Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Saturday afternoon? Mom is so sorry that I haven't been able to write to you in the last few days. The night of your Birthday, Mom made your favorite dinner...tacos and then had cake and ice cream to celebrate you and I guess something did not agree. I was fine, went to bed and slept until 3 am and then it hit me... Mom was so sick. I was up until 3 pm vomiting and then from 3 pm I was sleeping as I did not sleep much the 2 days prior. I was exhausted to say the least. I did sleep Thursday night for a bit but I was up again every hour. I stayed in bed the last 2 days/nights. I am feeling better now. I haven't ate anything in 2 days but I am staying hydrated as much as I can. I am still fighting a bit of a fever too but I needed to write to you briefly to explain where Mom has been. Tyler... it was horrible. I hate being sick to begin with and this was down right horrific.... even the pups were scared 😢 I kept everyone up including, Mark. I felt so bad. yesterday I forced myself to stay awake though so I could sleep last night. I did ok until about 4:30 am and then I was awake off and on. What a mess. Guess I may have celebrated a bit much with your favorites that night. Mom will not be doing that again anytime soon that is for sure! Today is the first day in my office in 3 days. I had bills to pay and boxes to get set up. Mom has sold 1/2 her boxes already in just a week! I am super excited with this but not really showing it all that much. Yesterday, Ty, Mom and Mark got a sucker punch to the stomach. Mom was watching tv in the bedroom and Mark came in. He was pale white. I thought he was going to pass out on me. He said he needed to sit down. I turned tv off and waited for him to tell me what was wrong. he said he just spoke to his boss and as of 5 pm (30 minutes from the call) he was no longer employed. They were getting rid of 20 employees and for reasons not known, Mark was one of them. He was in shock. Mom was in shock. We don't know what we are going to do now. He can collect unemployment but that will only cover our mortgage and not any of our other bills. Mom is scared and I know Mark is as well but he is not showing it at all. This is the 2nd time in 4 months but this time he is not going back. There is no furlough. This is... you are terminated. They sent him an email with shipping labels to get all the equipment back. In his line of work it takes months to get a new job....we don't have months for this at all. We have less than 1 month. We are heartbroken to what is going on. Mark is a hard worker and he busts his *ss for that company. He just got them a huge contract from Florida and this is the way they repay him. Life is so hard right now. It is harsh. The covid19 numbers are still skyrocketing, Mom being sick for the past 2 days, now this with Mark and we are in a hurricane warning for Sunday and Monday. This is too much and we are being tested for sure again. This is the 4th time in 8 years that Mark and Mom have have to deal with this stuff. If there is anything you can do to help us out...please please please help us, Tyler. We need it. Mom will be praying like crazy. Mark needs to find a job and fast. We are scared like I said before. I love you so much and I miss you. When we would talk Mom would feel stable and at peace no matter what was going on. You helped Mom stay strong. You were my guiding light and my strength. I miss that. I miss you terribly. I feel lost every day since you left but now I feel even more lost. I wonder if things will be ok? I wonder will all of us become homeless? If so what then? Too many questions that is for sure. I keep saying it but Mom is very scared, pumpkin. We need help and we need help fast 😢 Mom will keep you posted on everything as I know. Please be with us as much as you can. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live in my heart, mind, body and soul. I will try to write tomorrow but that depends on the weather. I will do my best. Mom needs to finish up a few things and then it will be time to lay down. My head is killing me and it is due to stress. I need to get better so that I can be strong for mark and support him in what is going on. I know you understand. I will light a candle later and whisper to you as well. Come visit Mom in my dreams if you can. Have fun while I sleep. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 💖