Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing well today. I was up early this morning so that I could do all the morning stuff & let Mark sleep in as he is working tonight. The weather was suppose to be raining all day but this morning the sun came out for a brief moment & that was such a wonderful surprise. Now the weather is back to being gloomy, dark & indeed it is raining again. Mom got right up, got ready & then took the pups for a nice walk before the rain came. After that I made some breakfast for myself & then maintenance stopped by the apartment so that they could fix the microwave handle that was broken, fix the toilet in the master bathroom & changed a light bulb in our track lighting. He was here for about 30 minutes & the pups barked the whole time. Now Mom is fighting a dang headache because of it. I decided to just chill out, write to you & then I will be going in the living room to relax the rest of the afternoon & evening. Mom will be staying up until Mark gets home unless it is after 11 pm then I will be going to bed. Getting up earlier so that I can enjoy the daylight hours has my butt wanting to go to bed by 8:30 pm now but I push myself to stay up until about 9:30 pm & then head to bed. Tonight Mom plans on feeding the pups, making dinner for myself & then I will be cuddling on the couch watching a movie.... one that Mark wouldn't watch so that is a great time to watch it while he is working.Tomorrow the plan is to definitely get back on track & study all day long. The weather over the weekend is suppose to be raining so Mom may just study over the weekend as well as we will not be going anywhere. 
 So much sadness around my friends that I have right now. Auntie Kristi lost a friend yesterday to suicide & another friend of mine lost her friend as well to suicide. It is that time of the year where depression sets in more & it sometimes is very hard for some to get out of it so they feel that suicide is the only way. I sure wish that everyone would see that there are tough situations that they get handed but in time things do get better. Breaks my heart that people feel that is the only way out. Another friend of Mom's 2 grandbabies are both in the hospital & very sick. The boy is 6 & the girl is almost a year old. Not sure what is going on with them but I do hope & pray that they get better. Mom prays every morning & every night for our family, friends, pets & even people she doesn't even know. I truly do believe in the power of prayer. Mom will keep you updated on them when I have more info. Spoke to Grandpa last night. He is still feeling yucky. this is the 2nd week. I hope he starts to feel better soon. Debbie is doing better now. That is good. Meme & Bob are well. Everyone is a little bummed that we will not be there for Thanksgiving next week but they do understand. I wish things could be different but we will be there for Christmas which will be good. I will be trying to touch base with Aunt Beck later today to say hello as well. I will write to you about that on tomorrows letter. That is about all Mom has for today for you. Here is a saying for the day though:
 Hey, you're important, you matter, you are enough, you're beautiful, you are loved, you're capable, you are needed, you aren't alone, you are cared about, you're kind & so much more!
 Here is another one: " Ask for what you want & be prepared to get it! "
 The rain is coming down now & heavy. Mom can hear it over me typing to you. It is so dark outside as well. I have to have a light on already & it is only 1:22 pm. This is crazy. Mom lit a candle earlier. I whispered to you & as I looked up I saw that it was 12:12 pm. I smiled & whispered to you again. Thanks for the sign my sweet precious son. Keep them coming for Mom. I love getting them. I will whisper to you again later this evening when Mom goes to bed. Be listening out for my voice & smile for me. I will close my eyes & imagine your sweet face & smile that I miss so very much. I miss you like crazy. More than words can ever express to you. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever be in my heart, mind, body & soul. Before Mom closes this letter to you for the day I wanted to write the prayers so here they are:
 May you determine to travel lighter starting now. May you—with your God-given authority in Christ—demand that the enemy shut his mouth and leave you alone. May you discern the baggage of man-made obligations and lay them down. May you decide to fling aside your own self-condemning thoughts and wrap yourself up in God’s beautiful grace and righteousness instead. And, may you march on from here, full of faith, empowered by grace, and awakened by God’s love, and walk as one who’s been spoken for by God above. May your latter days be far more blessed than your former days. Jesus is always up to something new. Bless you!
  If you’re in a season of hardship and life feels like an uphill climb, may you stay the course until Jesus tells you otherwise. May you determine NOT to make any rash decisions that you’ll later regret. May you instead, fix your eyes on Jesus, and take your cues from Him. May you trust Jesus to carry your burden so you can hold fast to His promises. May you exhale frustration and inhale God’s peace and provision. This season will pass. And you’ll come through it with strength, clarity, and conviction. Don’t take the enemy’s bait. Follow the Savior’s lead. You’ll be glad you did. Blessings on your night tonight!
 Mom will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you so until then....hope your evening will be what you need & want it to be. Visit Mom in my dreams tonight. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you, Tyler. You are my shining star! I love you. Good night & sweet dreams. Fly free pumpkin!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!