayers:
May you take a new grip with your tired hands and mark out a straight path for your feet. God has given you promises to hang onto and enough light for the road in front of you. Someone once said, ‘The devil drives but the Shepherd leads.’ Tell your soul that the devil will not drive you off your promise, off your property, or off your sense of purpose. In fact, the Lord Himself fights for you! So take your stand, hold your ground, and refuse to be bullied by your fears. Jesus won the war so you can win this battle. You are mighty in God, my friend!
May PEACE settle into your soul before your answer comes. May JOY rise up within you at a moment you least expect it. May PROVISION come out of nowhere and remind you that God has your back and HE goes before you. May you defy the odds and come back from the trials you’ve endured. May you thrive right here, in the place God has you. And may your life be a living-breathing testimony of God’s grace and goodness, His kindness, and His love. You matter so very much to Him. Have a blessed night.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday later afternoon? Mom is doing okay but honestly I am running way behind schedule. It is already 3:30 pm & Mom is just getting around to turning on her computer so that I could write your letter. My day has consisted of putting things together for an assistants drive that my complex is holding. For the next week the main office will be collecting things for the less fortunate & the homeless. It is a toiletry drive. That means they are collecting things such as soap, shampoo, conditioner, lotion, shaving cream, razors, etc... Mom went through our apartment & gathered up so much stuff that I had purchased & have never used & neither has Mark. Lots of travel size stuff which will be great. Of course with finding all that stuff Mom naturally had to clean. That took me about 3 hours to do that & put everything else back. After I was done all that I went to the main office & gave it to them. They were so thankful for all of it. I think Mom & Mark gave 10 bars of soap, 30 bottles of lotion, 9 bottles of conditioner, 10 bottles of shampoo & a few other things as well. we will be going this weekend to pick up some more things such as the shaving cream, razors, baby wipes, etc.... Mom enjoys doing things like this. It makes my heart smile knowing that we are helping others out in need. Not many people know this & I know that you didn't as well because you were so small & it was during the time when you first got sick, Mom & Dad stayed with you so much during the 1st 2 weeks & we were never home. We stayed at the hospital right with you. During that time, our landlord didn't really care. She just wanted her money for rent. She evicted us. Mom & Dad were homeless. Meme & Aunt Beck & Grandpa Ed packed everything up for us & put it in storage. We had no where to call home. We were thankful for David's House. They took us in. We lived there for 7 months. Those sure were some tough times for us but we never showed it. After some help, Mom contacted her insurance company about my settlement from the car accident that I was in. After reading what we went through, they deemed it a hardship & released my money. I was so thankful. That is when Mom bought the house in Charlestown. That is the only place that you would really remember & call home! I think that is why Mom does the things that she does. I love to help others when I can. I know first hand what it is like to have nothing, what tough times are really like. Mom is now blessed in ways that I never could imagine for myself & Mark. I thank God every day for the gifts that I have. I know you are proud of me for doing all that I do. I don't ever hesitate either. I just do it. It makes me feel good inside. This is something Mom will never stop doing.
The rest of my day was pretty much going to get the mail, getting the packages from the office & then having to clean up all that mess. I ended up vacuuming the apartment & doing the trash. Phones have been quiet all day long. Mark is working tonight so my evening will consist of having dinner & then watching a movie or 2 before going to bed. I need to get up early so that I can get to my studies as I did not do anything today. Mom will whisper to you as I always do tonight so smile when you hear my voice & I will smile back to you as well. Mom is hoping that your evening will be everything you need & want it to be. Have some fun while I sleep tonight & if you can come visit Mom in my dreams. I love that when you do. Always know you are loved & missed so much my sweet precious son. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are in my heart, mind, body & soul forever. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Mom is hoping to see the moon again this evening. I have seen it the last two nights & I have whispered to you. I hope you heard Mom. I will do it again tonight if I see it!
Not much for updates. Mom didn't talk to anyone at all last night but today I was able to chat with Meme for a couple minutes on her break. I will try to call Grandpa tonight to check in & do some more calls tomorrow as well. Here are a couple sayings for you for the day:
Remember the three wise monkeys? See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil. That means: See no negativity, hear no negativity, speak no negativity. Those three monkeys were definitely wise!
Gratitude is vitamin for the soul.
Before Mom closes your letter for the night I will write the daily prayers to you. I will be back tomorrow with another letter so until then... good night & sweet dreams my bright shining star! I love you. Here are your prayers:
May you take a new grip with your tired hands and mark out a straight path for your feet. God has given you promises to hang onto and enough light for the road in front of you. Someone once said, ‘The devil drives but the Shepherd leads.’ Tell your soul that the devil will not drive you off your promise, off your property, or off your sense of purpose. In fact, the Lord Himself fights for you! So take your stand, hold your ground, and refuse to be bullied by your fears. Jesus won the war so you can win this battle. You are mighty in God, my friend!
May PEACE settle into your soul before your answer comes. May JOY rise up within you at a moment you least expect it. May PROVISION come out of nowhere and remind you that God has your back and HE goes before you. May you defy the odds and come back from the trials you’ve endured. May you thrive right here, in the place God has you. And may your life be a living-breathing testimony of God’s grace and goodness, His kindness, and His love. You matter so very much to Him. Have a blessed night.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, November 28, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing fine. I wanted to write to you before I started my studies for the day again. This morning Mom was up early & did the normal routine things then I went & laid back down for a bit. I got up, made breakfast & before I got ready.... Mark tried helping me with my school work. I was so frustrated which got him frustrated that he told me to take a break. Once I did that, I decided to get ready & Mom moved a few things around in the apartment. After all that was done I needed to vacuum my mess up & then I took the pups for a walk. The weather was cold & I didn't want to be out long but that didn't happen. Mom forgot her keys to the building & the code didn't work for me to get in. Thank God that one of the maintenance guys were driving by & he helped me out. That was a mess. I finally got inside, grabbed my water & a snack & now I am writing to you. It is already 2 pm so Mom doesn't have a lot of time to do her work but I will try again. I have to. I will not get defeated in this.
Last night was a really really laid back time for Mark & Mom & it was really nice. we jumped into bed at 8 pm & we both played on our phones ( games ) until about 8:30 pm when Grandpa called to say hi. We chatted with him until 9 pm & then instead of putting the TV on we decided to just finish playing our games before going to bed. It was so peaceful & quiet as well. Both pups were fast asleep on the bed & everyone was nice & content. We shut the lights off at 10 pm & decided to call it a night so we could get some sleep. Maybe tonight will be the same way. I do have a couple shows that I would like to watch though but it will be quiet & peaceful again. Mom will touch base with everyone tomorrow during the day & evening so I will have more updates for you then. For now here is the daily prayers for the day:
May you recapture the wonder and the awe of this season. YOU are someone Jesus loves, profoundly so. You are someone He sings over, delights in, and plans for. May you marvel that He came to earth to save you, restore you, and use you in ways that are beyond what you’ve ever imagined. God intends to restore the years the enemy has stolen. He intends to show Himself strong right in the midst of your current battle. Things won’t always be this hard. One day, He’ll make all things new! Until then, take time to notice Him in the small sacred spaces of life. He’s there. He invites you. May a heaven-breathed wonder fill your lungs today.
