Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom has been straight out all day long and it is now 4:35 pm and I need to write your letter and then get dinner going for us all plus feed the pups and get them settled. Yesterday was an okay day but by 5 pm it turned into a sh*t show again. Mom received a phone call that left me so angry, upset, hurt, frustrated, etc... that I didn't even want dinner at all. I was too angry to eat and completely lost my appetite. mark was as well. Mom and mark try so hard to see the good in everyone and treat them like we want to be tried. We give everyone the benefit of the doubt and in the end we get sh*t on. I don't need to go into any detail as I know you know what happened and you saw everything. Right now there is so much going on all at once again....the Covid-19 is still on the rise and going really strong. Hundreds of new cases daily and the death toll is horrid, now this crap we are dealing with, Ozzy is still not doing the greatest but we are trying and then we got new info on Mark and his job. Everything that was said yet again by his employer was BS and I am feeling so overwhelmed right now so I can imagine what Mark is feeling yet again. What is happening is that the company furloughed 60 employees and left at least a dozen go. They stated that if they got the PPP loan then everything would be back to normal again. Everyone would get their jobs back but would have to take a 15% cut in pay weekly until things picked up. Well they stayed true to their word and brought everyone back and cut their pay weekly but what they didn't bother to tell them that with returning that if they did not have any work and they were not billing hours that after 6 weeks they will be let go again for good this time. Everyone went back as of last Monday so this week is week number 2. Mark has no work and he contacted his boss and he said that there was nothing for him and that there was nothing upcoming either. This is not good news for Mark. Mom is trying to stay positive but I am losing this battle of positivity right now. Mark has been helping the rest of his team that has work and they get to bill the hours not Mark. Example... last night after having a crappy evening, Mom and Mark took the pups for a night walk and then decided that we would watch TV for a bit before going to bed. We shut the TV off around 10:30 pm and got settled. 5 minutes later his cell phone rings and it was a guy, Kyle that is on his team for work. He must have been doing a cutover and said that everything was good but he needed help with one last thing. Mark told him he needed to turn on his equipment and he would help. That was at 10:45 pm and that one thing went until 1:30 am. That whole time with him helping this guy, he couldn't even bill those hours. It was Kyle's job and Mark was the helper. I was so angry yet again this morning. They are just going to use Mark again as much as they can and then let him go for a second time. Mark has stopped looking for a job because he believed that being called back was for good this time. Mom is trying to deal with everything else that is going on so that he doesn't have to and all he needs to do is concentrate on looking for work. I think that this is pretty sh*tty on his employers part and at some point they will regret their decision and karma will get them back. What really makes me angry about this whole thing is that this PPP Loan doesn't have to be paid back and after the 6 weeks, whoever they let go they can keep all the money still and not get a penalized for anything. It is a win win on their end for sure. These guys are not hurting for any kind of money at all. They all are multi-millionaires. Mom has been and will continue to pray for these doors closing and something better to open for Mark and Mom. Anything you can do to help us that would be greatly appreciated. Thank you, pumpkin.
 Today, Mom was up at 6 am after only getting 4 hours of sleep and the pups were fed, walks were done, coffee was made and then Mom relaxed for a bit while Meme took Bob to the doctors again. Mom decided to come upstairs and start a few projects that she wanted to do. I reorganized my office a bit and then I had a visitor. I went downstairs and chatted for a bit with him and then returned to my office. I stated back up again and then the delivery for food was here. I took care of that, made phone calls and sent emails out before it was time to pay the weekly bills on line and then get Oz his medicine. After all that was finished I was able to take a shower and get ready. I took the pups for a nice little walk but it is really hot outside so it wasn't long. Now the pups are sleeping, Mark is still working, Meme is doing whatever and Bob is doing nothing while I finish this letter to you. It is after 5 pm now and the pups will be wanting to get fed so I have to be running in a couple minutes. Mom is hoping for a more relaxing evening tonight and I know that going to bed is definitely going to come early for Mark and I. we are both exhausted. I will light a candle for you in a little bit and then whisper to you before I fall asleep tonight. Be sure to smile for me when you hear my voice and I will smile back to you. Please continue to watch over us all as I know you do. Thank you my sweet precious son. Have fun while I sleep. I am sure you have a ton of things that you have to do first with everything going on in this world. I am proud of you. Always have been and always will. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter so until then and tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams later. I miss you, Ty.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