Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom wanted to write to you now because I am not feeling that well today. Mom stayed up last night or should I say this morning waiting for Mark to get home. He was supposed to be home by 10 pm & he never got home until almost 1 am. The dogs took a while to settle down & we were both up again at 7 am feeding them & starting the day. I am so exhausted that I am having a very hard time staying awake right now. I wanted to write to you & then Mom is going to go lay down on the couch & probably take a nap. Hopefully after that I will feel a little better. I did get up this morning, got ready, walked the pups, did laundry & gathered up the trash for tomorrow. The weekend should be relaxing. We have things to do on Saturday but Sunday will will be home. Not much else is going on. Last night was very quiet. Grandpa called but Mom was not in any mood to chat on the phone so I just let it ring. I will call him later tonight to see how he is doing. No one else called. Mom watch 3 movies last night while the pups slept right next to me. It was just relaxing. Mom had candles burning & the fireplace going. It was such a nice ambiance. I really enjoyed it. I will be doing to the same thing this evening I am sure. Just relaxing. Maybe a glass of wine to help me sleep tonight will do the trick too. I will touch base or try to touch base with everyone over the weekend. I can't believe that next week.... 6 days will be Thanksgiving. Now the weather has changed from being really crappy with sleet & snow to weather that will be cold & sunny. We are still just going to stay home. We will be traveling up there at Christmas & having people her for New Years so I think that being home for Thanksgiving will be for the best. This year will be the 6th Thanksgiving without you. Time doesn't make it easier at all. Mom misses you all the time & even more during this time of the year. I hope that you will send me a sign to let me know you are near me. I will be keeping my eyes open that is for sure. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Hopefully Mom will have some updates for you over the weekend but for now here is a saying for the day:
 Two things to remember in life. Take care of your thoughts when you are alone & take care of your words when you are with people. 
 That is such a smart saying. Wise words for sure. Mom likes that saying a lot. Before I write the prayers for the day, Mom just wanted to tell you that I hope your evening will be all that you need & want it to be. May you have the chance to visit me in my dreams as I sleep. Continue to watch over us all & continue to spread your wings & fly high & free. I will whisper to you later tonight as I light the candles & also when I am going to bed. I will smile when I am whispering to you & I hope you smile when you hear Mom's voice. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You, my sweet precious son are my shining star! Mom will be back tomorrow afternoon or evening to write you another letter but for now Mom is going to close this one so that I can go get some rest. 
 Here are your prayers:  May you speak life over your life, starting today. Speak to your mountains and tell them to move in Jesus’ Name! Speak to your fears and tell them that Jesus’ love is perfect is greater still. Speak to your soul and remind yourself that God is always good. Speak to any obstacle that blocks your view of the Son and His radiance, and tell it to be tossed into the sea! May your faith combined with God’s goodness move you to a place of grace and peace. And every which way you turn, may you see evidence that God is at work an involved in your life. 
As we tip-toe into the holiday season, may you do so with a heart at rest and with the full assurance that God is with you. He delights in every detail of your life. May you refuse the holiday-rat-race, and instead, embrace the sacred race. Say a firm no to over-indulgence, over-spending, over-commitment, and over-thinking details that in the end, won’t matter that much. Stay present with the ones you love. Get some exercise. Read a good book. Serve the less fortunate. And remember why Jesus came: to seek and save the lost, to destroy the works of the devil, and to work wonders in and through us. Trust His process. Trust His timing. Trust His very real love for you. May this, for you, be a sacred holiday season. Have a blessed weekend.
 Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. I love you with all my heart.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!