May you step back tonight and give time and space to consider this truth: No circumstance, no enemy, no opposition can keep you from God's best purpose for you! Your unbelief is the only roadblock you have to deal with. God can do in a moment what takes us years to accomplish. Consider afresh what impossible things Jesus wants to do in and through you. Kneel, if you can. Open your hands. Look past your frustrations and consider His promises. Tonight, may Jesus find faith and expectancy in your heart. And may He download fresh insights while you sleep. Blessings on your night tonight!
Here is a couple sayings for the day as well:
" If you can't do anything about it then let it go. Don't be a prisoner to things you can't change. "
" No one is you & that is your super power! "
Both of these sayings are short & sweet but powerful. Mom is really learning both of these things & I am starting to feel better about it all.
Well, Tyler....Mom needs to get going so that I can do some of my work now. I hope later tonight you will have a peaceful evening doing the things you need to get done & things you may want to do. Come visit Mom tonight in my dreams while I sleep if you can. Thank you. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for my voice & smile that smile I miss so much. Mom will smile back to you. Always know that I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are missed so much by Mom & our family & friends. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son.
always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing fine. I wanted to write to you before I started my studies for the day again. This morning Mom was up early & did the normal routine things then I went & laid back down for a bit. I got up, made breakfast & before I got ready.... Mark tried helping me with my school work. I was so frustrated which got him frustrated that he told me to take a break. Once I did that, I decided to get ready & Mom moved a few things around in the apartment. After all that was done I needed to vacuum my mess up & then I took the pups for a walk. The weather was cold & I didn't want to be out long but that didn't happen. Mom forgot her keys to the building & the code didn't work for me to get in. Thank God that one of the maintenance guys were driving by & he helped me out. That was a mess. I finally got inside, grabbed my water & a snack & now I am writing to you. It is already 2 pm so Mom doesn't have a lot of time to do her work but I will try again. I have to. I will not get defeated in this.
Last night was a really really laid back time for Mark & Mom & it was really nice. we jumped into bed at 8 pm & we both played on our phones ( games ) until about 8:30 pm when Grandpa called to say hi. We chatted with him until 9 pm & then instead of putting the TV on we decided to just finish playing our games before going to bed. It was so peaceful & quiet as well. Both pups were fast asleep on the bed & everyone was nice & content. We shut the lights off at 10 pm & decided to call it a night so we could get some sleep. Maybe tonight will be the same way. I do have a couple shows that I would like to watch though but it will be quiet & peaceful again. Mom will touch base with everyone tomorrow during the day & evening so I will have more updates for you then. For now here is the daily prayers for the day:
May you recapture the wonder and the awe of this season. YOU are someone Jesus loves, profoundly so. You are someone He sings over, delights in, and plans for. May you marvel that He came to earth to save you, restore you, and use you in ways that are beyond what you’ve ever imagined. God intends to restore the years the enemy has stolen. He intends to show Himself strong right in the midst of your current battle. Things won’t always be this hard. One day, He’ll make all things new! Until then, take time to notice Him in the small sacred spaces of life. He’s there. He invites you. May a heaven-breathed wonder fill your lungs today.
May you step back tonight and give time and space to consider this truth: No circumstance, no enemy, no opposition can keep you from God's best purpose for you! Your unbelief is the only roadblock you have to deal with. God can do in a moment what takes us years to accomplish. Consider afresh what impossible things Jesus wants to do in and through you. Kneel, if you can. Open your hands. Look past your frustrations and consider His promises. Tonight, may Jesus find faith and expectancy in your heart. And may He download fresh insights while you sleep. Blessings on your night tonight!
Here is a couple sayings for the day as well:
" If you can't do anything about it then let it go. Don't be a prisoner to things you can't change. "
" No one is you & that is your super power! "
Both of these sayings are short & sweet but powerful. Mom is really learning both of these things & I am starting to feel better about it all.
Well, Tyler....Mom needs to get going so that I can do some of my work now. I hope later tonight you will have a peaceful evening doing the things you need to get done & things you may want to do. Come visit Mom tonight in my dreams while I sleep if you can. Thank you. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for my voice & smile that smile I miss so much. Mom will smile back to you. Always know that I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are missed so much by Mom & our family & friends. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son.
always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, November 27, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Mom has had a pretty good day so far. It really has flown by that is for sure. It is already going on 4 pm & the sun will be setting in a matter of minutes. Mom wanted to write to you before I get started on the night routine stuff. Mom was up early this morning feeding the pups & getting things ready for the day. I got ready, took the pups for a walk & then made breakfast. This afternoon was a pretty mellow one. Mom was able to do a little more xmas shopping on line & then I tried to do a little bit of studying. Mark is going to look it over to see if I am understanding what my instructor wants. In about an hour Mom will be making dinner, feeding the pups & then relaxing for the night.That will pretty much consist of cuddling in a blanket, having hot coca & watching a movie & then to bed so that we get sleep & get ready for Tuesday morning! Today has been very quiet on the phones. No one called at all. I am hoping that tonight will be just as quiet...lol. Mom got the chance to speak to Aunt Donna yesterday. We chatted for about 2 hours. It was really nice to catch up with her as it has been several months since we spoke. she is doing okay. She is having a lot of health issues & Mom is scared from what she told me. Please watch over her. Thank you. Mom also spoke to Meme & Grandpa. Grandpa is finally feeling better & sounds better as well. He is hoping to return back to work this week. He is having a bit of cabin fever because of having to be home for 3 weeks. Mom told him now he knows what I go through & I have been doing it for 6 years almost. Debbie is still sick but it will take her longer as she is trying to work still. I hope she gets to be able to rest when she can. She needs to as she will take longer to get over the cold & cough. Mark is crazy busy back at work. They have him scheduled so much. Mom is doing the best she can to have a better attitude about his work. I am doing well I think & we are getting along better now. That is always a plus. Mom is still trucking along with this class. I am trying so hard but I am not doing that great in it. Just a tough one for me but I will get there. I will move forward. I know you are helping me along the way & Mom appreciates it so much. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately regarding school & I am leaning towards changing my major but I am not sure I can do that with the college. I need to look into it more. You know already what I would like to do. If it is what I am suppose to do could you give me direction or signs to help me out? I could sure use some guidance. Thank you my sweet precious son. Not much else took place between last night & today. I am sure there will be more to write to you as the week moves a long. Here is the prayer for the day though:
May you refuse condemnation for the ways you fail and fall short of God's best for you. May you, instead, embrace holy conviction to walk like Christ and to fully enjoy your journey with Him. May you shake off your regrets and grab a firm hold of God's promise to forgive, restore, and renew your story. May others' opinions no longer tie you up in knots because God's opinion continually sets you free! May you determine-with all your heart-to live the abundant, powerful, forgiven life Jesus has offered you. Have a blessed day today!
Here is a saying for the day as well:
F.E.A.R. has two meanings---- Forget Everything And Run OR Face Everything And Rise~ The choice is yours!
Short & sweet but right to the point. Decisions are tough but with help & guidance every one will do what is best for them. That is exactly what Mom is learning.
