Dear Tyler, 

Hi pumpkin! How are you on this Sunday evening? Mom is going to apologize to you right now because this letter is not going to be long at all. It is going on 9:30 pm and Mom is pretty tired tonight plus I am not feeling the greatest right. I am not sure if it was the dinner I ate or if I was in the sun too long. I wanted to write to you even if it was a short letter instead of nothing at all. Mom will write to you in the morning tomorrow to fill you in on the day that I had today. 
 Today is May 31st...  the last day of the month. Kind of hard to believe it. Tomorrow is a new month. It's the month I hate. I wish I could skip over it 😢 Again, I will go into detail about it tomorrow.
 Mom is going to try and go to bed now. All the renters here are loud and keep us up all hours of the night.....ugh! Have to get the sleep when we can. 
 I lit your Jack warmer this evening so I hope you saw that. I will whisper to you in just a few minutes so smile for me and I will smile to you. I miss you so much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow so until then.. good night and sweet dreams. Have fun while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Please continue to watch over us, Ty. Thank you. Fly high and free.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🤍

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday evening? Mom is writing to you super late. .it is 9 pm right now. We are having another really bad thunder and lightning storm. This makes 9 nights straight with them. I think the next 3 days we won't be having any rain and that will be super nice for a change. The rain is getting pretty old for us all. 
 Mom is writing to you on her cell phone because I am not going to turn my computer on with this weather. Grandpa called around 8 pm and I got off the phone with him because if the lightning. I told him that I would call him tomorrow. Things are good there though. He said they were getting rain as well. Debbie's Aunt passed away either yesterday or this morning. She lost her battle with cancer. I don't know her name but Mom is praying for their whole family. May her Aunt R.I.P for eternal life now. 
 Today was a busy day. Mom did a few things around the house this morning and then Mark got his vehicle back this afternoon. Mom's vehicle went in. I will get it back in a couple days. I need my AC charged. That's it. Easy fix and not much money. Unfortunately when we picked up Mark's... we noticed that his AC is not working either so once again when Mom gets hers back, Mark's is going back in.... Mom us getting tired of this as well. We are spending so much money on this vehicle of his.....Anyways the afternoon was spent vacuuming and cleaning the pool. Mom went in for a brief moment to cool off. I was inside at 4 pm to make dinner for everyone. We ate and then Mom cleaned up and we watched a movie. That got over at 8 pm. Tomorrow we are headed out for a couple hours during the day and then we will come home and hang out by the pool for a couple hours. 
 The rain has calmed down now. No more thunder so that's good. Mom is tired and thinks I am going to go to bed. The morning comes early. I had your burner on so I hope you saw it tonight. I will whisper to you later tonight. Smile for me and I will smile to you. I will write to you tomorrow. Have fun tonight while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. I miss you more than words. 
 Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams my sweet precious son. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💙

PS. Today, this afternoon, history was made. Space X launched it's shuttle in space. 2 astronauts went up. We watched it on TV but I bet you were watching from where you are and you had the best seat! You loved things like this! 

Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday late afternoon? Mom is doing ok today. I have been up since 6:30 am and on the go since! The pups were fed at their usual time, walked and then Mom had coffee all set. I did lounged downstairs while Meme went to the post office. I got a couple packages so I opened them up and then came right upstairs to put things away and then start on my business. I made several emails and awaiting responses back. Took a couple calls and then I have been scouting around looking for the last couple things to add to my box and I will be finished. I will just have to wait to get the boxes and put them together. I have to still get some candles and tissue paper but that is it. Things are looking good. Tomorrow I will be working on calling the company that will be handling my business. I will also be writing up the descriptions of the items to get that going as well. we had to go out and purchase a new wireless system last night due to the wifi dropping constantly. It was dang expensive that is for sure! It came in today so Mark will be hooking it up right after we eat dinner tonight. 
 The weather is pretty nasty here again. It is so dark outside. It is thundering and lightning out as well. It has been now for a couple hours. Princess is shaking like crazy and Ozzy is just hanging out with me in my office. He is in his bed, sleeping. Mom has already prepped dinner for tonight so all we have to do is go downstairs and eat. It will be super helpful to Mom as it is already 4:45 pm. The pups stuff is also all set. Just need to add water and they are done too. It is nice to be ahead of the game for a change. 
 Today has not been a good day for Meme at all. This morning she was saying something to Bob.....They started arguing and he got in her face and starting yelling. I was right there and almost stood up to tell him to chill the hell out. I know he has not been sleeping at all at night and he is getting up at 9 am the last 3 mornings but he needs to knock the crap off. Mom is not dealing with his sh*t anymore. He is going to be treated the way he treats us. He doesn't like it then he knows where the door is. Mom was prepping dinner around 3:30 pm. He must have thought I was Meme making their dinner. He came into the kitchen and then left. He sat downstairs for a few minutes. Meme came down and we were talking. She was eating her dinner already and Bob walked in. He looked at her like " where is my dinner?".... Meme told him to fend for himself so he opened up the refrigerator and got a jello out. He ate that and then went back upstairs when he knew she was not making any dinner. This is the stuff we deal with every day. Not one day gets better either. It is worse. He thinks that Meme is going to wait on him hand and foot. I was proud of her for what she did tonight. She never gets a thank you at all from him. It is sad but I am glad that she has smartened up! She needs to just take care of herself because she is not looking healthy in my eyes. She is always tired and she has gained a lot of weight. I don't say much to her about it because I know it is a touchy subject but I am observing without saying a word. 
 Holy thunder now...lol. Mom loves it but the pups are now super scared...even Ozzy! Guess this letter to you will be shorter than I thought. It still hasn't started to rain yet but when it does it will be heavy like yesterday. The weather is supposed to be this way until next Tuesday. Crappy weekend again with no sun. Ugh... it is depressing for sure. Mom needs her Vitamin C...lol. Don't think that the pups will be going for a walk after dinner. they will be so scared to even step outside....poor things. These guys are the first set that are scared of all weather except sunshine. Max and Snickers didn't care about the rain, thunder or lightning. They were easy guys to take care of. Mom misses them and all of the pups we have had. I know they are with you and you are watching them and making sure they are happy. Thank you for that. I know you are watching over us as well. You are keeping us safe and healthy. Mom thanks you for that too. 
 Here comes the rain now and the storm is getting pretty bad. I think Mom needs to shut things done for now. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you and I will make sure to do it earlier in the morning. I will light your candle later and whisper to you before I go to bed. Have fun while we all sleep tonight. Come visit if you can in my dreams. I miss you beyond words. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Until tomorrow comes my sweet precious son...good night and sweet dreams later.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💕 

Dear Tyler, 

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday night? Mom is sorry that I won't be able to write a long letter to you this evening but I at least wanted to write something instead of missing it altogether. The weather is really crappy tonight. We have had severe thunderstorms all day. Lots of thunder and lightning along with heavy rain and wind. We just got done another one and the pups are still shaky. Meme and Mom got caught in one this afternoon. Mom was driving and I couldn't see anything at all. I had to pull over in a store parking lot. It was crazy. Mene was super scared but Mom stayed calm for her. It is 8 pm already and I am exhausted. It will be an early night for sure. Mom will definitely write to you early tomorrow providing that I have good wifi signal. These last few days have been awful. Hardly any time on the computer due to no signal. We have some new extenders coming so we are hoping it helps a great deal! Mom will keep you updated. I hope that you have fun tonight while I am sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you my sweet precious son. Your candle 🕯 is lit for the evening and Mom will whisper to you later this evening. Smile for me and I will smile to you. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will be back tomorrow afternoon. I miss you so much. More than words can say. Until tomorrow comes... good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💞

Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday late afternoon? Mom is exhausted and her hip is still really hurting her a lot. I am still not sure exactly what I did but it really really hurts. Mom can't even get in the tub to soak because the tub is so high. I plan on using some of the african botanical crème on it tonight to see if that helps me out. I sure hope so as it is hard to sit down and walk let along to find a position to lay down comfortably. wish me luck on that! 
 Last night was so super quiet. meme and Bob went to their rooms at 5:45 pm, Mom went to her room as well to sit up and try to get comfortable. I watched tv until 10 pm and then called it a night. Mark went to his office at 6 pm and stayed in there playing video games until almost 2 am. I couldn't believe it. Not once to he even ask how I was feeling or doing. No surprise there though as he never does. Ozzy was good for me but Princess was another story. She wanted to be with Mark and she kept scratching at the door. Finally around 12 midnight I let her out so that I could get some sleep. Today has been quiet as well. There has been very little talk between any of us. Mark has been on the phone all day, Bob is on his computer, Meme has done her own thing and Mom has been trying to do things but I just can't concentrate at all. I did go and have my nails done today. I left at 9:15 am and got home at 12 noon. I made something to eat and I have been in my office ever since. It is now 4:20 pm. Meme is cooking dinner tonight. She has already started. I guess it is fend for yourself tonight and I am very ok with that. I think tonight really will be a repeat of last night. I am fine with that too. I will stay downstairs though instead of upstairs so that I can walk the pups after they eat tonight and also around 9 pm. Then I will come upstairs to get ready for bed. I think I will be making it a very early night indeed. Tomorrow I would really like to focus on getting things set for my box. I keep talking about it but I have done nothing to get it going. I really need to. Tomorrow will be a very productive day for Mom. I can feel it along with the rest of the week. 
 The sun is shining once again. We got rain all day yesterday and rain this morning. I know we have it where it may rain off and on for the rest of the week and over the weekend as well. It is super hot and muggy too. That part is not cool but yet it is June and it will be this way here until September. 4 more months and I get to see Grandpa. I can't wait. I miss him so much! I hope everything is fine for them to fly. Numbers are still on the rise along with the death count for the Covid 19 virus. It still is scary out there. Everything is almost all opened up. They have limited numbers if you go into retail stores though. For the most part people are going by protocol but some just don't care at all! Mom is doing all she can still. I will continue too. I don't want to get it and I don't want anyone in this house to either. I know you are watching over us and making sure we are all safe. that you my sweet precious son. It means so much to Mom. I wish you were here though. I miss you more than words can say. I love you to infinity. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will light a candle for you tonight and I will whisper to you tonight. I didn't last night because I was so tired. Please forgive me for that. Smile when you hear Mom and I will smile back to you. Have fun while Mom is sleeping. If you can, come visit me in my dreams. Thank you! I will write to you again tomorrow afternoon when I take a break from all my work. For now, Mom needs to start the night routine stuff. Feed the pups, walk them and then make dinner for Mark and I or perhaps just myself...who knows. Until tomorrow comes.....good night and sweet dreams later. I love you with all my heart and soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💕

