Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Well today is the day.... it is May 15th and it is Mom's Birthday! It is 4:17 pm and Mom was officially born at 1:02 pm 49 years ago. Wow, right???? Mom wishes you were here so that we could celebrate it but I know you are going to send me a sign letting me know that you are around. If you have sent one already and I didn't see it, I am sorry. The day was suppose to be all about being fun and light hearted but it has been nothing of that unfortunately. 
 The morning started out great. I got greeted with puppy kisses from Princess and Ozzy and a Happy Birthday from Mark. We fed the pups, walked them and coffee was made as usual. Mom and Mark were chatting in the sitting room and Meme was heading out the door to go to the post office. She came back in really angry. She said her car wouldn't start. She called the sales guy who sold it to her and starting yelling at him. This was 8:30 am and he wasn't even at his office, he was home. I felt bad for him. She was getting more angry by the minute. I told her to calm down and relax. Let him call back when he said that he would. I went upstairs to get ready as the AC guy was due to fix the unit between 9 am -1 pm. The sales guy showed up at the house and confirmed that her battery was dead and she needed a new one. He told her though that he didn't appreciate the way she spoke to him and her tone making it seem like it was all his fault. Good for the guy as she needed to hear that. It was wrong of her. Anyways... the AC guy got here at 10:30 am or so. Mark was still gone and Meme got the door while I was watching the dogs. He went upstairs to the AC unit (it sits at the top of the stairs) She hollered up to him to see if there needed to be a towel or something so that the carpet didn't get messy. She did not say it in a nice way at all and it was so embarrassing. I will spare the details on here. She came into where I was in the kitchen and got a bag. I politely told her that she could not speak that way down here. That was disrespectful and rude. She got so angry at Mom she started yelling at me and throwing the f bomb every other word. She was standing at the foot of the stairs when I told her I was not going to stand or tolerate what she was saying to me or in front of this service guy. Mom said that if she didn't like it that there was the door and she could leave. I meant it. her being so mean and rude needs to stop...period! She does it all the time. She is not up North anymore. People in the South don't tolerate being spoken to in that way. She says it to the wrong person and she will be sorry. She did apologize to the guy but not to me. She went to her room and slammed her door. A temper tantrum yet again. Mark got home and asked me what he walked into.... I told him everything and he just shook his head in disgust. He said he was sorry that she spoke to me in that way and especially on my Birthday. He said...what parent speaks to their own child that way and ruins their special day???? I had nothing to say... I didn't have an answer. I was embarrassed and mortified by her behavior. I didn't even see the guy leave. Mark suggested and asked me to try and talk to her. She wouldn't open her door and she told me she had nothing to say to me and tried turning everything on me, making me the bad person. Nope... that is not going to happen! I didn't say or do anything wrong. She continued to be rude to me. Guess it is going to be a very quiet weekend with just Mark and I. Tonight was suppose to be a fun evening with take out for dinner, ice cream and a movie for us all but not anymore. It will be all that but just for 2. Later tonight I think I will end my day with a hot bubble bath. This weekend will be all about sitting by the pool and soaking up the sun and swimming and grilling. It is going to be hot hot hot hot …. middle 90's. To say the least, Meme ruined my day for sure. I am trying not to have it ruined because Mark is trying so hard to make it special but I can't help but hear what Meme kept saying. I wish you were here. I could really use a chat with you. Mom needs to hear your voice so bad right now. I miss you beyond words. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will forever be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. 
 Oh yeah... before I forget, Mark got Mom a bunch of pink and white balloons, a couple Princess balloons, a dozen of long-stemmed pink roses, 2 cards and a neon pink castle cake. It was really thoughtful and sweet of him. We were suppose to go to the Magic Kingdom for my Birthday but because of the Covid 19 we couldn't so he brought a little of it to Mom. That made me smile, a lot! Mom wanted so much to have this as a special day with everything that is going on in this world right now but as you can tell that didn't happen. Mom has been sad most of the day. I have been on the phone too...Aunt Beck, Auntie Kristina called to wish me a Happy Birthday. That was sweet and so many on social media wished me one as well. I thanked them all personally. I feel loved by many and then not so loved right now. I will be okay though. Just will take time...that's all. 
 It is almost 5 pm. Mom needs to get going to feed the pups and give them a walk. Just ordered dinner so that is all set. I will light a candle for you tonight. I will whisper to you as I always do so smile to Mom and I will close my eyes and imagine it. I will smile back to you my sweet precious son. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.....please continue to keep us safe, healthy and happy. Fly high and free. I love you to infinity and back, Tyler. Oh how I miss you..... Good night and sweet dreams later tonight.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah ❤