Well, Tyler, Mom needs to get going so that I can finish up doing a couple of things. Also, Mom is doing laundry & needs to tend to that as well. The night sky is now almost upon us. The sky looks clear so perhaps I might see some stars & the moon later. I will whisper to you as I always do every night. Smile & Mom will smile too. I miss you & love you to the moon & back. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. You still are my everything & my bright shining star. Mom hopes your evening will bring you peace, love & happiness. Have fun while I sleep & come visit in my dreams if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
PS. Mom wanted to thank everyone in the United States, France, Germany, Poland, Greece & Ukraine for the continued support of reading my letters to Tyler daily. It means the world to me & I hope that I can help others out along the way that may be grieving too. Many blessings to all xoxo.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Mom has had a pretty good day so far. It really has flown by that is for sure. It is already going on 4 pm & the sun will be setting in a matter of minutes. Mom wanted to write to you before I get started on the night routine stuff. Mom was up early this morning feeding the pups & getting things ready for the day. I got ready, took the pups for a walk & then made breakfast. This afternoon was a pretty mellow one. Mom was able to do a little more xmas shopping on line & then I tried to do a little bit of studying. Mark is going to look it over to see if I am understanding what my instructor wants. In about an hour Mom will be making dinner, feeding the pups & then relaxing for the night.That will pretty much consist of cuddling in a blanket, having hot coca & watching a movie & then to bed so that we get sleep & get ready for Tuesday morning! Today has been very quiet on the phones. No one called at all. I am hoping that tonight will be just as quiet...lol. Mom got the chance to speak to Aunt Donna yesterday. We chatted for about 2 hours. It was really nice to catch up with her as it has been several months since we spoke. she is doing okay. She is having a lot of health issues & Mom is scared from what she told me. Please watch over her. Thank you. Mom also spoke to Meme & Grandpa. Grandpa is finally feeling better & sounds better as well. He is hoping to return back to work this week. He is having a bit of cabin fever because of having to be home for 3 weeks. Mom told him now he knows what I go through & I have been doing it for 6 years almost. Debbie is still sick but it will take her longer as she is trying to work still. I hope she gets to be able to rest when she can. She needs to as she will take longer to get over the cold & cough. Mark is crazy busy back at work. They have him scheduled so much. Mom is doing the best she can to have a better attitude about his work. I am doing well I think & we are getting along better now. That is always a plus. Mom is still trucking along with this class. I am trying so hard but I am not doing that great in it. Just a tough one for me but I will get there. I will move forward. I know you are helping me along the way & Mom appreciates it so much. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately regarding school & I am leaning towards changing my major but I am not sure I can do that with the college. I need to look into it more. You know already what I would like to do. If it is what I am suppose to do could you give me direction or signs to help me out? I could sure use some guidance. Thank you my sweet precious son. Not much else took place between last night & today. I am sure there will be more to write to you as the week moves a long. Here is the prayer for the day though:
May you refuse condemnation for the ways you fail and fall short of God's best for you. May you, instead, embrace holy conviction to walk like Christ and to fully enjoy your journey with Him. May you shake off your regrets and grab a firm hold of God's promise to forgive, restore, and renew your story. May others' opinions no longer tie you up in knots because God's opinion continually sets you free! May you determine-with all your heart-to live the abundant, powerful, forgiven life Jesus has offered you. Have a blessed day today!
Here is a saying for the day as well:
F.E.A.R. has two meanings---- Forget Everything And Run OR Face Everything And Rise~ The choice is yours!
Short & sweet but right to the point. Decisions are tough but with help & guidance every one will do what is best for them. That is exactly what Mom is learning.
Well, Tyler, Mom needs to get going so that I can finish up doing a couple of things. Also, Mom is doing laundry & needs to tend to that as well. The night sky is now almost upon us. The sky looks clear so perhaps I might see some stars & the moon later. I will whisper to you as I always do every night. Smile & Mom will smile too. I miss you & love you to the moon & back. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. You still are my everything & my bright shining star. Mom hopes your evening will bring you peace, love & happiness. Have fun while I sleep & come visit in my dreams if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
PS. Mom wanted to thank everyone in the United States, France, Germany, Poland, Greece & Ukraine for the continued support of reading my letters to Tyler daily. It means the world to me & I hope that I can help others out along the way that may be grieving too. Many blessings to all xoxo.
Sunday, November 26, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am so sorry that I did not write to you last night like I said I would on Friday. Mom had kind of a weird day yesterday. I was up early & did the normal things...feed the pups, make coffee for Mark, got ready, took pups for their walk & then Mark & I left to go run errands & do some shopping. I was fine all day until I got home. I put everything away, made an early dinner & about 6 pm I just felt weird. My body was achy & I was very tired. I was ready to go to bed at 6:30 pm. I made the decision to just not go on my computer or do anything other than lay on the couch, watch a movie & then go to bed. I didn't want to push it at all. Mom was in bed at 9 pm & asleep by 10 pm Mark said. He said that my head hit my pillow & I was out like a light. I woke up several times during the night but fell back to sleep rather quickly. Mom woke up this morning still feeling very tired & just not myself even on this very cold, sunny day. Mark & I were going to go out again today but we decided to just have another day where we did basically nothing. Mark went out briefly * Mom paid bills online. Now I am writing to you so that Mark can help me with my classwork. Hopefully he can explain it to me so I can understand it. I am hoping to submit another test tomorrow or Tuesday. Maybe this one I can pass. Please help Mom anyway you can. I sure could use it. Thanks pumpkin.
Meme called today & we spoke briefly. She was driving back from shopping. She was out doing some Christmas shopping. Bob stayed home as he was tired & didn't want to go anywhere. Grandpa & Mom will chat tonight like we usually do on Sundays. Debbie is still sick along with Grandpa & I hear that Bean is sick as well. So much colds, coughs, flu, stomach bugs are going around now. Aunt Shirley messaged me & we chatted for a bit. Things are okay with her & Grammy but Richard is getting sick now too. Please watch over us all so that we will all be healthy, happy & safe. I guess our family could really use it. Thank you. Not much else has happened over the weekend at all. Very quiet for the most part & that is just fine with Mom. I am sure to have more updates for you this coming week. Just a few more Fall pictures will be posted this week for you on here & then it starts the Christmas ones that I have been collecting for you. Friday is December 1st. That is hard to believe! That means in 35 days it will be a new year. It will be 2018..... it will be 5 years since you passed in less than 7 months. That really is hard for Mom to wrap her head around seeings how every day it feels like it just happened. I miss you like crazy. No words can express it at all. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You forever will be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will always be in my heart, mind, body & soul. Later tonight Mom will whisper to you like I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will be sure to smile to you too. Mom is hoping that tonight you will get the chance to come be with me while I sleep or visit me in my dreams or perhaps both??? I hope that you get to do some fun things as well while I do sleep. May you get to do all that you need & want to do. I will light my candles as I do each night for you, our family, our friends & our pets who have passed on & are with you now on the other side. Enjoy the candles, Tyler! Oh yeah.... today is Auntie Donna's birthday. Mom called her & left as message as she was not home. Make sure to send her a sign today to let her know you are there.