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is not having the best of days at all I am afraid. This morning started it all. Up at 7 am like usual to feed the pups. Mom forgot to get something in the bedroom and I was holding Ozzy. He was not liking it and jumped out of my arms. Went back to the hallway to pick him back up to go down the stairs and I got all the way down and he started wiggling so bad that I had a hard time controlling him and I wrenched my shoulder at the same time...to say the least I ended up throwing him on the floor. Not from a tall distance....it sounds worse then it was but automatically Mark starts yelling at me telling me I can't do that to him (like I did it on purpose 😢) He didn't even bother to ask what happened and to why it happened, he just assumed I just did it...ugh! Mom fed the pups and then started to get them chained up to go outside. Mark just did his own thing and thought of himself as usual. Mom ended up walking them by myself. They didn't stay out long as it was raining. Mom came in, picked Princess up and then Ozzy and went upstairs. I made the bed and then was going to get ready right off but decided to go to my office and do a bit of tidying up. I finished that at 10 am, took a shower and then headed downstairs to get something to eat. I have been in my office ever since. everyone is pretty quiet. Meme is downstairs, Mark has been playing video games all day long...shocker and Bob is wherever. Both pups are sleeping and it has still been raining all day long. really windy and heavy rain too. No thunder or lightning which is great! Guess it is suppose to rain all day, night, all day tomorrow and Wednesday as well. The rest of the week will have 50% chance of thunderstorms and rain too. Not a great weather week at all. Mark isn't talking to Mom at all which is fine by me. I am so sick and tired that everyone can be in a bad mood or they can be hurt and that is okay but when I do or I am... I can't. He doesn't tolerate it at all. My answer to that was touche … tough sh*t! He is getting a dose of his own medicine as far as I am concerned. I am not apologizing for a dang thing. Mom is just really tired of everyone right now. I have absolutely no tolerance for Bob at this point. He does nothing at all, doesn't listen if you talk to him or tell him something and he acts like a 2 year old. Mom doesn't talk to him anymore because quite frankly after yesterday I have no desire to and I don't want to. I know that may sound mean to anyone who is reading this but it really is not. I have lived almost 8 months with this kind of behavior and most wouldn't have dealt with it past 2 months. I have tried and failed because of him not wanting to or caring to help. Meme is pretty much done as well. She doesn't interact with him anymore then she has too and that is basically just breakfast, lunch and dinner. Other than that she doesn't get near him. Mark has tried on several occasions and has finally given up as well. He tries the hardest still with no effort on Bob's part. I tried telling him to stop but he wouldn't. I did admire his persistence but no more....lol. Mark doesn't either apparently! I don't know what to do anymore. Mom is not happy at all. She never gets to do what she wants to, I am sick of cleaning up after 3 adults and 2 dogs plus myself. I am tired a lot of the time and I am just stressed out. None of which is good at all for me or anyone for that matter. I voice how I feel and nothing changes. I have come to realize that I am just going to stay away from everyone. I will work on my subscription box business, my school, the pups and that is it. Everyone else can fend for themselves. It is time they all see just how much I really do around this house and for all of them. I hate feeling this way but honestly I do not know what to do anymore. Meme said that since I turned 49 2 weeks ago, I am mean... no I am not mean! I am just not letting people walk all over me or I am not taking anyone's sh*t anymore. It is a side that no one has really seen from me so they just think I am being mean and bitchy. I really don't care anymore. I really don't. I know you don't like seeing Mom this way, Tyler but I have tried. I really have. I am feeling defeated and lost right now. I feel like I don't belong here in this house or with Mark, Meme and the pups. This whole living arrangement was out of the kindest of Mark and Mom's heart but it just is not working out. It hasn't from week 1. Meme agrees but she does nothing about it. Mark and Mom's marriage is not even a marriage at all. It sucks. I try but he doesn't so I have lost the desire to try anymore. Ugh.... Enough of this. I just can't anymore. You see Mom. You see how I am and how I am feeling. I am sorry for this though.
 Today is May 25th. The last Monday in May. It is Memorial Day. A somber day for many. Mom will be posting a few pictures on here today in memory of all that served for our country. Many people think today is a day where they get a 3-4 day weekend and it is about grilling, drinking and having fun when that is not what it is about at all. We can and get to do all those things is because of the ones that fought for us, served our country and died so that we have the freedom that we do still have today. Mom sends a prayer to everyone and their families today and every day. 
 In 6 days it will be June. The month that I dread every year. It is the worst month every calendar year. This year will be no exception. Mom will get through it the best that I can though...just like I always do. Bare with me during the new month ahead. Please send me extra signs to let me know you are near me. Thank you my sweet angel son. I miss you so much. I wish we could sit and have a conversation. I miss you face and your voice. I love you more than anything. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are and always will be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will light a candle for you later tonight. I will whisper to you before I go to bed too. Smile for me and I will smile to you. 
 I think tonight will be fairly quiet. I don't plan on going downstairs at all other than to feed the pups at 5 pm and to take them out for their walk. I will spend the evening in the bedroom and cuddling up, watching tv. Mom is pretty tired so I know I will be going to bed early. My shoulder is doing better but I think I hurt my right hip as it is hard to sit in one position for long. I keep getting sharp pains as well. The joys of getting older...lol. I am sure I will feel better in the morning. Mom will write to you in the afternoon as I have a nail appointment in the morning. I hope you get to have fun while I am sleeping tonight. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you my sweet precious son. 
 Mom is going to get going. It is still early in the day...2:46 pm but Mom is going to just sit in her chair and hopes that it will help my hip. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams later. I love you, pumpkin!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💕