Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday morning? Mom is doing okay. The weather today is very sunny, cool & windy as heck! I will take it though. Mom was up early this morning. I got things ready for Mark to head to his office, made coffee, fed the pups, got ready & just took the pups for their morning walk. Now Mom is writing to you because in about an hour I have to get going to my nail appointment & run errands afterwards. I know I will be getting home on the later side & by the time I do get home I will have to start prepping dinner & getting the night routine started. If I didn't write now I knew I wouldn't & Mom really didn't want that so here I am writing to you at 10:15 am! 
 Last night was again a very quiet evening. Mom made dinner, did dishes & watched a bit of TV before heading to bed. I did feel bad as I was suppose to call my friend around 4 pm & the time got the best of me & I truly forgot. I was busy & remembered at almost 9 pm last night when I received a message from her saying she was home & I could call. That message was sent at 5 pm. I sent her a message back telling her I was sorry & that time escaped Mom. She said it was fine but she was disappointed. I understand that she was disappointed but dang.... sometimes Mom feels like people put pressure on me. I am always the one who picks up the phone to call everyone. Other than Meme & Grandpa no know else really does. It gets tiring that I am always the one to have to do it if I want to know how someone is & if I forget then they make me feel guilty & shame me for not calling them. This has been happening a lot lately for the last several months this year & now is the time that Mom is going to have to put her foot down & say no. I am not going to be the only one to do this all the time. If someone wants to talk to me then they can pick up the phone & call me for a change. I am kind of done with all that BS. The road, the phone & everything else works both ways. It is about time others start using it. Mom is busy during the day & most evenings just like everyone else. I just don't find it fair at all. Mom has been really thinking about a lot of things lately.... ways to improve my own life, my life with Mark & what things will make me happy. I am sorry if people don't like the " new " me but I have to live my life as no one else will do it for me. I know that you would understand & you would tell Mom that it is about time. You told me to do this very thing for so many years. I just wish I would have listened to you sooner. I hope that you are smiling down on me & saying " Way to go Mom. " Times like these & every other time Mom misses you so much! I miss everything & this time of the year it is worse. Mom was chatting with a facebook friend yesterday & we were discussing depression. She suffers from it & also anxiety. She seems to never catch a break & it seems that something is always going wrong for her. I told her I have been there & have been in her shoes. It is not an easy road to travel but she would get through it. She is strong even if she doesn't believe it herself. Mom is hoping that she gets through all this mess that is going on with her. She is a sweet person. I don't want to see anything happen to her. 
 Not much for updates for you. I did chat with Meme yesterday & will again on Thursday. I will touch base with Grandpa then too. He usually calls a few times a week but he has been staying away from the phone since he has been sick. He has a strong cough medicine that makes him sleep a lot which is a good thing. I will contact him tonight to just check in. I will let you know how he is doing on tomorrows letter. That is all I have but here are the prayers for the day:
  May you begin to see your setbacks as temporary, your delays as detours, and your heartbreaks as opportunities to experience God's precious, powerful healing. And in the meantime, may God give you glimpses of glory, insights into His good plan for you. Be assured that God has never left your side; He’ll never let you go. May God help you see with supernatural insight so that you won't be deceived by the enemy of your soul, or by your past painful filters, or by your fears of the future. In fact, right here--in this place--may your divine perspective hugely inspire your faith steps. You are mighty in God and He is mighty in you.
  May Jesus speak a specific word of wisdom to your heart tonight. May He show you what to say, how to pray, and how to rest in Him while you wait for your faith to become sight. He’s made joy available to you, grace to abound in you, and peace to surround you and rule within you. Truly, you have all that you need even while you wait for Him to tend to the longings of your heart. May you feel as rich as you are. And may His regal heart beat loudly in your chest so you will carry yourself like the heir you are. Have a blessed, restful night.
 Here is a saying for the day as well:  HATE has 4 letters, but so does LOVE. ENEMIES has 7 letters but so does FRIENDS. LYING has 5 letters but so does TRUTH. HURT has 4 letters but so does HEAL. Transform every negative energy into an aura of positivity. Its our perception that makes the difference in the way we feel. 
 Well my sweet precious son, Mom needs to get going as I need to be leaving in about 15 minutes & I need to do a couple things before I head out. Please be with Mom & watch over us all. Thank you so much. Mom hopes that later tonight I get to see the stars & moon shining as it seems like it has been forever since I have seen anything shining in the sky. Hope that your evening is everything you would like it to be & so much more. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You, Tyler, are Mom's shining star. Be listening out for my voice tonight when I whisper to you. Smile & Mom will smile to you as I always do. Come visit me in my dreams if you get the chance. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... good night & sweet dreams later tonight.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!