Here are the prayers & the sayings for the day:
God never sends you into a situation alone. God goes before you. He stands beside you. He walks behind you. Whatever situation you have right now, be confident. God is with you. Amen!
There's no battle, no scheme, no attack of the enemy that can keep us from God's love, His presence & His powers. Our trials will always serve us, teach us, & strengthen us in the end. Amen!
Life is short, So do the things that make you happy. Be with those who make you happy. Look for the good in every day~ Even if some days you have to look a little harder.
Life is better when you cry a little, laugh a lot & are thankful for everything you got!
Mom needs to get going so that I have time to do some school work & then get the dinner stuff going for the night. Later it will be watching TV & relaxing as tomorrow is Monday & Mark & I are back to the grind. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you... I do promise you that. I try not to skip any days but sometimes the days get the best of me. I do my best! Even if I skip a day, always know I will be back. I love you my bright shining star. To infinity & beyond. Good night & sweet dreams.......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am so sorry that I did not write to you last night like I said I would on Friday. Mom had kind of a weird day yesterday. I was up early & did the normal things...feed the pups, make coffee for Mark, got ready, took pups for their walk & then Mark & I left to go run errands & do some shopping. I was fine all day until I got home. I put everything away, made an early dinner & about 6 pm I just felt weird. My body was achy & I was very tired. I was ready to go to bed at 6:30 pm. I made the decision to just not go on my computer or do anything other than lay on the couch, watch a movie & then go to bed. I didn't want to push it at all. Mom was in bed at 9 pm & asleep by 10 pm Mark said. He said that my head hit my pillow & I was out like a light. I woke up several times during the night but fell back to sleep rather quickly. Mom woke up this morning still feeling very tired & just not myself even on this very cold, sunny day. Mark & I were going to go out again today but we decided to just have another day where we did basically nothing. Mark went out briefly * Mom paid bills online. Now I am writing to you so that Mark can help me with my classwork. Hopefully he can explain it to me so I can understand it. I am hoping to submit another test tomorrow or Tuesday. Maybe this one I can pass. Please help Mom anyway you can. I sure could use it. Thanks pumpkin.
Meme called today & we spoke briefly. She was driving back from shopping. She was out doing some Christmas shopping. Bob stayed home as he was tired & didn't want to go anywhere. Grandpa & Mom will chat tonight like we usually do on Sundays. Debbie is still sick along with Grandpa & I hear that Bean is sick as well. So much colds, coughs, flu, stomach bugs are going around now. Aunt Shirley messaged me & we chatted for a bit. Things are okay with her & Grammy but Richard is getting sick now too. Please watch over us all so that we will all be healthy, happy & safe. I guess our family could really use it. Thank you. Not much else has happened over the weekend at all. Very quiet for the most part & that is just fine with Mom. I am sure to have more updates for you this coming week. Just a few more Fall pictures will be posted this week for you on here & then it starts the Christmas ones that I have been collecting for you. Friday is December 1st. That is hard to believe! That means in 35 days it will be a new year. It will be 2018..... it will be 5 years since you passed in less than 7 months. That really is hard for Mom to wrap her head around seeings how every day it feels like it just happened. I miss you like crazy. No words can express it at all. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You forever will be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will always be in my heart, mind, body & soul. Later tonight Mom will whisper to you like I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will be sure to smile to you too. Mom is hoping that tonight you will get the chance to come be with me while I sleep or visit me in my dreams or perhaps both??? I hope that you get to do some fun things as well while I do sleep. May you get to do all that you need & want to do. I will light my candles as I do each night for you, our family, our friends & our pets who have passed on & are with you now on the other side. Enjoy the candles, Tyler! Oh yeah.... today is Auntie Donna's birthday. Mom called her & left as message as she was not home. Make sure to send her a sign today to let her know you are there.
Here are the prayers & the sayings for the day:
God never sends you into a situation alone. God goes before you. He stands beside you. He walks behind you. Whatever situation you have right now, be confident. God is with you. Amen!
There's no battle, no scheme, no attack of the enemy that can keep us from God's love, His presence & His powers. Our trials will always serve us, teach us, & strengthen us in the end. Amen!
Life is short, So do the things that make you happy. Be with those who make you happy. Look for the good in every day~ Even if some days you have to look a little harder.
Life is better when you cry a little, laugh a lot & are thankful for everything you got!
Mom needs to get going so that I have time to do some school work & then get the dinner stuff going for the night. Later it will be watching TV & relaxing as tomorrow is Monday & Mark & I are back to the grind. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you... I do promise you that. I try not to skip any days but sometimes the days get the best of me. I do my best! Even if I skip a day, always know I will be back. I love you my bright shining star. To infinity & beyond. Good night & sweet dreams.......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, November 24, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. Mark & I decided to just stay home today instead of trying to beat the rush of everyone shopping on Black Friday. Mom woke up & was really not in the mood at all. We will be going out tomorrow though. Today was spent just making breakfast, getting ready, taking the pups for a walk & playing around on the computer ( Mark was ) & Mom being on the phone all afternoon. I finally got to touch base with Aunt Beck & it was wonderful. we chatted for over an hour or longer. She was telling me that they have their tickets to go to Italy in April. That is amazing. One of her dreams will come true for her. They will be there for 3 weeks. I am so happy for her & can't wait to hear about her experiences. We talked about Bean & how she was doing & also we spoke about Mom & what has been going on there. She was telling me that she could feel & see a difference in me from the last time we spoke & that I have been doing a lot of work to make things better in my mind, heart, body & soul. It was a great validation & probably something that Mom needed to hear. I have no doubt in my mind that you were there & taken part in that so thank you my sweet son for your help as well. After Mom spoke to Aunt Beck, Mom spoke to Meme. Things are good on her end. The best that they can be anyways.
Last night Mom did indeed get to speak to Grandpa. He spent the day alone when Debbie went to work. Mom felt so bad & a bit guilty. He still is not feeling all that well but he says that he is getting better. Debbie on the other hand is getting worse. Mom told Grandpa that I would touch base with him over the weekend. He was hoping to get a note so it would release him to go back to work on Sunday. I hope that he is well enough to do that. He is getting so bored having to stay at home & not go anywhere. I told him I knew exactly how he was feeling as Mom has been living that lifestyle now for 6 years. Mom will fill you in on everything else over the weekend as I know of things. Right now I need to write a couple prayers to you as it is getting late & time escaped Mom today. It is already going on 4:45 pm & I have nothing started for the night routine. anyways..... here is the prayers:
God's timing is perfect. He hears your prayers. He understands your pain. The things you are praying for will show up when you are most ready & prepared for it. Amen.
Remember that nothing you have been through has been wasted. It has shaped you, molded you, & prepared you for what God has for you. Amen.
