Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday evening? Mom has had a pretty good day so far. It really has flown by that is for sure. It is already going on 4 pm & the sun will be setting in a matter of minutes. Mom wanted to write to you before I get started on the night routine stuff. Mom was up early this morning feeding the pups & getting things ready for the day. I got ready, took the pups for a walk & then made breakfast. This afternoon was a pretty mellow one. Mom was able to do a little more xmas shopping on line & then I tried to do a little bit of studying. Mark is going to look it over to see if I am understanding what my instructor wants. In about an hour Mom will be making dinner, feeding the pups & then relaxing for the night.That will pretty much consist of cuddling in a blanket, having hot coca & watching a movie & then to bed so that we get sleep & get ready for Tuesday morning! Today has been very quiet on the phones. No one called at all. I am hoping that tonight will be just as quiet...lol. Mom got the chance to speak to Aunt Donna yesterday. We chatted for about 2 hours. It was really nice to catch up with her as it has been several months since we spoke. she is doing okay. She is having a lot of health issues & Mom is scared from what she told me. Please watch over her. Thank you. Mom also spoke to Meme & Grandpa. Grandpa is finally feeling better & sounds better as well. He is hoping to return back to work this week. He is having a bit of cabin fever because of having to be home for 3 weeks. Mom told him now he knows what I go through & I have been doing it for 6 years almost. Debbie is still sick but it will take her longer as she is trying to work still. I hope she gets to be able to rest when she can. She needs to as she will take longer to get over the cold & cough. Mark is crazy busy back at work. They have him scheduled so much. Mom is doing the best she can to have a better attitude about his work. I am doing well I think & we are getting along better now. That is always a plus. Mom is still trucking along with this class. I am trying so hard but I am not doing that great in it. Just a tough one for me but I will get there. I will move forward. I know you are helping me along the way & Mom appreciates it so much. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately regarding school & I am leaning towards changing my major but I am not sure I can do that with the college. I need to look into it more. You know already what I would like to do. If it is what I am suppose to do could you give me direction or signs to help me out? I could sure use some guidance. Thank you my sweet precious son. Not much else took place between last night & today. I am sure there will be more to write to you as the week moves a long. Here is the prayer for the day though:
  May you refuse condemnation for the ways you fail and fall short of God's best for you. May you, instead, embrace holy conviction to walk like Christ and to fully enjoy your journey with Him. May you shake off your regrets and grab a firm hold of God's promise to forgive, restore, and renew your story. May others' opinions no longer tie you up in knots because God's opinion continually sets you free! May you determine-with all your heart-to live the abundant, powerful, forgiven life Jesus has offered you. Have a blessed day today!
 Here is a saying for the day as well: 
 F.E.A.R. has two meanings---- Forget Everything And Run OR Face Everything And Rise~ The choice is yours!
 Short & sweet but right to the point. Decisions are tough but with help & guidance every one will do what is best for them. That is exactly what Mom is learning. 
 Well, Tyler, Mom needs to get going so that I can finish up doing a couple of things. Also, Mom is doing laundry & needs to tend to that as well. The night sky is now almost upon us. The sky looks clear so perhaps I might see some stars & the moon later. I will whisper to you as I always do every night. Smile & Mom will smile too. I miss you & love you to the moon & back. You will always be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will be in my heart, mind, body & soul. You still are my everything & my bright shining star. Mom hopes your evening will bring you peace, love & happiness. Have fun while I sleep & come visit in my dreams if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. Mom wanted to thank everyone in the United States, France, Germany, Poland, Greece & Ukraine for the continued support of reading my letters to Tyler daily. It means the world to me & I hope that I can help others out along the way that may be grieving too. Many blessings to all xoxo.