Here is the saying for the day as well:
" If you have trouble visualizing, just feel what you want. Feeling is equally powerful. whether you feel it or imagine it in pictures, both are creating. You will know which one works best for you, by how you feel. Feeling good is the key to creation. "
Mom hopes that tonight will be everything that you need & would like it to be. Have fun while Mom is sleeping tonight. Come be with me if you can or visit me in my dreams. Either or both would make me happy. Mom will whisper to you as I always do while I light the candles for the evening & when I go to bed. Hope you will smile when you hear Mom talking to you & I will be sure to smile to you. I miss you so much. I love you more than anything in this world that I live in. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will forever be in my heart, mind, body & soul. You, Tyler are Mom's hero & the wind beneath my wings. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams. I will look to the sky tonight to see if I see the stars & moon shining bright. The evening sky is completely upon us right now so I will check in a few minutes when I get off the computer & am feeding the pups. Always know you are my shining star. To infinity & beyond......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. Mark & I decided to just stay home today instead of trying to beat the rush of everyone shopping on Black Friday. Mom woke up & was really not in the mood at all. We will be going out tomorrow though. Today was spent just making breakfast, getting ready, taking the pups for a walk & playing around on the computer ( Mark was ) & Mom being on the phone all afternoon. I finally got to touch base with Aunt Beck & it was wonderful. we chatted for over an hour or longer. She was telling me that they have their tickets to go to Italy in April. That is amazing. One of her dreams will come true for her. They will be there for 3 weeks. I am so happy for her & can't wait to hear about her experiences. We talked about Bean & how she was doing & also we spoke about Mom & what has been going on there. She was telling me that she could feel & see a difference in me from the last time we spoke & that I have been doing a lot of work to make things better in my mind, heart, body & soul. It was a great validation & probably something that Mom needed to hear. I have no doubt in my mind that you were there & taken part in that so thank you my sweet son for your help as well. After Mom spoke to Aunt Beck, Mom spoke to Meme. Things are good on her end. The best that they can be anyways.
Last night Mom did indeed get to speak to Grandpa. He spent the day alone when Debbie went to work. Mom felt so bad & a bit guilty. He still is not feeling all that well but he says that he is getting better. Debbie on the other hand is getting worse. Mom told Grandpa that I would touch base with him over the weekend. He was hoping to get a note so it would release him to go back to work on Sunday. I hope that he is well enough to do that. He is getting so bored having to stay at home & not go anywhere. I told him I knew exactly how he was feeling as Mom has been living that lifestyle now for 6 years. Mom will fill you in on everything else over the weekend as I know of things. Right now I need to write a couple prayers to you as it is getting late & time escaped Mom today. It is already going on 4:45 pm & I have nothing started for the night routine. anyways..... here is the prayers:
God's timing is perfect. He hears your prayers. He understands your pain. The things you are praying for will show up when you are most ready & prepared for it. Amen.
Remember that nothing you have been through has been wasted. It has shaped you, molded you, & prepared you for what God has for you. Amen.
Here is the saying for the day as well:
" If you have trouble visualizing, just feel what you want. Feeling is equally powerful. whether you feel it or imagine it in pictures, both are creating. You will know which one works best for you, by how you feel. Feeling good is the key to creation. "
Mom hopes that tonight will be everything that you need & would like it to be. Have fun while Mom is sleeping tonight. Come be with me if you can or visit me in my dreams. Either or both would make me happy. Mom will whisper to you as I always do while I light the candles for the evening & when I go to bed. Hope you will smile when you hear Mom talking to you & I will be sure to smile to you. I miss you so much. I love you more than anything in this world that I live in. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will forever be in my heart, mind, body & soul. You, Tyler are Mom's hero & the wind beneath my wings. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams. I will look to the sky tonight to see if I see the stars & moon shining bright. The evening sky is completely upon us right now so I will check in a few minutes when I get off the computer & am feeding the pups. Always know you are my shining star. To infinity & beyond......
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, November 23, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Happy Thanksgiving in heaven. Mom knows that you are happy where you are but I sure wished that you were here so we could be today & celebrate just like we did for so many years. This makes the 6th one without you. Mom is doing okay for the most part. I have done exactly what I said I would do & that was treat it like every other Thursday. Mom was up early. I fed the pups, made coffee, made breakfast that was eggs, bacon, toast & then I decided that since we were not doing a turkey dinner that we would have homemade beef stew so Mom got that started as well....all before 9 am. Then I got ready, gathered up all the garbage & put it in the vehicle to take to the dumpster & then walked the pups. Mark finished up the trash & now he is on his computer while I write to you. we both have been able to make a few phone calls to at least wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving. Meme called first thing this morning & we spoke for about an hour, then I called Grandpa but he was in the shower so I spoke with Debbie. That poor thing is sick sick sick like Grandpa was. She is not sleeping & she feels & sounds like poop. She has to work tonight. Mom wishes that I had all kinds of money so that I could give it to everyone & they would no longer have to work...they could just enjoy life. Grandpa is feeling better but she is afraid that she will give it back to him. I just want them to be over this nasty cough & cold that they have. Mom will call him later this evening to talk. Aunt Beck texted me to tell me she would call tomorrow as they are on the road all day driving. Bean is working today so she will be having dinner I suppose with her BF later this evening. Mark called his Dad & Karen... they are also working today & he got to talk to both brothers. A few friends wished me a Happy Thanksgiving on line. That was nice but Mom has to be honest with you.... it does not feel like a Holiday today at all. Even Meme said the same thing. I completely agree with her. when you are around no family or friends.... these kinds of days just blend in with the rest of them. We will be eating dinner around 4 pm while watching the football game. The Cowboys are playing the Chargers. Another game where they will get there butts kicked. Cowboys are not looking good at all this season. Guess there is always next year! Later Mom will watch a couple movies while snuggled up in a blanket & then head to bed. Mark & I are going to go out tomorrow... yep... on Black Friday & do some shopping. That will be an adventure all on its own...lol! Mom has done everything that was needed so I will have the weekend to do absolutely nothing at all! Looking forward to that very much. I might paint though. Not sure yet but at least I will not have to do house cleaning or laundry. That is always a bonus! Not much else is going on. It is very quiet here. Everyone is gone. The sun will be setting in about 1 1/2 hours & the night sky will be upon us. It is a clear, cold, sunny day today so maybe just maybe we will see the stars & the moon shining bright tonight. Mom will be looking. I will whisper to you as I always do every night so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile right back to you. Mom is hoping that your evening will be filled with all the things you need & want to do. Please continue to watch over us all my sweet precious son. Thank you. Have fun while Mom sleeps tonight & come be with me if you can. I miss you so much... every hour of the day & even more on days like these. It is a constant reminder just how much everything has changed. It makes me very sad but I do my best not to show it. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. Here is a prayer for the day:
Over the next few days, may you let go of the little stresses that nag you, and instead, learn to enjoy the journey. Look around and give thanks for the everyday provisions you'd miss if they went away tomorrow. Slow down long enough to take in the sights, scents, and simple joys of this season. You're more loved than you can fathom and more blessed than you know. Take a deep breath, exhale, and enjoy your holiday. You have Jesus and He will one day restore every part of your story. Happy Thanksgiving.
Here are a couple sayings for the day as well:
" You don't always need a plan. Sometimes you just need to breathe, trust, let go & see what happens. "
" Never stop believing in hope because miracles happen everyday. "
Well, Tyler....Mom needs to get going so that I can get the rest of our dinner going so it will be done all at the same time. I sure do miss you so much. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... fly high baby! Good night & sweet dreams. Give everyone with you hugs & kisses from Mom & tell them I love & miss them too. Give a couple extras to Max & Snickers & the rest of the pups. Thanks Ty. I love you, my sweet shining star!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Happy Thanksgiving in heaven. Mom knows that you are happy where you are but I sure wished that you were here so we could be today & celebrate just like we did for so many years. This makes the 6th one without you. Mom is doing okay for the most part. I have done exactly what I said I would do & that was treat it like every other Thursday. Mom was up early. I fed the pups, made coffee, made breakfast that was eggs, bacon, toast & then I decided that since we were not doing a turkey dinner that we would have homemade beef stew so Mom got that started as well....all before 9 am. Then I got ready, gathered up all the garbage & put it in the vehicle to take to the dumpster & then walked the pups. Mark finished up the trash & now he is on his computer while I write to you. we both have been able to make a few phone calls to at least wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving. Meme called first thing this morning & we spoke for about an hour, then I called Grandpa but he was in the shower so I spoke with Debbie. That poor thing is sick sick sick like Grandpa was. She is not sleeping & she feels & sounds like poop. She has to work tonight. Mom wishes that I had all kinds of money so that I could give it to everyone & they would no longer have to work...they could just enjoy life. Grandpa is feeling better but she is afraid that she will give it back to him. I just want them to be over this nasty cough & cold that they have. Mom will call him later this evening to talk. Aunt Beck texted me to tell me she would call tomorrow as they are on the road all day driving. Bean is working today so she will be having dinner I suppose with her BF later this evening. Mark called his Dad & Karen... they are also working today & he got to talk to both brothers. A few friends wished me a Happy Thanksgiving on line. That was nice but Mom has to be honest with you.... it does not feel like a Holiday today at all. Even Meme said the same thing. I completely agree with her. when you are around no family or friends.... these kinds of days just blend in with the rest of them. We will be eating dinner around 4 pm while watching the football game. The Cowboys are playing the Chargers. Another game where they will get there butts kicked. Cowboys are not looking good at all this season. Guess there is always next year! Later Mom will watch a couple movies while snuggled up in a blanket & then head to bed. Mark & I are going to go out tomorrow... yep... on Black Friday & do some shopping. That will be an adventure all on its own...lol! Mom has done everything that was needed so I will have the weekend to do absolutely nothing at all! Looking forward to that very much. I might paint though. Not sure yet but at least I will not have to do house cleaning or laundry. That is always a bonus! Not much else is going on. It is very quiet here. Everyone is gone. The sun will be setting in about 1 1/2 hours & the night sky will be upon us. It is a clear, cold, sunny day today so maybe just maybe we will see the stars & the moon shining bright tonight. Mom will be looking. I will whisper to you as I always do every night so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile right back to you. Mom is hoping that your evening will be filled with all the things you need & want to do. Please continue to watch over us all my sweet precious son. Thank you. Have fun while Mom sleeps tonight & come be with me if you can. I miss you so much... every hour of the day & even more on days like these. It is a constant reminder just how much everything has changed. It makes me very sad but I do my best not to show it. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live in my heart, mind, body & soul. Here is a prayer for the day:
Over the next few days, may you let go of the little stresses that nag you, and instead, learn to enjoy the journey. Look around and give thanks for the everyday provisions you'd miss if they went away tomorrow. Slow down long enough to take in the sights, scents, and simple joys of this season. You're more loved than you can fathom and more blessed than you know. Take a deep breath, exhale, and enjoy your holiday. You have Jesus and He will one day restore every part of your story. Happy Thanksgiving.
Here are a couple sayings for the day as well:
" You don't always need a plan. Sometimes you just need to breathe, trust, let go & see what happens. "
" Never stop believing in hope because miracles happen everyday. "
Well, Tyler....Mom needs to get going so that I can get the rest of our dinner going so it will be done all at the same time. I sure do miss you so much. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... fly high baby! Good night & sweet dreams. Give everyone with you hugs & kisses from Mom & tell them I love & miss them too. Give a couple extras to Max & Snickers & the rest of the pups. Thanks Ty. I love you, my sweet shining star!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, November 22, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing well. Relaxing for the most part today. It is the day before Thanksgiving & while everyone that we know & folks we don't are cooking away & scrambling to get things ready for family & friends tomorrow, Mom is sitting here wishing I was doing just that but instead I have nothing to be baking or cooking & no one is coming here so Mark & Mom will be treating it like an regular day. We will have at least each other so that will be nice. Mom will probably make a brunch & then cook something in the crock pot for dinner. It will be a day of football & Christmas movies. The weather is suppose to be really nice. Temps will be chilly but the sun will be out so that will be nice! Today the day has been nothing but heavy heavy down pours of rain. Mom had to run out really quick & I got soaked in the process. It got dark here really quickly as well. Lights had to be turned on at 2 pm. Mom spoke to Meme today for about an hour. It was nice. She is sad that we won't be there but she understands that we didn't want to travel. Mom booked the hotel for us in December though. We will be in VT for 4 days/3 nights so that will be nice. I plan on seeing a lot of our family while there & going down & placing my yearly ornament on your resting bench. I hope you like this years. I got your initial that lights up. Its red which was your favorite color. I hope you smile when Mom places it there. I am hoping there will not be a lot of snow like there was last year. I couldn't even hardly get to the bench. The weather was super crazy too. I remember it being rainy, snowy, windy that day. Mom is going to pray & hope for clear skies & sun. I won't care if the temps are cold... I can handle that. whatever you can do to help with that please work your magic, Tyler! Thanks!
Today Mom was sitting in the living room after I did the morning dishes & out of no where the Christmas tree lights came on. No one was near it, the pups were not near it either. I whispered to you.... did you turn them on? Was that a sign that you were near Mom? I said to Mark that I thought it was really weird that that happened but inside I was smiling & thinking of you. I told Meme about it when we were talking & she said the exact same thing. I have noticed lately that I have been looking at the clock at exactly 12:12 pm. Every time I say hi to you & tell you I love you. That was your time of birth. That time has always been special to Mom. I know that is your sign telling me that you are near me & Mom thanks you so much for that. Especially around this time of the year. Keep sending me the signs. I love them all. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul forever. I miss you more than words can say. I know you feel it in your soul. Hope you always do my sweet precious son. That is all that Mom has for you but here is a saying for the day:
Promise Yourself: To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. To talk health, happiness & prosperity to every person you meet. To make all your friends feel that there is something in them. To look at the sunny side of everything & make your optimism come true. To think only the best, to work only for the best & to expect only the best. To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own. To forget the mistakes of the past & press on to the greater achievements of the future. To wear a cheerful countenance at all times & give every living creature you meet a smile. To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have not the time to criticize others. To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear & too happy to permit the presence of trouble. To think well of yourself & to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words but great deeds. To live in faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you.
Here are the prayers for the day as well:
When you feel like you don't fit in, may you walk in faith because you have a place at the Table of Grace. When you feel like you're just not enough, may you remember that His Enough is more than enough for you. When you trip up and fall short, remember that He stoops down to make you great. And when you don't feel victorious, remember that you're already seated with Christ because He won the victory for you. Have a great day! You're firmly seated with Christ.
May Jesus heal your heart so fully, so completely, that when you encounter persnickety, hard-to-love people, you’re able to love them with a Christ-like love. May God’s training in your life be so obvious and effective that when the enemy sends his arrows your way, you shut them down before they ever hit their mark. May you walk in such a noticeable, holy confidence that others can’t help but ask about the hope within you. And may God’s healing power be so prominent in your life that others begin to believe that miracles are possible for them too. You’re a walking, living, breathing conduit of Christ’s Kingdom power! Blessings on your evening!
Mom is hoping that your night will be everything that you want & need it to be. Have fun while I sleep tonight & if you can come visit me in my dreams or sit with me so I can rest. I would love either or both. I will whisper to you in a bit when I light the candles & as I go to bed so smile when you hear Mom & I will smile back to you. I will be back in the afternoon tomorrow to write to you again so until then...good night & sweet dreams. Mom needs to get going to start the night stuff. I love you, Tyler... my shining star.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing well. Relaxing for the most part today. It is the day before Thanksgiving & while everyone that we know & folks we don't are cooking away & scrambling to get things ready for family & friends tomorrow, Mom is sitting here wishing I was doing just that but instead I have nothing to be baking or cooking & no one is coming here so Mark & Mom will be treating it like an regular day. We will have at least each other so that will be nice. Mom will probably make a brunch & then cook something in the crock pot for dinner. It will be a day of football & Christmas movies. The weather is suppose to be really nice. Temps will be chilly but the sun will be out so that will be nice! Today the day has been nothing but heavy heavy down pours of rain. Mom had to run out really quick & I got soaked in the process. It got dark here really quickly as well. Lights had to be turned on at 2 pm. Mom spoke to Meme today for about an hour. It was nice. She is sad that we won't be there but she understands that we didn't want to travel. Mom booked the hotel for us in December though. We will be in VT for 4 days/3 nights so that will be nice. I plan on seeing a lot of our family while there & going down & placing my yearly ornament on your resting bench. I hope you like this years. I got your initial that lights up. Its red which was your favorite color. I hope you smile when Mom places it there. I am hoping there will not be a lot of snow like there was last year. I couldn't even hardly get to the bench. The weather was super crazy too. I remember it being rainy, snowy, windy that day. Mom is going to pray & hope for clear skies & sun. I won't care if the temps are cold... I can handle that. whatever you can do to help with that please work your magic, Tyler! Thanks!
Today Mom was sitting in the living room after I did the morning dishes & out of no where the Christmas tree lights came on. No one was near it, the pups were not near it either. I whispered to you.... did you turn them on? Was that a sign that you were near Mom? I said to Mark that I thought it was really weird that that happened but inside I was smiling & thinking of you. I told Meme about it when we were talking & she said the exact same thing. I have noticed lately that I have been looking at the clock at exactly 12:12 pm. Every time I say hi to you & tell you I love you. That was your time of birth. That time has always been special to Mom. I know that is your sign telling me that you are near me & Mom thanks you so much for that. Especially around this time of the year. Keep sending me the signs. I love them all. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul forever. I miss you more than words can say. I know you feel it in your soul. Hope you always do my sweet precious son. That is all that Mom has for you but here is a saying for the day:
Promise Yourself: To be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. To talk health, happiness & prosperity to every person you meet. To make all your friends feel that there is something in them. To look at the sunny side of everything & make your optimism come true. To think only the best, to work only for the best & to expect only the best. To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own. To forget the mistakes of the past & press on to the greater achievements of the future. To wear a cheerful countenance at all times & give every living creature you meet a smile. To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have not the time to criticize others. To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear & too happy to permit the presence of trouble. To think well of yourself & to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words but great deeds. To live in faith that the whole world is on your side so long as you are true to the best that is in you.
Here are the prayers for the day as well:
When you feel like you don't fit in, may you walk in faith because you have a place at the Table of Grace. When you feel like you're just not enough, may you remember that His Enough is more than enough for you. When you trip up and fall short, remember that He stoops down to make you great. And when you don't feel victorious, remember that you're already seated with Christ because He won the victory for you. Have a great day! You're firmly seated with Christ.
May Jesus heal your heart so fully, so completely, that when you encounter persnickety, hard-to-love people, you’re able to love them with a Christ-like love. May God’s training in your life be so obvious and effective that when the enemy sends his arrows your way, you shut them down before they ever hit their mark. May you walk in such a noticeable, holy confidence that others can’t help but ask about the hope within you. And may God’s healing power be so prominent in your life that others begin to believe that miracles are possible for them too. You’re a walking, living, breathing conduit of Christ’s Kingdom power! Blessings on your evening!
Mom is hoping that your night will be everything that you want & need it to be. Have fun while I sleep tonight & if you can come visit me in my dreams or sit with me so I can rest. I would love either or both. I will whisper to you in a bit when I light the candles & as I go to bed so smile when you hear Mom & I will smile back to you. I will be back in the afternoon tomorrow to write to you again so until then...good night & sweet dreams. Mom needs to get going to start the night stuff. I love you, Tyler... my shining star.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, November 21, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday morning? Mom is doing okay. The weather today is very sunny, cool & windy as heck! I will take it though. Mom was up early this morning. I got things ready for Mark to head to his office, made coffee, fed the pups, got ready & just took the pups for their morning walk. Now Mom is writing to you because in about an hour I have to get going to my nail appointment & run errands afterwards. I know I will be getting home on the later side & by the time I do get home I will have to start prepping dinner & getting the night routine started. If I didn't write now I knew I wouldn't & Mom really didn't want that so here I am writing to you at 10:15 am!
Last night was again a very quiet evening. Mom made dinner, did dishes & watched a bit of TV before heading to bed. I did feel bad as I was suppose to call my friend around 4 pm & the time got the best of me & I truly forgot. I was busy & remembered at almost 9 pm last night when I received a message from her saying she was home & I could call. That message was sent at 5 pm. I sent her a message back telling her I was sorry & that time escaped Mom. She said it was fine but she was disappointed. I understand that she was disappointed but dang.... sometimes Mom feels like people put pressure on me. I am always the one who picks up the phone to call everyone. Other than Meme & Grandpa no know else really does. It gets tiring that I am always the one to have to do it if I want to know how someone is & if I forget then they make me feel guilty & shame me for not calling them. This has been happening a lot lately for the last several months this year & now is the time that Mom is going to have to put her foot down & say no. I am not going to be the only one to do this all the time. If someone wants to talk to me then they can pick up the phone & call me for a change. I am kind of done with all that BS. The road, the phone & everything else works both ways. It is about time others start using it. Mom is busy during the day & most evenings just like everyone else. I just don't find it fair at all. Mom has been really thinking about a lot of things lately.... ways to improve my own life, my life with Mark & what things will make me happy. I am sorry if people don't like the " new " me but I have to live my life as no one else will do it for me. I know that you would understand & you would tell Mom that it is about time. You told me to do this very thing for so many years. I just wish I would have listened to you sooner. I hope that you are smiling down on me & saying " Way to go Mom. " Times like these & every other time Mom misses you so much! I miss everything & this time of the year it is worse. Mom was chatting with a facebook friend yesterday & we were discussing depression. She suffers from it & also anxiety. She seems to never catch a break & it seems that something is always going wrong for her. I told her I have been there & have been in her shoes. It is not an easy road to travel but she would get through it. She is strong even if she doesn't believe it herself. Mom is hoping that she gets through all this mess that is going on with her. She is a sweet person. I don't want to see anything happen to her.
Not much for updates for you. I did chat with Meme yesterday & will again on Thursday. I will touch base with Grandpa then too. He usually calls a few times a week but he has been staying away from the phone since he has been sick. He has a strong cough medicine that makes him sleep a lot which is a good thing. I will contact him tonight to just check in. I will let you know how he is doing on tomorrows letter. That is all I have but here are the prayers for the day:
May you begin to see your setbacks as temporary, your delays as detours, and your heartbreaks as opportunities to experience God's precious, powerful healing. And in the meantime, may God give you glimpses of glory, insights into His good plan for you. Be assured that God has never left your side; He’ll never let you go. May God help you see with supernatural insight so that you won't be deceived by the enemy of your soul, or by your past painful filters, or by your fears of the future. In fact, right here--in this place--may your divine perspective hugely inspire your faith steps. You are mighty in God and He is mighty in you.
May Jesus speak a specific word of wisdom to your heart tonight. May He show you what to say, how to pray, and how to rest in Him while you wait for your faith to become sight. He’s made joy available to you, grace to abound in you, and peace to surround you and rule within you. Truly, you have all that you need even while you wait for Him to tend to the longings of your heart. May you feel as rich as you are. And may His regal heart beat loudly in your chest so you will carry yourself like the heir you are. Have a blessed, restful night.
Here is a saying for the day as well: HATE has 4 letters, but so does LOVE. ENEMIES has 7 letters but so does FRIENDS. LYING has 5 letters but so does TRUTH. HURT has 4 letters but so does HEAL. Transform every negative energy into an aura of positivity. Its our perception that makes the difference in the way we feel.
Well my sweet precious son, Mom needs to get going as I need to be leaving in about 15 minutes & I need to do a couple things before I head out. Please be with Mom & watch over us all. Thank you so much. Mom hopes that later tonight I get to see the stars & moon shining as it seems like it has been forever since I have seen anything shining in the sky. Hope that your evening is everything you would like it to be & so much more. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You, Tyler, are Mom's shining star. Be listening out for my voice tonight when I whisper to you. Smile & Mom will smile to you as I always do. Come visit me in my dreams if you get the chance. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams later tonight.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday morning? Mom is doing okay. The weather today is very sunny, cool & windy as heck! I will take it though. Mom was up early this morning. I got things ready for Mark to head to his office, made coffee, fed the pups, got ready & just took the pups for their morning walk. Now Mom is writing to you because in about an hour I have to get going to my nail appointment & run errands afterwards. I know I will be getting home on the later side & by the time I do get home I will have to start prepping dinner & getting the night routine started. If I didn't write now I knew I wouldn't & Mom really didn't want that so here I am writing to you at 10:15 am!
Last night was again a very quiet evening. Mom made dinner, did dishes & watched a bit of TV before heading to bed. I did feel bad as I was suppose to call my friend around 4 pm & the time got the best of me & I truly forgot. I was busy & remembered at almost 9 pm last night when I received a message from her saying she was home & I could call. That message was sent at 5 pm. I sent her a message back telling her I was sorry & that time escaped Mom. She said it was fine but she was disappointed. I understand that she was disappointed but dang.... sometimes Mom feels like people put pressure on me. I am always the one who picks up the phone to call everyone. Other than Meme & Grandpa no know else really does. It gets tiring that I am always the one to have to do it if I want to know how someone is & if I forget then they make me feel guilty & shame me for not calling them. This has been happening a lot lately for the last several months this year & now is the time that Mom is going to have to put her foot down & say no. I am not going to be the only one to do this all the time. If someone wants to talk to me then they can pick up the phone & call me for a change. I am kind of done with all that BS. The road, the phone & everything else works both ways. It is about time others start using it. Mom is busy during the day & most evenings just like everyone else. I just don't find it fair at all. Mom has been really thinking about a lot of things lately.... ways to improve my own life, my life with Mark & what things will make me happy. I am sorry if people don't like the " new " me but I have to live my life as no one else will do it for me. I know that you would understand & you would tell Mom that it is about time. You told me to do this very thing for so many years. I just wish I would have listened to you sooner. I hope that you are smiling down on me & saying " Way to go Mom. " Times like these & every other time Mom misses you so much! I miss everything & this time of the year it is worse. Mom was chatting with a facebook friend yesterday & we were discussing depression. She suffers from it & also anxiety. She seems to never catch a break & it seems that something is always going wrong for her. I told her I have been there & have been in her shoes. It is not an easy road to travel but she would get through it. She is strong even if she doesn't believe it herself. Mom is hoping that she gets through all this mess that is going on with her. She is a sweet person. I don't want to see anything happen to her.
Not much for updates for you. I did chat with Meme yesterday & will again on Thursday. I will touch base with Grandpa then too. He usually calls a few times a week but he has been staying away from the phone since he has been sick. He has a strong cough medicine that makes him sleep a lot which is a good thing. I will contact him tonight to just check in. I will let you know how he is doing on tomorrows letter. That is all I have but here are the prayers for the day:
May you begin to see your setbacks as temporary, your delays as detours, and your heartbreaks as opportunities to experience God's precious, powerful healing. And in the meantime, may God give you glimpses of glory, insights into His good plan for you. Be assured that God has never left your side; He’ll never let you go. May God help you see with supernatural insight so that you won't be deceived by the enemy of your soul, or by your past painful filters, or by your fears of the future. In fact, right here--in this place--may your divine perspective hugely inspire your faith steps. You are mighty in God and He is mighty in you.
May Jesus speak a specific word of wisdom to your heart tonight. May He show you what to say, how to pray, and how to rest in Him while you wait for your faith to become sight. He’s made joy available to you, grace to abound in you, and peace to surround you and rule within you. Truly, you have all that you need even while you wait for Him to tend to the longings of your heart. May you feel as rich as you are. And may His regal heart beat loudly in your chest so you will carry yourself like the heir you are. Have a blessed, restful night.
Here is a saying for the day as well: HATE has 4 letters, but so does LOVE. ENEMIES has 7 letters but so does FRIENDS. LYING has 5 letters but so does TRUTH. HURT has 4 letters but so does HEAL. Transform every negative energy into an aura of positivity. Its our perception that makes the difference in the way we feel.
Well my sweet precious son, Mom needs to get going as I need to be leaving in about 15 minutes & I need to do a couple things before I head out. Please be with Mom & watch over us all. Thank you so much. Mom hopes that later tonight I get to see the stars & moon shining as it seems like it has been forever since I have seen anything shining in the sky. Hope that your evening is everything you would like it to be & so much more. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You, Tyler, are Mom's shining star. Be listening out for my voice tonight when I whisper to you. Smile & Mom will smile to you as I always do. Come visit me in my dreams if you get the chance. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams later tonight.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, November 20, 2017
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